1 00:01:44,739 --> 00:01:46,373 James Baldwin said, 2 00:01:47,609 --> 00:01:50,377 "If the relationship of father to son 3 00:01:50,477 --> 00:01:52,680 could really be reduced to biology, 4 00:01:54,247 --> 00:01:58,352 the whole earth would blaze with the glory of fathers and sons." 5 00:02:01,254 --> 00:02:02,790 But sometimes, 6 00:02:02,890 --> 00:02:06,326 biology leaves us with only smoldering embers. 7 00:02:26,114 --> 00:02:28,382 It's hot. 8 00:02:29,249 --> 00:02:31,385 You shouldn't be out here. 9 00:02:31,485 --> 00:02:33,387 You got someplace to cool off? 10 00:02:34,388 --> 00:02:36,256 I know you got family. 11 00:02:38,760 --> 00:02:39,761 La'Ron. 12 00:02:40,862 --> 00:02:41,896 La'Ron. 13 00:02:44,098 --> 00:02:45,399 Yeah. 14 00:02:48,168 --> 00:02:50,872 Oh, shoot. 15 00:02:53,407 --> 00:02:54,942 Yes? 16 00:02:55,043 --> 00:02:56,343 I know. 17 00:03:24,438 --> 00:03:26,074 - Just give me the fucking money! 18 00:03:26,174 --> 00:03:27,675 Why'd you make me fucking do that? 19 00:03:27,775 --> 00:03:29,476 I didn't wanna fucking hurt you, man! 20 00:03:29,577 --> 00:03:32,212 Get the fuck out! Get the fuck out! 21 00:03:32,947 --> 00:03:36,416 - Just wanted the fucking money, man! 22 00:03:36,517 --> 00:03:39,687 No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no— 23 00:05:03,204 --> 00:05:06,073 'Rell? 'Rell. 'Rell, baby. 24 00:05:06,174 --> 00:05:08,776 Baby. Baby, breathe. 25 00:05:08,876 --> 00:05:11,012 Look at me. Breathe. 26 00:05:11,112 --> 00:05:12,445 Breathe. 27 00:05:20,288 --> 00:05:21,454 God. 28 00:05:25,660 --> 00:05:28,229 Tarrell, you got to do something about this. 29 00:05:28,328 --> 00:05:29,964 - It's okay. - No, it's not okay. 30 00:05:30,064 --> 00:05:33,000 - Something is wrong with you. - It's fine, it's fine, it's fine. 31 00:05:34,602 --> 00:05:36,704 I can't do this shit anymore. 32 00:05:38,306 --> 00:05:40,407 It's okay, Aisha. It's okay. 33 00:05:40,508 --> 00:05:41,876 Daddy, can I get some pancakes? 34 00:05:41,976 --> 00:05:43,845 No, baby, Daddy doesn't feel good right now. 35 00:05:43,945 --> 00:05:45,445 - Hey, don't tell him that. - Mommy will make you some oatmeal. 36 00:05:45,546 --> 00:05:48,850 Hey, come here, big boy. I got ya. I got ya. 37 00:05:48,950 --> 00:05:52,086 You want some, uh, some-some blueberries in the pancake? 38 00:05:52,186 --> 00:05:54,188 - Just pancakes. - Yeah? 39 00:05:54,288 --> 00:05:56,657 - Mm-hmm. - All right, come on. Let's go. 40 00:06:01,996 --> 00:06:05,833 Pancakes, pancakes. I love pancakes! 41 00:06:06,868 --> 00:06:08,936 Smells good. 42 00:06:13,207 --> 00:06:14,909 Call the doctor. 43 00:06:15,009 --> 00:06:16,476 I will. 44 00:06:16,577 --> 00:06:19,347 - Please? - I will. Hey. 45 00:06:20,915 --> 00:06:22,083 Ahh. 46 00:06:22,850 --> 00:06:26,153 - Yay! Chocolate chips, chocolate chips. - Jermaine. 47 00:06:26,821 --> 00:06:28,356 Two days till mission. 48 00:06:28,455 --> 00:06:30,992 - Shh. - What, Mommy can't know? 49 00:06:31,092 --> 00:06:32,293 What mission? 50 00:06:32,392 --> 00:06:33,995 The extraction mission. 51 00:06:34,095 --> 00:06:35,830 "The extraction mission"? 52 00:06:35,930 --> 00:06:40,368 Parachute in, go save Grandma, and bring her home to safety. 53 00:06:40,467 --> 00:06:43,371 Oh. That mission. 54 00:06:43,470 --> 00:06:45,740 And why do we accept this mission, Jermaine? 55 00:06:47,742 --> 00:06:50,511 Because sons take care of mothers. 56 00:06:50,611 --> 00:06:53,748 Do they? 57 00:06:53,848 --> 00:06:56,584 - Where'd he learn that from? - I don't know. 58 00:06:57,417 --> 00:06:59,086 'Rell, did you let him watch The Godfather? 59 00:06:59,186 --> 00:07:01,656 No. That ain't even a real line. 60 00:07:03,057 --> 00:07:04,659 Y'all get on my nerves. 61 00:09:52,493 --> 00:09:54,962 Tarrell, it's Janine. 62 00:09:56,363 --> 00:09:57,865 Hey. 63 00:09:57,965 --> 00:09:59,500 - Hey. - Hey. What's going on? What are you doing here? 64 00:09:59,600 --> 00:10:01,102 - We-we don't have a visit scheduled. - I'm— I know, I know. 65 00:10:01,202 --> 00:10:03,538 I'm so— I— Oh, my God, I'm so sorry. 66 00:10:03,637 --> 00:10:06,508 Listen, I was excited. I wanted to see you. Face-to-face. 67 00:10:06,607 --> 00:10:08,642 - Yeah. - Uh, can I come in? 68 00:10:08,742 --> 00:10:10,512 I'm-I'm, actually, I'm working right now, Janine, 69 00:10:10,611 --> 00:10:12,179 - so it's not a good time. - It's okay. I won't be long. I won't be long. 70 00:10:13,414 --> 00:10:16,317 - Did you read the review? - Uh, yeah, yeah, I read it. 71 00:10:16,417 --> 00:10:19,120 - And? - And... it's a review. 72 00:10:19,220 --> 00:10:23,791 When the review is positive, even if it's not quite right, we have to celebrate. 73 00:10:23,891 --> 00:10:26,127 Come on, critics' pick. 74 00:10:27,361 --> 00:10:29,630 I come bearing gifts. 75 00:10:29,730 --> 00:10:30,998 Thank you. 76 00:10:31,098 --> 00:10:32,900 - You're very welcome. - Thank you very much. 77 00:10:37,171 --> 00:10:40,808 What the fuck, T? 78 00:10:41,543 --> 00:10:43,110 What? 79 00:10:46,113 --> 00:10:47,648 Holy shit. 80 00:10:47,748 --> 00:10:50,619 Hey, hey, that's not ready, Janine. 81 00:10:50,718 --> 00:10:52,353 It's-it's not ready yet, okay? 82 00:10:52,453 --> 00:10:54,788 - Listen, Janine... - So this is why I haven't heard from you. 83 00:10:54,889 --> 00:10:58,425 Oh, my God, T! 84 00:10:58,527 --> 00:11:00,227 Oh, my God. 85 00:11:00,327 --> 00:11:01,929 - Janine, please. - Wait, wait, wait, can I see it? 86 00:11:02,029 --> 00:11:05,199 - Can I see it? - No. Nope. Not yet. 87 00:11:05,299 --> 00:11:06,568 Come on, have a seat. 88 00:11:06,667 --> 00:11:08,869 Have a seat, have a seat, have a seat. 89 00:11:08,969 --> 00:11:10,237 - Hold on, hold on, hold on. - Come on. Yeah, come on. 90 00:11:10,337 --> 00:11:13,307 Just give me this. Give me— Oh, my God, the... 91 00:11:17,945 --> 00:11:20,714 The emotion on his face. 92 00:11:20,814 --> 00:11:23,117 He's so frightened, so vulnerable. 93 00:11:25,819 --> 00:11:28,389 I'll take three of these, please. 94 00:11:28,489 --> 00:11:30,592 Oh, my God, T. 95 00:11:30,691 --> 00:11:32,760 No, but seri— This one, this is finished. 96 00:11:32,860 --> 00:11:36,230 This is done. Not another brushstroke. Wow. 97 00:11:36,330 --> 00:11:41,268 I think you gotta do another show. 98 00:11:41,368 --> 00:11:43,037 - The art world wants you, T. What can I say? - Mmm-mmm. 99 00:11:43,137 --> 00:11:45,072 Yeah, "the art world." 100 00:11:45,172 --> 00:11:48,042 Oh, come on, you just got a fucking brilliant review 101 00:11:48,142 --> 00:11:49,710 from a critic who hates everything. 102 00:11:49,810 --> 00:11:51,513 - How is this not your world? - It's not my world. 103 00:11:51,613 --> 00:11:55,416 - Boo-hoo, Mr. Tortured Artist. - "Tortured artist"? I just... 104 00:11:55,517 --> 00:12:00,254 Do you know how many artists would kill to be in your shoes? 105 00:12:00,354 --> 00:12:02,823 Do you know? I know. Do you? 106 00:12:05,694 --> 00:12:08,062 - Yeah. - Another show. 107 00:12:10,431 --> 00:12:11,999 Let's ride the wave. 108 00:12:12,099 --> 00:12:14,735 - Trust me. It's the right move. - Daddy, Daddy, Daddy. 109 00:12:14,835 --> 00:12:16,203 - Oh! - Hey. 110 00:12:16,303 --> 00:12:17,539 Jermaine. Hey, kiddo. 111 00:12:17,639 --> 00:12:18,707 - What's up? - Hey. 112 00:12:18,806 --> 00:12:20,508 - Look. - What's this? 113 00:12:20,609 --> 00:12:21,942 - That's me. - Oh. 114 00:12:22,042 --> 00:12:23,911 - Is he represented? - That is you. 115 00:12:24,011 --> 00:12:25,279 That's me. 116 00:12:25,379 --> 00:12:27,515 - Yeah, that is— That's good. - Uh, Mom said, 117 00:12:27,616 --> 00:12:29,016 um, come inside, wash your hands, 118 00:12:29,116 --> 00:12:30,918 and don't get no paint in the house. 119 00:12:31,018 --> 00:12:33,821 I'm on the way. 120 00:12:34,788 --> 00:12:36,957 - That's my cue? - Yes, it is. 121 00:12:37,057 --> 00:12:38,759 I gotta get in there. 122 00:12:39,460 --> 00:12:40,828 Thank you for the... 123 00:12:40,928 --> 00:12:42,263 - Yeah. - I'm proud of you. 124 00:12:48,902 --> 00:12:52,106 Ahh! 125 00:12:52,206 --> 00:12:54,375 Hey, be careful. 126 00:12:54,475 --> 00:12:56,944 All right, all right. 127 00:12:57,044 --> 00:12:59,748 - Hey, can I get some help here? - - What do you mean? 128 00:12:59,847 --> 00:13:01,716 No, you're on duty. 129 00:13:01,815 --> 00:13:03,718 Really? Come here. Okay, okay, okay. 130 00:13:03,817 --> 00:13:05,185 All right. All right, all right. 131 00:13:05,286 --> 00:13:07,288 That's enough. That's enough. Hey, come on. 132 00:13:07,388 --> 00:13:09,456 Come on, hey. 133 00:13:09,557 --> 00:13:11,660 Okay, calm down, calm down, calm down, calm down. Shh, shh. 134 00:13:11,760 --> 00:13:13,460 Calm down. Look at me. Look at me. 135 00:13:13,561 --> 00:13:14,928 Breathe with me. 136 00:13:15,029 --> 00:13:16,330 Uh-uh. Come here. 137 00:13:19,433 --> 00:13:20,635 There you go. 138 00:13:20,735 --> 00:13:21,935 One more. 139 00:13:24,606 --> 00:13:26,240 Yeah, one more time. 140 00:13:28,242 --> 00:13:29,778 "Shadows on the wall..." 141 00:13:29,877 --> 00:13:31,078 "Shadows on the wall..." 142 00:13:31,178 --> 00:13:32,580 "... noises down the hall." 143 00:13:32,681 --> 00:13:34,281 "... noises down the hall." 144 00:13:35,916 --> 00:13:39,053 "Life doesn't frighten me at all." 145 00:13:39,987 --> 00:13:42,823 "Life doesn't frighten me at all." 146 00:13:44,425 --> 00:13:47,696 "Mean, old Mother Goose, lions on the loose." 147 00:13:49,731 --> 00:13:51,965 "They don't frighten me at all. 148 00:13:52,066 --> 00:13:55,436 Dragons breathing flame on my counterpane. 149 00:13:55,537 --> 00:13:57,204 That doesn't frighten me at all. 150 00:13:58,305 --> 00:14:03,410 I go boo, make them shoo. I make fun the way they run. 151 00:14:03,511 --> 00:14:05,346 Life doesn't frighten me at all. 152 00:14:05,446 --> 00:14:09,784 Tough guys in a fight all alone at night. 153 00:14:09,883 --> 00:14:11,885 Life doesn't frighten me at all." 154 00:14:14,188 --> 00:14:17,991 "Don't show me the frogs and snakes and listen for my scream. 155 00:14:19,627 --> 00:14:21,328 If I'm afraid at all, 156 00:14:22,896 --> 00:14:24,833 it's only in my dreams." 