Confidence, charisma, sex appeal.
These are all the qualities that I offer
if you vote for me to be your head boy.
- Now, what can I do as your head boy? - Charlie?
Last year's head boy promised…
- You feeling okay? - No, but it's too late to back out now.
The speech is great.
The rugby lads said they'll vote for you even if you're shit.
I just think everyone's gonna laugh at me.
You're smart. You are tough.
You've been through way worse than a speech. Okay?
Up next,
Charlie Spring.
Go on.
Uh, hi, everyone.
My name's Charlie.
A lot of you probably already know who I am because
I'm one of the only openly gay people in this school.
I used to be scared of anyone finding out I was gay because
I thought the other boys would bully me for it.
And they did.
They called me slurs, shoved me around, made me scared to come to school.
Most of all, they made me feel like I was the problem.
But I wasn't.
- He's got this. - I know.
The problem was the culture of bullying that existed in this school.
Guys often struggle with mental health 'cause we keep our feelings to ourselves.
We have to brush everything off as banter and pretend we feel okay when we don't.
Pretend that being made fun of or laughed at
or kicked or punched or whatever isn't scary or upsetting or…
pretend it isn't fucking shit.
I want to be head boy to end the culture of bullying at Truham.
I wanna destroy the homophobia that made my life hell.
I want to make it easier and safer to exist in this school
no matter who you are.
So if you want that too, I hope you'll vote for me.
Charlie!
Yeah, boy!
Charlie!
- Vote for Charlie. - Speak up, use your voice.
Vote for Charlie Spring to end bullying. Vote for Charlie Spring.
Vote for head boy.
I will, I will.
- Here you go. - Can you bring it up that way?
…the neighbors on your street
You're far more cooler The flavor of the week
'Cause I need your love
Save my body, step on me
Okay, the moment you've all been waiting for.
This year's head boy
with 61% of the vote,
Charlie Spring.
Yes!
Well done, Charlie.
I live in my mind
And you can't make this right
It's labyrinthine
Again, I've got to try…
Everyone, it's the new head boy of Truham Grammar!
- Okay. - Hey. Hi.
- Hi. - Hi, Charlie!
- Hey. - Hey.
- How does he just keep getting hotter? - You are such a simp.
- Well, I'm just proud of him. - Sorry, mate.
I should definitely ask for a recount.
It's not like he said anything important. He didn't even talk about the canteen.
- Behave. - Whatever.
I mean, I think I… I probably am a, you know…
- But, like, what if I'm bi? - It's okay.
Found some.
Sahar said she's not coming. She's staying home to work on a new song.
You know she's taking next year off to focus on her music. On her gap year.
Mm. Maybe I should take a gap year too.
Yeah? What about uni?
What about uni?
I really miss you You were my best friend…
Hey.
Come dance.
Mm-hmm.
All the meaning in emotion I'm emotionless
And you're…
Mm. You good?
It's gonna be so weird next year without you.
Yeah, I… I know.
How do you all know each other?
Yeah, we were a group of, like, three different friendship groups,
and then, yeah, we came to Paris and we all became best friends.
It was beautiful. Shall we come in here? Oh my gosh, it looks incredible.
I want my future house to be decorated like this.
Don't you get picked on for that?
Uh, yeah, sometimes. Doesn't seem to bother me though.
I like that you don't care about people thinking you're weird.
"Always keep raw thoughts close"
"When you get fucked up And you're going back home"
Fuck it, girl, I really miss you You were my best friend
In the hours when it falls I try to comprehend
All the meaning in emotion I'm emotionless
And you're sitting by the ocean Thinking about sex
Thinking about…
Oh, that's great.
You're so slow!
Oh, am I now?
Run!
- Whoo! - Whoo-hoo!
Run! Run!
I am!
Ooh!
And you're thinking about sex
I'm thinking about you
And you're thinking about sex
I'm thinking about you
And you're thinking about sex
I'm thinking about you
Whoa!
What you doing?
You're so cute.
They were scratching at the door.
There you go.
Come here.
Then you'll get a job as a rugby coach for two-year-olds,
and I'll be a famous historian, and we'll have a flat with a river view.
You better sell a lot of books
'cause I don't think I'm earning much as a coach for toddlers.
Then we'll go to the gay club, then we'll come home,
have sex, and then in the morning, you can make us pancakes.
Oh, I like this plan.
I think I'm probably gonna put Leeds as my top choice for uni.
The city's great.
You know, we saw the rugby team.
I don't know, I can actually see myself there.
Were you scared to tell me that?
Well, yeah. It's… it's, like, far away.
Five-hour drive or something.
Yeah, I'll just learn to drive or get the train.
We look like babies.
We were.
You know I don't actually like rugby, don't you?
Well, it's not one of your passions or anything, but…
Nick, I joined the rugby team 'cause I had an insane crush on you.
Are you gonna miss me?
A little bit.
Mm. Sure I can't change your mind, Charlie?
Ah, no, sorry.
- Last year. - Yeah. Last year?
He's really strong. I'll go three today. You go two.
- He's good, then? - Yeah, very good.
Don't worry about technique. Just pass the ball.
He's definitely a swot.
I cut my hair The way you say you like it
Have I got no free will?
I took the long way home
To make a point about it
Now I'm late, but what a thrill
Been trying to be everything
But I can't be your rock And your lover, your mom
And I've tried
Now I'm not anything
Just a painting that's meant To blend in with the wall
I'm tired If I'm your everything, who am I?
See, when you get sad I find it all consuming…
Latte for Patrick?
Thanks.
Rawr.
Oh, David's here, by the way.
Why is David here?
He broke up with Jess, so he's moved back.
Good for Jess, but I hate that he's here again.
Yeah, it's fine.
It makes you so anxious though.
I wish he'd just piss off out of your life.
I don't know, it's…
it's complicated.
I'm not here for sex, you know.
I could help you with your essay.
Or we could go for a drive, sit by the river.
- Or we could just talk. - No.
No, I just wanna…
Maybe it's not a good idea if David's in the house.
We can be quiet.
