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Mommy is...
stretchable.

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What do you mean by stretchable?

3
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Daddy's hard.
You can't move him.

4
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He gets mad, and that's it.

5
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Mommy gets mad too,

6
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but she's more like putty.

7
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Mm.

8
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And she gets sad too.

9
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That's when it's
the most stretch.

10
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Putty, um... I wonder
how is it that you stretch her?

11
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You just...

12
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Can I...
Can I talk now? Please?

13
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Um...

14
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- Is it okay if Mommy talks?
- Yep.

15
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Okay.

16
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I'm not stretchable.
I'm not putty.

17
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Well, that's her
experience of you.

18
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That isn't true.

19
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I try very hard to be in
control of her and everything,

20
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but, um, may as well not even
be there at all.

21
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Well, perception
is reality, so...

22
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Also, I don't get sad.

23
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You seem sad right now.

24
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You do seem sad right now.

25
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We're here to talk about
how to get you better.

26
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All we do is talk about me.

27
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I can be sad. I mean,
I'm allowed to be sad, right?

28
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Well, of course.

29
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But, um, you must know that
this is all tangled up together

30
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and you of all people
should know...

31
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I know. I know, but, um...

32
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this...
this isn't how things...

33
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are gonna get better. Um...

34
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Mommy, please don't cry...

35
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No, no. I...

36
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- ... because then I'll cry.
- Sweetie.

37
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- She...
- Sweetie, it's okay. It's okay.

38
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We want the tube removed. Now.

39
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- No, you can't kill me!
- And to do that, we need...

40
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No, she won't do what
she has to do

41
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because she knows
that she has this safety net.

42
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Things are not
stable enough right now to...

43
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It's clear that we have
different goals.

44
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You want her to get better
before the tube can be removed.

45
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I think the tube needs
to come out,

46
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and then she can get better.

47
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We all have the same goal here.

48
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But what I'm learning
as we're talking all together

49
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is that you and I need to spend
some time, just the two of us,

50
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without her here...

51
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to talk about some
serious issues.

52
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I'm gonna need you to

53
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restart the tube feedings
at night

54
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and I need you to start doing...

55
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Did you get the kind
with no cheese?

56
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I can't explain this to you
every time, sweetie.

57
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They would just laugh at me
and say it's bread, okay?

58
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I'll take the cheese off
when we get home, of course.

59
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Is it the kind with the little

60
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green and black things
in the sauce?

61
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It's the same kind
we always get.

62
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That kind has the things
in the sauce.

63
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I can't... I can't eat it.

64
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Like, can you scrape it off...

65
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Do you even want the tube out or
is it just me who wants it out?

66
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You have to be...

67
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Jesus.

68
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Oh, poo.

69
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Oh...

70
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You got your wish. No cheese.

71
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- Did you will that to happen?
- Yeah.

72
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Are you some kind of
witch or something?

73
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Hey, straight to the table.
Actually, no.

74
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Wash hands first,
and then straight to the table.

75
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I don't have to go
to the bathroom though.

76
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No one's making you
go to the bathroom.

77
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I'm just asking you
to wash your hands, please,

78
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like we always do.

79
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Is Daddy coming?
Where's Daddy?

80
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Uh, he said maybe bedtime.

81
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When does he go again?

82
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He just got back,
so... in a month?

83
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Mommy?

84
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Yeah.

85
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I did have to
go to the bathroom.

86
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Okay.

87
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This might take a while.

88
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Okay.

89
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Mommy?

90
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Yeah?

91
00:05:01,436 --> 00:05:03,637
The bathroom has water in it.

92
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Okay, well, that's good.

93
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No, I mean on the floor.

94
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Come quickly!

95
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Are you coming?

96
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Mommy!

97
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Oh, my God. What?

98
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Why didn't you tell me
as soon as you came in here?

99
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I just noticed...

100
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because I had to go
to the bathroom so bad.

101
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I don't like how it
feels on my socks.

102
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Where's it coming from?
How deep is it?

103
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Are we gonna die?

104
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Is the house gonna
fall on top of us?

105
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Mommy?

106
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Can you lift me up
and carry me out?

107
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Yep, just
stay there, okay? Hold on.

108
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Mom, why are you leaving me?
Where are you going?

109
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Just please stay on the toilet, okay?

110
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No.

111
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Can you please come...

112
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Can you come now?

113
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Oh, my...

114
00:06:06,068 --> 00:06:06,998
Oh...

115
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my fucking God.

116
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Mommy!

117
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Mommy, you're not
telling me what it is!

118
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Mommy!

119
00:06:20,041 --> 00:06:21,375
- What's going on?
- What?

120
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What's happening, Mom?

121
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Are we gonna die?

122
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- Hey.
- Hey, yeah.

123
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We just got home,
and you would not believe...

124
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Oh, my God! Oh, my God!

125
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No, no, no! Do not come here.

126
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Do not come in here!

127
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Right now, go, go, go!
Right now! Right now!

128
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Go, go, go, go!

129
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Go! Oh, my God!

130
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Nothing is familiar or real.

131
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Ever.

132
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Every time I feel this way
I get further and further away

133
00:08:23,698 --> 00:08:26,940
from being in myself, and,
like, I can never get back.

134
00:08:28,171 --> 00:08:30,375
When you think about time,

135
00:08:30,477 --> 00:08:32,077
how do you see it?

136
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How do I see time?

137
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Um...

138
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Time is a series of things
to get through.

139
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Each goal is a cliff.

140
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There's nothing
at the end of it,

141
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but then it comes,
and there's just another cliff.

142
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I'm so mad at you!

143
00:10:38,307 --> 00:10:39,401
Oh, shit.

144
00:10:41,372 --> 00:10:42,870
Yo, you know about
holotropic breathing?

145
00:10:42,971 --> 00:10:43,971
Mm-mm.

146
00:10:44,073 --> 00:10:45,473
Yo, this shit is lit.

147
00:10:45,576 --> 00:10:48,111
Basically, you trick your brain
into thinking it's dead,

148
00:10:48,212 --> 00:10:50,418
and you see
the fucking universe.

149
00:10:50,520 --> 00:10:51,745
You know what I'm saying?

150
00:10:51,846 --> 00:10:53,949
So you won't feel paranoia
and guilt if something's wrong.

151
00:10:55,553 --> 00:10:58,256
I've got a friend who
does Reiki and shit like that.

152
00:10:58,358 --> 00:11:01,323
Nah, see what I'm saying?
This is like hyperventilating.

153
00:11:01,425 --> 00:11:03,524
When you die, they say
you let off this chemical.

154
00:11:03,626 --> 00:11:06,359
And when you're dreaming,
you let off the same chemical.

155
00:11:06,461 --> 00:11:08,197
It's sort of like that,
you know?

156
00:11:08,298 --> 00:11:10,000
You make your brain
think it's dead,

157
00:11:10,102 --> 00:11:13,573
but being brain-dead
is still alive.

158
00:11:13,976 --> 00:11:15,904
- Holographic breathwork?
- Holotropic.

159
00:11:16,006 --> 00:11:17,605
Tropic. Holotropic.

160
00:11:23,245 --> 00:11:25,683
- Is that real?
- What?

161
00:11:26,251 --> 00:11:29,220
- The... the dead brain thing?
- Oh, yeah.

162
00:11:29,322 --> 00:11:33,120
I mean, shit.
I guess anything could be real.

163
00:11:33,423 --> 00:11:35,422
I mean, anything
could be bullshit too.

164
00:11:35,524 --> 00:11:36,793
You know what I'm saying?

165
00:11:39,034 --> 00:11:43,597
But you know that feeling
like when you're not...

166
00:11:47,870 --> 00:11:49,174
Yeah.

167
00:11:54,342 --> 00:11:56,112
Oh, you're making fun of me.

168
00:11:56,215 --> 00:11:58,215
- Miss, I don't even know you.
- Right.

169
00:11:58,318 --> 00:12:01,451
Okay. Um, yes on these,
but no on the wine.

170
00:12:02,818 --> 00:12:03,991
Why?

171
00:12:06,491 --> 00:12:09,194
The law prohibits me from
selling you this wine right now.

172
00:12:10,864 --> 00:12:12,131
But it isn't even 2:00.

173
00:12:12,731 --> 00:12:14,332
It's 1:58.

174
00:12:15,999 --> 00:12:17,366
Right, but...

175
00:12:17,468 --> 00:12:19,634
By the time I ring these up,
it will be past two.

176
00:12:20,673 --> 00:12:22,636
Huh. Um...

177
00:12:24,947 --> 00:12:26,779
I'll just get
the peanut butter cups.

178
00:12:26,880 --> 00:12:28,213
You can put them on my room.

179
00:12:28,582 --> 00:12:29,775
Will do.

180
00:13:10,994 --> 00:13:12,218
I can't talk about this anymore.

181
00:13:12,321 --> 00:13:14,294
I'm telling you. Please.

182
00:13:14,396 --> 00:13:17,162
Hey, hey. Look, if that's
what Dr. Spring thinks is best,

183
00:13:17,264 --> 00:13:18,225
then we have to listen
to Dr. Spring.

184
00:13:18,327 --> 00:13:19,259
There is no "we" though.

185
00:13:19,361 --> 00:13:20,867
It's just me. I... I'm...

186
00:13:20,970 --> 00:13:23,068
- It's not fair. I'm telling you.
- Whoa!

187
00:13:23,170 --> 00:13:25,635
Fair? Listen,
I'm working, all right?

188
00:13:25,736 --> 00:13:28,269
I'm dealing with a lot of
assholes. You have no idea.

189
00:13:28,371 --> 00:13:30,173
And I cannot do anything about

190
00:13:30,275 --> 00:13:32,509
what's going on there from here.

191
00:13:32,611 --> 00:13:35,308
We need to be a team.
You have to go there today

192
00:13:35,412 --> 00:13:37,985
and check in and let them know

193
00:13:38,087 --> 00:13:39,545
- that this whole thing is not...
- I know. I know.

194
00:13:39,648 --> 00:13:40,985
The problem with that logic,
though,

195
00:13:41,087 --> 00:13:42,119
is that I'm not a housewife.

196
00:13:42,221 --> 00:13:43,717
- I work too.
- Whoa, whoa, whoa.

197
00:13:44,960 --> 00:13:47,356
Mommy, this hotel food is gross.

198
00:13:47,458 --> 00:13:49,756
- Good morning.
- This is disgusting.

199
00:13:50,530 --> 00:13:51,924
Wow.

200
00:13:52,026 --> 00:13:54,867
You guys look just like twins.
Anybody ever tell you that?

201
00:13:54,970 --> 00:13:56,232
Uh, no.
You're the first person

202
00:13:56,335 --> 00:13:57,970
to notice and/or say that.

203
00:13:58,072 --> 00:13:59,165
Everyone says that.

204
00:14:00,505 --> 00:14:03,506
- Hey, cutie. Wanna see a trick?
- Yeah.

205
00:14:04,308 --> 00:14:06,576
Whoa. How'd you do that?

206
00:14:07,680 --> 00:14:09,449
Mommy?

207
00:14:10,153 --> 00:14:12,114
You should take it.
She's never gonna eat it.

208
00:14:14,721 --> 00:14:15,617
Okay.

209
00:14:16,419 --> 00:14:18,258
Am I gonna throw up now?

210
00:14:20,995 --> 00:14:22,491
- Yeah?
- You hung up on me.

211
00:14:22,593 --> 00:14:25,326
Look, I know you have
a lot on your plate,

212
00:14:25,428 --> 00:14:27,067
but she's getting better,

213
00:14:27,169 --> 00:14:29,201
and the rest of it
is totally temporary.

214
00:14:29,303 --> 00:14:31,634
The ceiling will get fixed,
I promise.

215
00:14:31,736 --> 00:14:34,337
The sky is not falling.
None of this is your fault.

216
00:14:34,439 --> 00:14:36,240
- I love you.
- I'm sorry. I love you too.

217
00:14:36,342 --> 00:14:37,640
What's so bad about
a hotel anyway?

218
00:14:37,741 --> 00:14:39,877
And while you're there,
take advantage of the pool.

219
00:14:39,980 --> 00:14:41,574
They got a pool, right?

220
00:14:41,776 --> 00:14:43,342
You always said you wish
you had a pool,

221
00:14:43,444 --> 00:14:44,879
so now you have one.

222
00:14:44,981 --> 00:14:47,452
Why don't you go? You can
do some laps, lounge a little.

223
00:14:47,554 --> 00:14:49,620
Get a floatie. Kick back,
get a couple of margarita...

224
00:14:49,722 --> 00:14:50,750
Okay.

225
00:14:51,053 --> 00:14:54,194
Did you know that you can
train hamsters to love you?

226
00:14:54,858 --> 00:14:55,828
No.

227
00:14:55,932 --> 00:14:58,096
You can train them to love you.

228
00:14:58,499 --> 00:15:01,631
Well, I would love if you would
finish your bacon.

229
00:15:01,734 --> 00:15:04,965
That way I can tell everybody
you got 100% on breakfast.

230
00:15:05,067 --> 00:15:08,905
And once they love you, you can
get them to do everything

231
00:15:09,008 --> 00:15:11,245
including tricks.

232
00:15:11,913 --> 00:15:13,577
Let's start with one bite.

233
00:15:35,534 --> 00:15:38,502
Is the parking guy gonna
get mad again?

234
00:15:39,768 --> 00:15:43,370
Double-park! Double-park!
Double-park!

235
00:15:43,472 --> 00:15:45,310
Okay.

236
00:15:45,413 --> 00:15:47,313
Gotta be fast. You know
what happened last time.

237
00:16:03,696 --> 00:16:06,696
You've missed the last few weeks
of family sessions.

238
00:16:08,031 --> 00:16:08,962
Yeah.

239
00:16:10,268 --> 00:16:11,668
I told you what happened.