157 00:14:28,936 --> 00:14:30,871 - Let me-let me see what you're working on. - - No! 158 00:14:30,971 --> 00:14:32,540 No, don't show him. Let me— Let Mommy see. 159 00:14:33,374 --> 00:14:34,241 Ohh. 160 00:14:34,341 --> 00:14:35,744 - I look good, huh? - Okay. 161 00:14:35,844 --> 00:14:37,277 - He looks good. - Yeah, you look good. 162 00:14:37,378 --> 00:14:39,279 - Yeah, he looks good. - Yeah, I know I look good. 163 00:14:39,380 --> 00:14:40,447 I know I look good. 164 00:14:44,885 --> 00:14:46,554 - Oh, it's Mama Joyce. - Now, look. 165 00:14:46,654 --> 00:14:48,122 Okay. 166 00:14:48,222 --> 00:14:49,791 - That don't look like me. - Come on. 167 00:14:49,890 --> 00:14:51,860 - Isn't this late for her? - That don't look like me at all. 168 00:14:51,959 --> 00:14:53,060 - You said I look good. - I got it. 169 00:14:53,160 --> 00:14:54,428 - This is you, this is you. - Hello? 170 00:14:54,529 --> 00:14:55,597 I'll put him to bed. 171 00:14:55,697 --> 00:14:57,398 Hey, Ma. 172 00:14:57,498 --> 00:15:00,835 - Baby that's a... - Lord, Lord, Lord. 173 00:15:00,934 --> 00:15:02,202 Hey, Mom? 174 00:15:05,707 --> 00:15:07,776 Something wrong? 175 00:15:07,876 --> 00:15:11,044 I don't know nobody there, Tarrell. 176 00:15:11,145 --> 00:15:12,714 My church is here. I... 177 00:15:12,814 --> 00:15:15,949 But we-we... we talked about this, Ma. 178 00:15:16,049 --> 00:15:17,652 What-what happened? 179 00:15:17,752 --> 00:15:19,453 Baby, this is my home. 180 00:15:19,554 --> 00:15:21,455 It's just temporary, Mom. 181 00:15:21,556 --> 00:15:23,390 All right? I'll get you a... 182 00:15:24,224 --> 00:15:28,295 get you a real nice place on the south side, and no more mortgage payments. 183 00:15:28,395 --> 00:15:30,832 You know you don't have to do that, 'Rell. 184 00:15:30,931 --> 00:15:33,367 Well, I want to. 185 00:15:33,467 --> 00:15:36,638 Now, now, you know I don't need nothing fancy, now. 186 00:15:36,738 --> 00:15:39,940 You know I don't need nothing fancy. 187 00:15:40,775 --> 00:15:42,443 And you don't owe me nothing. 188 00:15:42,544 --> 00:15:44,546 I owe you the air in my lungs, Mama. 189 00:15:46,313 --> 00:15:49,016 - I love you. - Yeah. 190 00:15:49,116 --> 00:15:50,350 Love you too. 191 00:15:52,486 --> 00:15:53,987 Hey. 192 00:15:54,087 --> 00:15:55,956 Finish packing, please. 193 00:15:56,056 --> 00:15:58,091 Mm-hmm. 194 00:16:05,399 --> 00:16:07,602 How's Mama Joyce doing, anyway? 195 00:16:07,702 --> 00:16:09,537 Oh, she's, uh... 196 00:16:10,638 --> 00:16:11,739 she's okay. 197 00:16:12,540 --> 00:16:14,374 Just wanna get her out of that house. 198 00:16:15,075 --> 00:16:17,545 - But she's good, right? - Mm-hmm. 199 00:16:17,645 --> 00:16:19,046 Okay. 200 00:16:20,949 --> 00:16:22,282 Janine stopped by. 201 00:16:22,382 --> 00:16:24,519 She wants me to do another show. 202 00:16:24,619 --> 00:16:25,820 What? 203 00:16:25,920 --> 00:16:28,756 - You just had a show. - Yeah, I know, I know. 204 00:16:28,857 --> 00:16:30,257 But, you know... 205 00:16:31,492 --> 00:16:35,062 My mom doesn't wanna be here any longer than she has to. 206 00:16:35,162 --> 00:16:37,164 - Mm-hmm. - So, I... 207 00:16:37,932 --> 00:16:39,767 I need to. 208 00:16:42,637 --> 00:16:43,705 Fine. 209 00:16:44,572 --> 00:16:46,206 Fine. Do the show. 210 00:16:46,306 --> 00:16:48,008 But I will be in the studio on Monday. 211 00:16:48,108 --> 00:16:52,246 Yeah. It is your turn, I promise you. 212 00:16:52,346 --> 00:16:53,515 I promise. 213 00:16:54,749 --> 00:16:56,350 Okay? 214 00:17:06,460 --> 00:17:09,463 - Sound good. - Uh-uh. Thank you, love. 215 00:17:10,732 --> 00:17:12,667 You got the chorus? 216 00:17:12,767 --> 00:17:14,636 Mm, I have... 217 00:17:14,736 --> 00:17:16,871 Well, I don't have all the words, but I have... 218 00:17:16,971 --> 00:17:18,138 - All right. - I have a little bit. 219 00:17:18,238 --> 00:17:20,240 - Let me hear what you got. - Okay. 220 00:17:47,835 --> 00:17:49,202 Mmm. 221 00:17:58,445 --> 00:18:00,213 - This is the chorus. - Hmm. 222 00:18:09,624 --> 00:18:10,825 Hmm. 223 00:18:31,045 --> 00:18:33,548 Sounds like clouds. 224 00:18:34,414 --> 00:18:37,250 Yeah. Trees with no leaves. 225 00:18:39,087 --> 00:18:40,354 What about, uh... 226 00:18:41,421 --> 00:18:43,256 what about a little more yellow? 227 00:19:21,629 --> 00:19:22,630 What'd you think? 228 00:19:24,699 --> 00:19:26,534 You see my song? 229 00:19:29,537 --> 00:19:31,338 I see you. 230 00:19:39,246 --> 00:19:40,682 Okay, I'm done. 231 00:20:07,842 --> 00:20:10,377 I don't know who you are standing in front of my house, 232 00:20:10,477 --> 00:20:13,413 but I need to warn you, Uncle Sam taught me how to shoot. 233 00:20:13,514 --> 00:20:17,151 So if you don't start explaining why the fuck you standing in front of my house, 234 00:20:17,685 --> 00:20:20,621 my Black face gonna be the last thing you see. 235 00:20:23,091 --> 00:20:24,291 Nuh-uh. 236 00:20:24,959 --> 00:20:26,226 Don't play me. 237 00:20:31,999 --> 00:20:34,234 Ronnie. Ronnie. 238 00:20:35,903 --> 00:20:39,306 Ronnie. What happened to you? 239 00:20:39,406 --> 00:20:41,743 Come on, let's get in the house. 240 00:21:58,186 --> 00:21:59,187 Hey, baby. 241 00:21:59,287 --> 00:22:00,487 They didn't have mint chip, 242 00:22:00,588 --> 00:22:03,624 so I got the only flavor that felt appropriate, 243 00:22:03,724 --> 00:22:04,792 Chubby Hubby. 244 00:22:06,027 --> 00:22:07,161 All right. 245 00:22:07,261 --> 00:22:10,064 I got two spoons... 246 00:22:26,714 --> 00:22:27,915 Uh, baby, baby, careful. 247 00:22:28,015 --> 00:22:29,382 - His ribs are broken. - Oh, careful, his— 248 00:22:29,482 --> 00:22:32,987 I don't give a shit about his ribs. 249 00:22:33,087 --> 00:22:34,822 He's hurt, baby. 250 00:22:34,922 --> 00:22:36,057 He's hurt? 251 00:22:39,861 --> 00:22:45,498 Where's my money and the rest of the shit you stole, La'Ron? 252 00:22:46,334 --> 00:22:47,535 Hm? 253 00:22:49,103 --> 00:22:52,039 Where are my rings, La'Ron? 254 00:22:53,307 --> 00:22:54,407 Gina, he... 255 00:22:54,508 --> 00:22:56,777 How many times are we gonna do this? 256 00:22:58,212 --> 00:23:00,314 Why do you keep forgiving him? 257 00:23:00,413 --> 00:23:02,382 He's my brother. 258 00:23:02,482 --> 00:23:05,385 'Cause he's your brother? I'm your wife. 259 00:23:07,655 --> 00:23:09,523 Get him out of this house. 260 00:23:20,701 --> 00:23:23,704 You know she has every right to be pissed at you. 261 00:23:29,577 --> 00:23:32,113 Hey, George. It's me, Mike. 262 00:23:32,213 --> 00:23:34,081 Hey, I need a real solid, man. 263 00:23:34,181 --> 00:23:35,816 Ronnie's back. 264 00:23:38,252 --> 00:23:39,687 Hey, man, I owe you. 265 00:23:46,827 --> 00:23:48,495 We don't have any beds left at the shelter, 266 00:23:48,596 --> 00:23:50,398 but you can stay in the basement. 267 00:23:50,497 --> 00:23:53,267 It's not much, but it's better than an alley. 268 00:23:53,968 --> 00:23:58,539 Anybody who lives with me abides my rules. 269 00:23:59,740 --> 00:24:01,309 I lock my door every night at 8:00. 270 00:24:01,409 --> 00:24:04,145 If you're not here, you no longer have a place to stay. 271 00:24:05,713 --> 00:24:07,447 I go to chapel every morning at 6:00. 272 00:24:07,548 --> 00:24:10,952 You come with me, or you no longer have a place to stay. 273 00:24:11,852 --> 00:24:14,255 The church has recovery meetings every day. 274 00:24:15,222 --> 00:24:20,493 You have to go twice a week, or... you no longer have a place to stay. 275 00:24:22,630 --> 00:24:25,498 You agree to follow my rules? 276 00:24:27,601 --> 00:24:28,769 I agree. 277 00:27:28,215 --> 00:27:30,784 - Ready, man? - - Let's go, let's go, let's go! 278 00:27:30,885 --> 00:27:33,220 Let's go, let's go, let's go! 279 00:28:04,318 --> 00:28:07,087 It's Grandma's house. Yay! We made it! 280 00:28:09,558 --> 00:28:10,925 Mama Joyce! 281 00:28:11,025 --> 00:28:12,760 - Oh, my God! - Oh, my God! 282 00:28:12,860 --> 00:28:15,664 Come here, girl! Oh, yes! 283 00:28:15,763 --> 00:28:18,165 - Oh, my God! - How are you? 284 00:28:18,265 --> 00:28:19,133 - Hey! - Let me see. 285 00:28:19,233 --> 00:28:20,801 - Oh, you wanna see? - Yes, ma'am. 286 00:28:20,901 --> 00:28:22,770 Grandma, Grandma, Grandma, Grandma, Grandma! 287 00:28:22,870 --> 00:28:24,371 - Oh, no! - Uh-oh. 288 00:28:24,471 --> 00:28:26,073 - Oh, oh, look what you brought to me. - That's trouble. 289 00:28:26,173 --> 00:28:27,308 - That's trouble. - Look at what you brought to me! 290 00:28:29,276 --> 00:28:31,946 You better come— Oh, where is he? Where is he? 291 00:28:32,046 --> 00:28:34,014 There he is! There he is! 292 00:28:34,114 --> 00:28:36,784 - Come here! You can't fool me. - You can't see me. 293 00:28:36,884 --> 00:28:38,118 Yes, I can. 294 00:28:38,219 --> 00:28:41,188 I can see all of my beautiful baby. 295 00:28:41,288 --> 00:28:43,658 - Hello. Hi. - Hi. 296 00:28:43,757 --> 00:28:45,926 - Hey, Mama. - Did you miss me? 297 00:28:46,026 --> 00:28:47,529 - Yeah. - Did you miss me? 298 00:28:47,629 --> 00:28:48,963 Where are the boxes? 299 00:28:51,732 --> 00:28:53,267 Nothing's packed. 300 00:28:56,170 --> 00:28:57,271 Mama, did you... 301 00:28:58,339 --> 00:28:59,773 did you pack anything? 302 00:29:01,543 --> 00:29:03,210 Did you pack anything at all? 303 00:29:04,144 --> 00:29:05,946 Nothing, Mama? 304 00:29:06,046 --> 00:29:08,182 It ain't gonna take that long. 305 00:29:11,885 --> 00:29:13,487 - All right. Okay. - Tarrell. 306 00:29:14,922 --> 00:29:16,890 Have you lost yourself? 307 00:29:16,991 --> 00:29:19,393 - Hey, Mama. - You come here. 308 00:29:21,895 --> 00:29:24,198 I thought you said you was gonna pack. I just... 309 00:29:24,865 --> 00:29:28,202 It ain't gonna take that long. I got it. 310 00:29:28,302 --> 00:29:31,872 All right, all right. I'm gonna get started. 311 00:29:31,972 --> 00:29:34,041 - It's good to see you. - It's good to see you. 312 00:29:34,141 --> 00:29:35,543 All right. 313 00:29:35,644 --> 00:29:37,978 You lost yourself. Come here! 314 00:29:44,051 --> 00:29:46,755 Ooh, hand me that. Is that Fred? 315 00:29:46,854 --> 00:29:48,590 Is it? Oh, give me that. 316 00:29:48,690 --> 00:29:50,357 - Uh, Mama, I'm trying to put this stuff away. 317 00:29:50,457 --> 00:29:51,992 Let's, uh, keep moving, huh? 318 00:29:52,092 --> 00:29:55,095 I was looking cute in that picture. 