Oh, I'm so glad you came over.
What do you wanna…
- I can… - Let me.
Wait. Uh, did you lock the door?
Shit.
Sorry. Sorry.
It's okay.
One day, we'll have our own place.
Look at me.
Did you get it?
No.
Yeah, I'm fine. I'm in the up…
Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I… I'm… honestly, I have no problem with that. I'll drive.
I'm not letting you drive, am I?
I was awarded best team player at rugby camp when I was 12
and given the sportsmanship trophy at 14.
Not only am I the captain of the rugby team,
but I am also incredibly handsome and have a very nice…
Oi…
Okay, but you have to let me talk about how lovely and kind
and brave and smart you are.
Maybe you should get a part-time job or a volunteering job or something.
Yeah. Yeah, maybe.
Rugby's good, but
you should have something outside of school just for you.
Maybe then you'll start to realize how great you are.
Hey. You okay?
Did you wanna talk to me about something?
Growing up queer can be so isolating and scary.
Especially in a single-sex school.
You're an easy target for bullies. You might struggle to make friends.
Queer kids need a space they feel supported by older students and teachers.
The thing is, Charlie, it sets a precedent.
We don't have any other clubs for… social groups.
Well, maybe this could be the first.
I don't think I can commit to this right now, Charlie.
Let's wait a few months, and we'll revisit.
Yeah
Hey
Yeah…
He's got a mustache.
I'm training with a new coach up north.
Also teaching kids how to skate, which is endlessly entertaining.
He won't say it, but he's training to qualify for the Winter Olympics.
Wait, are you serious?
There's more to it, but, yeah, that's the general idea.
- So you're just back for the weekend? - Yeah.
I mean, three months without seeing Tori, so…
- Yeah, sounds rough. - I mean, we're okay though.
I mean, there's… there's her life and my life,
and when we're together, it's… it's like…
But when we're apart, it's like…
Whoo…
Also, phones exist, so…
I think you need to finish this 'cause I'm struggling.
Wait, if you hold the end, I can…
Hey.
Hey, what's up? What's going on?
I had a dream you died.
What?
Sorry, I…
It's so stupid. I just… It felt really real.
Sorry.
It's okay.
It's not real. I'm right here.
- Can you… - Got it.
Thank you.
I'll take that.
- I'll get that. - Great.
All right. Santa Claus is coming to town.
- Yes, please. - You look a bit like him.
Everyone say cheers and thank you to Nick for being able to legally buy alcohol.
I know that's the only reason you keep me around.
Oh, don't say that.
Charlie looks fit.
It's the self-confidence. It's transformative.
I think when you know yourself, it's really powerful.
- Speaking of, I wanted to… - Okay, everybody, we are Queer Intentions.
Whoo! Whoo-whoo!
We're here to play you some music tonight, so who's ready to rock?
I'm ready! I'm ready!
- Who's dancing? - I like this one.
- Let's dance. - What, already?
- Yes. Come on, Nicholas! - I've just got… Wait.
I only know I never wanna let you go
'Cause you started something Oh, can't you see
That ever since we met You've had a hold on me?
It happens to be true
I only wanna be with you
You stopped to smile at me…
Yeah, Charlie!
Asked me if I'd care to dance
I fell into your open arms
I didn't stand a chance
Now listen, honey I just wanna be beside you everywhere…
- Go on, Charlie! - Nick! Hey, Nick. Tequila!
- Ah… - Sort him out. Sort him out.
- Here, bro. - Okay.
- You ready? - Yep.
- Right. Everyone. - Right.
- Cheers. - Cheers.
Oh my…
I only wanna be with you
- I'm okay. - Let's go again.
- No, I'm okay. - Come on!
Please. Come on. One more.
- Come on. - All right, okay.
- You ready? - Yeah.
Right.
- And cheers, boys. - Cheers.
Now listen, honey I just want to be beside you everywhere
As long as we're together Honey, I don't care
'Cause you've started something Oh, can't you see
That ever since we met You've got a hold on me?
No matter what you do
- I only wanna be with you - Yeah!
No matter what you do
I only, only, only, only
I only wanna be with you
One more song! One more song!
Um, so we have got another song for you.
It's a Christmas song 'cause the manager says we have to.
But you might recognize this one.
- Deck the halls with… - Oh, I love this one.
'Tis the season to be jolly…
Have we met?
Yeah, I think, uh, I think we maybe went to drama school together. Yeah.
- Nice to meet you. - Don we now our gay apparel…
The band is so good.
Yeah. Yeah. That's… that's actually my boyfriend.
Oh, hi.
See the blazing yule before us
Strike the harp and join the chorus
Fast away the old year passes
Fa la la la, la la la
Hail the new year Lads and lasses
Fa la la la, la la la
Sing we joyous all together
Fa la la la, la la la
Heedless of the wind And weather
Fa la la la, la la la…
- I love you! Oh! - See the blazing yule before us
Strike the harp and join the chorus
Fa la la la la, la la la la
- Follow me in merry measure - Fa la la la la la, la la la
While I tell
- Of Yuletide treasure - Whoo!
It's like you don't even care about my dreams.
I respect your dreams, but not coming to visit me at all?
I mean, Berlin's not even that far. It's two hours by plane.
I don't know what you want me to say, Tao.
I'm sorry I'm not rich and have money to get on a flight every two min…
Hey, hey, hey, hey. You need to talk to each other. Like, communicate.
It's… it's just about communicating and, and, and saying what's in there.
That's… that's all that matters, and then you'll be able to connect…
Yeah, okay, Nick.
No, if you love each other, it's easy.
You know, me and Charlie, we love each other…
Yeah, we get it. You and Charlie are perfect, all right?
It's… it's just not the time right now, Nick.
All right.
You guys were so good.
Um, I've always wanted to learn how to play the drums.
- Oh, well, you… you still could. - Yeah…
It just… it seems so hard, though, you know?
Any drumming advice?
Just… just practice.
Hey, you all right?
Charlie was just giving me some drumming tips.
Really? 'Cause it looks like you were just flirting with my boyfriend.