240
00:16:11,770 --> 00:16:14,437
Our entire ceiling fell down,
and with all that chaos,

241
00:16:14,539 --> 00:16:16,606
and we're living out
of the hotel...

242
00:16:16,708 --> 00:16:19,005
So we need to schedule something
as soon as possible

243
00:16:19,106 --> 00:16:22,508
to talk about her goals
and the treatment process.

244
00:16:22,610 --> 00:16:24,146
Yeah. Yeah, okay. Yeah.

245
00:16:24,249 --> 00:16:26,684
Duh.

246
00:16:26,787 --> 00:16:27,683
Yeah.

247
00:16:29,285 --> 00:16:31,021
- Mm-hm.
- Mm-hm.

248
00:16:31,323 --> 00:16:33,790
Oh, you meant now?
Okay. All right.

249
00:16:33,893 --> 00:16:35,193
Um...

250
00:16:35,295 --> 00:16:38,425
Well, uh, let me look
at my schedule.

251
00:16:38,528 --> 00:16:40,034
I should probably do that...

252
00:16:40,135 --> 00:16:41,827
I know that you already
know this,

253
00:16:42,197 --> 00:16:46,206
but you can't start letting
feelings of guilt and control

254
00:16:46,308 --> 00:16:49,540
about this illness
and treatment affect you.

255
00:16:50,846 --> 00:16:51,870
It's no one's fault.

256
00:16:51,972 --> 00:16:53,942
That's right.
That's what I keep hearing.

257
00:16:54,044 --> 00:16:57,617
Also, I really need you to
start taking care of yourself.

258
00:16:57,720 --> 00:16:58,611
Right. Yes.

259
00:16:58,713 --> 00:17:01,182
No.
Put my oxygen mask on first.

260
00:17:01,284 --> 00:17:02,419
Mm-hm, mm-hm.

261
00:17:02,520 --> 00:17:03,885
I'm just gonna have
to get blunt here.

262
00:17:03,986 --> 00:17:08,521
So she needs to reach her
weight goal in the next week.

263
00:17:08,958 --> 00:17:12,262
If she does that,
then we can put tube removal

264
00:17:12,365 --> 00:17:14,164
and discharge dates on the books

265
00:17:14,267 --> 00:17:15,895
but if she doesn't do that,

266
00:17:15,997 --> 00:17:18,568
I'm gonna have to reassess
the level of care

267
00:17:18,671 --> 00:17:20,866
because obviously something
is not working here,

268
00:17:20,969 --> 00:17:23,009
and this is what
I need to talk to you about.

269
00:17:23,110 --> 00:17:25,340
When can we sit down properly?

270
00:17:25,443 --> 00:17:27,780
Yeah, fine. Uh, September 7th.

271
00:17:27,883 --> 00:17:29,911
It's September 15th.

272
00:17:31,385 --> 00:17:34,453
September 20.
I mean, September...

273
00:17:35,119 --> 00:17:36,423
September 20.

274
00:17:39,089 --> 00:17:40,022
Hey!

275
00:17:43,464 --> 00:17:45,758
Hey! I told you not to do that,
and the next time

276
00:17:45,859 --> 00:17:47,298
I will report you
to the building.

277
00:17:47,401 --> 00:17:48,864
You have no authority
to report me.

278
00:17:48,965 --> 00:17:50,396
You won't be allowed in the lot.
I'll have you towed!

279
00:17:50,499 --> 00:17:51,971
Oh, sure! Call them!

280
00:17:52,074 --> 00:17:53,339
I'm not in there long enough

281
00:17:53,442 --> 00:17:54,904
for them to even come!

282
00:17:55,106 --> 00:17:56,609
Whatever!

283
00:17:56,712 --> 00:17:57,773
Asshole.

284
00:18:00,448 --> 00:18:02,114
The apartment is
a 30-minute walk,

285
00:18:02,215 --> 00:18:03,818
but it might as well be on Mars.

286
00:18:03,920 --> 00:18:05,152
And I just, I can't...

287
00:18:05,253 --> 00:18:07,317
Every time I go check,
it looks worse,

288
00:18:07,418 --> 00:18:09,751
and I... I have no control.

289
00:18:09,854 --> 00:18:11,483
Have you tried
discussing a compromise

290
00:18:11,586 --> 00:18:12,753
with your landlord?

291
00:18:13,056 --> 00:18:16,427
Perhaps they could section off
the room with the hole,

292
00:18:16,731 --> 00:18:19,492
then you could live freely
in the rest of the apartment.

293
00:18:19,595 --> 00:18:22,466
Live freely with asbestos

294
00:18:22,569 --> 00:18:26,006
and 100-year-old dust
and black mold spores?

295
00:18:26,108 --> 00:18:27,538
That's your advice?

296
00:18:27,639 --> 00:18:30,804
It's not advice.
It's a question to consider.

297
00:18:30,905 --> 00:18:34,078
I should really show
you this hole.

298
00:18:34,447 --> 00:18:38,847
It's an entire nightmare
on my ceiling.

299
00:18:40,121 --> 00:18:42,054
When does Charles return?

300
00:18:42,256 --> 00:18:44,921
This is week three of eight.

301
00:18:45,022 --> 00:18:48,587
I mean, you should know that.
Don't you write things down?

302
00:18:48,690 --> 00:18:49,757
It's your job to remember

303
00:18:49,858 --> 00:18:52,129
the boring details
of my fucking life.

304
00:18:52,665 --> 00:18:54,795
We do have to stop now.
We are out of time.

305
00:18:54,896 --> 00:18:56,702
I have another
patient coming, so...

306
00:18:56,806 --> 00:18:57,665
Wait, now?

307
00:18:57,768 --> 00:18:59,239
What about the
ten-minute warning?

308
00:18:59,340 --> 00:19:01,334
Yeah, I just wasn't
paying attention.

309
00:19:01,435 --> 00:19:03,771
You didn't respond to the email
that I sent you about my dream.

310
00:19:03,875 --> 00:19:07,345
I don't respond
to my client's dream emails.

311
00:19:07,446 --> 00:19:10,675
Okay. So, if you
don't bring it up,

312
00:19:10,778 --> 00:19:12,683
then what is the point?

313
00:19:14,418 --> 00:19:16,654
Okay. Uh, you got me.

314
00:19:16,756 --> 00:19:19,421
I had a dream, and I need
to talk about it today,

315
00:19:19,522 --> 00:19:21,228
and I didn't get any time

316
00:19:21,329 --> 00:19:23,493
because you didn't
give me a warning.

317
00:19:23,762 --> 00:19:27,926
We can discuss the dream
you emailed next session.

318
00:19:28,029 --> 00:19:29,895
Well, it's actually
a different dream.

319
00:19:29,998 --> 00:19:32,032
- Well, I don't really...
- About you.

320
00:19:35,637 --> 00:19:37,374
- Okay, quickly.
- Okay.

321
00:19:37,475 --> 00:19:40,346
I was in a hospital day room

322
00:19:40,447 --> 00:19:42,414
or a recreation room
or something,

323
00:19:42,518 --> 00:19:44,614
and I knew my daughter
was also in the hospital

324
00:19:44,715 --> 00:19:47,914
but... but far away,
another part,

325
00:19:48,016 --> 00:19:50,485
and it didn't look like
the hospital

326
00:19:50,587 --> 00:19:52,119
she was in last year, though,

327
00:19:52,221 --> 00:19:54,559
when everything happened.
It was different. It was weird.

328
00:19:54,662 --> 00:19:56,589
And I was waiting for Charles
to come get me,

329
00:19:56,692 --> 00:19:58,065
so we could pick her up

330
00:19:58,166 --> 00:20:00,366
but instead, you were there,

331
00:20:00,469 --> 00:20:01,969
and you wanted to sit
really close to me.

332
00:20:03,298 --> 00:20:05,439
And I was, like, inching away
from you on the bench

333
00:20:05,540 --> 00:20:07,801
and you kept inching closer.

334
00:20:07,904 --> 00:20:10,102
And I got my phone
out to text Charles

335
00:20:10,204 --> 00:20:12,279
'cause I was nervous he'd
come in and he'd see

336
00:20:12,381 --> 00:20:15,546
and then you tried
to grab the phone

337
00:20:15,647 --> 00:20:18,981
and then you started
to tickle me...

338
00:20:19,083 --> 00:20:20,681
to try to get me to drop it,

339
00:20:20,782 --> 00:20:23,550
and I was, like...

340
00:20:23,653 --> 00:20:25,121
I was really enjoying it,

341
00:20:25,222 --> 00:20:28,424
but I was so scared that Charles
would come in and he would see.

342
00:20:31,164 --> 00:20:32,598
All right.

343
00:20:36,167 --> 00:20:37,398
Okay?

344
00:20:37,667 --> 00:20:39,666
All right. You got to tell me.

345
00:20:39,769 --> 00:20:41,575
We'll talk about it next time.

346
00:20:42,208 --> 00:20:43,442
Okay?

347
00:20:43,543 --> 00:20:46,272
We won't
talk about it next time.

348
00:20:46,575 --> 00:20:48,276
You know that.

349
00:20:48,979 --> 00:20:52,047
There's no thread.
There's no thread at all.

350
00:21:08,535 --> 00:21:10,568
Yes?
What now?

351
00:21:10,670 --> 00:21:12,600
Hi, yes. So sorry.

352
00:21:12,702 --> 00:21:14,532
Have to leave. Stop work.

353
00:21:14,635 --> 00:21:15,937
Uh, what?

354
00:21:16,307 --> 00:21:19,539
Mother died. I have to leave.
Work is going to take longer.

355
00:21:19,642 --> 00:21:21,841
Uh, okay, uh, just...

356
00:21:21,943 --> 00:21:23,276
I'll be one second.

357
00:21:27,116 --> 00:21:29,388
Okay, what is the issue then?
Can you tell me?

358
00:21:29,491 --> 00:21:30,488
This has been going on
for so long.

359
00:21:30,589 --> 00:21:31,518
Do I need to get
a new contractor?

360
00:21:31,619 --> 00:21:33,154
It spread.

361
00:21:33,257 --> 00:21:35,257
Uh, it's full. It's very full,
you understand? Very full.

362
00:21:35,359 --> 00:21:36,528
It spread?

363
00:21:36,629 --> 00:21:38,194
Not easy to explain.
Not my language.

364
00:21:38,297 --> 00:21:41,225
¡Yo hablo español! Explícame
en tu idioma, ¡lo entenderé!

365
00:21:41,328 --> 00:21:43,767
Sorry, but I don't
understand those words.

366
00:21:43,869 --> 00:21:45,504
How long will you be grieving
for your mother?

367
00:21:45,606 --> 00:21:47,936
I don't say. I don't know.
I can't say.

368
00:21:48,039 --> 00:21:50,238
Look, I need a date, okay?
It needs to be fixed.

369
00:21:50,339 --> 00:21:52,837
Just give me a date. My husband
and I will be returning to...

370
00:21:52,940 --> 00:21:55,377
I'll be back, one week.

371
00:21:55,981 --> 00:21:57,748
Okay, well, fine.
I'm going to be going there

372
00:21:57,849 --> 00:21:59,211
and checking on
what you have done so far,

373
00:21:59,312 --> 00:22:00,954
and I'm going to be
taking pictures, and I...

374
00:22:06,591 --> 00:22:09,025
Vete a la mierda, el cabrón.

375
00:22:22,473 --> 00:22:24,007
I can see you now.

376
00:22:42,931 --> 00:22:45,731
I'm really happy to hold this
silent space for you but...

377
00:22:46,830 --> 00:22:48,093
as usual, I am curious as to

378
00:22:48,194 --> 00:22:49,967
what you might be
thinking about.

379
00:22:53,271 --> 00:22:54,334
Riley.

380
00:22:55,706 --> 00:22:57,809
That's all I can think about.

381
00:23:01,250 --> 00:23:02,847
Tell me what's going on.

382
00:23:03,382 --> 00:23:04,481
Well, I...

383
00:23:04,583 --> 00:23:06,981
I keep telling you, it's...

384
00:23:07,085 --> 00:23:09,386
It's like I keep saying
to his doctor, he...

385
00:23:09,489 --> 00:23:11,550
He doesn't smile. He...

386
00:23:11,920 --> 00:23:13,220
He looks at me weirdly,

387
00:23:13,321 --> 00:23:17,256
and he's just very
uncomfortable all of the time,

388
00:23:17,357 --> 00:23:20,029
and... and no one will do
anything about it.

389
00:23:22,634 --> 00:23:23,800
You know what I would love

390
00:23:23,903 --> 00:23:25,704
and what I think would be
extremely helpful

391
00:23:25,807 --> 00:23:28,306
is if you could come
to a session without Riley.

392
00:23:28,508 --> 00:23:29,708
I think it would be...

393
00:23:29,810 --> 00:23:31,307
- I know you think you can't...
- No, I can't.

394
00:23:31,408 --> 00:23:34,009
But I think if you got a sitter
who you trusted, who you could...

395
00:23:34,110 --> 00:23:37,577
Did you hear about that nanny
in New York?

396
00:23:37,946 --> 00:23:39,350
The mom came home from work,

397
00:23:39,452 --> 00:23:40,751
and the nanny had stabbed

398
00:23:40,854 --> 00:23:43,415
both of her kids to death
in the bathtub.

399
00:23:44,558 --> 00:23:47,725
That is real. That happened.

400
00:23:47,994 --> 00:23:52,562
A situation like that is
very, very, very unusual, okay?

401
00:23:52,664 --> 00:23:54,096
Most people have caregivers

402
00:23:54,197 --> 00:23:56,164
- who can trust that...
- I can't.

403
00:23:57,164 --> 00:23:59,067
Well, I... I believe you can.

404
00:23:59,170 --> 00:24:01,100
I just think you don't want to
or you're afraid

405
00:24:01,202 --> 00:24:02,737
so let's stick
to some practical...