319 00:29:55,195 --> 00:29:58,032 - You see how cute I was looking? Hello? - Yeah, yeah. 320 00:30:02,936 --> 00:30:04,338 No, I didn't forget. 321 00:30:05,707 --> 00:30:08,710 Yeah, I-I-I— I gotta reschedule, okay? 322 00:30:08,809 --> 00:30:09,977 Who is she talking to? 323 00:30:10,077 --> 00:30:11,945 All right, I'll call you back. Thank you. 324 00:30:12,046 --> 00:30:13,548 All right, bye-bye. 325 00:30:14,214 --> 00:30:17,117 All of this in two days? The studio is on Monday. 326 00:30:17,217 --> 00:30:19,587 If you do the other thing, then maybe we can get this done 327 00:30:19,688 --> 00:30:22,122 and-and still stay on schedule... 328 00:30:22,222 --> 00:30:24,191 Let me see that picture. Let me see that. 329 00:30:24,291 --> 00:30:27,127 - I was about to... - Let me see. Let me see it. 330 00:30:27,227 --> 00:30:29,196 I'll call Uncle Mike and Aunt Regina. 331 00:30:29,296 --> 00:30:31,165 - They can come help us. - Yeah. 332 00:30:31,265 --> 00:30:32,933 I'll be right back. Hm. 333 00:30:33,033 --> 00:30:35,436 Oh, I left my phone in the car. Can you grab it for me, love? 334 00:30:35,537 --> 00:30:36,571 I'll get it. 335 00:30:38,939 --> 00:30:40,207 - Baby girl. - What? 336 00:30:40,307 --> 00:30:42,577 - You finish my song yet? - Oh, my God. 337 00:30:42,677 --> 00:30:44,378 Okay, it's almost done. 338 00:30:44,478 --> 00:30:46,715 - It's not there yet, but I'm gonna show— - You gonna show it to me? 339 00:30:46,815 --> 00:30:48,315 - Right now, Ma? - Yes! Come on, come on. 340 00:30:48,415 --> 00:30:50,918 - Ma! Oh. Oh, Lord. - Show it to me. Come on, show me. 341 00:30:51,018 --> 00:30:53,087 Mm! You gonna get us in trouble. 342 00:30:57,559 --> 00:30:58,827 Tarrell. 343 00:31:05,032 --> 00:31:07,034 Your mama asked me to come by. 344 00:31:27,921 --> 00:31:29,490 Whoa. 345 00:31:29,591 --> 00:31:31,291 'Rell. 346 00:31:31,392 --> 00:31:32,660 'Rell? 347 00:31:32,761 --> 00:31:33,728 What's the matter, son? 348 00:31:33,828 --> 00:31:35,195 Baby, what's wrong? 349 00:31:36,196 --> 00:31:38,833 What's wrong? Look, Tarrell, look at-look at me. 350 00:31:38,932 --> 00:31:41,001 Who is this? 351 00:31:41,669 --> 00:31:44,938 It's La'Ron. Come here, Jermaine. Let's go. Let's go. Come on. 352 00:31:45,038 --> 00:31:46,875 What— Ugh. Tarrell. I'm sorry, Mama Joyce. 353 00:31:46,974 --> 00:31:48,777 Wait a minute, wait a minute. You're not gonna let him meet his grandfather? 354 00:31:48,877 --> 00:31:51,412 - Now you wanna be somebody's grand— - Tarrell, let's go. Hey. 355 00:31:51,513 --> 00:31:53,480 - You somebody's granddaddy now? - Tarrell, let's go. 356 00:31:53,581 --> 00:31:55,784 I ain't seen you for 15 years, but now you gonna be somebody's granddaddy? 357 00:31:55,884 --> 00:31:57,786 - You somebody's daddy now? - - All right, I don't want him to hear this. 358 00:31:57,886 --> 00:31:59,821 - I'm taking him to the hotel. - Tarrell, Tarrell. 359 00:31:59,920 --> 00:32:01,723 He's clean, son. 360 00:32:01,823 --> 00:32:03,357 Look at him. He's clean. 361 00:32:03,457 --> 00:32:05,025 - Mama, stop. Stop. - He's clean. 362 00:32:05,125 --> 00:32:06,795 - Mama. - He's clean. He's going to church now. 363 00:32:06,895 --> 00:32:08,563 - I don't care where he's going, Mama. - He's going to church now. 364 00:32:08,663 --> 00:32:10,532 - I ain't got nothing to say to you! - He's going to church. 365 00:32:10,632 --> 00:32:13,100 Just talk to him. Now, where-where you going? 366 00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:15,369 - He came here trying— - Hey, you can go. 367 00:32:15,469 --> 00:32:17,438 La'Ron, where you going? 368 00:32:19,039 --> 00:32:20,140 - Tarrell. - How could you do that? 369 00:32:20,240 --> 00:32:22,409 Tarrell, come on. Just talk to him. 370 00:32:22,510 --> 00:32:25,379 He's trying. Tarrell. 371 00:32:25,479 --> 00:32:26,648 Tarrell. 372 00:32:29,149 --> 00:32:31,686 You know what? 373 00:32:31,786 --> 00:32:33,053 Listen. 374 00:32:33,153 --> 00:32:34,756 Listen, I need you to speak to him. 375 00:32:34,856 --> 00:32:36,490 - I need you to talk to him. - No. No. 376 00:32:36,591 --> 00:32:38,492 No. And I can't believe you'd even ask me to speak to him. 377 00:32:38,593 --> 00:32:40,695 Look, I know how— I know how hard this is for you. 378 00:32:40,795 --> 00:32:42,396 It ought to be hard for you, Mama. 379 00:32:42,496 --> 00:32:45,600 - Trust me. Please. - He has changed. 380 00:32:45,700 --> 00:32:47,301 He ain't changed. 381 00:32:47,401 --> 00:32:49,136 And his change ain't got nothing to do with me, 382 00:32:49,236 --> 00:32:50,270 and it ain't got nothing to do with you. 383 00:32:50,370 --> 00:32:51,840 - Son. Son. - Okay? Nothing. 384 00:32:51,940 --> 00:32:54,007 - Look. Look, look, look, look, look. - Nothing to do. 385 00:32:54,107 --> 00:32:55,442 Do it for me. 386 00:32:55,543 --> 00:32:57,545 - Do it for me. - Look, I love you. 387 00:32:57,645 --> 00:33:01,048 - No, I got to go. I got to go. - It's— Tarrell! 388 00:33:40,153 --> 00:33:41,789 Hey, yo, 'Rell. 389 00:33:41,890 --> 00:33:43,257 'Rell! 390 00:33:45,627 --> 00:33:46,995 What up, bro? 391 00:33:55,302 --> 00:33:57,371 - What's up? - What's up, baby bro? 392 00:33:57,471 --> 00:33:59,908 Even when I was a baby, I was a grown-ass man. 393 00:34:00,008 --> 00:34:01,009 Oh, get out of here. 394 00:34:06,581 --> 00:34:08,883 Hey, bro. 395 00:34:08,983 --> 00:34:11,285 You know your daddy back in town, right? 396 00:34:12,720 --> 00:34:17,124 Mama tried to organize some kind of surprise family reunion earlier. 397 00:34:17,224 --> 00:34:19,627 Shit. I saw that nigga the other day. 398 00:34:19,727 --> 00:34:21,194 He tried to take me to church. 399 00:34:21,295 --> 00:34:24,632 Like, what I look like up in somebody's church, man? 400 00:34:25,332 --> 00:34:27,367 Nigga think he Martin Luther Vandross. 401 00:34:28,168 --> 00:34:32,072 Man, Mom always had horrible taste in men. Shit. 402 00:34:32,172 --> 00:34:36,578 - Least in my case, you know, my dad, he was handsome. 403 00:34:36,678 --> 00:34:40,048 He ain't leave me shit but these irresistible good looks. 404 00:34:42,884 --> 00:34:44,786 Man, you something else. 405 00:34:44,886 --> 00:34:46,486 Man, bullshit. 406 00:34:48,388 --> 00:34:50,058 Hey, you gonna talk to him? 407 00:34:51,559 --> 00:34:53,962 You know, Mom ain't gonna leave you alone till you talk to him. 408 00:34:54,062 --> 00:34:55,730 You-you know how your mama be. 409 00:34:57,932 --> 00:34:59,534 I ain't got shit to say to him. 410 00:35:01,569 --> 00:35:02,770 Hey, fuck La'Ron. 411 00:35:02,870 --> 00:35:04,839 Fuck that nigga. 412 00:35:04,939 --> 00:35:06,074 This ain't about him. 413 00:35:06,173 --> 00:35:07,609 It's about Mama. 414 00:35:13,881 --> 00:35:15,482 Hey, get your ass down here. 415 00:35:15,583 --> 00:35:17,085 Man, what you doing? 416 00:35:17,184 --> 00:35:19,219 You been away from me that long? 417 00:35:19,319 --> 00:35:22,023 You know the routine. Get your ass back in here, bro. 418 00:35:22,122 --> 00:35:23,725 Here we go. Here we go. 419 00:35:25,860 --> 00:35:29,030 - What was that? - Hey, that's four! Let's go! 420 00:35:29,129 --> 00:35:31,966 Ah! 421 00:35:32,066 --> 00:35:33,701 - Four. - All right, all right. 422 00:35:33,801 --> 00:35:36,938 You tired of me beating your ass, or you wanna keep it going? 423 00:35:37,038 --> 00:35:38,973 - I got time. I don't know if you got time, like... - One more round. 424 00:35:39,073 --> 00:35:40,608 I got time. One more round. 425 00:35:40,708 --> 00:35:42,442 - One more? All right. - One more time, man. 426 00:35:42,543 --> 00:35:43,978 Ugh! 427 00:35:44,078 --> 00:35:45,046 Damn! 428 00:35:45,145 --> 00:35:48,148 Oh! 429 00:35:48,248 --> 00:35:50,685 Ahh! Let's go, baby! 430 00:35:50,785 --> 00:35:52,520 - That was pretty good. - Oh, baby! That's, like... 431 00:35:52,620 --> 00:35:54,122 - I'll give you that. I'll give you that. - ... seven, eight? 432 00:35:54,221 --> 00:35:55,757 - That was pretty good. - All right. 433 00:35:55,857 --> 00:35:58,425 You wanna race? Come on. 434 00:35:58,526 --> 00:36:00,494 - Keep running. - Ahh! 435 00:36:02,096 --> 00:36:03,865 Whoo! 436 00:36:12,140 --> 00:36:13,608 Yeah, G-body. 437 00:36:45,006 --> 00:36:46,339 The boy won't even talk to me, Joy. 438 00:36:46,440 --> 00:36:48,676 Ain't nobody said it was gonna be easy. 439 00:36:48,776 --> 00:36:50,178 I know, but... 440 00:36:50,277 --> 00:36:52,513 I tried to talk to him, but the boy just won't even give me a chance. 441 00:36:52,613 --> 00:36:54,448 Wait a minute. Is this the part where you start talking about, 442 00:36:54,549 --> 00:36:58,251 "It's just too hard. I might as well quit"? 443 00:36:58,986 --> 00:37:00,320 Again? 444 00:37:02,289 --> 00:37:03,658 Let me ask you something. 445 00:37:06,561 --> 00:37:09,197 How many times did I take you back, La'Ron? 446 00:37:10,263 --> 00:37:12,100 A lot. 447 00:37:12,200 --> 00:37:15,870 And how many times did you tell me, you promise me, things were gonna be different? 448 00:37:15,970 --> 00:37:16,971 How many times? 449 00:37:17,839 --> 00:37:19,540 - A lot. - Yeah. 450 00:37:19,640 --> 00:37:20,641 Yeah. 451 00:37:20,742 --> 00:37:22,810 And every time, 452 00:37:23,578 --> 00:37:26,480 you came back more broken than you were before. 453 00:37:27,782 --> 00:37:29,416 But I bandage you, 454 00:37:30,084 --> 00:37:33,721 and I take care of you like the Bible say I'm supposed to. 455 00:37:47,235 --> 00:37:48,468 Look at you. 456 00:37:50,337 --> 00:37:52,807 You're the hardest-working man I know. 457 00:37:56,744 --> 00:37:59,881 Except when it comes to relationships. 458 00:38:02,349 --> 00:38:05,586 Relationships are hard. 459 00:38:07,722 --> 00:38:08,990 They're hard. 460 00:38:10,992 --> 00:38:12,860 You never understood that. 461 00:38:30,178 --> 00:38:32,379 Do what you promised you were gonna do. 462 00:38:34,782 --> 00:38:36,316 I know it's hard. 463 00:38:37,417 --> 00:38:39,887 Yeah, it's hard. Yes, it's hard. 464 00:38:42,190 --> 00:38:45,092 You done messed over that child for most of his life. 465 00:38:45,193 --> 00:38:47,862 Yes, it's hard. It should be hard. 466 00:38:47,962 --> 00:38:50,798 But you need to make peace with your son. 467 00:38:53,100 --> 00:38:55,803 You're not gonna break your promise this time. 468 00:39:28,903 --> 00:39:29,937 Mm. 469 00:39:54,128 --> 00:39:55,630 I'm sorry about earlier. 