Well, we were just having a conversation, so…
Okay, well, conversation's over.
Nick!
- Nick, are you okay? - He was flirting with you, so…
Yeah, I know he was. I can handle myself.
I didn't march over when that girl was flirting with you earlier, did I?
No, but that's different, isn't it?
- Tao, can we just talk, please? - No, I don't want to.
- We can figure this out. - Nothing to say.
- I'm gonna get another drink. - No. You've had enough.
Nick.
Hey, I'm going home. Is he okay?
- Yeah, he's all right, I think. - Hey, I'm glad.
- Another pint of lager, please. - Sorry, mate, the bar's closed.
Shit.
- I think everyone hates me. - Let's get you home.
- Are you angry at me? - No, I'm not. Come on.
- Sure? - I'm not angry. I…
Let's just get an Uber or something.
What the fuck is wrong with him?
I need to get him home.
Throw up in the car and I'll kill you.
Come on.
Nick, open the door.
- I'm fine. - No, you're not. Let me in.
Charlie, it's not nice, okay? You don't wanna be in here.
Yes, I do.
I don't care. Let me help you.
I don't need your help!
Nick, let me in.
Sorry.
What happened?
I don't know. I just…
I got really drunk.
The lads kept giving me loads of shots,
and… and I saw that guy flirting with you, and I just…
I went crazy.
But why?
You know nothing would ever happen.
Let's talk about it tomorrow.
I love knowing that we have tomorrow.
I thought you'd wanna sleep in. You were so pissed last night.
Yeah. I threw up again, like, half an hour ago.
- Not a great sign for the match today. - Hmm.
The pancakes are a "sorry" for last night.
You didn't have to do that.
Well, I am, 'cause I was a mess.
I've never seen you like that.
It was funny at first, but then it wasn't.
I'm worried about you.
I'm all good.
Right, I think these are nearly done.
I don't think I can do pancakes today.
- Are you not feeling good, or… - I don't know.
Is that why you keep forgetting your lunch at school?
No, I…
I don't know. I'm…
I'm gonna go shower.
- Charlie, you can talk to me, you know. - Why can't you talk to me?
About what?
Whatever it is that's making you feel so anxious. I wanna support you.
Okay, you don't need to use your therapy speak on me. It's fine.
- I'm going home. - No, wait, I…
When you actually wanna talk to me, I'll be there. Okay?
Can you just please eat something when you get home?
Oh shit.
- Thought you were at Nick's? - Yeah, I was.
Toast?
Come on!
Go, go!
Go on, Nick! Go on, Nick!
Yeah.
- Well done, Nick! - Nice one.
I know you know it's normal to have bad days and bad weeks,
but excess stress can certainly trigger them.
Have you been dealing with any additional stress lately?
On the wing!
Foul!
Dickhead!
I thought after all this, I'd at least know how to help people.
What's the point of it otherwise?
Are you referring to your head boy duties or something else?
Come on.
I'm so worried about Nick.
He started it!
- Are you all right? - Someone get a teacher, man.
Look at me.
You okay?
Dr. Walters, please come to ward 24. Thank you.
That's Dr. Walters to ward 24.
Silly boy.
- Hey, Mum. - Hi, Sarah.
Silly, silly boy.
Yeah, I probably shouldn't have…
No, probably not.
Here.
You look like a wounded soldier.
Nice of Charlie to wait at the hospital.
Yeah.
Oh dear. What's happened?
Uh, we had an argument.
Which was my fault.
You haven't really been yourself lately.
I don't know. I…
I thought I was a good boyfriend.
Turns out I can't even do that.
Hey. Hey, come on.
- Hi. - Hi.
- Say hi.
Hiya.
Hello, Nellie.
Does it hurt?
Yeah, it hurts a bit.
It's not too bad.
Doing anything today?
Not really. Um…
Do you wanna come in?
Do you wanna come round mine?
My family are out, and I've got a surprise for you.
I spent a while
Looking up at the moon
I'll try to light
All the candles above me
Don't wanna hide anymore
From the light of the truth…
- Ha-ha! - And it's not your fault
She looks like I do…
Oi.
- Wait. Okay. Okay! - No! No, no, no. Don't!
- I'm gonna get you… - No, no, no! Ah!
- I'll get you back. - No, no, no! Oh-oh!
Oh, yes!
- No! Ah! - Okay.
Hey, Nick. Nick, no!
No. Wait, wait. Stop, stop.
- Ow! - Stop!
Oh.
Oh wow.
Oh. Whoo. Ah.
The idea was a get-well-soon gift,
but we could sit in there all day while you're feeling rough.
I got carried away with the construction.
This is adorable.
Go on, then.
- Come on. - I'm coming, I'm coming.
I got you something. Early Christmas present.
What?
It's your last year of school.
I thought you could record some memories,
and then you can take them to Leeds and put them on your wall or something.
Let's give it a go.
Actually, wait, one more.
Down here. Okay. Okay.
- Ready? - Yeah.
Smile.
Thank you.
- Probably could've waited until Christmas. - Mm, I thought you needed cheering up.
Mm.
Do you remember the first time we had sex?
I remember that in extremely graphic detail.
Do you remember what you said to me
just before?
You said that
I'm the only one you can talk to.
That you felt lost.
You know a couple of weeks back when I had that dream about you dying?
Yeah.
It wasn't just you dying. It was how you died.
It was my fault.
- Did you murder me in cold blood? - No, I…
I missed the signs.
It all happened again, the stuff from last year, but…
you didn't get help, and you didn't get better, and…
and when you were gone…
everything went blurry.
You know, it was… it was just me on my own in a house,
and… there was nothing.
I was nothing.
It wasn't your fault when I relapsed in January.
- It was. - No, it wasn't.
If I can't protect you, who even am I?
If you don't need me anymore…
I do need you.
I need you because you're you.
And I love you.
- See, now I feel like a dick. - Why?
'Cause you shared a feeling?
Do you need me?
Yeah.
Yeah. So much.
Can we have sex?
And I know this is the third time we've "broken up,"
but I'm only using quotation marks because is it really a break-up
if we haven't literally said, "Let's break up"?