406
00:24:02,838 --> 00:24:04,470
I need to protect him.

407
00:24:05,808 --> 00:24:07,975
From something specific?

408
00:24:08,077 --> 00:24:11,084
Because something
very bad is happening.

409
00:24:14,482 --> 00:24:17,251
I'm so... Can I just...
One second. I just have to...

410
00:24:17,354 --> 00:24:21,025
This could be about my daughter.
I'm... I'm so sorry.

411
00:24:27,167 --> 00:24:28,230
Um...

412
00:24:29,463 --> 00:24:33,070
Yeah. Look, look, I...
I'm not Riley's doctor

413
00:24:33,173 --> 00:24:36,510
so I can't speak to what may
or may not be going on with him.

414
00:24:36,612 --> 00:24:39,272
We can only talk
about your feelings

415
00:24:39,375 --> 00:24:42,109
about what you perceive
is going on with Riley,

416
00:24:42,212 --> 00:24:44,283
which is why I do believe
medication can be...

417
00:24:44,385 --> 00:24:46,218
I'm not perceiving it.

418
00:24:46,319 --> 00:24:48,219
It is happening.

419
00:24:48,587 --> 00:24:51,318
And I feel awful about it.

420
00:24:52,854 --> 00:24:54,722
Okay, listen.

421
00:24:55,291 --> 00:24:57,758
When you're having
these feelings of deep panic

422
00:24:57,859 --> 00:24:59,598
at home with Riley,

423
00:25:00,001 --> 00:25:03,396
just put him in his crib or
carrier or somewhere safe...

424
00:25:04,537 --> 00:25:06,702
and draw a bath.

425
00:25:07,337 --> 00:25:10,876
Just breathe until your
heart isn't racing anymore,

426
00:25:11,545 --> 00:25:13,610
come out and get dressed,

427
00:25:13,712 --> 00:25:15,816
start the day over again...

428
00:25:16,914 --> 00:25:19,017
put on some real clothes.

429
00:25:21,020 --> 00:25:23,051
These feelings that
you're experiencing

430
00:25:23,154 --> 00:25:26,827
they are...
they're very, very, very scary.

431
00:25:29,561 --> 00:25:31,862
Okay? And very dark.

432
00:25:31,963 --> 00:25:34,164
And that's why
you need to keep moving.

433
00:25:34,963 --> 00:25:36,929
You need to keep going.

434
00:25:37,030 --> 00:25:38,763
You need to be busy.

435
00:25:39,200 --> 00:25:42,075
You can't sit inside the fear

436
00:25:42,176 --> 00:25:43,637
and doubt

437
00:25:43,740 --> 00:25:45,373
and scariness.

438
00:25:52,614 --> 00:25:55,789
Breathwork is a deep healing
in the nervous system,

439
00:25:55,891 --> 00:25:59,526
where we hold trauma
and trapped emotions.

440
00:25:59,761 --> 00:26:02,759
We can't talk our way
out of trauma.

441
00:26:02,860 --> 00:26:04,664
The body needs to process

442
00:26:04,766 --> 00:26:07,425
unprocessed emotions
within the body.

443
00:26:07,529 --> 00:26:10,067
And this is why breathwork
is so powerful.

444
00:26:10,168 --> 00:26:12,637
If you're looking for deeper
ways of healing

445
00:26:12,906 --> 00:26:15,099
and you're searching
for alternatives,

446
00:26:15,202 --> 00:26:16,668
don't wait any longer.

447
00:26:16,770 --> 00:26:20,139
Let's connect and schedule
your first breathwork session.

448
00:26:20,776 --> 00:26:23,279
Directly before the
judge read Ortega her sentence,

449
00:26:23,382 --> 00:26:25,748
she begged for forgiveness
for her unspeakable crime.

450
00:26:25,849 --> 00:26:27,084
She stated she was sorry

451
00:26:27,185 --> 00:26:29,218
for what the judge had called,
"Pure evil."

452
00:26:29,420 --> 00:26:31,656
She then spoke about how
untreated mental illness...

453
00:26:31,759 --> 00:26:32,923
Fuck.

454
00:26:33,025 --> 00:26:34,088
- The judge was not convinced.
- Shit.

455
00:26:34,191 --> 00:26:35,488
She will be serving life
in prison

456
00:26:35,589 --> 00:26:37,493
with no possibility of parole,
saying that...

457
00:26:45,106 --> 00:26:48,067
You would not believe
what I have been through today.

458
00:26:48,403 --> 00:26:51,272
Okay, so, I don't
know if you recall

459
00:26:51,375 --> 00:26:54,205
but there was this pair of
absolutely davoon-ianca,

460
00:26:54,308 --> 00:26:55,614
davoon, gorge leather gloves

461
00:26:55,715 --> 00:26:57,109
that I saw on The RealReal.

462
00:26:57,212 --> 00:26:59,779
I wake up this morning, banned.

463
00:27:00,147 --> 00:27:02,886
Banned. Yeah. I know.

464
00:27:02,989 --> 00:27:03,951
Hey, my love!

465
00:27:04,052 --> 00:27:05,252
So you been keeping up

466
00:27:05,356 --> 00:27:06,825
and eating,
and doing all the right things?

467
00:27:06,926 --> 00:27:08,595
Yeah, I ate some cheese today!

468
00:27:08,696 --> 00:27:09,827
- Mmm.
- Cheese!

469
00:27:09,930 --> 00:27:10,894
That's fantastic.
I love cheese!

470
00:27:10,996 --> 00:27:12,295
- Daddy, can I get a hamster?
- No.

471
00:27:12,396 --> 00:27:13,767
I already told you,
you're not getting a hamster.

472
00:27:13,868 --> 00:27:15,065
No, no. You know what,
let's see, okay?

473
00:27:15,167 --> 00:27:16,396
Maybe when we get
back to the apartment...

474
00:27:16,499 --> 00:27:17,801
No, no, no, no, no.
She's not getting a hamster.

475
00:27:17,904 --> 00:27:18,835
Daddy, when are you coming home?

476
00:27:18,936 --> 00:27:20,170
She's not getting a hamster.

477
00:27:20,271 --> 00:27:22,269
What, where are you?
I can hear something weird.

478
00:27:22,371 --> 00:27:25,176
Oh. Yeah, that.
I'm catching a game.

479
00:27:25,546 --> 00:27:26,677
- A game?
- Yeah.

480
00:27:26,779 --> 00:27:28,176
Yeah, we got here this morning,

481
00:27:28,279 --> 00:27:29,709
and there's a
minor league team here

482
00:27:29,810 --> 00:27:32,480
on the island where we go.
It's a little loud, so...

483
00:27:32,581 --> 00:27:34,346
Oh, it must be nice, huh,
doing things for yourself.

484
00:27:34,449 --> 00:27:36,081
- What's that like?
- Hey, hey, hey.

485
00:27:36,183 --> 00:27:37,352
You wanna switch places?

486
00:27:37,453 --> 00:27:38,724
You don't know
what I'm dealing with here.

487
00:27:38,827 --> 00:27:39,991
All right,
I'll go sit on my ass...

488
00:27:40,093 --> 00:27:41,655
- Daddy!
- ... all day in therapy...

489
00:27:41,958 --> 00:27:43,424
I'm sorry. Ha-ha.

490
00:27:43,527 --> 00:27:46,224
I mean, "sit on my butt"
listening to people whine,

491
00:27:46,327 --> 00:27:48,227
and you can captain this fu...

492
00:27:48,329 --> 00:27:51,069
Uh... this stupid boat, okay?

493
00:27:51,172 --> 00:27:53,268
Listen, I'm allowed
to do things on my time off.

494
00:27:53,369 --> 00:27:56,568
- Jesus Christ!
- Time off? Oh, okay, um...

495
00:27:56,671 --> 00:27:58,804
Daddy has to go now,
and, uh, we have to drive,

496
00:27:58,905 --> 00:28:00,439
- so say goodbye to Daddy, okay?
- No. I don't have to go!

497
00:28:00,540 --> 00:28:02,279
- Look, they're in the middle...
- Jesus.

498
00:28:03,981 --> 00:28:06,315
I told you, it's a rodent,

499
00:28:06,416 --> 00:28:08,016
and just something
to look after for no reason.

500
00:28:08,118 --> 00:28:10,923
Please, please don't ask again,

501
00:28:11,026 --> 00:28:12,855
and don't ask Daddy things
I already say no to.

502
00:28:12,956 --> 00:28:15,556
But Mommy, it's not fair!

503
00:28:51,593 --> 00:28:54,127
Dr. Spring said this
is a big week.

504
00:28:54,430 --> 00:28:56,933
- Did she tell you that?
- Yeah.

505
00:28:57,035 --> 00:28:58,464
I think you can do it.

506
00:28:58,567 --> 00:29:01,070
But I'm already doing
it my best.

507
00:29:01,374 --> 00:29:03,743
I know, but you have
to do a little better

508
00:29:03,846 --> 00:29:05,337
then we can
get rid of this thing,

509
00:29:05,439 --> 00:29:07,212
and everything will be okay.

510
00:29:08,847 --> 00:29:10,148
I'll be better.

511
00:29:12,145 --> 00:29:13,614
Okay. Well...

512
00:29:16,052 --> 00:29:17,391
it's not up to me.

513
00:29:17,492 --> 00:29:19,157
It's up to you.

514
00:29:26,262 --> 00:29:28,599
What book can I read
you tonight?

515
00:29:29,001 --> 00:29:31,833
I'm too tired.
Just a song.

516
00:29:32,135 --> 00:29:33,535
Okay, what song?

517
00:29:34,776 --> 00:29:37,275
- The dead whale one.
- Okay.

518
00:30:24,289 --> 00:30:26,155
I don't mean to say
we're all robots,

519
00:30:26,258 --> 00:30:27,926
but I wonder
if you had been raised

520
00:30:28,029 --> 00:30:29,962
the way your mother
had been raised.

521
00:30:30,198 --> 00:30:31,695
I mean, she had a father
who just took off,

522
00:30:31,798 --> 00:30:33,031
didn't come home.

523
00:30:33,135 --> 00:30:34,628
Then another man
entered her mother's life,

524
00:30:34,731 --> 00:30:37,266
and she became attached to him,
and he bailed out.

525
00:30:37,367 --> 00:30:38,565
I know what you're saying.

526
00:30:38,667 --> 00:30:41,403
I did have that same one.
Very similar.

527
00:30:41,506 --> 00:30:43,441
But...
Okay, well, my question is

528
00:30:43,542 --> 00:30:46,175
if you had been raised
as your mother had been raised

529
00:30:46,278 --> 00:30:47,405
do you think
you probably would've

530
00:30:47,509 --> 00:30:49,008
knocked your kids around too?

531
00:30:49,711 --> 00:30:50,713
See how many
you catch in your mouth.

532
00:30:50,816 --> 00:30:51,475
Okay.

533
00:30:51,577 --> 00:30:53,752
Okay, open.

534
00:30:53,855 --> 00:30:54,953
Wait. Shh.

535
00:30:55,056 --> 00:30:56,254
Fuck.
This fucking drunk bitch...

536
00:30:59,888 --> 00:31:03,629
Put this on my room, please.
It's definitely before 2:00.

537
00:31:05,164 --> 00:31:07,166
I'm gonna need to see
your ID, ma'am.

538
00:31:09,037 --> 00:31:11,330
You've never asked
me that before.

539
00:31:11,599 --> 00:31:13,233
Ma'am, I'm gonna need
to see your ID.

540
00:31:13,337 --> 00:31:15,500
You really want me to go

541
00:31:15,603 --> 00:31:17,308
all the way back up to my room,

542
00:31:17,410 --> 00:31:20,279
get my ID, and come
all the way back down here?

543
00:31:20,382 --> 00:31:23,177
It's the rule. Aren't you only
on the second floor anyway?

544
00:31:23,279 --> 00:31:25,050
When is this the fucking rule?

545
00:31:25,153 --> 00:31:26,545
I have been in here
every single night...

546
00:31:26,646 --> 00:31:27,885
Maybe I cracked open
the rulebook

547
00:31:27,987 --> 00:31:29,320
and found some shit out.

548
00:31:29,423 --> 00:31:31,185
Well, maybe you should
find my ID that's behind...

549
00:31:31,288 --> 00:31:32,354
Ladies, ladies, ladies...

550
00:31:32,455 --> 00:31:33,924
- It's the rule, ma'am!
- Ladies!

551
00:31:34,027 --> 00:31:36,094
- Ladies!
- I'm not going back!

552
00:31:36,195 --> 00:31:37,790
Ladies, whoa, whoa!

553
00:31:37,893 --> 00:31:40,896
- Ladies, calm it down, bro.
- I'm fuckin' chill.

554
00:31:40,999 --> 00:31:41,967
It's not that deep.

555
00:31:42,068 --> 00:31:42,900
She fucking barking at me.

556
00:31:43,001 --> 00:31:44,397
Just use my ID for it.

557
00:31:44,500 --> 00:31:46,269
- I can't do that.
- Why not?

558
00:31:46,371 --> 00:31:48,404
I can't use your ID
for her wine.

559
00:31:48,638 --> 00:31:51,904
Well then it's my wine,
she's just paying for it.

560
00:31:54,144 --> 00:31:55,577
She fucking took it.

561
00:32:04,723 --> 00:32:05,991
Hey!

562
00:32:09,025 --> 00:32:10,296
What?

563
00:32:12,933 --> 00:32:14,795
The name's Jamie, by the way.

564
00:32:15,670 --> 00:32:16,700
Got a light?

565
00:32:17,135 --> 00:32:18,831
I'm not interested.

566
00:32:19,600 --> 00:32:22,275
- In what?
- I need to be alone.

567
00:32:23,875 --> 00:32:25,443
Rude as hell.