470 00:39:59,066 --> 00:40:01,468 Are we gonna talk about what happened with your father? 471 00:40:04,739 --> 00:40:06,540 I just thought the first time you'd meet him, 472 00:40:06,641 --> 00:40:08,809 he would be in his casket. 473 00:40:32,099 --> 00:40:34,568 I know you would rather be painting right now. 474 00:40:36,304 --> 00:40:37,705 But all of this shit 475 00:40:38,606 --> 00:40:41,509 is just gonna follow us home if you don't deal with it here. 476 00:40:44,912 --> 00:40:47,815 Some things can't be worked out on canvas. 477 00:41:40,835 --> 00:41:42,870 - Mommy! - Baby, look-look at Mommy. 478 00:41:42,970 --> 00:41:45,873 Look at Mommy. Look at Mommy. 479 00:41:58,085 --> 00:41:59,120 I'm sorry. 480 00:41:59,887 --> 00:42:02,823 Jermaine, I'm sorry. Daddy's sorry. Hey. 481 00:42:02,923 --> 00:42:05,926 Jermaine. 482 00:42:06,027 --> 00:42:07,495 Hey, come here. 483 00:42:09,163 --> 00:42:10,498 I'm sorry. 484 00:42:19,640 --> 00:42:21,075 Ah... 485 00:43:27,808 --> 00:43:29,076 Over here. 486 00:43:42,189 --> 00:43:43,257 What's all that? 487 00:43:46,927 --> 00:43:49,964 Consider this a, uh, confession. 488 00:43:50,599 --> 00:43:53,868 La'Ron, will you swear to tell the whole truth? 489 00:43:56,170 --> 00:43:58,507 There-there— There's some things I wanna talk to you about, Tarrell. 490 00:43:58,607 --> 00:44:00,641 Hey, let me explain something to you, man. 491 00:44:00,741 --> 00:44:02,076 I really don't wanna be doing this anyway, 492 00:44:02,176 --> 00:44:03,777 but my mama asked me to, so here I am. 493 00:44:03,878 --> 00:44:06,413 Now, if you don't wanna do it, 494 00:44:06,515 --> 00:44:08,015 I'd be more than happy to leave. 495 00:44:08,716 --> 00:44:10,951 I'm not the same man you remember, Tarrell. 496 00:44:11,051 --> 00:44:14,088 I don't even know what that's supposed to mean. 497 00:44:16,957 --> 00:44:20,261 "All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." 498 00:44:20,361 --> 00:44:22,897 Yeah. We doing this? 499 00:44:34,375 --> 00:44:38,513 Uh, should I start with my name, age, or something? 500 00:44:38,613 --> 00:44:39,914 Why don't we, uh... 501 00:44:41,550 --> 00:44:43,117 we just get to the point? 502 00:44:50,925 --> 00:44:53,160 When did you first start using? 503 00:44:59,300 --> 00:45:01,835 Uh... 504 00:45:03,704 --> 00:45:05,172 You remember your Uncle Willie? 505 00:45:07,308 --> 00:45:08,209 You're stalling. 506 00:45:08,309 --> 00:45:10,512 Oh, no, I'm-I'm trying to tell you. 507 00:45:11,613 --> 00:45:14,348 Uh, you remember when we did the drywall in his bedroom closet 508 00:45:14,448 --> 00:45:16,850 - at his house? - Yeah, yeah, yeah, I remember. 509 00:45:17,552 --> 00:45:21,656 Well, Uncle Willie's daughter Jamillah lit that closet on fire. 510 00:45:22,790 --> 00:45:26,260 Yeah, she was smoking crack, trying to hide it from her mama and daddy. 511 00:45:26,360 --> 00:45:31,131 Fell asleep, burned a hole right down to the studs. 512 00:45:31,232 --> 00:45:33,568 Ain't nobody have no money for no rehab back then, 513 00:45:33,668 --> 00:45:36,003 so Jamillah ended up back in that closet. 514 00:45:37,539 --> 00:45:40,975 But this time, she set the whole house on fire. 515 00:45:43,511 --> 00:45:46,113 I was helping Jamillah move in with her boyfriend. 516 00:45:46,213 --> 00:45:49,250 And he was a crackhead too. 517 00:45:49,350 --> 00:45:51,785 You know, that trifling nigga didn't help me move one box. 518 00:45:51,885 --> 00:45:53,420 The question, La'Ron. 519 00:45:54,689 --> 00:45:56,023 The question. 520 00:45:57,157 --> 00:45:58,192 Okay. 521 00:45:59,793 --> 00:46:00,828 I... 522 00:46:01,161 --> 00:46:04,098 I just finished bringing the last box in, 523 00:46:04,198 --> 00:46:07,034 and I was looking for Jamillah, and I-and I found her. 524 00:46:08,135 --> 00:46:12,006 In the bathroom, sitting on the edge of the tub, about to hit again. 525 00:46:13,140 --> 00:46:15,476 I snatched that pipe out her hand. 526 00:46:15,577 --> 00:46:17,911 I grabbed her up by her arms. 527 00:46:18,012 --> 00:46:21,482 "Jamillah, what's wrong with you, girl? 528 00:46:21,583 --> 00:46:23,217 You know better than this. 529 00:46:23,317 --> 00:46:26,521 You just burned down your daddy house, and you doing this mess again?" 530 00:46:30,692 --> 00:46:32,793 "You don't understand," Jamillah said. 531 00:46:33,861 --> 00:46:39,066 "You never hit this before, La'Ron. You don't understand." 532 00:46:40,669 --> 00:46:42,903 I looked in her eyes, and... 533 00:46:44,305 --> 00:46:45,306 I don't know. 534 00:46:47,841 --> 00:46:49,511 - I don't know. - You don't know what? 535 00:46:49,611 --> 00:46:51,078 What you mean, you don't know? 536 00:46:52,747 --> 00:46:54,448 I wanted to try it. 537 00:46:56,850 --> 00:47:00,487 I took a hit, put my head between my legs, 538 00:47:00,588 --> 00:47:06,860 lifted up and blew out that smoke, and all hell broke loose. 539 00:47:08,329 --> 00:47:11,165 I never felt nothing like that before. 540 00:47:12,634 --> 00:47:16,136 One hit, and I was on the ride. 541 00:47:17,971 --> 00:47:20,974 All I could think about was my next score. 542 00:47:22,443 --> 00:47:24,845 At first, it was— it-it was just on the weekends, 543 00:47:24,945 --> 00:47:27,948 but every time I got a little extra money, I'd hit. 544 00:47:29,183 --> 00:47:32,520 Before I knew it, I was smoking every day. 545 00:47:33,822 --> 00:47:35,523 That-that's why I worked so hard. 546 00:47:35,623 --> 00:47:37,157 You know, I kept working, 547 00:47:37,257 --> 00:47:39,259 so I was able to hide it from most people. 548 00:47:39,360 --> 00:47:40,829 I knew. 549 00:47:43,765 --> 00:47:45,099 I knew. 550 00:47:48,302 --> 00:47:49,403 Yeah. 551 00:47:52,106 --> 00:47:53,107 Hm. 552 00:47:55,342 --> 00:47:56,544 Give me a second. 553 00:48:04,952 --> 00:48:06,954 This guy broke my rib. 554 00:48:10,090 --> 00:48:11,458 Did you go to the doctor? 555 00:48:12,126 --> 00:48:13,561 Did I see a doctor? 556 00:48:15,028 --> 00:48:18,298 I had health insurance once in my life. 557 00:48:19,466 --> 00:48:22,236 It's when your mama told me she was pregnant. 558 00:48:23,470 --> 00:48:25,540 I remember the day I told my father. 559 00:48:25,640 --> 00:48:27,374 Yeah, we was working on the back of the truck, 560 00:48:27,474 --> 00:48:29,143 me and my daddy, I'll never forget it, 561 00:48:29,243 --> 00:48:30,745 shoveling burning barrels. 562 00:48:30,845 --> 00:48:34,915 I looked over at him, I said, "Daddy, you remember Joyce? 563 00:48:35,015 --> 00:48:37,351 The quiet girl in the choir." 564 00:48:37,451 --> 00:48:40,522 Now, Daddy hated it when I tried to talk and work. 565 00:48:40,622 --> 00:48:43,625 He said, "Boy, spit it out and get back to work." 566 00:48:44,659 --> 00:48:45,827 "Uh, she pregnant." 567 00:48:46,460 --> 00:48:49,463 I never lifted my head. I just kept on shoveling. 568 00:48:50,330 --> 00:48:54,435 Daddy stopped, looked at me and said, "Well, who baby is it?" 569 00:48:54,536 --> 00:48:56,937 I ain't say nothing. I just kept on shoveling. 570 00:48:57,037 --> 00:48:58,907 Just kept on shoveling. 571 00:48:59,006 --> 00:49:01,141 "Who baby is it, La'Ron?" 572 00:49:01,241 --> 00:49:05,279 I-I stuttered and I stammered a bit, and I finally said, 573 00:49:05,379 --> 00:49:06,947 "It's mine." 574 00:49:07,047 --> 00:49:09,049 And I just went on back to shoveling. 575 00:49:09,983 --> 00:49:11,519 Went on back to shoveling. 576 00:49:12,486 --> 00:49:13,588 What did he say? 577 00:49:14,556 --> 00:49:15,790 He ain't say nothing. 578 00:49:15,890 --> 00:49:17,692 He took that shovel and he hit me upside the head so hard, 579 00:49:17,792 --> 00:49:19,259 it knocked me out cold. 580 00:49:20,994 --> 00:49:22,697 We was over on James Street. 581 00:49:23,665 --> 00:49:25,767 Daddy just left me there, 582 00:49:26,433 --> 00:49:28,636 laying on the ground in somebody's backyard. 583 00:49:30,538 --> 00:49:32,540 I woke up with the neighbors standing over me. 584 00:49:32,640 --> 00:49:33,974 They thought I was dead. 585 00:49:36,644 --> 00:49:39,012 I-I just walked home. 586 00:49:40,347 --> 00:49:42,750 When I finally got home that night, 587 00:49:42,851 --> 00:49:44,686 Daddy said I got to do two things, 588 00:49:45,653 --> 00:49:50,224 marry Joyce and get a job with health insurance so I can take care of my baby. 589 00:49:53,728 --> 00:49:55,128 You forgive your father? 590 00:49:59,132 --> 00:50:00,467 Did you, uh... 591 00:50:02,035 --> 00:50:03,437 did you ever even like him? 592 00:50:04,506 --> 00:50:08,610 Your grandfather was a complicated man, Tarrell. 593 00:50:10,277 --> 00:50:12,112 Daddy would come home mad about something 594 00:50:12,212 --> 00:50:14,081 and try to take it out on Mama. 595 00:50:16,551 --> 00:50:21,021 Your grandmother was a living, breathing saint. 596 00:50:21,589 --> 00:50:26,293 Oh, he-he was a minister, but she was a saint. 597 00:50:27,729 --> 00:50:29,196 Man, when you were finally born, 598 00:50:29,296 --> 00:50:30,965 I brought you home to introduce you to your grandfather. 599 00:50:31,064 --> 00:50:32,967 He wouldn't even pick you up. 600 00:50:33,066 --> 00:50:35,102 I tried to put you in his arms. 601 00:50:36,771 --> 00:50:38,238 He walked right by. 602 00:50:38,338 --> 00:50:41,509 He went over to Mama and said, "Now, now, now, that's your son. 603 00:50:41,609 --> 00:50:44,311 That's your lustful heathen sinner." 604 00:50:44,411 --> 00:50:46,915 Mama looked him dead in the eye and said, 605 00:50:47,015 --> 00:50:50,518 "Jesus is strong enough to save." 606 00:50:50,618 --> 00:50:54,187 Whoo-wee! 607 00:50:54,288 --> 00:50:58,125 Daddy looked at me and said, "You won't bring that child into the house of the Lord. 608 00:50:58,225 --> 00:50:59,594 That baby was conceived in sin. 609 00:50:59,694 --> 00:51:01,829 And until you and Joyce confess your sins 610 00:51:01,930 --> 00:51:03,196 in front of the congregation, 611 00:51:03,297 --> 00:51:06,199 you won't set one foot inside of my church." 