We're just temporarily not speaking.
And we both know we'll get over it in a couple of weeks, so I'm not worried.
I'm not worried!
- I believe you. - You're looking at each other.
- I can sense… - No, you don't sound worried at all.
Oi! What do you think you're doing?
- We were just mucking around. - Yeah, it's just banter.
It didn't look like banter. It looked like bullying.
Leave.
If I see you picking on anyone else again, I'll get you suspended.
- You can't suspend us. - Try me.
You okay?
Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine.
Those boys aren't gonna pick on you again, okay?
They might.
- What's your name? - Alfie.
Hi, Alfie. I'm Charlie.
I know.
If they pick on you again, come talk to me. I'll sort them out. Okay?
Okay.
I know I can't, like, cure the world of homophobia,
but there's probably so many kids in the younger years
who just think they're completely alone.
If they had somewhere to talk to people like them,
maybe they wouldn't grow up hating themselves.
Well, you're more than welcome to use my classroom.
It doesn't even matter. Mr. Lange already said no.
I remember the first time you appeared in my classroom.
You were so quiet,
and, you know, I'm really not supposed to let people have their lunch in here.
I've been lectured about it by the deputy head many times,
and every time I got told off, I thought about you and your lunchbox
and your sad little face,
and I thought, "Well,
he needs this, and I can help."
And now look at you.
I'm very proud of you.
As your teacher, I'd say you should respect Mr. Lange's decision.
But,
as a fellow homosexual,
I'd say, historically, us queers have never asked for permission to exist.
Do with that what you will.
Uh… Hello.
I'm just here for the… the part-time position.
Oh.
You like animals?
Yeah. Yeah. I, I, I have two dogs, so…
And you wanna spend time with more dogs because… what?
I thought it might… help me build character.
I don't really do much outside of school.
Um, I'm going to uni this year, so…
- My partner told me to try something new. - Oh, did she?
Well, aren't you Mr. Self-Improvement.
I guess I have to hire you.
Fill that in for me, please.
You left your heart in the jungle…
Just joking.
Ripped off of your red bicycle
I didn't know you then…
There you go, buddy.
I gave up everything I learned
Just to follow you down…
Biscuit.
There is no map for this
When the wheels come off I'll be your spare
When the world turns on you I will be there…
You know, you don't have to pick me up after every shift.
I like picking you up.
- Plus, I wanna see the email in person. - All right.
- There you go. - You did it!
- Mm-hmm. - I'm so proud of you.
I think if I post about it on one of the Truham meme pages,
lots of people will see it, but Mr. Lange definitely won't.
But I need to do it in a way that won't attract bigoted comments.
Who's even running the meme page at the moment? Christian and Otis?
- Uh, yeah. Yeah, I think so. - I'll text them.
Right, I'm heading out.
Wait. I need more. It's our anniversary.
Is that really a two-year-anniversary kiss?
Mwah, mwah, mwah, mwah!
- How was that, darling? - Not enough, but it'll do till tonight.
- Something to look forward to. - Meet me in the park at six?
I will be there.
Nick.
I love you.
How'd you meet her, then?
Who?
Only the girlfriend you talk about nonstop every shift.
We met in school.
What's she like?
He's, uh…
He's a guy, actually.
Oh. Right.
Hmm. Pardon me.
I… I'm not of the woke generation.
I wouldn't have assumed. You know, you don't seem gay at all.
I'm bi.
Oh. Well, yeah. Sure.
Mm.
Well, what's he like?
He's…
he's amazing.
Very strong.
Probably too good for me, actually.
Probably. But you're good at picking up dog shit, aren't ya?
Great. Thanks, Kenneth.
I'm just saying, someone's gotta scoop up the dog shit,
or the world descends into chaos.
Charlie.
I'm so sorry.
I wasn't thinking, and, um…
you know, I just… I got in my head about letting everybody down, and I just…
It's okay.
It's just some snacks and a blanket. It's not a huge deal.
It is.
It's fine, Nick, it's… Probably too old for this cringy stuff now, anyway.
No. No, we're not. This is…
No, this is lovely.
My job is shit.
I know. I… I should probably just quit.
No, it's been good for you, hasn't it? It's…
- I don't want you to… - Charlie, you're freezing. Come on.
When you're in Leeds, I don't want you to spend your time worrying about me.
- Don't think about that now. - I want you to be okay without me.
Have you eaten?
No.
Should we go home and eat there?
Yours or mine?
I don't mind.
You're so cold.
Let's warm you up.
No one's coming.
Look, just… just give it a minute.
Don't look so disappointed.
- We were in the middle of… - Lads, chill.
I'm… I'm part of the team.
So, the rumors about you two dating are true?
Yes. Yes, Tao, they are true.
Called it.
You didn't. We've been telling you for ages.
If I say I called it, I did.
That's not how it works.
Hello.
Hey! Hey. Come in. Come in.
Everyone, this is Alfie.
- Hey, Alfie. - Come sit down, Alfie.
- Do you want a cupcake? - Yes, please.
I chose that one.
- It's that one. - It's a fancy cupcake.
- Hi. - Please, come sit.
- Hello. - Hey, guys.
- Come in. - Good to see you.
I really want this to be a safe space for all of you,
but really mostly just to have fun.
We're gonna watch some queer TV shows, some queer films.
Next week, Mr. Ajayi is gonna be talking about Keith Haring.
I want us to raise awareness and money for queer communities around the world.
I know we're one small group of people, but I believe we can make a difference.
Bravo!
Yeah!
This one is Tao's, and that one's Elle's?
Speaking of, I think they've broken up again.
The vibe is seriously uncomfortable.
When did we all become coffee addicts?
I think they're both just very strong-willed.
Sometimes that causes clashes.
And they're way past the honeymoon phase as well, so…
Boys, are we seriously avoiding talking about the obvious?
Most teen relationships don't last.
Maybe they'll break up for good this time.
So tell me about Hannah.
She said that she really liked me, but that the distance was too much.