568
00:32:27,281 --> 00:32:29,612
A motherfucking thank you
would've been nice, miss.

569
00:33:08,219 --> 00:33:09,583
I'm, uh, at the hotel.

570
00:33:09,684 --> 00:33:11,588
I'm outside just getting
some fresh air.

571
00:33:11,691 --> 00:33:14,224
I don't like it when
you leave her there by herself,

572
00:33:14,327 --> 00:33:15,953
even for a second.
It isn't safe.

573
00:33:16,056 --> 00:33:18,593
I'm just outside for a minute
getting some air.

574
00:33:18,694 --> 00:33:21,499
The windows don't open in there.

575
00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:24,100
To stop everyone from killing
themselves, obviously.

576
00:33:24,202 --> 00:33:25,634
All right. Yeah, yeah, yeah,

577
00:33:25,735 --> 00:33:26,904
but what if she wakes up
and she's scared or...

578
00:33:27,007 --> 00:33:28,338
Well, she never wakes up,

579
00:33:28,441 --> 00:33:30,073
and anyway,
I have someone at the hotel now.

580
00:33:30,174 --> 00:33:31,473
- A babysitter.
- Really?

581
00:33:31,577 --> 00:33:33,746
Where'd you find a babysitter?
Who is it?

582
00:33:33,847 --> 00:33:34,905
His name's James.

583
00:33:35,009 --> 00:33:38,314
His name is James?
He's a male babysitter?

584
00:33:38,683 --> 00:33:41,487
Did you call just to call
me a bad mother, or what?

585
00:33:41,588 --> 00:33:43,615
You have no idea what it's like
not to be able to go outside

586
00:33:43,718 --> 00:33:45,289
even for a minute, by yourself.

587
00:33:45,392 --> 00:33:47,092
You can go outside
whenever you want to.

588
00:33:47,193 --> 00:33:49,127
You can go wherever you want to.

589
00:33:49,230 --> 00:33:50,522
The machine
doesn't fucking stop...

590
00:33:50,625 --> 00:33:51,889
and there's nothing to do in...

591
00:33:51,992 --> 00:33:53,465
Hey, I am over here
working my ass off!

592
00:33:53,568 --> 00:33:55,731
Oh, my God! Who is the one who
went to a baseball game today

593
00:33:55,834 --> 00:33:58,366
and who is the one who filled
her bag with gloop 500 times,

594
00:33:58,468 --> 00:33:59,963
saw patients, picked her up,

595
00:34:00,067 --> 00:34:02,173
had to do dinner where
she only got 20 percent,

596
00:34:02,275 --> 00:34:03,338
and then had to
try to convince...

597
00:34:03,441 --> 00:34:04,875
Can we please not do this?

598
00:34:04,978 --> 00:34:06,003
Look, I gotta go.

599
00:34:06,106 --> 00:34:08,139
The reception's really bad here.
Everything's fine.

600
00:34:08,241 --> 00:34:10,212
No, no, no. Wait, wait, wait.
Did you go to the apart...

601
00:34:28,197 --> 00:34:30,231
Yes. Yes.

602
00:34:30,333 --> 00:34:32,063
Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

603
00:34:57,793 --> 00:35:00,097
Here are pics of hole.

604
00:35:00,199 --> 00:35:01,298
Forgot to send today.

605
00:35:01,400 --> 00:35:03,094
I went during lunch.

606
00:35:57,487 --> 00:36:00,889
What is movie...

607
00:36:02,893 --> 00:36:08,492
babies, zombies,
'80s, mothers eating babies?

608
00:36:09,161 --> 00:36:10,628
Here's what I found.

609
00:36:10,730 --> 00:36:12,137
A court has reopened...

610
00:36:13,873 --> 00:36:16,741
nine-week-old baby really
was taken and killed by a dingo

611
00:36:16,842 --> 00:36:20,445
24 years after Meryl Streep
portrayed the Australian mother

612
00:36:20,547 --> 00:36:22,907
wrongly jailed
for killing her child.

613
00:36:23,009 --> 00:36:24,945
Chamberlain has
always insisted...

614
00:36:55,344 --> 00:36:56,516
What?

615
00:37:28,478 --> 00:37:30,043
Mom?

616
00:37:47,001 --> 00:37:47,963
Hello?

617
00:38:42,148 --> 00:38:44,786
Wake up, Mom. Wake up. Okay.

618
00:38:46,920 --> 00:38:49,188
Mom. Mom. You hear us?

619
00:38:51,731 --> 00:38:54,065
Come on, Mom. Snap out of it.

620
00:39:04,172 --> 00:39:06,139
Hey. Hey, you know
what would be super fun

621
00:39:06,242 --> 00:39:08,773
and like a really, really
big kid type of thing to do?

622
00:39:08,876 --> 00:39:10,009
I can't hear you.

623
00:39:10,110 --> 00:39:11,681
I said, you know
what would be super fun

624
00:39:11,782 --> 00:39:14,480
and a big kid
type of thing to do?

625
00:39:14,583 --> 00:39:15,652
What?

626
00:39:15,753 --> 00:39:16,918
If I drop you
in front of the door

627
00:39:17,021 --> 00:39:18,423
and you just go in by yourself.
Oh, my God.

628
00:39:18,525 --> 00:39:20,657
- That would be so cool of you.
- No.

629
00:39:20,759 --> 00:39:23,092
- Why not?
- All the moms walk you in.

630
00:39:23,193 --> 00:39:26,126
You're a mom. You have to walk
me in. You have to sign me in.

631
00:39:27,496 --> 00:39:29,599
Eva! Eva!

632
00:39:30,034 --> 00:39:32,603
Can you walk her in today?
Please, please, please?

633
00:39:32,706 --> 00:39:34,168
I cannot deal with the parking.

634
00:39:35,474 --> 00:39:36,670
Of course. No problem.

635
00:39:36,773 --> 00:39:37,972
- No problem.
- Thank you.

636
00:39:38,074 --> 00:39:39,610
Okay. Exciting news.
Guess what? Guess what?

637
00:39:39,712 --> 00:39:42,882
Eva will walk you in!
Go, go, go.

638
00:39:43,217 --> 00:39:44,317
Let's go!

639
00:39:44,418 --> 00:39:45,550
- Mommy, Addie scares me.
- Come on.

640
00:39:45,652 --> 00:39:48,686
She only eats Nutella.
I need you!

641
00:39:48,788 --> 00:39:51,322
- To be with you!
- Honey, please. For Mama, okay?

642
00:39:51,425 --> 00:39:53,625
- Please? Please?
- You are my mom.

643
00:39:53,728 --> 00:39:55,226
We'll go look at hamsters
today if you do it.

644
00:39:55,327 --> 00:39:56,462
"Look" at them?

645
00:39:56,563 --> 00:39:57,425
I'll get you one, okay?
Just go. Go!

646
00:39:58,764 --> 00:39:59,891
Okay, see? I love you!
I love you, okay?

647
00:39:59,994 --> 00:40:01,561
Everything's gonna be...
Shit.

648
00:40:01,663 --> 00:40:02,829
- Hi.
- Hi.

649
00:40:02,931 --> 00:40:04,733
Shit! Shit! Shit!

650
00:40:04,835 --> 00:40:07,634
I'm the worst.
I'm the fucking worst!

651
00:40:08,271 --> 00:40:11,239
And then you told me
that if you touch a baby bird,

652
00:40:11,340 --> 00:40:14,780
the mama bird will not come back
if they know you touched them.

653
00:40:16,177 --> 00:40:18,712
Hm. That must have been
some dream.

654
00:40:18,813 --> 00:40:20,280
- Do you...
- I'm not done.

655
00:40:21,617 --> 00:40:22,887
You kissed me.

656
00:40:26,722 --> 00:40:28,726
I said, you kissed me.

657
00:40:28,895 --> 00:40:32,463
Yes. I heard you.
In your dream, I kissed you.

658
00:40:32,764 --> 00:40:35,427
Yeah, and then the
next day, I felt...

659
00:40:37,634 --> 00:40:38,998
crushing guilt.

660
00:40:39,101 --> 00:40:40,833
And I knew somehow
that your husband

661
00:40:40,934 --> 00:40:42,302
had called me an asshole.

662
00:40:45,340 --> 00:40:47,840
You know, Stephen,
we can talk about these feelings

663
00:40:47,942 --> 00:40:49,210
apart from your dreams.

664
00:40:52,481 --> 00:40:53,445
But...

665
00:40:59,289 --> 00:41:02,387
I can't help it if in my dreams
you always want to kiss me.

666
00:41:08,302 --> 00:41:09,529
What's the difference

667
00:41:09,630 --> 00:41:13,701
between going outside on hotel
property when she's sleeping...

668
00:41:13,936 --> 00:41:15,802
and going all the way home?

669
00:41:16,072 --> 00:41:18,639
In one, I guess
I'm just a regular mom

670
00:41:18,742 --> 00:41:19,907
making a shitty choice,

671
00:41:20,009 --> 00:41:22,545
and in the other,
I'm a... I'm a...

672
00:41:22,646 --> 00:41:24,777
a straight up shitty mom.

673
00:41:24,880 --> 00:41:27,018
Well, it's not my role

674
00:41:27,119 --> 00:41:29,719
to decide whether you should
or whether you should not...

675
00:41:29,822 --> 00:41:31,487
- That's not...
- No, no, no. I shouldn't.

676
00:41:31,588 --> 00:41:32,987
I know I shouldn't.

677
00:41:33,088 --> 00:41:35,088
I shouldn't even leave
her for a second.

678
00:41:35,192 --> 00:41:38,989
I mean, it is your job to say.

679
00:41:39,092 --> 00:41:41,398
Just tell me not to do it.

680
00:41:41,501 --> 00:41:43,163
Just tell me what to do.

681
00:41:43,266 --> 00:41:46,766
I don't think you want me
to tell you what to do.

682
00:41:46,867 --> 00:41:47,967
You know what to do.

683
00:41:48,070 --> 00:41:49,509
No one will tell me what to do.

684
00:41:49,610 --> 00:41:50,840
I'm supposed to know
how to fix this.

685
00:41:50,942 --> 00:41:52,710
I'm supposed to know
how to fix her.

686
00:41:52,813 --> 00:41:55,980
What is it you think
it's your job to fix?

687
00:41:56,083 --> 00:41:59,079
She has to weigh 50 pounds
by next week, Dr. Spring said.

688
00:41:59,181 --> 00:42:01,280
That's a gain of 2.5
pounds, right?

689
00:42:01,382 --> 00:42:03,483
Each day's supposed to be
2,500 calories in

690
00:42:03,585 --> 00:42:06,320
compensating for her resting
rate at 1,800 calories burned.

691
00:42:06,422 --> 00:42:09,224
That's gotta be at least 80%
of each meal for seven days

692
00:42:09,326 --> 00:42:11,889
plus the tube, and that's
if she just lays still all day.

693
00:42:11,992 --> 00:42:13,226
And if it doesn't,

694
00:42:13,327 --> 00:42:15,193
then something about
not getting the tube out

695
00:42:15,295 --> 00:42:16,963
and reassessing
the level of care.

696
00:42:17,065 --> 00:42:18,637
- What do I do?
- Tonight...

697
00:42:18,739 --> 00:42:21,806
I would like you
to get a good night sleep.

698
00:42:21,907 --> 00:42:23,735
So would I,
but I'm asking you a thing.

699
00:42:23,837 --> 00:42:27,175
An actual thing, a problem to
fix, and I need help with this.

700
00:42:27,277 --> 00:42:29,112
Am I supposed to just sit
around and watch her fail

701
00:42:29,213 --> 00:42:31,617
and this is just gonna
go on forever? What do I do?

702
00:42:31,719 --> 00:42:33,782
Okay. That means
there's no drinking.

703
00:42:33,884 --> 00:42:35,885
There's no drugs. There's no...

704
00:42:35,987 --> 00:42:39,858
Are you listening to me?
Can you hear me?

705
00:42:41,454 --> 00:42:44,027
I'm asking you what
I'm supposed to do!

706
00:42:52,440 --> 00:42:53,898
Why don't you like me?

707
00:42:56,873 --> 00:42:58,337
Why don't I like you?

708
00:42:58,440 --> 00:43:01,440
I know you won't answer me.
Just forget it.

709
00:43:02,813 --> 00:43:05,048
That is incredibly unfair.

710
00:43:07,085 --> 00:43:10,284
Why is this so important to you
right now?

711
00:43:16,423 --> 00:43:19,463
I just want someone
to tell me what to do.

712
00:43:19,565 --> 00:43:21,163
No one will tell me.

713
00:43:25,038 --> 00:43:27,335
I love him,
I love him, I love him.

714
00:43:28,034 --> 00:43:29,436
When we get home,

715
00:43:29,538 --> 00:43:31,438
he can live a happy life there.

716
00:43:31,541 --> 00:43:34,543
And we're gonna have
him forever, and ever, and ever,

717
00:43:34,646 --> 00:43:36,514
and ever, and ever.

718
00:43:37,083 --> 00:43:40,251
I love him. I'm gonna kiss him,
and I'm gonna hug him.

719
00:43:40,954 --> 00:43:43,784
Oh, my God. Maybe
his name should be S'mores.

720
00:43:43,885 --> 00:43:45,183
That's really nice.

721
00:43:45,284 --> 00:43:47,485
I said, don't open the box.

722
00:43:47,588 --> 00:43:50,058
I just wanna see him.
He's been scratching.

723
00:43:50,159 --> 00:43:52,396
He doesn't like being
in the box.

724
00:43:52,632 --> 00:43:53,690
He's trying to get out.

725
00:43:53,793 --> 00:43:57,097
Can you hold it closed, please?
And keep it closed.

726
00:43:57,400 --> 00:44:00,239
He's scratching me!
He's supposed to love me.