612 00:51:06,300 --> 00:51:09,671 Oh, I never seen Mama so angry. 613 00:51:09,771 --> 00:51:14,141 She jumped in his face and said, "You don't speak for God!" 614 00:51:14,742 --> 00:51:16,945 That set Daddy off. 615 00:51:17,045 --> 00:51:19,446 Now, your grandfather kept a pistol. 616 00:51:19,547 --> 00:51:22,482 Folks used to call him "the gun-toting preacher." 617 00:51:22,584 --> 00:51:26,020 He whipped that thing out so fast, I ain't even see where it came from. 618 00:51:26,688 --> 00:51:29,657 He aimed that pistol right at Mama's head. 619 00:51:30,992 --> 00:51:32,426 She didn't flinch. 620 00:51:33,360 --> 00:51:34,562 I dropped you on the couch, 621 00:51:34,662 --> 00:51:36,631 and I-and I ran and I jumped between them. 622 00:51:36,731 --> 00:51:38,766 Mama tried to push me away. 623 00:51:38,866 --> 00:51:42,937 Looking over my shoulder, she said, "I trust God." 624 00:51:43,037 --> 00:51:44,471 Daddy put that gun to my head and said, 625 00:51:44,572 --> 00:51:47,341 "Boy, stay out of grown folks' business!" 626 00:51:48,776 --> 00:51:50,011 Right when Daddy said that, 627 00:51:50,110 --> 00:51:51,746 you fell headfirst off the couch. 628 00:51:51,846 --> 00:51:54,716 And, boy, you started wailing. 629 00:51:55,683 --> 00:52:00,855 But Daddy put that pistol down and said, "Somebody shut that pickaninny up! 630 00:52:00,955 --> 00:52:04,726 Somebody shut that pickaninny up!" 631 00:52:04,826 --> 00:52:06,828 "Shut that pickaninny up." 632 00:52:10,865 --> 00:52:12,265 It was hard for him. 633 00:52:13,868 --> 00:52:14,969 Hard for who? 634 00:52:15,069 --> 00:52:16,269 Daddy. 635 00:52:17,038 --> 00:52:19,439 I mean, you know, Daddy was a good man. 636 00:52:23,210 --> 00:52:24,779 He was a good man? You... 637 00:52:26,547 --> 00:52:28,482 you just told me that he... 638 00:52:29,884 --> 00:52:34,522 you just told me that he tried to kill you and Grandma. 639 00:52:34,622 --> 00:52:37,625 Well, Daddy wasn't gonna kill her or me. 640 00:52:37,725 --> 00:52:40,628 You know how many times Daddy pulled a gun on us? 641 00:52:41,629 --> 00:52:43,064 Um... 642 00:52:43,163 --> 00:52:44,732 he had flaws. 643 00:52:46,134 --> 00:52:47,501 Wait... 644 00:52:49,336 --> 00:52:51,639 Wait a minute, wait a minute. No, no. 645 00:52:52,439 --> 00:52:55,643 La'Ron, you judge a man by his actions, by how he lives, 646 00:52:56,544 --> 00:52:58,613 and by how he takes care of his family. 647 00:53:00,548 --> 00:53:04,585 All right, now, he-he pulled a gun on you and on Grandma, 648 00:53:05,385 --> 00:53:07,822 and now you're saying he's a good man? 649 00:53:07,922 --> 00:53:11,626 Uh, he had flaws. I mean, he definitely had flaws. 650 00:53:11,726 --> 00:53:12,994 Flaws? 651 00:53:13,094 --> 00:53:14,562 I mean, but everybody got flaws. 652 00:53:14,662 --> 00:53:16,296 - I mean, who ain't got flaws? - Flaws, man? 653 00:53:16,396 --> 00:53:18,132 And you got flaws, Tarrell. Ain't you got flaws? 654 00:53:18,231 --> 00:53:19,499 Yeah, but we ain't talking about flaws, man. 655 00:53:19,600 --> 00:53:22,469 A flaw is an accident, a mistake. 656 00:53:22,570 --> 00:53:24,839 He fucking pulled a gun on you. 657 00:53:25,573 --> 00:53:29,409 You don't get to go out here a-abusing your family and call yourself a good man. 658 00:53:32,780 --> 00:53:34,649 Mm-hmm. There it is. 659 00:53:35,583 --> 00:53:36,584 There it is. 660 00:53:39,821 --> 00:53:42,322 "I'm not the same man you used to know before, Tarrell." 661 00:53:42,422 --> 00:53:43,725 That's what you said, right? 662 00:53:44,424 --> 00:53:45,693 Ain't that what you said? 663 00:53:47,161 --> 00:53:49,097 No, nigga, this what I remember. 664 00:53:49,197 --> 00:53:52,432 Man, this is exactly what the fuck I remember. 665 00:53:55,502 --> 00:53:58,706 Why the fuck my mama let you back in her life in the first place? 666 00:54:04,612 --> 00:54:07,347 Shit. 667 00:55:03,370 --> 00:55:05,640 At first, it was— it-it was just on the weekends, 668 00:55:05,740 --> 00:55:08,776 but every time I got a little extra money, I'd hit. 669 00:55:09,977 --> 00:55:13,446 Before I knew it, I was smoking every day. 670 00:55:14,649 --> 00:55:16,117 That-that's why I worked so hard. 671 00:55:16,217 --> 00:55:18,152 You know, I kept working, 672 00:55:18,252 --> 00:55:20,420 so I was able to hide it from most people. 673 00:55:21,923 --> 00:55:22,990 I knew. 674 00:55:25,993 --> 00:55:27,028 I knew. 675 00:55:53,521 --> 00:55:54,722 Let's get it. 676 00:56:12,405 --> 00:56:14,575 Roll it. Come on, roll it. 677 00:56:30,024 --> 00:56:31,626 Come on, let's get it. Now, come on, bend down. 678 00:56:31,726 --> 00:56:34,461 - Come on. You've got it. Bend down. - Agh. 679 00:56:34,562 --> 00:56:35,763 Let's get it. 680 00:57:04,392 --> 00:57:05,660 Little man, jump over here. 681 00:57:05,760 --> 00:57:07,427 Back the truck up. I'll guide you. 682 00:57:07,528 --> 00:57:08,763 Okay. 683 00:57:13,167 --> 00:57:14,902 Come on. 684 00:57:15,002 --> 00:57:16,737 Come on, now. 685 00:57:16,837 --> 00:57:18,471 Come on. Whoa! 686 00:57:19,307 --> 00:57:20,574 Come on, let's go. 687 00:57:29,583 --> 00:57:31,185 Come on. 688 00:57:31,752 --> 00:57:34,855 Come on, get up here, man. 689 00:57:44,398 --> 00:57:45,800 All right, come on. 690 00:57:48,369 --> 00:57:49,704 Oh, come on, Tarrell! You know how to— 691 00:57:49,804 --> 00:57:51,038 I showed you to do it better than that. 692 00:57:51,138 --> 00:57:52,807 Come on, take this shovel. Get on this side. 693 00:57:52,907 --> 00:57:55,676 Come on, now. We ain't got all day. 694 00:58:17,598 --> 00:58:20,334 Ahh! Dad! 695 00:58:20,434 --> 00:58:22,870 Dad! 696 00:58:29,176 --> 00:58:31,679 Ah! Be quiet. 697 00:58:40,488 --> 00:58:42,857 It's barely bleeding. 698 00:58:42,957 --> 00:58:44,058 Come on. 699 00:58:49,830 --> 00:58:51,732 I ain't your mama. I ain't gonna baby you, boy. 700 00:58:51,832 --> 00:58:54,468 You're a little Black boy. 701 00:58:54,568 --> 00:58:56,037 Ain't nobody gonna ever feel sorry for you. 702 00:58:56,137 --> 00:58:57,805 You need to get that shit through your head right now. 703 00:59:03,144 --> 00:59:04,178 Now, dry off. 704 00:59:04,979 --> 00:59:06,013 We gotta go! 705 00:59:07,248 --> 00:59:11,485 Tarrell, you got to understand, the world don't give a shit about us. 706 00:59:11,585 --> 00:59:13,187 Wake up, boy. 707 00:59:13,287 --> 00:59:15,623 The only thing that separates you from these other little niggas 708 00:59:15,723 --> 00:59:18,893 to these white folks is how hard you work. 709 00:59:18,993 --> 00:59:21,530 You got to be able to outwork the next man. 710 00:59:22,696 --> 00:59:28,269 You're both tired, you're both in pain, but who's more hungry, huh? 711 00:59:29,703 --> 00:59:32,139 No, we don't get no days off. 712 00:59:33,508 --> 00:59:35,176 You think I like shoveling shit? 713 00:59:59,568 --> 01:00:00,768 Ah! 714 01:00:03,604 --> 01:00:05,306 Hey! 715 01:00:05,406 --> 01:00:08,275 Hey! What— what you doing, boy? 716 01:00:08,375 --> 01:00:09,844 We got to finish this job! 717 01:00:14,014 --> 01:00:16,417 - Come on, let's go, boy! - My foot. 718 01:00:16,518 --> 01:00:18,285 I don't wanna hear about your foot! 719 01:00:19,353 --> 01:00:20,522 Let's go! 720 01:00:20,621 --> 01:00:22,923 - I can't! I can't! - Get, boy. 721 01:00:23,023 --> 01:00:25,626 What do you mean, you can't? 722 01:00:25,726 --> 01:00:27,128 Boy, if you don't get this thing up this hill, man, 723 01:00:27,228 --> 01:00:30,097 your foot gonna feel like a vacation next to your ass. 724 01:00:30,197 --> 01:00:31,699 Now, let's go. Let's go! 725 01:00:33,734 --> 01:00:36,270 Push it, boy! Go! 726 01:00:40,141 --> 01:00:42,143 - What is wrong with you, huh? - My foot! 727 01:01:14,775 --> 01:01:16,377 - Boy, get up off this woman's lawn! 728 01:01:16,477 --> 01:01:18,179 Let's go! Get in the truck, boy. 729 01:01:36,330 --> 01:01:37,331 Dad? 730 01:01:42,537 --> 01:01:43,737 Dad? 731 01:01:44,905 --> 01:01:46,774 Can we-can we just go home? 732 01:01:47,708 --> 01:01:48,876 We should just go home. 733 01:01:48,976 --> 01:01:50,444 Mama's gonna be so excited when she finds out 734 01:01:50,545 --> 01:01:52,547 - how much money we made today. - Boy, you ain't gonna tell 735 01:01:52,647 --> 01:01:54,281 your mama a damn thing about this money. 736 01:01:55,249 --> 01:01:56,850 This is my money. 737 01:01:57,918 --> 01:01:59,086 You hear me? 738 01:02:11,732 --> 01:02:13,067 Kenny. 739 01:02:13,702 --> 01:02:15,102 Dad, you promised. 740 01:02:15,803 --> 01:02:17,738 Stay out of grown folks' business, boy. 741 01:02:19,708 --> 01:02:21,509 What's up, La'Ron? 742 01:02:33,254 --> 01:02:35,189 You worked hard today, Tarrell. 743 01:02:37,091 --> 01:02:39,426 You can do anything you set your mind to, boy. 744 01:02:41,395 --> 01:02:42,763 You learned that today. 745 01:02:47,768 --> 01:02:49,436 Tarrell. 746 01:02:50,605 --> 01:02:51,872 Tarrell. 747 01:03:49,463 --> 01:03:52,032 You're looking just like your daddy right now. 748 01:03:53,400 --> 01:03:54,468 What'd you say? 749 01:03:56,771 --> 01:03:58,105 Don't say that to me. 750 01:04:04,478 --> 01:04:05,479 You all right? 751 01:04:10,150 --> 01:04:12,152 He told me you came by. 752 01:04:20,894 --> 01:04:22,096 Mm-hmm. 753 01:04:28,302 --> 01:04:30,070 Let's take Jermaine to the park. 754 01:04:30,170 --> 01:04:32,005 We ain't got time for the park. Quentin's coming 755 01:04:32,106 --> 01:04:34,542 - with the truck at 4:00— - Why are you in such a rush to get me out of here? 756 01:04:39,581 --> 01:04:41,850 I have good memories here. 757 01:04:44,151 --> 01:04:47,888 I know you don't, but I got good memories here. 758 01:05:16,551 --> 01:05:18,152 So, you went by. 759 01:05:19,953 --> 01:05:21,388 Did you talk to him? 760 01:05:24,358 --> 01:05:26,360 You remember Douglas Street, Mama? 761 01:05:27,529 --> 01:05:29,731 Of course. We lived there for years. 762 01:05:29,831 --> 01:05:31,331 But do you remember? 763 01:05:34,569 --> 01:05:35,737 Why are you asking me that? 764 01:05:35,837 --> 01:05:37,505 Do you remember that broken mirror? 765 01:05:40,307 --> 01:05:42,075 That night didn't happen. 766 01:05:43,343 --> 01:05:45,680 It was a bad dream. I decided. 