And I was like, "Mm… Okay, well, you're only in Birmingham." So…
I'm glad I didn't get into Oxford. Me and Darce don't have this problem.
It's not just the couples. It's all of us. We're all gonna be in different places.
But Pride, next month, you're all coming, yes?
- Yes! - Obviously.
- Good. - I'll be there.
It'll probably be the last time we hang out as a group.
And then we'll never speak to each other again.
- Oh… - Mm.
Oh, I'm joking. I'm joking.
- Obviously, we're all gonna keep talking. - That makes me sad.
In 30 years, we're gonna be middle-aged,
causing a scene at a drag brunch while Isaac's sat in a corner reading.
Hopefully, I will have written my own book by then.
- Mm. - Mm!
Nick always thinks about the future. It's like he's there in his mind already,
trying to stop a mistake that hasn't happened yet.
But… I don't know what the mistake is.
I never used to think about the future at all.
It's because you were too busy surviving.
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday, dear Sarah
Precarious.
Happy birthday to you
Oh, that looks yummy!
Oh my God, you were so cute.
"Were"? I'm not cute anymore?
Yeah, not as cute as this. I mean, I'd protect him with my life.
Yeah.
Right, I should, um, I should go and say hi to some people.
- I'll go to the loo and come find you. - Okay.
Hey.
Cheese.
50 is the new 30. All uphill from here.
It feels like you truly blossomed after you got rid of that silly man.
Well, I did what I could, as did he.
No, you did everything, and he's an arsehole.
- Sorry. One sec. - Uh…
I thought Dad was your hero.
Heroes and villains. That's the way your brain works, isn't it?
You need to be tougher, Nicholas.
Do you understand? Tougher.
I thought you were practicing your French, Nicholas.
It's disappointing.
We'd be able to talk more, wouldn't we?
You okay?
Uh, yeah.
You sure?
Mm. I'm fine.
Come on.
Do you think Tao and Elle will break up for good this time?
It's possible, I guess.
Happens.
Everyone thinks teenage relationships don't last.
I guess they usually don't.
Well, I guess I'm an optimist, then.
So I'm gonna keep you in love with me
For a while
I'm gonna keep you in love with me
For a while
- You all right, mate? - Hey.
Yeah, I mean, I'm really excited.
Welcome to my humble abode, boys.
Oi, go get hammered before the exams start, yeah?
You see those two? They are proper romantic, man.
- Charlie! - Hey.
Yeah, yeah, I'm good.
- Yeah. - I mean…
I just got really tired.
- Oh, hey, Nick. Come and join us. - Hey.
How've you been?
- Yeah, not too bad. - Here, have some.
Yeah, that's it. That's it! Harder, harder!
Go, go, go, go, go!
…about, um, about going traveling next year.
Like, it would be good.
It would be expensive, but I think it could work, maybe.
What… what are you doing, or are you gonna think about it?
Sorry, I wasn't listening.
Nick, next year, uni.
I know I should be really happy for him, but… I just feel really sad.
There, there. You're Nick and Charlie. You're gonna be okay.
We basically grow up
being brainwashed into thinking there's only one possible future.
Going to uni, finding a career, settling down.
No-one teaches you that there are so many other options,
especially if you're queer.
That's why I asked Darcy to go Interrailing with me next year.
Just focus on being human and feeling alive.
I want that feeling. It's just, me and Tao…
People in good relationships don't keep breaking up and getting back together.
Well, you clearly don't wanna break up.
I can't revolve my life around someone else.
It would only make us resent each other eventually,
and then it would kill the love that's there.
True.
- Lights are getting on my nerves. - I'm gonna find Nick.
- Want us to come? - No, it's all right.
I haven't seen Nick in a while.
Urgh!
- Yeah. - Shall we go outside for a bit?
- I think he might be upstairs. - Okay.
Hey.
Did you wanna go?
Yeah. Yeah, I guess.
O… only if you want to.
- It is a bit boring, isn't it? So… - Yeah.
Hey. Um…
Are you angry at me about something?
What? N… no.
Why do you think that?
You've avoided me tonight.
I'm sorry, I…
I just wanted you to have a good night, and…
You know, you, you probably wanna talk to your friends about uni.
It's only, like, four months away now, so…
Sure. Um…
It's gonna be really hard when you're not here.
No, you're… you're gonna be great.
- You don't need me hanging around. - It's still gonna be really hard.
What if everything just blows up, like Tao and Elle?
I mean, I guess that's possible.
I know you've been struggling this year.
You've been really anxious about a lot of things, about yourself.
Yeah, sorry, I know that's probably annoying for you.
It's not annoying. It's just… upsetting.
'Cause……I try and talk to you about it, and you just shut down.
And I thought we were good at that.
And I think that the reason you do that is… is because of me.
Maybe it is a good idea for us to have some space, you know?
You're going off to uni, and you'll be living your best life,
and then maybe if you don't have to worry about me so much, then…
then you'll be happier.
I want you to be happy.
So we should break up, then?
For some space? That's…
That's basically what you're saying, isn't it?
- If… if that's what you want. - No, I'm asking if that's what you want.
- I want you to be happy. - I'm only happy when I'm with you.
I don't think that's how it should be.
- I get it. - What?
- No, it's fine. - I don't want to break up.
I think you'd be better off without me too.
I didn't say that, Nick. I…
- I'm sorry. - I… I'm just trying to help.
- It's okay. - I love you.
It's okay.
You don't have to worry about me.
I'm sorry for making you cry.
I know this is difficult, but, Charlie, you've got to eat.
Please.
Come on?
Just a little bite.
Charlie, we're gonna do a refocusing exercise.
I want you to tell me five things that you see in front of you.
Door.
Desk.
Laptop.
Mug.
Photo.
Go away!
Charlie!
We're coming in, okay?
What?
You can't just lie there and expect everything to be okay.
Let's just take a minute, okay, before you say something crazy.
We're here to look after you.
Getting you out of the house,
or just hanging out here and bringing you food and comfort movies.
Tori said you hadn't been eating.
Which is understandable. We don't blame you.