727
00:44:00,340 --> 00:44:01,197
Close the box.

728
00:44:01,300 --> 00:44:02,837
I can't.

729
00:44:02,938 --> 00:44:04,369
Mommy, he's getting out.

730
00:44:04,471 --> 00:44:06,641
Just hand it to me.
Hand it to me.

731
00:44:06,744 --> 00:44:07,978
He's gonna jump out.

732
00:44:08,079 --> 00:44:09,373
- He hates us.
- Give it to me. I can't see.

733
00:44:09,476 --> 00:44:11,309
Give it to me.

734
00:44:11,411 --> 00:44:12,547
I think we got
the wrong hamster.

735
00:44:12,648 --> 00:44:13,347
Shit.

736
00:44:14,313 --> 00:44:16,280
Ow! Shit.

737
00:44:16,550 --> 00:44:18,556
- We're gonna die.
- No, we're not gonna die,

738
00:44:18,657 --> 00:44:19,751
but I have to pull over.

739
00:44:19,853 --> 00:44:21,320
Ow! Shit!

740
00:44:21,422 --> 00:44:22,520
- Maybe this isn't S'mores.
- Oh, my God.

741
00:44:22,621 --> 00:44:24,695
- It's out. It's out! Shit. Shit.
- Oh, my...

742
00:44:24,797 --> 00:44:27,664
Mommy. Oh, my God. It's out.

743
00:44:27,967 --> 00:44:29,197
Why aren't you
putting that back in?

744
00:44:29,298 --> 00:44:30,496
Just put it back in.

745
00:44:30,597 --> 00:44:33,538
Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
Oh, my God. Oh, my God!

746
00:44:33,639 --> 00:44:35,902
Please! Put him back in!

747
00:44:36,436 --> 00:44:38,270
I don't want it.
I don't want him anymore.

748
00:44:38,371 --> 00:44:39,744
He's bad.

749
00:44:42,710 --> 00:44:44,942
Okay. Okay, hey, hey, hey.

750
00:44:45,045 --> 00:44:46,313
You're fine.

751
00:44:46,416 --> 00:44:49,148
You're fine, and I'm fine, okay?
Nobody is hurt.

752
00:44:49,251 --> 00:44:51,483
Let's...

753
00:44:51,585 --> 00:44:52,824
Take it with you!
Take it with you!

754
00:44:52,927 --> 00:44:54,059
- I'll be right back.
- It's gonna hurt me!

755
00:44:54,891 --> 00:44:57,324
I hate my hamster!

756
00:44:57,427 --> 00:44:59,862
- Hey, man. What are you doing?
- Hey, hey, hey.

757
00:44:59,965 --> 00:45:01,766
Oh. You're lucky
there's no damage.

758
00:45:01,869 --> 00:45:03,233
We don't have to
exchange information.

759
00:45:03,335 --> 00:45:05,297
What? My kid is in that car.
Do you hear her crying, huh?

760
00:45:05,398 --> 00:45:06,967
You scared her to death,
you dick.

761
00:45:07,202 --> 00:45:10,141
Hey, Mom.
It was barely just a tap.

762
00:45:10,244 --> 00:45:12,405
Don't fucking call me Mommy.
She thought we were gonna die.

763
00:45:12,507 --> 00:45:15,112
Don't fuck with me
about my child's safety. Huh?

764
00:45:15,215 --> 00:45:17,043
- Give me all your information.
- What the fuck is that?

765
00:45:17,145 --> 00:45:19,215
- What?
- That! That!

766
00:45:21,422 --> 00:45:22,681
Mommy!

767
00:45:24,690 --> 00:45:25,588
Oh.

768
00:45:29,059 --> 00:45:33,092
Mommy, what happened?
Mommy!

769
00:45:33,762 --> 00:45:36,728
I love you.
I miss you. Come back here.

770
00:45:38,237 --> 00:45:41,204
Everything is under control.

771
00:45:48,679 --> 00:45:50,010
Stop.

772
00:45:50,112 --> 00:45:52,782
Do you know that I love you

773
00:45:52,884 --> 00:45:55,512
and I think you're the best

774
00:45:55,614 --> 00:45:59,288
and so proud of you
for everything,

775
00:45:59,389 --> 00:46:04,090
and you can do it,
and you're almost all better.

776
00:46:04,193 --> 00:46:06,128
- You're so good.
- Mommy, stop.

777
00:46:06,231 --> 00:46:09,927
What? I can't stop.
I just love you too much.

778
00:46:10,329 --> 00:46:12,797
You smell like wine.

779
00:46:28,954 --> 00:46:30,683
Hello?

780
00:46:31,791 --> 00:46:34,219
Hi, it's... it's Caroline.

781
00:46:34,322 --> 00:46:36,221
Caroline Primm, your patient.

782
00:46:36,322 --> 00:46:38,123
I'm sorry it's so late.

783
00:46:38,393 --> 00:46:42,059
Um... Oh.
Is this an emergency?

784
00:46:42,628 --> 00:46:46,065
Because, um,
if this is an emergency,

785
00:46:46,168 --> 00:46:48,101
you need to hang up and...

786
00:46:48,204 --> 00:46:50,400
It's not an emergency. I just...

787
00:46:50,503 --> 00:46:53,112
I forgot to call you yesterday.

788
00:46:54,579 --> 00:46:55,813
What?

789
00:46:56,117 --> 00:46:58,146
Well, you told me
to take Riley for a walk

790
00:46:58,248 --> 00:47:00,710
after I took a bath
and calmed down

791
00:47:00,813 --> 00:47:02,686
and I did it, and I
forgot to call you...

792
00:47:02,788 --> 00:47:05,384
Oh. Okay, yes. Um...

793
00:47:05,485 --> 00:47:09,728
Well, uh, that's good,
and, um...

794
00:47:10,463 --> 00:47:14,195
Uh, I... I do feel though that I
should tell you that this number

795
00:47:14,297 --> 00:47:17,400
is really for emergencies
only, okay?

796
00:47:18,266 --> 00:47:20,730
Oh. I'm sorry. I just...

797
00:47:21,032 --> 00:47:23,101
I just couldn't sleep
thinking that you were worried.

798
00:47:23,204 --> 00:47:25,170
I wasn't worried.

799
00:47:25,972 --> 00:47:29,474
You... You weren't?
You weren't thinking about me?

800
00:47:29,576 --> 00:47:32,117
I said that you could
call me if you...

801
00:47:32,219 --> 00:47:34,378
I said you could call me
if you couldn't calm down

802
00:47:34,480 --> 00:47:36,052
not that you had to call me.

803
00:47:36,155 --> 00:47:38,951
But, um...
but are you safe, Caroline?

804
00:47:39,054 --> 00:47:40,284
Are you...?

805
00:47:40,755 --> 00:47:44,157
I'm... I'm sorry.
I... I misunderstood.

806
00:47:44,626 --> 00:47:48,134
Yeah, I'm so dumb. Um...
Yes, I'm safe.

807
00:47:48,235 --> 00:47:52,637
Okay. Well, let's talk about
this in session, okay?

808
00:47:53,505 --> 00:47:56,170
I'm sorry.
I'm obviously bothering you.

809
00:47:56,271 --> 00:47:58,471
It is not your fault, uh...

810
00:47:58,572 --> 00:48:01,512
and I will...
I'll see you next week.

811
00:48:01,916 --> 00:48:03,476
Well, can I come in tomorrow?

812
00:48:03,779 --> 00:48:07,014
It's just waiting
until next week seems too long.

813
00:48:07,449 --> 00:48:09,614
Uh, well, let me
check my schedule,

814
00:48:09,715 --> 00:48:12,422
and I will text you a time, okay?

815
00:48:13,255 --> 00:48:15,193
Okay. Um, I'm sor...

816
00:48:20,728 --> 00:48:24,036
You've gotta be fucking
kidding me! Shit!

817
00:48:27,233 --> 00:48:28,737
Hello?

818
00:48:28,838 --> 00:48:29,768
Hello?

819
00:48:30,840 --> 00:48:32,306
Hello!

820
00:48:32,409 --> 00:48:35,478
Hello! Is anyone here
doing their job?

821
00:48:43,623 --> 00:48:44,717
Shit.

822
00:48:47,960 --> 00:48:49,492
Want some help with that?

823
00:48:50,931 --> 00:48:52,891
I know a trick. Got a knife.

824
00:49:03,907 --> 00:49:05,076
Sweetie?

825
00:49:05,177 --> 00:49:07,206
Little Bear, open up.
It's Mommy.

826
00:49:07,309 --> 00:49:10,413
Little Bear, open up.

827
00:49:18,456 --> 00:49:20,423
What is she doing?

828
00:49:22,190 --> 00:49:24,159
Whoa. Whoa, whoa.

829
00:49:24,527 --> 00:49:26,460
- What the fuck's your problem?
- What? Whoa.

830
00:49:26,563 --> 00:49:27,958
What, you're obsessed with me
or something?

831
00:49:28,061 --> 00:49:29,829
What are you talking about?
Don't flatter yourself.

832
00:49:29,931 --> 00:49:31,764
Well, why are you looking at me?
What? What do you want?

833
00:49:31,867 --> 00:49:33,764
I don't want you just sitting
outside and by yourself.

834
00:49:33,867 --> 00:49:34,936
Some creep might walk past
or something.

835
00:49:35,038 --> 00:49:36,137
What creep?

836
00:49:36,239 --> 00:49:37,503
How the fuck do I know, lady?

837
00:49:37,605 --> 00:49:38,570
There's creeps
all over this place.

838
00:49:38,672 --> 00:49:40,771
- Don't call me lady.
- My bad, miss.

839
00:49:40,873 --> 00:49:42,780
Don't call me miss.
Don't. Just don't.

840
00:49:42,882 --> 00:49:44,275
Ma'am.

841
00:49:44,378 --> 00:49:46,014
- Frau?
- Yeah.

842
00:49:46,117 --> 00:49:47,717
- Slag.
- Oh, my God.

843
00:49:47,820 --> 00:49:49,518
Your thottiness?

844
00:49:50,384 --> 00:49:52,521
Housewife?

845
00:49:52,623 --> 00:49:54,617
At this point, I don't even know
what to refer to you as.

846
00:49:54,721 --> 00:49:56,525
I'm gonna just call you female.

847
00:49:57,126 --> 00:49:58,994
Yo, crazy pants.

848
00:49:59,429 --> 00:50:01,625
I was gonna partake
in surfing the web

849
00:50:01,726 --> 00:50:03,402
for some things that I'm into,

850
00:50:03,503 --> 00:50:06,465
if you catch my drift, and
I'm just putting it out there,

851
00:50:06,567 --> 00:50:09,134
you more than welcome to join.

852
00:50:09,436 --> 00:50:11,974
No pressure. Just saying.

853
00:50:15,309 --> 00:50:16,809
What kind of stuff?

854
00:50:22,849 --> 00:50:24,616
Is that like the dark web?

855
00:50:24,851 --> 00:50:28,226
Like where you can
buy people and stuff?

856
00:50:28,327 --> 00:50:30,994
I don't know.
Never bought a person, so...

857
00:50:31,097 --> 00:50:33,492
But you could? Or sell one?

858
00:50:33,929 --> 00:50:37,134
I mean, I guess so, but
I don't come on the dark web

859
00:50:37,237 --> 00:50:39,168
searching for that
kind of shit, so...

860
00:50:39,270 --> 00:50:41,472
Aren't there places on there

861
00:50:41,574 --> 00:50:44,273
where people, like, show
each other videos of murders

862
00:50:44,375 --> 00:50:46,177
and people they're
holding captive?

863
00:50:46,280 --> 00:50:48,112
Can we change the subject?
Let's buy drugs.

864
00:50:48,213 --> 00:50:49,445
Let's get some...

865
00:50:49,547 --> 00:50:51,145
some shit, right? Come on.
What do you want?

866
00:50:51,246 --> 00:50:52,548
What are you into?

867
00:50:53,748 --> 00:50:55,983
I don't know.
Do they have, like...

868
00:50:56,286 --> 00:50:58,085
cocaine or something?

869
00:50:58,655 --> 00:51:00,952
When was the last time
you tried cocaine?

870
00:51:01,922 --> 00:51:03,891
What do you mean?
It's a very popular drug.

871
00:51:03,994 --> 00:51:05,224
I like it.

872
00:51:05,960 --> 00:51:10,402
All right. Well, I'm getting
molly, so we'll get both.

873
00:51:11,036 --> 00:51:12,668
See, the thing is,

874
00:51:12,771 --> 00:51:14,871
I don't get paid till next week,
so I need you to cover me.

875
00:51:14,974 --> 00:51:17,141
Oh. Oh, I'm... No.

876
00:51:17,242 --> 00:51:19,472
No, no.
I see what this is about.

877
00:51:19,907 --> 00:51:21,706
- Where you going?
- I'm going back to my room.

878
00:51:21,809 --> 00:51:23,675
For what?
You don't even have a key.

879
00:51:23,777 --> 00:51:25,349
Besides, your daughter's
passed out.

880
00:51:25,451 --> 00:51:27,945
Front desk lady's
definitely in a coma by now.

881
00:51:28,047 --> 00:51:31,222
Calm down. Come sit down.
Let's order. Jeez.

882
00:51:31,324 --> 00:51:33,117
I could put it on my
credit card, I guess.

883
00:51:33,693 --> 00:51:34,753
What? No.

884
00:51:34,855 --> 00:51:36,625
The 400, I could put
it on my credit card.

885
00:51:36,726 --> 00:51:39,226
No, no. See, man,
it can't be traced back to you.

886
00:51:39,329 --> 00:51:40,958
It has to be anonymous.

887
00:51:41,059 --> 00:51:45,869
Well, then how do you
pay for the stuff?