767 01:05:47,114 --> 01:05:48,716 What about all the other nights? 768 01:05:49,551 --> 01:05:51,619 Were they dreams too? That shit happened, Mama. 769 01:05:51,719 --> 01:05:53,922 - Watch your mouth. - All right. 770 01:06:03,063 --> 01:06:05,065 He was amazing... 771 01:06:06,734 --> 01:06:08,035 at first. 772 01:06:12,640 --> 01:06:18,378 But the same thing that got a hold of this park got a hold of him. 773 01:06:29,757 --> 01:06:31,960 He gave me you, Tarrell. 774 01:06:34,596 --> 01:06:36,163 He was my first love. 775 01:06:36,263 --> 01:06:38,131 He was my first love. 776 01:06:39,534 --> 01:06:41,101 And he gave me you. 777 01:06:45,105 --> 01:06:47,642 Oh, I hate you remember that house. 778 01:07:00,822 --> 01:07:02,356 I still love him. 779 01:07:02,456 --> 01:07:03,457 What? 780 01:07:05,727 --> 01:07:06,728 Why? 781 01:07:10,798 --> 01:07:12,534 Why, Mama? 782 01:07:12,634 --> 01:07:14,268 La'Ron has been through a lot, Tarrell. 783 01:07:14,368 --> 01:07:16,203 You-you've been through a lot. 784 01:07:16,971 --> 01:07:19,039 You've been through a lot, Mama. 785 01:07:20,207 --> 01:07:22,409 Why you still making excuses for him? 786 01:07:22,510 --> 01:07:23,545 Look... 787 01:07:25,078 --> 01:07:31,285 the Bible says that if you don't forgive others of their past sins, 788 01:07:31,385 --> 01:07:33,621 then you can't be forgiven. 789 01:07:34,989 --> 01:07:36,189 That's the Bible, son. 790 01:07:36,290 --> 01:07:37,692 - I don't care what— - Matthew 6:15. 791 01:07:37,792 --> 01:07:40,060 I don't care what the Bible say. 792 01:07:40,160 --> 01:07:42,630 - Mama, I wanna know what you say. - No, honey. Now, look, son. 793 01:07:42,730 --> 01:07:44,231 Now, now, I raised you better than that. 794 01:07:44,331 --> 01:07:45,700 I raised you better than that, now. 795 01:07:45,800 --> 01:07:48,101 - Until you— - Come on. 796 01:07:48,201 --> 01:07:51,471 Until you made him leave, Mama, our life was fear. 797 01:07:52,740 --> 01:07:54,542 I shook the fear, 798 01:07:54,642 --> 01:07:59,146 and now you want me to sit here and play some loving father-son fantasy with you? 799 01:08:01,248 --> 01:08:02,784 That boy over there... 800 01:08:06,821 --> 01:08:10,157 Ours is the only father-son story I'm interested in, okay? 801 01:08:10,257 --> 01:08:13,661 If you don't forgive others of their sins, 802 01:08:13,761 --> 01:08:15,228 if you don't forgive, 803 01:08:15,329 --> 01:08:19,767 baby, if you don't forgive, you won't be forgiven. 804 01:08:25,138 --> 01:08:26,406 No, Mama. 805 01:08:28,009 --> 01:08:30,011 You and this— 806 01:08:30,110 --> 01:08:32,880 Oh, you and this fucking Bible. 807 01:08:32,981 --> 01:08:34,147 Tarrell, now, wait a minute, now. 808 01:08:34,247 --> 01:08:35,717 No, you wanna talk about the Bible, 809 01:08:35,817 --> 01:08:37,484 - let's talk about the Bible. - Now, you can— Li-listen. 810 01:08:37,585 --> 01:08:39,087 - Listen, we can disagree— - Let's talk about the Bible. 811 01:08:39,186 --> 01:08:40,822 We can disagree, but you not gonna blaspheme 812 01:08:40,922 --> 01:08:42,056 - like-like that. - I got one. 813 01:08:42,155 --> 01:08:43,591 - Not in front of me. - I got one for you. 814 01:08:43,691 --> 01:08:45,492 - Abraham and Isaac. - Not in front of me. 815 01:08:45,593 --> 01:08:47,028 - Abraham and Isaac. - You not gonna blaspheme in front— 816 01:08:47,127 --> 01:08:48,261 - You not gonna blaspheme. - Abraham and Isaac. 817 01:08:48,362 --> 01:08:51,099 God told Abraham to kill his only son. 818 01:08:51,198 --> 01:08:53,101 You remember that? 819 01:08:53,200 --> 01:08:54,702 Sacrifices got to be made, right? 820 01:08:54,802 --> 01:08:57,270 So, baby boy had to go. You remember, right? 821 01:08:58,405 --> 01:09:01,876 So, Abraham takes Isaac up to the mountaintop. 822 01:09:02,644 --> 01:09:05,847 Isaac say, "Daddy, where's the offering? 823 01:09:05,947 --> 01:09:08,916 I know we gotta make a sacrifice to your angry-ass God. 824 01:09:09,017 --> 01:09:10,652 - Where is the sacrifice? - Tarrell! 825 01:09:10,752 --> 01:09:12,219 Where is the sacrifice?" 826 01:09:13,554 --> 01:09:16,356 Abraham said, "Don't worry, son. God will provide." 827 01:09:17,424 --> 01:09:20,460 Abraham walks up to the top of that mountain, takes Isaac, 828 01:09:20,561 --> 01:09:23,798 throws him out on that altar, raises the knife up over his head, 829 01:09:23,898 --> 01:09:26,400 and just when the knife starts to break the skin, 830 01:09:26,500 --> 01:09:30,437 God's angel swoops in out of nowhere, 831 01:09:31,204 --> 01:09:33,407 grabs his hand and says, "Abe, 832 01:09:34,174 --> 01:09:36,678 I didn't know you was gonna do that. I was just fucking with you." 833 01:09:36,778 --> 01:09:38,211 Oh, my God. 834 01:09:39,179 --> 01:09:40,882 No. My God. 835 01:09:42,650 --> 01:09:43,685 Look at me. 836 01:09:45,218 --> 01:09:46,554 Look at me, Mama. 837 01:09:50,591 --> 01:09:54,562 Why did you leave me with him? 838 01:09:57,699 --> 01:09:58,766 Look at me. 839 01:10:02,570 --> 01:10:04,438 You knew what he was doing. 840 01:10:06,841 --> 01:10:07,942 Why? 841 01:10:15,917 --> 01:10:17,384 Jermaine, come on. 842 01:10:20,420 --> 01:10:23,356 - Come on. - - Do we have to leave now? 843 01:10:24,592 --> 01:10:26,961 Let's go. 844 01:12:03,724 --> 01:12:04,759 Don't. 845 01:12:17,538 --> 01:12:18,873 What do you want? 846 01:12:22,610 --> 01:12:24,411 I used to live in this house. 847 01:12:25,947 --> 01:12:27,380 You want it back? 848 01:12:28,583 --> 01:12:30,885 I hate this goddamn house. 849 01:12:57,778 --> 01:13:00,648 You left Cool. 850 01:13:03,284 --> 01:13:04,986 You left Cool, babe. 851 01:13:05,086 --> 01:13:06,320 Cool, Cool. 852 01:13:06,419 --> 01:13:07,655 Thank you, Mom. 853 01:13:09,323 --> 01:13:10,524 Hello. 854 01:13:11,659 --> 01:13:13,127 I'm never staying here again. 855 01:13:13,828 --> 01:13:16,130 I don't care how close it is to your mama house. 856 01:13:16,797 --> 01:13:18,966 Cool, Cool, Cool, Cool! 857 01:13:19,066 --> 01:13:20,635 I don't wanna be here no more. 858 01:13:27,074 --> 01:13:28,142 What happened? 859 01:13:29,343 --> 01:13:31,045 She still loves him. 860 01:13:33,314 --> 01:13:36,117 I mean... 861 01:13:36,217 --> 01:13:37,752 Is it-is it just in my mind, 862 01:13:37,852 --> 01:13:41,555 or are bad memories somehow more saturated than good ones? 863 01:13:41,656 --> 01:13:43,423 I mean, how am I supposed to paint a sunny day 864 01:13:43,524 --> 01:13:45,693 if I don't remember ever even seeing one? 865 01:13:48,663 --> 01:13:51,565 - Hmm. - She still loves him. 866 01:14:11,152 --> 01:14:12,687 - Love. - Hm? 867 01:14:14,188 --> 01:14:15,656 It's your brother. 868 01:14:27,902 --> 01:14:29,904 Hey. Hey, man, what happened? 869 01:14:30,004 --> 01:14:33,074 - Where she at? - I've been here 45 minutes, and they won't let me see her. 870 01:14:33,174 --> 01:14:37,278 - She's on machines right now to-to keep her alive. - Machines? 871 01:14:37,378 --> 01:14:40,815 Yeah. And that nigga been over there talking to himself and praying. 872 01:14:40,915 --> 01:14:42,482 Wait a minute, man. Wait a minute, wait a minute. 873 01:14:42,583 --> 01:14:45,853 She was fine when I left. Hey, she was fine when I left. 874 01:14:45,953 --> 01:14:47,655 Now, we had an argument at the park, but she was fine. She— 875 01:14:47,755 --> 01:14:49,290 I left, but she was just sitting there. 876 01:14:49,390 --> 01:14:50,758 She-she passed out. 877 01:14:50,858 --> 01:14:52,626 She stopped breathing at the basketball court, 878 01:14:52,727 --> 01:14:54,862 - so they had to come over and bring her here. - Stopped breathing? 879 01:14:54,962 --> 01:14:57,365 - She in the ICU right now. - Hey, man, where-where the doctor? 880 01:14:57,465 --> 01:14:59,900 - I don't-I don't know where the doctor is. - Where's the doctor? 881 01:15:00,001 --> 01:15:02,703 - They not letting me go see her. She— - Doctor, where my mom? 882 01:15:02,803 --> 01:15:04,372 Uh, we've been stabilizing her 883 01:15:04,472 --> 01:15:06,474 - in the intensive care unit. - Can I see her? Can I see her? 884 01:15:06,574 --> 01:15:09,510 No, no. I'm sorry, her condition is very serious. 885 01:15:09,610 --> 01:15:13,681 Your mother has been suffering from dangerously high blood pressure for some time, 886 01:15:13,781 --> 01:15:15,483 and her heart is very weak. 887 01:15:16,150 --> 01:15:18,386 She was fine when I left. She was fine when I left. 888 01:15:18,486 --> 01:15:22,556 We released her from our care last weekend, against our advice. 889 01:15:22,656 --> 01:15:24,925 She insisted she be allowed to go home. 890 01:15:25,026 --> 01:15:27,561 Uh, we won't be allowing visitors until we're able... 891 01:15:33,901 --> 01:15:34,935 Excuse me. 892 01:15:36,170 --> 01:15:38,205 Tarrell, we just need to pray. 893 01:15:58,993 --> 01:16:01,562 - Our Father... - Come on, bro. 894 01:16:01,662 --> 01:16:02,930 who art in heaven... 895 01:16:03,030 --> 01:16:05,466 You know praying ain't gonna do shit. 896 01:16:05,566 --> 01:16:07,001 hallowed be thy name... 897 01:16:07,735 --> 01:16:08,736 'Rell. 898 01:16:08,836 --> 01:16:09,937 thy kingdom come... 899 01:16:10,037 --> 01:16:11,338 Come on, bro, let's go. 900 01:16:11,439 --> 01:16:12,973 thy will be done 901 01:16:14,208 --> 01:16:16,410 on earth as it is in heaven. 902 01:16:16,511 --> 01:16:18,612 I need you to pray with me, Tarrell. 903 01:16:20,515 --> 01:16:22,750 Give us this day our daily bread 904 01:16:23,984 --> 01:16:28,722 and forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. 905 01:16:30,257 --> 01:16:32,660 And lead us not into temptation, 906 01:16:32,760 --> 01:16:34,728 but deliver us from evil. 907 01:16:35,996 --> 01:16:39,800 For thine is the kingdom and the power 908 01:16:39,900 --> 01:16:42,571 and the glory, forever. 909 01:16:48,577 --> 01:16:50,945 Tarrell, if you have faith, 910 01:16:51,679 --> 01:16:53,347 God can do miracles. 911 01:16:54,648 --> 01:16:55,716 - Tarrell. - Hey. 912 01:16:55,816 --> 01:16:57,151 - Tarrell. - Hey! 913 01:16:58,452 --> 01:17:02,857 Have you asked yourself once, one time, what's best for us? 914 01:17:02,957 --> 01:17:04,992 For him? For your grandson? 