But it's not great, so we're gonna make you some pasta.
Aren't you two broken up right now?
We've organized a temporary truce,
and anyway, three, two…
- Go! - Tao!
- Come on. Get up. - Tao!
- Get some pasta with some chili oil. - Okay, I'm up, I'm up.
- Cheese. Basil. - I hate all of you.
We love you too.
But some bit of luck,
some commonplace little miracle, which, like a glittering link,
will mend again the necklace of my days.
We'll see you on Saturday?
I don't know.
That wasn't a question.
It might do you good to get out of the house.
But it's Pride, isn't it? It's… it's a whole thing.
And I don't really feel like celebrating the magical wonders of gay love right now.
And he might be there.
Charlie, I know you're hurting,
but I need you to come and march with me on Saturday
because I'm fucking scared.
The world hates me right now.
The government is taking away my rights and everything we fought for.
If I was a few years younger,
I wouldn't even have been able to take hormone blockers legally
'cause they banned them.
People don't want me using public bathrooms
or existing at all.
I just wanna be myself.
To be free.
To be happy.
I know you know all of this,
and it's okay if you come and cry about Nick all day.
But…
I'm terrified all the time,
and I just really need my best friends with me to march at Pride, okay?
Mm.
Woo-hoo!
Yeah!
Oh my God!
Whoo!
- Oh, it's James! Hello! - Hi, everyone.
- Oh, James! - Happy Pride!
Happy Pride. Hi, are you okay?
- Hey. - Hi. Oh, you look amazing.
- Nice to see you. See you later. - Bye.
You make me feel…
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- And when do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- And when do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- And when do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
- What do we want? - Trans rights!
- When do we want it? - Now!
So this is it.
Fernando's.
Oh, I thought you said we were going to Nando's.
No, Fernando's, the gay club.
Are straight people allowed in? I feel like I'm not gonna be allowed in.
Okay, Mr. Ally.
I'm sorry, I just can't understand it. You're Nick and Charlie.
What does that even mean?
Like, if all of us had to provide evidence for two soulmates, we'd all pick you two.
- There's no such thing as soulmates. - Maybe.
But the two of you present a pretty convincing argument.
I'm going for a walk.
But you should've seen it
The way it went down
Wouldn't believe it
Wanna know what I told her…
- Hey. - Sorry, no.
You were so mediocre
And we're so glad it's over now
It's over now…
Thank you.
It's over now
Camera
Caught on camera
The girls on camera
Your girl's a fan of
Drum kit.
Poster.
Books.
Lamp.
Photo.
- You're early. - Mm-hmm.
Is everything okay?
Nick?
Always
Didn't mean always
When I said always
And I made
Too many mistakes
Cut me down to size
Don't know what part remains
Pull me out of time
Just let me fade away
Come on.
And I've been
Angry for ages
Get in there, boys. Come on!
Still don't want to face it
Still sulking?
I mean, it's… it's rough though.
Genuinely, I feel for you.
You wanna talk, or…?
Okay…
Oh, I'm going to Paris.
Dad offered me a job.
So I'll be gone. I'm sure that'll cheer you up.
I know you think I worship him, but I… I really…
I don't.
He's a shit dad.
Always has been, but…
I'm not like him, Nick.
You know, he hurt me too.
I know.
- Ooh, there's mine. What you having? - Do you think they have organic wine?
Organic wine? Wine is wine. You need to just drink.
No, no, no, no. None of that now. Organic wine, it's imp…
- [Sahar[ Nick! How you doing? - Hello. Yeah, I'm all right.
- First time in a gay club? - Uh, yeah. Yeah, I guess.
- You'll get used to it. - Mine too.
I… never got to tell you I'm a lesbian.
Guess we drifted apart a bit.
We have, yeah.
I'm sorry.
Do you remember
when we would sit outside the school gates and pretend we were cool?
Unfortunately, I do, yeah.
I just wanted everyone to like me.
That was all I cared about.
- Thank God we got out of there, you know? - Mm.
Cheers.
Hi.
- Hey. - Wait.
Did you get my messages? We've all been really worried about you.
- Sorry, guys. - Sorry.
Charlie's not… Well, he's…
Is he okay?
Yeah, he's… Can you just come and talk to him?
- What, he's here? - Of course he's here.
This is insane. You get… you get this is insane, don't you?
Breakups are normal.
- Teenage romance… - Are you being serious?
Have you seen yourselves?
You've guided each other through all this emotional growth and pain together.
You can communicate just by looking at each other. Trust me, I can see it.
I'm sorry. I can't.
Nick.
Nicholas. Where have you been? This is my friend Megan.
- Hey. - Hey.
Imogen was just telling me about your breakup.
And, like, I'm so sorry. That is, like, so sad.
It's all right. Thank you though.
Sorry, I, I know it's, like, none of my business, um,
but if you wanted a quick rebound,
I have several mates I could hook you up with.
Boys or… girls?
Uh…
- No pressure though. No pressure. - Yeah, um…
I think I'm all right, actually. Thank you though.
- Okay. Bye. - Nice to meet you.
It's over now
Camera
Caught on camera
The girls on camera
Your girl's a fan of
- Afternoon, lovey. - Afternoon.
- Hello. - Hi.
- Two black coffees, please. - Of course.
- You all right, Pooh? - Yeah.
Good to get out again, isn't it? Stretch the legs.
Oh yes. No, I couldn't give a…
Oh, stop it.
- Here you go. - Thank you.
And there was a spare slice of cake, so this one's on the house.
That's very sweet, but Pete's a diabetic. We don't have cake at home.
Oh, sorry.
You eat it, Pooh. We're not both diabetic.
That's very kind of you, lovey, but… Thank you.
- Thank you. - Now, let's do the crossword.
Oh yes, the crossword.
- If we must. - Oh!
Anything to shut me up.
Oh dear. I think I've got…
- Oh. You like the crossword. - Well, yes.
- You ninny. - There's a time and a place.
It's surprising…
Now.
Anna is going to come and stay with you
until they've finished with me in the hospital.
It'll all be okay, Pooh. I know you're worried about me.