888
00:51:46,139 --> 00:51:47,503
All right, what we could do is

889
00:51:47,605 --> 00:51:49,503
we could go to a pharmacy
or something real quick

890
00:51:49,605 --> 00:51:51,840
and put it on one of
those gift cards

891
00:51:51,942 --> 00:51:54,771
or maybe you got bitcoin, or
crypto, or some shit like that?

892
00:51:54,873 --> 00:51:56,442
No, I don't have
any of that stuff,

893
00:51:56,543 --> 00:51:58,516
and I can't get in a car

894
00:51:58,619 --> 00:52:00,612
and leave my daughter alone
in the middle of the night.

895
00:52:00,916 --> 00:52:03,320
You leave your daughter alone
all the time.

896
00:52:03,423 --> 00:52:05,523
No, I don't. That's just
if I go in the field.

897
00:52:05,626 --> 00:52:08,893
Ha! I literally seen you leave
your daughter alone myself

898
00:52:08,996 --> 00:52:09,887
with my own two eyes.

899
00:52:09,991 --> 00:52:11,358
- What's the problem this time?
- What are you?

900
00:52:11,460 --> 00:52:12,860
You stalking me or something?

901
00:52:12,962 --> 00:52:15,659
I'm a concerned citizen.
I mean, takes a village, right?

902
00:52:20,135 --> 00:52:21,065
What?

903
00:52:27,311 --> 00:52:30,480
Sweetie! Sweetie! It's Mommy!

904
00:52:30,583 --> 00:52:32,918
You locked me out. Sweetie!

905
00:52:33,020 --> 00:52:34,382
Sweetie! Open the door!

906
00:52:34,483 --> 00:52:36,587
Little Bear, open the door!

907
00:52:37,485 --> 00:52:38,786
Mommy...

908
00:52:38,887 --> 00:52:42,152
Just wheel the machine over
and open the door!

909
00:52:43,159 --> 00:52:44,759
Little Bear!

910
00:52:47,032 --> 00:52:49,197
Open the door!

911
00:52:49,298 --> 00:52:51,067
I locked myself out!

912
00:52:51,170 --> 00:52:53,134
It's Mom! It's Mommy!

913
00:52:53,235 --> 00:52:54,505
Mommy?

914
00:52:55,206 --> 00:52:56,739
Are you there?

915
00:53:06,081 --> 00:53:08,451
I'm not sure how we can
talk about anything helpful

916
00:53:08,552 --> 00:53:10,650
if you won't even look
me in the eye.

917
00:53:10,753 --> 00:53:13,255
You asked me for this
extra session.

918
00:53:13,358 --> 00:53:15,454
I can't.

919
00:53:15,556 --> 00:53:17,425
You must be so mad at me.

920
00:53:17,527 --> 00:53:19,262
Mad? Oh, because you called me?

921
00:53:19,364 --> 00:53:21,226
No, no, no. I'm not mad at you.

922
00:53:21,596 --> 00:53:23,534
Let's move on. Please?

923
00:53:26,434 --> 00:53:28,474
You have a daughter.

924
00:53:30,539 --> 00:53:32,436
Why didn't you ever tell me?

925
00:53:32,739 --> 00:53:34,409
Well, this isn't about me.

926
00:53:34,510 --> 00:53:36,239
But now I know that you know.

927
00:53:37,411 --> 00:53:38,445
You know.

928
00:53:38,849 --> 00:53:42,382
I don't know.
You need to tell me.

929
00:53:42,483 --> 00:53:44,148
It's not your fault.

930
00:53:45,487 --> 00:53:47,016
But it is mine.

931
00:53:47,518 --> 00:53:50,960
Okay, you know, Caroline I think
that it may be time that we...

932
00:53:51,061 --> 00:53:52,157
um...

933
00:53:53,233 --> 00:53:56,134
that we consult with someone

934
00:53:56,235 --> 00:53:59,235
about some medication for you.

935
00:53:59,704 --> 00:54:02,467
Well, I can't take medication.
I'm breastfeeding.

936
00:54:03,170 --> 00:54:06,645
- Do you want me to kill my baby?
- Of course not.

937
00:54:06,746 --> 00:54:09,981
I just think if a doctor thinks
it could be beneficial,

938
00:54:10,083 --> 00:54:11,913
then maybe we need to...

939
00:54:12,014 --> 00:54:17,820
prioritize your... your...
health over breastfeeding.

940
00:54:18,157 --> 00:54:19,650
Just right now.

941
00:54:20,219 --> 00:54:22,423
You know, you need to take
care of yourself

942
00:54:22,525 --> 00:54:24,288
so you can take care of Riley.

943
00:54:25,396 --> 00:54:27,224
I have to go to the bathroom.

944
00:54:30,833 --> 00:54:34,737
Um, well, we only have
15 minutes left.

945
00:54:35,371 --> 00:54:37,509
I have to go now.

946
00:54:37,610 --> 00:54:39,744
Okay, well, can you wait
till after the session?

947
00:54:39,846 --> 00:54:40,710
No?

948
00:55:24,518 --> 00:55:26,184
Oh... Oh.

949
00:55:28,159 --> 00:55:29,088
Shit.

950
00:55:38,699 --> 00:55:41,233
Oh. Okay, okay. Okay.

951
00:55:49,411 --> 00:55:50,373
Okay.

952
00:55:59,521 --> 00:56:01,726
Caroline? Excuse me.

953
00:56:03,259 --> 00:56:04,630
Caroline?

954
00:56:11,367 --> 00:56:12,297
It's okay.

955
00:56:14,032 --> 00:56:16,440
Caroline? Excuse me. Caroline?

956
00:56:16,543 --> 00:56:18,775
I need you
to help me out here. I...

957
00:56:24,878 --> 00:56:28,280
Okay. I know. I know.

958
00:56:39,427 --> 00:56:40,391
Caroline?

959
00:57:00,483 --> 00:57:02,116
Okay. Okay.

960
00:57:03,023 --> 00:57:04,184
Caroline!

961
00:57:05,025 --> 00:57:06,119
Caroline!

962
00:57:09,293 --> 00:57:10,827
Yeah. I know.

963
00:57:16,735 --> 00:57:19,029
What is going on here?
I'm in a session.

964
00:57:19,230 --> 00:57:21,199
So, my patient,
she has this baby

965
00:57:21,300 --> 00:57:23,036
and she said she was
going to the bathroom

966
00:57:23,137 --> 00:57:25,744
and then she left the baby
with me and I...

967
00:57:25,846 --> 00:57:27,844
- She's gone. And now I can't...
- I'm with a patient.

968
00:57:27,945 --> 00:57:29,741
Please, I need your help.
I really need your help.

969
00:57:29,842 --> 00:57:31,141
I'm with a patient.

970
00:57:31,244 --> 00:57:33,576
Plus, also,
I'm not your supervisor.

971
00:57:33,679 --> 00:57:36,047
This is a professional issue.
This is not a treatment issue.

972
00:57:36,150 --> 00:57:37,751
Are you joking?
This is an emergency!

973
00:57:37,853 --> 00:57:39,087
Whatever's happening in here

974
00:57:39,188 --> 00:57:40,820
is not as important
as what I'm going through here!

975
00:57:40,922 --> 00:57:42,492
- Okay, no.
- I need your help!

976
00:57:42,594 --> 00:57:43,623
- Goodbye.
- I need your help!

977
00:57:43,726 --> 00:57:44,958
This is an emergency.

978
00:57:45,059 --> 00:57:47,230
- You can come back later.
- Absolutely not.

979
00:57:50,530 --> 00:57:51,835
No!

980
00:57:57,308 --> 00:57:58,373
Okay.

981
00:58:01,677 --> 00:58:02,708
- Hello?
- Hello?

982
00:58:02,809 --> 00:58:04,010
Hello. Hello. Yes.

983
00:58:04,112 --> 00:58:05,480
Hello, I am
your wife's psychotherapist...

984
00:58:05,581 --> 00:58:06,851
Stop, I can't...

985
00:58:06,952 --> 00:58:08,280
and she left today in
the middle of her appointment.

986
00:58:08,382 --> 00:58:12,087
I cannot hear you.
I cannot hear you. Who is this?

987
00:58:14,387 --> 00:58:17,422
Okay. Yes.
This is your wife's therapist.

988
00:58:17,523 --> 00:58:19,827
She left in the middle
of her appointment today...

989
00:58:19,929 --> 00:58:21,460
- All right. You gotta stop.
- And...

990
00:58:21,563 --> 00:58:23,463
You gotta stop. I have no idea
what you're even talking about.

991
00:58:23,565 --> 00:58:25,034
Who is this?

992
00:58:25,704 --> 00:58:27,304
Is your wife named
Caroline Primm?

993
00:58:27,405 --> 00:58:29,137
And you are, um...

994
00:58:29,239 --> 00:58:31,574
Your baby's name is Riley?
And you are Nick Primm?

995
00:58:31,677 --> 00:58:33,907
- Yes.
- Okay, yes, right. Well...

996
00:58:34,009 --> 00:58:35,239
My wife doesn't have
a therapist.

997
00:58:35,340 --> 00:58:36,780
Okay, well,
she has been my patient

998
00:58:36,882 --> 00:58:39,309
at The Center for
Psychological Arts in Montauk

999
00:58:39,411 --> 00:58:41,286
since she was about
six months pregnant

1000
00:58:41,387 --> 00:58:43,715
with Riley, and today...

1001
00:58:44,018 --> 00:58:45,554
Well, this is news to me.

1002
00:58:45,657 --> 00:58:48,219
Mm. Well, whether...

1003
00:58:48,322 --> 00:58:49,954
you knew that she
was my patient or not,

1004
00:58:50,056 --> 00:58:51,289
what I'm trying to say to you

1005
00:58:51,391 --> 00:58:52,958
is that this is an emergency,
and I really...

1006
00:58:53,059 --> 00:58:54,994
She left your baby here with me,

1007
00:58:55,097 --> 00:58:57,130
and I need you to come
and pick him up.

1008
00:58:57,231 --> 00:58:59,603
What do you mean?
What do you mean?

1009
00:58:59,704 --> 00:59:00,666
What do you mean,
what do I mean?

1010
00:59:00,768 --> 00:59:01,637
She left the baby?

1011
00:59:01,739 --> 00:59:03,001
She's not answering her phone...

1012
00:59:03,103 --> 00:59:04,641
She's probably in the bathroom

1013
00:59:04,742 --> 00:59:06,110
or by a fucking vending machine.

1014
00:59:06,212 --> 00:59:06,905
Okay.

1015
00:59:07,007 --> 00:59:08,172
I suggest that you call her.

1016
00:59:08,275 --> 00:59:09,572
Maybe she would pick up
if it was you.

1017
00:59:09,675 --> 00:59:12,282
I'm gonna text you my address
to come and get the baby.

1018
00:59:12,384 --> 00:59:13,751
Oh, Jesus Christ!

1019
00:59:13,853 --> 00:59:15,177
I'm sure she's okay.
I'm sure she's okay.

1020
00:59:15,280 --> 00:59:17,179
I cannot even believe this.

1021
00:59:17,282 --> 00:59:18,922
I'm sure she's okay. I'm sure...

1022
00:59:19,025 --> 00:59:21,221
You know what? This is
so fucking typical of her.

1023
00:59:21,322 --> 00:59:24,594
Okay. Well, she probably
just needed some space.

1024
00:59:24,929 --> 00:59:27,431
I'm gonna text you
my address where...

1025
00:59:28,067 --> 00:59:29,927
- so you can come and get her.
- Okay, look. Listen to me.

1026
00:59:30,030 --> 00:59:31,362
- Him.
- Listen to me.

1027
00:59:31,465 --> 00:59:34,065
I'm at work right now.
I am at work right now.

1028
00:59:34,166 --> 00:59:35,364
That's why she's supposed to be

1029
00:59:35,467 --> 00:59:36,840
taking care of the fucking baby,

1030
00:59:36,942 --> 00:59:39,405
so I can work, okay?

1031
00:59:39,507 --> 00:59:42,005
Here's what I'm gonna do.
I'm gonna text you my address.

1032
00:59:42,106 --> 00:59:43,507
I'm in Amagansett.

1033
00:59:43,610 --> 00:59:45,108
You can drop the baby off
at this address, okay?

1034
00:59:45,210 --> 00:59:47,246
Okay, well, I can't do that,

1035
00:59:47,349 --> 00:59:50,047
and I am actually very
concerned about your wife.

1036
00:59:50,150 --> 00:59:51,855
This is an emergency, and she...

1037
00:59:51,958 --> 00:59:53,523
You know, you've used
that term twice now.

1038
00:59:53,625 --> 00:59:55,088
This isn't my emergency.

1039
00:59:55,192 --> 00:59:56,686
I'm not the one
who lost my fucking wife!

1040
00:59:56,788 --> 00:59:59,356
I need you to come down here
and get your baby immediately,

1041
00:59:59,460 --> 01:00:01,032
and if you're not here
within a half an hour,

1042
01:00:01,134 --> 01:00:02,666
I'm going to call the police.
I will text you the address.

1043
01:00:02,768 --> 01:00:04,166
- Thank you very much.
- Oh, Jesus...

1044
01:00:15,009 --> 01:00:17,079
- Yes?
- Hi, it's Stephen.

1045
01:00:43,034 --> 01:00:44,568
May I come in?

1046
01:00:52,545 --> 01:00:55,612
I'm expecting a patient.
He just buzzed in.

1047
01:01:06,063 --> 01:01:07,831
Would you mind waiting
in my office

1048
01:01:07,933 --> 01:01:09,934
down the hall
just a few moments?

1049
01:01:11,199 --> 01:01:13,864
Your office?
Who are you, the boss?

1050
01:01:14,233 --> 01:01:16,400
No. Just another therapist.

1051
01:01:16,501 --> 01:01:18,135
I have an office.
It's down the hall.

1052
01:01:18,237 --> 01:01:19,945
Door is open. You'll see it.