915 01:17:06,127 --> 01:17:07,361 Just... 916 01:17:09,063 --> 01:17:11,999 You don't get to just pick up where you left off, La'Ron. 917 01:17:41,929 --> 01:17:43,864 You're awake. I'm sorry. 918 01:17:45,366 --> 01:17:46,734 Yeah, I didn't sleep. 919 01:17:47,468 --> 01:17:50,070 I'm gonna head back to the hospital. 920 01:17:50,804 --> 01:17:52,206 All right. 921 01:17:52,306 --> 01:17:54,408 - I'm gonna get dressed. I'll take you. - No. No, no, no. 922 01:17:54,509 --> 01:17:56,877 Hey, hey. It's all right. 923 01:17:57,579 --> 01:18:00,214 Okay? Um, we don't both need to go. 924 01:18:01,048 --> 01:18:02,483 - You sure? - Yeah, yeah. 925 01:18:02,584 --> 01:18:04,685 - Walking-walking will be good. - Okay. 926 01:18:04,785 --> 01:18:07,622 If anything changes, I'll-I'll let you know. 927 01:18:07,721 --> 01:18:09,123 - Okay. - All right. 928 01:18:13,562 --> 01:18:15,996 I'll let the hotel know we're gonna stay here for a while. 929 01:18:16,096 --> 01:18:19,233 No. No, Aisha, it's your turn. 930 01:18:20,234 --> 01:18:22,803 Now, when Mama wakes up and find out that you hadn't finished that song, 931 01:18:22,903 --> 01:18:26,240 - you know she gonna whup your behind, right? 932 01:18:26,340 --> 01:18:29,176 Plus, I, uh, I called Regina and Uncle Mike. 933 01:18:29,276 --> 01:18:32,012 They said they can look after Jermaine for a few days, so... 934 01:18:34,815 --> 01:18:36,183 Yeah. 935 01:18:36,817 --> 01:18:38,152 Yeah. 936 01:18:46,595 --> 01:18:48,095 Mama gonna be good. 937 01:18:52,333 --> 01:18:53,334 All right. 938 01:19:17,791 --> 01:19:18,993 Tarrell. 939 01:19:21,929 --> 01:19:24,331 I figured you'd probably wanna go see your mama first thing. 940 01:19:26,133 --> 01:19:27,167 I can drive. 941 01:19:29,537 --> 01:19:31,205 Just let me drive you, Tarrell. 942 01:19:43,817 --> 01:19:45,486 You wanna get some breakfast first? 943 01:19:46,854 --> 01:19:48,222 Breakfast? 944 01:19:48,322 --> 01:19:49,724 No. 945 01:19:49,823 --> 01:19:52,594 Just wanna get to the hospital. 946 01:19:52,694 --> 01:19:55,796 You remember you used to make breakfast before our dump runs? 947 01:19:59,066 --> 01:20:01,201 Man, we used to work, boy. 948 01:20:02,336 --> 01:20:03,470 Couldn't stop us. 949 01:20:04,371 --> 01:20:07,074 Ain't no father and son ever work like we worked. 950 01:20:07,575 --> 01:20:10,244 My boy used to work like a man. 951 01:20:11,078 --> 01:20:13,981 Boy, you used to be up on that truck faster than me. 952 01:20:14,081 --> 01:20:15,983 All we ever did was work. 953 01:20:17,217 --> 01:20:19,153 Don't know nothing else, man. 954 01:20:20,154 --> 01:20:22,122 I done told you about my daddy. 955 01:20:23,257 --> 01:20:25,993 That man didn't teach me nothing but work. 956 01:20:27,861 --> 01:20:29,963 I had to put steel in you, boy. 957 01:20:30,998 --> 01:20:33,267 You remember how hard it was around here. 958 01:20:35,069 --> 01:20:37,071 I had to be hard on you. 959 01:20:38,872 --> 01:20:42,009 Can't nobody say that you're weak or soft. 960 01:20:42,843 --> 01:20:45,012 Can't nobody say that you don't know how to work. 961 01:20:46,914 --> 01:20:48,248 I taught you that. 962 01:21:02,664 --> 01:21:03,897 Open it. 963 01:21:17,712 --> 01:21:19,146 Now, that's my favorite. 964 01:21:20,114 --> 01:21:22,517 It's called The Preacher's Wife. 965 01:21:22,617 --> 01:21:24,351 That's Mama, right? 966 01:21:24,451 --> 01:21:25,587 That's my mama. 967 01:21:27,955 --> 01:21:29,490 That's my prayer closet. 968 01:21:32,694 --> 01:21:34,328 I never stopped praying for you. 969 01:21:47,341 --> 01:21:48,375 I hear you. 970 01:21:50,678 --> 01:21:51,912 In my head. 971 01:21:58,385 --> 01:21:59,521 But your voice... 972 01:22:02,657 --> 01:22:07,961 it ain't just forcing me to work or screaming at me when I'm tired. 973 01:22:09,864 --> 01:22:11,999 When Jermaine... 974 01:22:12,834 --> 01:22:17,204 when Jermaine messes up, I think of something that you might say. 975 01:22:19,440 --> 01:22:20,642 It scares me. 976 01:22:22,544 --> 01:22:25,145 Man, you put steel in me all right. 977 01:22:26,815 --> 01:22:28,650 But sometimes Jermaine... 978 01:22:31,351 --> 01:22:33,320 I think he just needs to cry. 979 01:22:56,310 --> 01:22:59,079 Yeah, seems like he's stable. 980 01:22:59,179 --> 01:23:01,482 He survived. It was such a scare. 981 01:24:08,482 --> 01:24:09,551 You knew. 982 01:24:14,556 --> 01:24:16,558 That's why you didn't wanna pack. 983 01:24:20,360 --> 01:24:22,396 You knew this was coming. 984 01:24:35,208 --> 01:24:37,311 I just wanted to bring you home. 985 01:24:38,880 --> 01:24:40,682 I just— I was trying to... 986 01:24:44,451 --> 01:24:47,354 What am I gonna tell Jermaine? 987 01:24:54,294 --> 01:24:55,697 I'm sorry, Mama. 988 01:24:59,067 --> 01:25:00,267 Mama. 989 01:25:03,370 --> 01:25:04,404 Mama? 990 01:25:09,476 --> 01:25:10,511 I'm sorry. 991 01:26:05,833 --> 01:26:06,968 Tarrell. 992 01:26:07,702 --> 01:26:10,337 Tarrell, what's wrong? 993 01:26:10,437 --> 01:26:13,007 - My God, baby, where are your shoes? - I don't... 994 01:26:13,107 --> 01:26:14,909 What happened, Tarrell? What happened? 995 01:26:15,009 --> 01:26:17,177 I stepped on a nail. 996 01:26:19,413 --> 01:26:22,650 - Where's your father? - I don't know. 997 01:26:22,750 --> 01:26:25,485 Come on, baby. Uh, let me take you to the hospital. 998 01:26:25,586 --> 01:26:27,855 - We gonna go— It's gonna be all right. 999 01:26:27,955 --> 01:26:30,725 - It's okay, baby. It's gonna be okay. 1000 01:27:10,363 --> 01:27:11,566 La'Ron. 1001 01:27:15,268 --> 01:27:17,538 What happened to my son? 1002 01:27:22,710 --> 01:27:23,845 La'Ron! 1003 01:27:25,312 --> 01:27:29,316 - What happened to my son? - Oh, calm down. Fuck! 1004 01:27:31,219 --> 01:27:33,453 Stop all the yelling. Geez. 1005 01:27:33,554 --> 01:27:34,655 Shit. 1006 01:27:40,027 --> 01:27:42,163 He stepped on a nail 1007 01:27:42,262 --> 01:27:45,465 with all kinds of... filth on it, 1008 01:27:46,466 --> 01:27:49,302 and you let him walk home by himself. 1009 01:27:49,402 --> 01:27:52,573 You gotta stop spoiling that boy. 1010 01:27:52,673 --> 01:27:54,642 Do you hear what I'm saying to you? 1011 01:27:55,442 --> 01:27:56,844 Do you hear me? 1012 01:27:57,779 --> 01:27:58,846 He's a boy. 1013 01:27:58,946 --> 01:28:01,281 You gotta stop working him like he's a man. 1014 01:28:01,381 --> 01:28:03,117 You doing him just like your daddy did you, 1015 01:28:03,217 --> 01:28:04,218 and look at you. 1016 01:28:04,317 --> 01:28:05,620 Look at you. 1017 01:28:07,221 --> 01:28:09,356 You disgust me. 1018 01:28:12,059 --> 01:28:14,896 I can't believe you're doing this shit again. 1019 01:28:25,305 --> 01:28:27,307 I want you out of this house. 1020 01:28:29,143 --> 01:28:30,377 Yeah. 1021 01:28:30,477 --> 01:28:32,312 I want you gone. 1022 01:28:32,412 --> 01:28:36,083 I want you gone. I want you out! 1023 01:28:36,184 --> 01:28:39,153 Me and my son, me and my baby, 1024 01:28:39,253 --> 01:28:41,088 we not gonna live like this. 1025 01:28:41,189 --> 01:28:43,224 And you not making him into a man. 1026 01:28:43,323 --> 01:28:44,959 You're breaking him. 1027 01:28:45,059 --> 01:28:46,627 And he's gonna hate you for it. 1028 01:28:46,727 --> 01:28:50,363 He is going to hate you for it. 1029 01:28:50,463 --> 01:28:52,332 Well, let him just hate me, then. 1030 01:28:52,432 --> 01:28:54,836 I want you out of this house. 1031 01:28:54,936 --> 01:28:56,704 - This is my house! - I want you gone. 1032 01:28:56,804 --> 01:28:59,841 - This is my motherfucking house! - I want you out of this house! 1033 01:28:59,941 --> 01:29:01,742 I ain't going nowhere! 1034 01:29:01,843 --> 01:29:04,512 - Did you hear me? This my motherfucking house! - I want you out of my house! 1035 01:29:04,612 --> 01:29:07,148 I'm not going nowhere! 1036 01:29:58,498 --> 01:30:00,735 Why you make me do this? 1037 01:30:03,304 --> 01:30:06,607 Mom? Mom? Mom? 1038 01:30:09,010 --> 01:30:10,144 What did you do? 1039 01:30:11,478 --> 01:30:13,915 La'Ron, what did you do? 1040 01:30:14,015 --> 01:30:16,617 Mom? Mom? 1041 01:30:17,251 --> 01:30:18,286 Mom? 1042 01:30:18,386 --> 01:30:20,721 La'Ron, what did you do? 1043 01:30:22,690 --> 01:30:25,760 Mom? Mom, can you— can you wake up? 1044 01:30:25,860 --> 01:30:28,963 Mom? Mom? 1045 01:30:32,400 --> 01:30:34,467 Mom. Help me! 1046 01:30:34,568 --> 01:30:36,604 Help me get her up! 1047 01:30:37,672 --> 01:30:39,674 Help me get her up! 1048 01:37:36,691 --> 01:37:40,094 - Hi. How are you? - Hi. Just wanna say, big fan of your work. 1049 01:37:40,194 --> 01:37:42,029 - It's absolutely stunning. - Thank you. 1050 01:37:42,129 --> 01:37:44,532 Oh, my God. Can I get a selfie? 1051 01:37:44,632 --> 01:37:46,568 Uh, yeah. Yeah, sure. 1052 01:37:48,302 --> 01:37:50,672 - Awesome. - All right. Thank you. 1053 01:37:51,305 --> 01:37:53,140 All right, thank you. Yes. Love it. 1054 01:37:53,240 --> 01:37:55,677 - Um, Mrs., uh... - Yeah. Barbara. 1055 01:37:55,777 --> 01:37:56,745 - Barbara. Barbara. - Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yes. 1056 01:37:56,845 --> 01:37:58,278 It's good to see you. Hi. 1057 01:37:58,379 --> 01:38:00,247 - Yes, hi. I'm another Barbara. - This is Barbara too, yes. 1058 01:38:00,347 --> 01:38:02,216 Yes, you know, I've known him for a long time. 1059 01:38:02,316 --> 01:38:04,051 - Almost 20 years. - Oh, yes. Oh, yes. 1060 01:38:04,151 --> 01:38:06,053 - Tarrell, this is James Kirlin. - - Hi. 1061 01:38:06,153 --> 01:38:07,789 He's been wanting to meet you for a really, really long time. 1062 01:38:07,888 --> 01:38:09,323 - Pleasure to meet you. Nice to meet you, James. - Nice to meet you. 1063 01:38:09,423 --> 01:38:11,860 - He owns two of your works. - Oh, wow. 1064 01:38:11,959 --> 01:38:14,562 I remember his paintings at the Studio Museum. 1065 01:38:14,662 --> 01:38:16,296 - Yeah. Yes, Studio— - Hey. Hi. 1066 01:38:16,397 --> 01:38:18,265 - Can I steal you for just a minute? - Right, yeah. Sorry. So sorry. 1067 01:38:18,365 --> 01:38:19,933 - I have collages of your work and paintings. - - Oh. 1068 01:38:20,033 --> 01:38:21,402 - So good to see you. Thank you. - Nice to see you again. 1069 01:38:21,502 --> 01:38:22,837 - Can't wait to get back to it. - Thank you. 1070 01:38:22,936 --> 01:38:24,873 Okay. Thank you. 1071 01:38:24,972 --> 01:38:27,241 Can you hang out a little-a little while longer? 