It's the sort of thing you do worry about, isn't it?
Yes, it is.
We look after each other, don't we?
I suppose so.
Two days with Anna. I mean…
You usually complain…
Don't go far Don't go put your feet in…
Hi, picking up for Charlie Spring.
- Do you want a bag? - Yes, please.
Thank you.
Okay.
I know it's scary when the other dogs are here, but it's just you and me.
Making up, lovers on their own tonight
Need to see how it's done So I can change inside
I belong with everyone Everyone I've ever known
I belong with everyone Everyone I've ever known is here
With me
Everything that comes together…
Sit. Sit.
And run!
Oh, good boy.
In every single living thing…
Ready? Ready?
Run! Oh, I was just joking. I was just joking.
Good boy. Good boy!
In every single living thing…
Hey.
- All right. - Thank you.
You guys are good to go.
- Thank you so much. - No worries.
- Call if there's any problems. - Sure.
See you, Biscuit.
Maybe if you've got someone You should let them know
Hello.
Someone's cheerful.
Yeah, you know that dog that was struggling?
He just got adopted today, so…
Oh, I knew you'd be good at this job. You're like a dog whisperer.
- Good to see you smiling again. - Yeah.
Your brother's moving out.
Yeah, he told me that.
I think it's a mistake.
So do I, but you know what he's like. He can't be told things.
God, Dad really fucked us up, didn't he?
Years after he left, I…
I was still just moving through life with a fake smile on my face.
I couldn't even make real friends until…
It's still in my brain.
And now he's ruined the one beautiful thing that I had in my life,
because I thought
if I even stepped a toe out of line, if I was ever too sad or…
or angry
or difficult, then he would just leave.
God, it's all wrong.
I didn't wanna break up.
Well, that's a relief.
Do you know, sweetheart, some people go a whole lifetime
without knowing themselves even a fraction of what you've just expressed.
Look at me, I ended up marrying a man who abandoned ship
as soon as our kids weren't babies anymore.
- I see my part in the mistakes… - No…
No, it's fine. I don't blame myself anymore.
What I'm saying is, I wish I'd known myself better.
I wish I'd understood him better, understood our relationship better.
Before it caused so much pain.
With or without Charlie, you will be fine.
You will find yourself again.
But I just don't want you to give up on it before it's over.
Charlie loves you.
The real you.
It's too late.
No, it's not.
Love isn't destiny or fate or some kind of cosmic force.
Love is a choice.
It's a choice every day,
and you can… you can lean towards it or away from it,
and you have always leant towards it.
That is just
who you are.
I think that's who Charlie is as well.
I did warn you it'd be boring.
He just goes round and round.
- He's happy you're here though. - I know he is.
You're very cute.
For a straight couple.
What are you talking about?
Since when are we straight?
I'm surprised you didn't notice with Michael.
He's always going on about Pedro Pascal or whatever.
But what about you?
- You know I'm asexual, don't you? - No.
Oh. Could've sworn I told you that.
I mean, that actually makes a lot of sense.
Every time I talk about men, you make this really grossed-out face.
But…
This is gonna sound really horrible, but
why are you together?
You're, like, basically opposites.
We're together because we're together.
Because we're Tori and Michael,
and… we're happy together.
That's all there is.
Whether it's romance or friendship or whatever,
that's everyone else's problem.
Maybe our together isn't the same as your together
or the normal sort of together,
but it's ours, and we're happy with it.
And maybe that will change in the future.
Maybe it won't.
But, for now,
we're here,
and this is what it is.
We're here, and we're alive and whatever.
Okay, great. Well done.
- Hello. - Hello.
How was it?
It was good, yeah.
Shit!
I got the photos.
Well, obviously. Here I am.
Genuinely the most embarrassing thing I've ever done.
I'm the one who took a billion photos of you.
I guess we're both pretty embarrassing, then.
I really missed you.
I missed you too.
Everyone thinks teenage relationships don't last.
I never really thought that about us.
Me neither.
Ever since we met, I… can feel it.
We're different.
But we stopped talking to each other.
I couldn't help you like you helped me.
You did.
You're just so good at saying how you feel. I…
I barely know what I feel half the time.
I never…
I never knew what to do
when I felt sad.
I just know I love you.
Is that okay?
We look after each other,
don't we?
Always.
There I saw you standing Must've been a holy light
'Cause I can't see and I can't feel
But the color in your eyes is saying
If my dreams come up empty
And I wash up on the shore
You would find me at the beach In every life, through every door
With a boom box at your father's Walking with you at the morgue
You don't have to search when I know Everything you're looking for
Oh, and we could talk about it
Or just stare at the wall
But I think that you know better than What they think they call
A luminary, no one
Is all they'll ever be
And how could you be no one
When you're everything to me?
You're everything to me
I love you.
- Come on. - There's a step!
- Watch this step. - We're gonna be late for prom!
- Guys! - We're here!
There you are! You need some drinks.
Yes, please.
- Ha-ha! My evil laugh. - Oh wow.
- You gonna have a shot? - Darcy!
Oh my God.
- Oh-oh! - Aww!
They're back together!
Yeah! He loves you!
Aww!
Cheers, cheers, cheers, cheers!
To forever! Whoo!
'Cause the good shit in life Is always free…
You're dancing.
Take a look around Tell me what you see
'Cause the good shit…
- Sir, come on. - Come on.
You know you wanna.
- Go on. Do something. - Go on!
Thank you!
Tara and Darcy, what does the future hold for you?
- We are going Interrailing. - We're gonna see the world!
Show me what you want from me…
Isaac and Imogen.
I'm gonna write a book about all of you lot.
Hmm, I think I wanna be, like, a lawyer or, like, a CEO.
- Cheese. - Oh!
Oh my God.
Oh, so the band didn't work out, but I'm gonna go solo.
- Solo. - Oh yeah!
Yeah!
Mm-hmm!
The future?
Um…
Marriage?
Tao!
Hey!
No!
Hey. What does the future hold for you?
I don't know. Probably nothing and then death.
Round there.