1053
01:01:22,177 --> 01:01:24,009
This is my time.
She's mine right now.

1054
01:01:24,112 --> 01:01:25,978
You can't make me wait, okay?

1055
01:01:26,081 --> 01:01:28,014
This is an emergency situation.

1056
01:01:28,116 --> 01:01:30,052
You can either wait in my office

1057
01:01:30,154 --> 01:01:32,221
or you need to
leave the building entirely.

1058
01:01:35,891 --> 01:01:37,728
Is that a baby?

1059
01:01:37,829 --> 01:01:39,391
Is that your baby?
You have a baby?

1060
01:01:39,492 --> 01:01:41,360
I mean, do you guys
have a baby together?

1061
01:01:41,463 --> 01:01:44,929
Okay, this situation
does not concern you, okay?

1062
01:01:45,030 --> 01:01:46,498
Make a choice.

1063
01:01:52,777 --> 01:01:55,074
Okay, I'll be in your office.

1064
01:01:55,175 --> 01:01:57,047
But I won't wait that long.

1065
01:02:02,851 --> 01:02:03,746
Okay.

1066
01:02:15,300 --> 01:02:16,264
Wow.

1067
01:02:18,038 --> 01:02:20,565
Can you believe that
I got talked into getting

1068
01:02:20,668 --> 01:02:24,967
this fucking hamster
after all of that? My God, I...

1069
01:02:26,340 --> 01:02:28,646
She's right. I really am
so stretchable.

1070
01:02:28,748 --> 01:02:30,809
- It's disgusting.
- You know...

1071
01:02:31,277 --> 01:02:32,775
when I was in medical school,

1072
01:02:32,878 --> 01:02:36,181
I had to do a stint
in a medical experiments lab.

1073
01:02:36,650 --> 01:02:42,059
And we were testing
the efficacy of a drug on rats.

1074
01:02:42,858 --> 01:02:44,994
Oh, I... So cool.

1075
01:02:45,097 --> 01:02:49,362
And the way it worked is
we'd take the rats,

1076
01:02:49,465 --> 01:02:52,733
and we'd drop them
in this guillotine thingy,

1077
01:02:53,170 --> 01:02:56,936
chop their heads off
individually,

1078
01:02:57,038 --> 01:02:59,308
peel the skin back

1079
01:02:59,409 --> 01:03:01,739
and then look at their brains
under a microscope.

1080
01:03:03,079 --> 01:03:05,442
I'm just so curious

1081
01:03:05,545 --> 01:03:08,380
about the process with that.
I wonder...

1082
01:03:08,481 --> 01:03:13,349
The rats would claw
and bite you...

1083
01:03:13,951 --> 01:03:18,161
when you put your hand
in the cage to pick them up.

1084
01:03:18,262 --> 01:03:23,762
So they gave us
these steel chain mail gloves.

1085
01:03:24,333 --> 01:03:26,838
They're German.
They're beautiful.

1086
01:03:27,306 --> 01:03:30,806
So you put on the glove and
you put your hand in the cage,

1087
01:03:31,442 --> 01:03:34,376
and the rats would just
attach themselves to the glove,

1088
01:03:35,409 --> 01:03:37,141
clinging for dear
life, you know?

1089
01:03:39,779 --> 01:03:41,849
And then when you got
to the guillotine box,

1090
01:03:41,951 --> 01:03:44,418
you had to shake them off.

1091
01:03:45,284 --> 01:03:47,088
Really shake them.

1092
01:03:47,358 --> 01:03:50,391
I was always worried
that the rat would get hurt

1093
01:03:50,494 --> 01:03:52,724
when it hit its head on the
guillotine, you know?

1094
01:03:55,835 --> 01:03:58,429
But their brains
were always fine

1095
01:03:58,532 --> 01:04:00,063
when we looked under
the microscope.

1096
01:04:03,672 --> 01:04:05,039
Oh.

1097
01:04:05,141 --> 01:04:09,907
Rodents are resilient creatures.

1098
01:04:16,688 --> 01:04:18,420
Mm-hm. Yeah.

1099
01:04:24,163 --> 01:04:26,427
I'll tell Stephen
your session's cancelled.

1100
01:04:28,364 --> 01:04:30,860
You have to take care
of this, okay?

1101
01:04:34,067 --> 01:04:35,503
I love you.

1102
01:04:43,181 --> 01:04:45,315
Just tell me, was she suicidal?
Homicidal?

1103
01:04:46,146 --> 01:04:48,284
No. Mm-mm. No.

1104
01:04:48,385 --> 01:04:50,947
No, she was obsessed
with protecting the baby...

1105
01:04:51,250 --> 01:04:52,789
And, uh, yeah.

1106
01:04:52,891 --> 01:04:54,222
She wouldn't hurt the baby.

1107
01:04:54,324 --> 01:04:55,891
And she didn't talk
about suicide.

1108
01:04:55,994 --> 01:04:57,222
She wouldn't abandon Riley.

1109
01:04:57,324 --> 01:04:59,188
She just did abandon him.

1110
01:04:59,724 --> 01:05:02,228
Right, well, you know,
I mean, um...

1111
01:05:02,331 --> 01:05:05,302
you know, permanently. Forever.

1112
01:05:07,601 --> 01:05:09,333
Is that it?
I have another patient waiting

1113
01:05:09,434 --> 01:05:11,675
who really needs my help.

1114
01:05:12,311 --> 01:05:15,177
It's fine. It's more common
than you think.

1115
01:05:15,579 --> 01:05:17,342
A woman tries to run away
from all the responsibilities.

1116
01:05:17,445 --> 01:05:18,974
- Yeah.
- Everybody gets all upset,

1117
01:05:19,076 --> 01:05:21,045
then they come back with
their tails between their legs.

1118
01:05:21,148 --> 01:05:23,751
Okay. Okay.

1119
01:05:24,353 --> 01:05:26,355
Thank you, Officer.

1120
01:05:28,954 --> 01:05:30,822
When
you have finished recording,

1121
01:05:30,923 --> 01:05:33,456
you may hang up or press one
for more options.

1122
01:05:33,558 --> 01:05:35,061
Hi. Hi,

1123
01:05:35,163 --> 01:05:36,297
it's, uh... it's me again,

1124
01:05:36,398 --> 01:05:38,467
your tenant from
22 Algonquin, unit one.

1125
01:05:38,570 --> 01:05:41,597
You know, the one with the giant
fucking hole in the ceiling!

1126
01:05:41,967 --> 01:05:44,141
Your repairs guy ran off,
and it's getting worse

1127
01:05:44,244 --> 01:05:45,969
and I want to know why
you're doing nothing,

1128
01:05:46,070 --> 01:05:47,976
and why you're happy for
my daughter and I to be staying

1129
01:05:48,079 --> 01:05:49,505
at a flophouse full of freaks

1130
01:05:49,608 --> 01:05:51,148
while I continue
to pay you rent!

1131
01:05:51,251 --> 01:05:54,351
And I have a very, very,
very important patient

1132
01:05:54,452 --> 01:05:56,179
that is a prominent lawyer,
and I am not afraid to...

1133
01:05:59,119 --> 01:06:00,257
Fuck!

1134
01:06:04,492 --> 01:06:07,559
I was after some
Visa gift cards.

1135
01:06:07,661 --> 01:06:10,262
Uh, what denominations
do you have?

1136
01:06:10,898 --> 01:06:13,067
Do you have a minute to talk
before the children come out?

1137
01:06:13,170 --> 01:06:14,536
- Mm-hm. Sure.
- Okay, come.

1138
01:06:18,268 --> 01:06:20,938
So, I've noticed that you still
haven't made the appointment

1139
01:06:21,041 --> 01:06:23,212
for family therapy like
we discussed the other morning.

1140
01:06:23,313 --> 01:06:25,878
I know. It's just been
so crazy at work.

1141
01:06:25,980 --> 01:06:29,451
Right. So I can't stress to you
enough how important this is.

1142
01:06:30,351 --> 01:06:32,119
I'm on your side here.

1143
01:06:32,222 --> 01:06:33,956
Yes. Yes. Yes, I understand.

1144
01:06:34,059 --> 01:06:36,119
We need her off the machine.

1145
01:06:36,387 --> 01:06:37,454
Yeah, so do I.

1146
01:06:37,556 --> 01:06:39,088
Okay. I'm gonna be frank.

1147
01:06:39,190 --> 01:06:42,264
We need her off of it as soon as
possible for her to remain here.

1148
01:06:42,367 --> 01:06:44,697
And to do that, she needs
to gain faster.

1149
01:06:44,798 --> 01:06:47,431
Okay. Well, but we have
until next week, right?

1150
01:06:47,534 --> 01:06:49,231
- The 50 pound goal.
- No.

1151
01:06:49,333 --> 01:06:52,804
The way things are going, uh,
she's not gonna make that goal.

1152
01:06:53,911 --> 01:06:55,478
What are you saying?

1153
01:06:55,679 --> 01:06:58,246
We do weigh-ins every morning.
She's not gonna make the goal.

1154
01:06:58,349 --> 01:06:59,949
Because the goal you set
was impossible.

1155
01:07:00,050 --> 01:07:01,445
We were set up to fail.

1156
01:07:01,547 --> 01:07:02,782
- It's unrealistic.
- No.

1157
01:07:03,916 --> 01:07:06,786
We're gonna have to reassess
the level of care.

1158
01:07:08,255 --> 01:07:09,389
What does that mean?

1159
01:07:09,492 --> 01:07:11,521
Well, we can discuss
it in our meeting.

1160
01:07:12,190 --> 01:07:15,762
You know what I would love,
and think would be so good,

1161
01:07:15,864 --> 01:07:20,168
is if we could get a date
on the calendar for the surgery.

1162
01:07:20,505 --> 01:07:23,237
A concrete goal that we can
all work towards.

1163
01:07:23,340 --> 01:07:25,574
It's not... it's not a surgery.

1164
01:07:25,742 --> 01:07:29,077
The tube removal? Well, uh...
procedure, whatever you call it.

1165
01:07:29,179 --> 01:07:31,173
It's not a procedure either.

1166
01:07:31,275 --> 01:07:34,516
Uh, when it's time to remove it,
the doctor just pulls it out.

1167
01:07:38,317 --> 01:07:39,489
Pull it out?

1168
01:07:40,288 --> 01:07:41,590
Yeah, it just slides out.

1169
01:07:42,559 --> 01:07:45,059
They could just...
really just pull it out?

1170
01:07:45,161 --> 01:07:46,623
Yeah, it's that simple.

1171
01:07:46,726 --> 01:07:50,197
Oh. But what happens
to the hole?

1172
01:07:50,298 --> 01:07:52,998
It closes up on its own.

1173
01:07:53,099 --> 01:07:54,565
Oh.

1174
01:07:54,934 --> 01:07:57,837
It's kinda like when you
get a cut on your tongue.

1175
01:07:58,570 --> 01:08:00,708
It wants to close up.

1176
01:08:03,010 --> 01:08:03,876
Oh.

1177
01:08:09,688 --> 01:08:10,652
Yeah?

1178
01:08:13,585 --> 01:08:15,887
Oh, hi. Uh, is James here?

1179
01:08:18,192 --> 01:08:19,121
Who are you?

1180
01:08:21,499 --> 01:08:25,370
I'm his neighbor.
I'm there, in that room there.

1181
01:08:26,531 --> 01:08:27,699
He is not here.

1182
01:08:27,800 --> 01:08:29,700
Oh, uh, do you know when
he'll be back?

1183
01:08:29,803 --> 01:08:31,905
I just have something
to give him.

1184
01:08:32,206 --> 01:08:33,142
Give it to me.

1185
01:08:33,245 --> 01:08:34,442
- I'll see he gets it.
- No, no.

1186
01:08:34,544 --> 01:08:36,513
I have to give it
to him myself. It's, uh...

1187
01:08:38,048 --> 01:08:39,108
It's of value.

1188
01:08:40,785 --> 01:08:41,682
Of value?

1189
01:08:43,218 --> 01:08:45,719
Uh, yeah. Of value.

1190
01:08:56,432 --> 01:08:57,464
Relax your body.

1191
01:09:00,236 --> 01:09:01,702
Center in with yourself.

1192
01:09:06,973 --> 01:09:09,480
Right now, your only
job is to breathe.

1193
01:09:12,317 --> 01:09:13,847
We're in the work phase
of this...

1194
01:09:15,883 --> 01:09:18,115
The more you relax
your body right now...

1195
01:09:19,324 --> 01:09:21,022
the easier it gets for you.

1196
01:09:23,188 --> 01:09:27,897
Recognize we're accessing
the body's wisdom zone.

1197
01:09:27,999 --> 01:09:29,433
Let your mind go.

1198
01:09:31,029 --> 01:09:33,665
See if you can find
your attention

1199
01:09:33,767 --> 01:09:36,434
within the movement
of your breath.

1200
01:09:36,870 --> 01:09:37,634
Start noticing

1201
01:09:37,737 --> 01:09:39,471
any sensation in your body...

1202
01:09:41,380 --> 01:09:43,441
and see what catches
your interest

1203
01:09:43,543 --> 01:09:45,677
or your curiosity,

1204
01:09:46,146 --> 01:09:49,447
and hold the space
in a way you want to be held.

1205
01:09:49,549 --> 01:09:50,816
You'll probably notice

1206
01:09:50,918 --> 01:09:54,987
any intensity
builds up in your body.

1207
01:09:55,322 --> 01:09:56,852
That's okay.

1208
01:09:57,187 --> 01:09:59,826
Rather than trying
to control anything,

1209
01:10:00,727 --> 01:10:02,996
see if you can just allow...

1210
01:10:03,299 --> 01:10:04,628
the intensity to...

1211
01:10:13,905 --> 01:10:15,446
You're not helping!