1072 01:38:27,341 --> 01:38:30,845 Uh, um, just a little bit, but not-not much longer. 1073 01:38:30,944 --> 01:38:32,413 I-I wanna— I wanna get back. 1074 01:38:32,514 --> 01:38:33,515 Aisha— I wanna get back. 1075 01:38:33,615 --> 01:38:36,618 - Aisha-Aisha went home, right? - Yeah. Yeah. 1076 01:38:36,718 --> 01:38:39,687 All right, give me like— give me another 20 minutes. 1077 01:38:39,788 --> 01:38:41,556 - Okay, ten minutes sounds good. - Uh... 1078 01:38:42,923 --> 01:38:45,359 You know, I have been saving something for you. 1079 01:38:45,459 --> 01:38:47,161 I have ten other people interested, 1080 01:38:47,261 --> 01:38:48,962 but this one, right over there, 1081 01:38:49,062 --> 01:38:50,130 - what do you think? - I love it. 1082 01:38:50,230 --> 01:38:52,567 I know. 1083 01:38:53,467 --> 01:38:55,202 Excuse me. Excuse me! 1084 01:38:55,302 --> 01:38:57,672 Sir, don't touch the artwork. 1085 01:39:01,408 --> 01:39:03,511 Oh, my God, you're Tarrell's father. 1086 01:39:04,178 --> 01:39:08,482 Oh, my God, I am so sorry. Forgive me. 1087 01:39:08,583 --> 01:39:10,217 Oh, wow. 1088 01:39:10,317 --> 01:39:11,853 I didn't mean to speak to you like that. 1089 01:39:11,952 --> 01:39:13,621 I-I'm sorry, ma'am. 1090 01:39:15,956 --> 01:39:17,659 It just got a hold of me. 1091 01:39:17,759 --> 01:39:19,293 I know exactly what you mean. 1092 01:39:19,393 --> 01:39:20,528 It is... 1093 01:39:21,094 --> 01:39:22,664 Ha. I'm Janine. 1094 01:39:22,764 --> 01:39:24,331 I represent Tarrell. 1095 01:39:24,431 --> 01:39:26,233 Wow, that son of yours is so talented. 1096 01:39:26,333 --> 01:39:28,068 I bet he gets that from you. 1097 01:39:42,015 --> 01:39:43,350 Tarrell. 1098 01:39:44,886 --> 01:39:46,086 Tarrell. 1099 01:39:47,020 --> 01:39:48,255 Tarrell. 1100 01:39:50,692 --> 01:39:52,727 I own several of your paintings. 1101 01:39:54,394 --> 01:39:57,632 My favorite piece, I hang over my bed. 1102 01:40:00,400 --> 01:40:05,105 I mean, my kids have grown up seeing your work every day. 1103 01:40:05,205 --> 01:40:06,841 Um, when my daughter went off to Dartmouth, 1104 01:40:06,941 --> 01:40:10,177 she insisted that her mother and I let her take a smaller piece, 1105 01:40:10,277 --> 01:40:12,514 hang it in her dorm room. 1106 01:40:12,614 --> 01:40:14,949 Oh, can I take a picture of you to send to Jenny? 1107 01:40:15,750 --> 01:40:17,952 - ... which I think is really interesting. - - Hm? 1108 01:40:18,051 --> 01:40:21,188 - Oh, she's gonna love this. - It's a beautiful piece. The light in there... 1109 01:40:22,122 --> 01:40:23,323 No? 1110 01:40:24,491 --> 01:40:26,326 - Oh, come on, she's gonna— - Don't-don't-don't touch me. 1111 01:40:26,426 --> 01:40:28,362 - She's gonna love this. - Don't touch— don't touch me. 1112 01:40:28,462 --> 01:40:29,496 Hey. 1113 01:40:31,265 --> 01:40:33,500 - Tarrell? - I just bought the painting you're standing in front of. 1114 01:40:33,601 --> 01:40:35,837 - I don't think a picture is too much to ask for. - Tarrell? 1115 01:40:35,937 --> 01:40:38,505 - I said don't fucking touch me. - Tarrell, this is Arthur Emanuel. 1116 01:40:38,606 --> 01:40:40,173 You don't know me. 1117 01:40:40,274 --> 01:40:42,276 - Arthur and Teresa Emanuel. - Yes, thank you. 1118 01:40:42,376 --> 01:40:44,411 - I don't-I don't know you. - All right? Just 'cause you bought a fucking painting 1119 01:40:44,512 --> 01:40:46,079 - does not mean you know me, okay? - I'm a big supporter of you. 1120 01:40:46,179 --> 01:40:47,381 - Tarrell, calm down. - Okay? I'm your biggest fan. 1121 01:40:47,481 --> 01:40:49,116 - All right? - I'm a big supporter of you. 1122 01:40:49,216 --> 01:40:50,585 Did she tell you about this painting? You know who this is? 1123 01:40:50,685 --> 01:40:52,587 - It's your mom, right? - Huh? It's my dead mother. 1124 01:40:52,687 --> 01:40:55,957 - Okay. - You wanna hang her picture over your— over your bed too? 1125 01:40:56,056 --> 01:40:57,959 - Is that what you wanna do? I got a better idea. - I'm sorry. 1126 01:40:58,058 --> 01:40:59,761 - I'm very sorry. - Why don't you take the painting of my dead mother 1127 01:40:59,861 --> 01:41:02,396 and-and give it to your daughter, uh, Katie or Jenny, 1128 01:41:02,496 --> 01:41:04,331 - or whatever the fuck her name is... - Control yourself. 1129 01:41:04,431 --> 01:41:06,634 - ... as a graduation present. - Come on, son. 1130 01:41:07,234 --> 01:41:08,636 Arthur. 1131 01:41:38,766 --> 01:41:39,801 You okay? 1132 01:41:42,269 --> 01:41:43,571 Why are you here? 1133 01:41:49,176 --> 01:41:50,778 Why are you here? 1134 01:41:55,016 --> 01:41:57,284 I haven't seen you since the funeral. 1135 01:41:57,384 --> 01:41:59,754 - I thought— - Why are you here, La'Ron? 1136 01:42:05,026 --> 01:42:06,628 You painted me, Tarrell. 1137 01:42:10,297 --> 01:42:15,737 This painting was about me being freed from the darkness that I've done. 1138 01:42:15,837 --> 01:42:18,205 Hm. That's good. 1139 01:42:19,574 --> 01:42:20,842 Oh, that's good. 1140 01:42:21,375 --> 01:42:23,077 God was speaking through that painting. 1141 01:42:25,312 --> 01:42:26,648 I'm glad for you. 1142 01:42:28,082 --> 01:42:30,618 - 'Cause everything just gets erased, huh? 1143 01:42:30,718 --> 01:42:33,387 That's God's grace, Tarrell. 1144 01:42:35,123 --> 01:42:36,490 Grace? 1145 01:42:41,062 --> 01:42:42,664 You know, everything I saw 1146 01:42:42,764 --> 01:42:48,435 plays in my head again and again and again and again, 1147 01:42:48,536 --> 01:42:50,237 and you talking about grace. 1148 01:42:56,778 --> 01:42:59,047 You think that painting is about you getting set free? 1149 01:42:59,147 --> 01:43:01,281 - You think that that painting is about you? 1150 01:43:02,416 --> 01:43:06,054 That painting is about me trying to keep the past from sneaking up behind me 1151 01:43:06,154 --> 01:43:08,589 and destroying my everything. 1152 01:43:08,690 --> 01:43:13,360 I put it on canvas so that I could hold that shit by the throat. 1153 01:43:13,460 --> 01:43:15,096 What you want me to say? 1154 01:43:15,195 --> 01:43:16,964 I raised you the best way I knew how. 1155 01:43:17,065 --> 01:43:18,099 No, nigga, my mama raised me. 1156 01:43:18,198 --> 01:43:20,001 I did you the way my daddy did me. 1157 01:43:20,101 --> 01:43:22,469 - Oh, this— - But it worked on you. 1158 01:43:22,570 --> 01:43:26,074 I mean, look at everything you've got, Tarrell. 1159 01:43:26,174 --> 01:43:27,909 Your art, your family. 1160 01:43:28,609 --> 01:43:30,712 What I did wrong taught you to do right. 1161 01:43:30,812 --> 01:43:33,181 You need to thank God for that. 1162 01:43:33,280 --> 01:43:34,549 Thank God? 1163 01:43:35,315 --> 01:43:37,217 So, you-you saying... 1164 01:43:39,120 --> 01:43:44,257 that me watching you abuse yourself made me a better father? 1165 01:43:45,593 --> 01:43:49,163 You beating my ass made me a better father? 1166 01:43:49,964 --> 01:43:53,366 Me watching you put your hands on my mama made me a better father? 1167 01:43:53,467 --> 01:43:55,302 And now... 1168 01:43:55,402 --> 01:43:57,739 nigga, now, you want me to thank God for that? 1169 01:43:57,839 --> 01:43:59,272 I was on crack, Tarrell. 1170 01:43:59,372 --> 01:44:02,309 - What'd you expect? - And I was a boy watching his father on crack! 1171 01:44:07,115 --> 01:44:08,448 That's not me no more. 1172 01:44:08,549 --> 01:44:11,586 - Okay. - That's not me no more. 1173 01:44:12,452 --> 01:44:16,423 It's not good to live with all that inside of you. 1174 01:44:16,524 --> 01:44:19,426 You need to forgive so God can take that away. 1175 01:44:20,427 --> 01:44:21,629 You need to pray. 1176 01:44:22,230 --> 01:44:24,132 No more prayers, La'Ron. 1177 01:44:24,232 --> 01:44:25,967 No more prayers. 1178 01:44:27,101 --> 01:44:29,237 Those prayers didn't save my mama. 1179 01:44:42,116 --> 01:44:43,885 You know she still loved you? 1180 01:44:48,923 --> 01:44:52,026 After all that shit you put her through... 1181 01:44:55,029 --> 01:44:56,664 she still loved you. 1182 01:45:00,067 --> 01:45:02,469 That's what we was arguing about in the park, you know. 1183 01:45:03,204 --> 01:45:04,806 I couldn't understand it. 1184 01:45:08,176 --> 01:45:09,911 But I think I get it now. 1185 01:45:11,078 --> 01:45:12,513 It wasn't for you. 1186 01:45:16,951 --> 01:45:20,988 Man, I need to move on. 1187 01:45:30,131 --> 01:45:31,833 La'Ron, I forgive you. 1188 01:45:34,902 --> 01:45:36,503 For what you did to me. 1189 01:45:39,040 --> 01:45:41,876 But I will never forget what you did to my mama. 1190 01:45:44,411 --> 01:45:47,815 We-we still got the future. 1191 01:45:54,188 --> 01:45:55,488 No, man. 1192 01:45:56,858 --> 01:45:58,226 No future, La'Ron. 1193 01:46:02,697 --> 01:46:05,066 You wanted my forgiveness, and I gave you that. 1194 01:46:11,371 --> 01:46:14,842 The, uh, the future... 1195 01:46:14,942 --> 01:46:18,478 the future belongs to, uh, to Aisha and to Jermaine. 1196 01:46:22,149 --> 01:46:23,584 You took the past. 1197 01:46:24,685 --> 01:46:26,554 And, man, I forgive you. 1198 01:46:27,355 --> 01:46:28,723 I understand. 1199 01:46:29,757 --> 01:46:31,759 Life didn't give you a lot of choices. 1200 01:46:34,328 --> 01:46:35,930 But the future... 1201 01:46:38,833 --> 01:46:39,934 that's mine. 1202 01:47:01,355 --> 01:47:02,790 Mama... 1203 01:47:14,101 --> 01:47:16,469 It's in a Byzantine style. 1204 01:47:16,570 --> 01:47:18,673 You know, like the religious icons. 1205 01:47:18,773 --> 01:47:21,075 I mean, he-he really put a lot of, uh... 1206 01:47:22,543 --> 01:47:23,911 Tarrell, what are you doing? 1207 01:47:25,379 --> 01:47:26,914 Tarrell, what are you doing? 1208 01:47:27,882 --> 01:47:29,750 You can't do that. What are you doing? 1209 01:47:30,918 --> 01:47:32,019 Tarrell. 1210 01:47:43,197 --> 01:47:44,732 For your prayer closet. 1211 01:47:52,773 --> 01:47:54,508 Don't stop praying for me. 1212 01:52:19,840 --> 01:52:21,175 You okay, Dad? 1213 01:52:21,275 --> 01:52:22,243 Yeah. 1214 01:52:22,343 --> 01:52:23,712 Yeah, I'm all right. 1215 01:52:23,811 --> 01:52:25,079 I love you. 1216 01:52:26,648 --> 01:52:27,948 I love you. 1217 01:52:30,451 --> 01:52:31,452 Come on.