'Cause the good shit in life Is always free
Is free
And finally, Elle.
What's your plans for the future?
I'm going to Berlin to be an artist.
One last dance?
Let's make it a good one.
Oh. Thank you.
I might've been sick Then well, then sick some more
I might be prouder of me…
Than I ever have been
I've been learning 'bout letting go
How to do it without my claws Scratching the surfaces
I've been learning 'bout wasting time
And closing some doors
Hoping to open more down the line
I knew from miles away That I would detonate
I tried some magic tricks To skip my fate…
Guys. Guys, look! Look!
Oh, oh, oh, oh!
Oh?
We should do that.
- Thank you. - Mm-hmm.
- Ooh! - Aaah!
You okay?
No.
It's not as sad as you think though.
It's not like we don't love each other, and whatever happens,
whether we're together or not, whether she's near or far,
I know she'll always be in my life.
You know?
Yeah.
I mean, all of us.
The exact relationships may change,
and people may fall in and out of touch, but
the love that connects us will never break.
We built it.
And it built us.
Crisp?
Yeah. Yeah, go on.
That's ready salted.
Okay.
Cheers.
It's okay, it's okay
Make mistakes, make mistakes
It's okay, it's okay
Make mistakes, make mistakes
It's okay, it's okay…
- Hi. - Hello.
- Wanna race? - Yeah?
- Make mistakes, make mistakes - Come on!
It's okay, it's okay
Make mistakes, make mistakes
It's okay, it's okay
- Make mistakes… - No!
- Yes! - No!
It's okay, it's okay
Make mistakes, make mistakes
- It's smaller than I remember. - Yeah.
Feels like no one's come in here since we did.
They should put a plaque on the wall.
"This is where Nick and Charlie had their first kiss."
- I feel old. - Hmm.
We are not old.
Last time we were in here, we were babies.
Yeah, I didn't know anything.
Except I wanted to kiss you so bad I thought I was gonna die.
- I still feel like that quite a lot. - Do you?
Yeah. Yeah. You'd better kiss me so I don't die.
I wouldn't want that to happen.
So I'm gonna go to uni,
and then you're gonna go to uni in a year.
I'll come back every other weekend, or you can come to Leeds.
It's only a few years.
Really not that long compared to…
The rest of our lives?
Yeah.
I could never imagine any of that till I met you.
And now?
Now I can see it.
- Oh, don't… don't delete it. - I'm not going to.
Can I use it as my wallpaper?
What, and replace the picture of Henry and Nellie?
- You really love me more than your dogs? - Mm, yeah, that's going a bit far.
Okay, fine. I love you more than my dogs.
I love you more than anyone, actually.
Is that weird?
I'm only 18.
I'm weird too.
Walked in straight away And slammed the door last night…
The train will be arriving in 25 minutes.
With the TV on…
You made it!
- I'm so excited! - Aww, thank you for coming!
- I know. I've got to go on. - Go on. You're gonna be amazing!
Who's ready to rock?
Listen, it's been a long, long year
I think we should go And get you out of here…
- Hi. - Are you sitting down?
I'm at the library.
Okay, incoming.
- Oh my God! - Shh!
Pack up all your shit
- And put it in the back - Well done.
Maybe the miles can make up…
Don't look.
I wanna be in the acknowledgements of your book.
We can talk about it.
Cruising 95 Like we got nothing to lose
I'm praying to the headlights Like I prayed to you…
- Hi. - Thank you for coming.
Of course. So good to see you.
I've got to say, I really love this painting over here.
It just looks so alive.
I'd rather hear the wind Than hear that song I'm supposed to know
By some fucking bro
Elle.
You tell me that forever Couldn't come too soon…
- Hi. - I wanna lose my mind in a hotel room
With you
Anywhere would do
I'm sitting in the bath Like it's pouring rain
You call me from the hall Just to say my, say my name
I'll go anywhere with you
Anywhere with you
Anywhere with you-ooh-ooh
I'll go anywhere with you…
Here's the town hall.
- Charlie. - Hi.
- Hi. Nice to meet you. - And you.
Tell me that forever Couldn't come too soon
Gonna lose my mind
I'm gonna lose it with you
You tell me you want everything You want it fast
But all I've ever wanted Is to make something fucking last
I'll go anywhere
I'll go anywhere with you
Anywhere with you-ooh-ooh
Hi.
- Oh, I missed this. - Mm.
Do you wanna go for breakfast, babe? That pancake place.
Five more minutes.
Room for more.
Mm-hmm.
Breakfast?
This one's my treat.
Mm, well, we can fight about that when we get there.
No, wait. One more.
Come on, then.
- Is that my rugby hoodie? - Yeah. I'm borrowing it.
Great. I'm never getting that back.
I will love you
I will love you with my whole heart
I will love you, baby
I will love you with my whole heart
- Say you love me, baby - Say you love me with your whole heart
Say you love me with your whole heart
- Say you love me, baby - Say you love me
- Say you love me with your whole heart - Say you love me with your whole heart
Say you love me with your whole heart
And you're all I want
I fell in love I fell in love the moment that I met you
And you're all I need
I give my life, I give my love Promise I will protect you
And you're all I've got
I will not rest until I know The best is always with you
And I still believe
And I confess the world's a mess But I will always love you
- I will save you - I will save you
I will save you from your sorrow
- I will love you, baby - I will love you, baby
- Even if there's no tomorrow - Even if there's no tomorrow
Even if there's no tomorrow
And you're all I want
I fell in love I fell in love the moment that I met you
And you're all I need
I give my life, I give my love Promise I will protect you
And you're all I've got
I will not rest until I know The best is always with you
And I still believe
And I confess that I'm a mess But I will always love you
Say you love me, baby
Say you love me true
Say you love me, baby
I go crazy, I love you
- Say you love me - Say you love me, baby
- Say you love me true - Say you love me true
Say you love me, baby
I go crazy, I love you
And you're all I want
And you're all I need
- And I still believe - I go crazy
- And you're all I want - For you
And you're all
I go crazy
- And I still believe - For you
And I live for you