1212
01:10:15,548 --> 01:10:17,509
Hold her legs that way.
Hold her legs down.

1213
01:10:20,111 --> 01:10:21,483
We might have to restrain her.

1214
01:10:21,585 --> 01:10:22,946
- Mom!
- Hold her down!

1215
01:10:23,049 --> 01:10:24,748
You're here to help us, come on!

1216
01:10:24,849 --> 01:10:26,552
That's not helping at all.

1217
01:10:32,259 --> 01:10:34,126
Mommy!

1218
01:10:34,228 --> 01:10:35,925
Mommy!

1219
01:10:36,027 --> 01:10:37,526
Try to help.
Try to help.

1220
01:10:37,629 --> 01:10:39,102
Mommy!

1221
01:10:47,277 --> 01:10:49,146
Make yourself feel safe.

1222
01:10:49,249 --> 01:10:50,973
If things are getting intense,

1223
01:10:51,075 --> 01:10:53,482
recognize you can hold the space.

1224
01:10:53,584 --> 01:10:55,517
You can love yourself right now.

1225
01:10:58,691 --> 01:11:02,719
Don't avoid anything within.
Don't abandon yourself.

1226
01:11:02,821 --> 01:11:04,458
Stay connected to yourself.

1227
01:11:04,561 --> 01:11:06,496
See if you can honor yourself

1228
01:11:06,598 --> 01:11:10,331
in this moment
of reconnecting to yourself.

1229
01:11:23,474 --> 01:11:27,683
Use your voice
and imagine your emotion.

1230
01:11:28,251 --> 01:11:29,548
Allow it to be...

1231
01:11:29,849 --> 01:11:31,919
Maybe you can even
do it tonight.

1232
01:11:41,400 --> 01:11:42,798
Down here. This way.

1233
01:11:57,075 --> 01:11:58,813
It's in here. Here.

1234
01:12:03,482 --> 01:12:06,284
Okay, we gotta be quick because
I have to get back, but...

1235
01:12:06,385 --> 01:12:10,858
I just... I just had to show
someone what's going on in here.

1236
01:12:11,227 --> 01:12:13,094
Okay.

1237
01:12:13,798 --> 01:12:17,428
So, a room filled
with plastic tarp everywhere.

1238
01:12:17,530 --> 01:12:18,630
Nice.

1239
01:12:18,732 --> 01:12:20,467
So, is this your kill room?

1240
01:12:20,568 --> 01:12:22,370
No. Come on, I told you.

1241
01:12:22,473 --> 01:12:24,201
The fucking ceiling fell down.

1242
01:12:25,309 --> 01:12:26,702
What the fuck is that?

1243
01:12:27,138 --> 01:12:28,442
That's it. That's the hole.

1244
01:12:28,544 --> 01:12:29,878
That's why I'm at the hotel.

1245
01:12:29,980 --> 01:12:31,608
That's why you're
staying at the fucking hotel?

1246
01:12:31,710 --> 01:12:33,013
Oh, my God. Come on.

1247
01:12:33,115 --> 01:12:35,986
You could've slept on your couch
for a couple of weeks.

1248
01:12:36,089 --> 01:12:37,246
What? Look at it.

1249
01:12:37,348 --> 01:12:39,951
It's been two months,
and they refuse to fix it.

1250
01:12:40,053 --> 01:12:44,191
There's dust and...
and mold everywhere.

1251
01:12:44,294 --> 01:12:45,663
Mm.

1252
01:12:56,605 --> 01:12:59,204
Yo, what is up there?

1253
01:13:00,942 --> 01:13:03,009
They've been renovating forever.

1254
01:13:04,174 --> 01:13:06,547
- They said a pipe burst.
- Oh, shit.

1255
01:13:06,715 --> 01:13:10,215
It's right there. There you go.

1256
01:13:10,317 --> 01:13:13,990
I did the... that... you know,
the thing, the breath thing.

1257
01:13:14,092 --> 01:13:15,018
What?

1258
01:13:15,120 --> 01:13:16,821
And I think it took me here.

1259
01:13:16,924 --> 01:13:18,857
- I think maybe I...
- Oh, man...

1260
01:13:18,959 --> 01:13:20,496
That's why I wanted
to come to see it.

1261
01:13:20,598 --> 01:13:22,365
Man, you need guidance
with that shit.

1262
01:13:22,467 --> 01:13:24,628
You can't just be doing that.

1263
01:13:25,397 --> 01:13:27,865
- What are you doing?
- Man, they lied to you, sis.

1264
01:13:27,968 --> 01:13:29,066
It ain't even no pipes in here.

1265
01:13:29,169 --> 01:13:30,404
Maybe you shouldn't
get so close to it.

1266
01:13:30,505 --> 01:13:32,472
Shh. Look. Come see.

1267
01:13:32,874 --> 01:13:34,505
It's a clean break.
I'm telling you.

1268
01:13:34,607 --> 01:13:35,978
Oh, my God.

1269
01:13:36,348 --> 01:13:38,273
Oh, my God. What the fuck?

1270
01:13:38,375 --> 01:13:41,683
Man, my cousin Craig
is a general contractor.

1271
01:13:41,786 --> 01:13:43,785
He knows somebody
that knows somebody that can

1272
01:13:43,887 --> 01:13:45,616
- fix this shit in a jiffy, yo.
- Oh, my God.

1273
01:13:45,852 --> 01:13:47,017
It look like you got some

1274
01:13:47,120 --> 01:13:48,858
motherfucking debris
on your furniture.

1275
01:13:48,960 --> 01:13:50,820
You know, I can reupholster it.

1276
01:13:50,922 --> 01:13:51,821
It's gonna cost you.

1277
01:13:53,727 --> 01:13:55,391
Let me go!

1278
01:14:07,004 --> 01:14:08,405
Don't touch me!

1279
01:14:15,178 --> 01:14:16,950
Mommy! Mommy! I don't want it!

1280
01:14:17,052 --> 01:14:18,954
- You are doing such a good job.
- No!

1281
01:14:20,191 --> 01:14:22,355
No! Mommy!

1282
01:14:23,191 --> 01:14:25,322
You gotta hold her
a lot harder than that.

1283
01:14:26,365 --> 01:14:29,059
No! No!

1284
01:14:41,139 --> 01:14:43,374
What the fuck?
Oh, shit!

1285
01:14:44,482 --> 01:14:47,282
Oh, fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

1286
01:14:50,223 --> 01:14:52,388
Fuck! Oh, fuck!

1287
01:14:52,491 --> 01:14:54,785
James?

1288
01:14:57,790 --> 01:15:00,897
Ah! Fuck! Fuck!

1289
01:15:03,663 --> 01:15:04,428
Fuck!

1290
01:15:06,138 --> 01:15:07,067
Oh, fuck!

1291
01:15:07,666 --> 01:15:09,036
Oh, fuck!

1292
01:15:26,723 --> 01:15:29,423
Everybody settle. All right?

1293
01:15:29,991 --> 01:15:32,623
Get started.
Hand out these, please.

1294
01:15:32,726 --> 01:15:34,227
Thank you.

1295
01:15:36,201 --> 01:15:37,559
All right.

1296
01:15:39,630 --> 01:15:44,775
So the topic today is something
that's so fundamental

1297
01:15:44,876 --> 01:15:47,675
that it's actually
a little silly to talk about.

1298
01:15:48,012 --> 01:15:52,545
But it is so important
to your child's recovery,

1299
01:15:52,647 --> 01:15:54,178
and more than that,

1300
01:15:54,281 --> 01:15:57,847
to your ability
to help your child recover.

1301
01:15:58,215 --> 01:16:00,285
Can anybody guess what it is?

1302
01:16:02,722 --> 01:16:04,624
Blame...

1303
01:16:05,026 --> 01:16:07,157
- ... and, anybody?
- Shame.

1304
01:16:07,259 --> 01:16:08,760
Yeah, thank you.

1305
01:16:10,227 --> 01:16:12,933
So, as parents, a lot of times

1306
01:16:13,035 --> 01:16:16,366
we look too
closely at ourselves, right?

1307
01:16:16,468 --> 01:16:19,807
And we start to ask ourselves,
is this my fault?

1308
01:16:19,910 --> 01:16:21,839
Could I have done anything
differently?

1309
01:16:22,141 --> 01:16:24,240
What if this? What if that?

1310
01:16:24,343 --> 01:16:28,713
But all it does is create
a thinking trap.

1311
01:16:30,281 --> 01:16:33,553
And that does not
help your child.

1312
01:16:34,022 --> 01:16:37,058
So what I'd like to
do, if we look...

1313
01:16:38,462 --> 01:16:39,992
Melanie...

1314
01:16:40,262 --> 01:16:42,063
do you want to put some
words to your feelings?

1315
01:16:43,401 --> 01:16:44,495
Yeah.

1316
01:16:45,632 --> 01:16:46,968
I...

1317
01:16:47,071 --> 01:16:50,866
Sometimes, I just think
that it is all my fault.

1318
01:16:56,178 --> 01:16:58,047
Do you have something
to say to Melanie?

1319
01:16:59,715 --> 01:17:02,451
No. Whoa, no.

1320
01:17:02,553 --> 01:17:04,652
Never mind. Don't mind me.

1321
01:17:05,121 --> 01:17:07,286
No, no, no. I want to hear
what you have to say.

1322
01:17:11,395 --> 01:17:12,556
Uh...

1323
01:17:12,657 --> 01:17:15,964
I just... You keep telling us
that it isn't our fault.

1324
01:17:16,066 --> 01:17:18,397
- Yeah.
- Mm. But... but it is.

1325
01:17:20,437 --> 01:17:21,732
Excuse me?

1326
01:17:21,834 --> 01:17:24,070
I mean, if it isn't our fault,
then we're really super fucked.

1327
01:17:24,172 --> 01:17:25,334
We're just walking around
pretending

1328
01:17:25,437 --> 01:17:27,044
we have power
to change something

1329
01:17:27,146 --> 01:17:29,245
that we don't even understand
because it's not our fault,

1330
01:17:29,347 --> 01:17:32,147
but we know how to change it,
even though it's not our fault.

1331
01:17:32,249 --> 01:17:33,577
No, this is actually good.

1332
01:17:33,679 --> 01:17:35,517
This is actually good because
now we have a lot to unpack.

1333
01:17:35,619 --> 01:17:36,920
No, no, no. I know.

1334
01:17:37,022 --> 01:17:38,117
I can't do this. I have to go.

1335
01:17:38,221 --> 01:17:39,821
- Please sit down.
- No, no, no. It's our fault.

1336
01:17:39,924 --> 01:17:41,084
It isn't fair,
but it is our fault.

1337
01:17:41,187 --> 01:17:42,825
That's how I see it. That's it.

1338
01:17:42,928 --> 01:17:44,825
That's what this whole
thing is, is our faults.

1339
01:17:44,928 --> 01:17:46,861
- Stop and sit down.
- No, no, no.

1340
01:17:46,963 --> 01:17:48,161
No, I don't want
to talk about it.

1341
01:17:48,263 --> 01:17:50,129
I already know it,
and I don't have to meet you

1342
01:17:50,232 --> 01:17:51,562
because I know what
you're going to say,

1343
01:17:51,664 --> 01:17:53,068
- which is that she's failed...
- I need you to sit down!

1344
01:17:53,170 --> 01:17:56,135
and that I failed
because you set us up to fail.

1345
01:17:56,237 --> 01:17:57,838
No one tries hard
if they have a safety net.

1346
01:17:57,940 --> 01:17:59,907
- Sit down.
- Nobody, okay?

1347
01:18:00,009 --> 01:18:01,272
And you should know
that, Dr. Spring.

1348
01:18:01,374 --> 01:18:02,941
I'm gonna be here
for the rest of my life

1349
01:18:03,044 --> 01:18:04,474
pouring shit down that tube.

1350
01:18:04,576 --> 01:18:07,347
- Every night until I die.
- Do not leave that door!

1351
01:18:07,449 --> 01:18:10,384
And none of this is helping
any of us. None of it.

1352
01:18:10,487 --> 01:18:11,388
Come back!

1353
01:18:13,654 --> 01:18:15,419
Hey!
Hey, why are you calling?

1354
01:18:15,522 --> 01:18:17,223
Isn't a parent group
going on right now?

1355
01:18:17,325 --> 01:18:19,093
I couldn't sit there.
I'm in the car.

1356
01:18:19,196 --> 01:18:21,062
I'll pick her up later,
but I can't stay there.

1357
01:18:21,165 --> 01:18:22,293
What do you mean
you couldn't sit there?

1358
01:18:22,395 --> 01:18:23,860
I can't do it.
I can't do it.

1359
01:18:23,962 --> 01:18:26,200
She's gotta get better, but
she's not gonna make the goal,

1360
01:18:26,302 --> 01:18:28,333
and I... I don't know
what's gonna happen now.

1361
01:18:28,434 --> 01:18:30,169
You need to get back in there.

1362
01:18:30,271 --> 01:18:31,334
The hole is getting bigger.

1363
01:18:31,437 --> 01:18:33,173
What hole?
Her tube hole?

1364
01:18:33,276 --> 01:18:35,411
- No! No, the apartment hole!
- You told me...

1365
01:18:35,513 --> 01:18:36,946
The goddamn hole!

1366
01:18:37,049 --> 01:18:39,045
Why can't you just keep tabs
on those guys?

1367
01:18:39,147 --> 01:18:40,946
Because the guy's gone
for a week.

1368
01:18:41,049 --> 01:18:42,646
There's no one working on it.

1369
01:18:42,748 --> 01:18:44,718
What? A week? When
were you gonna mention that?

1370
01:18:44,820 --> 01:18:46,088
I'm telling you now.

1371
01:18:46,190 --> 01:18:47,282
It's very complicated
to explain over the phone.

1372
01:18:47,385 --> 01:18:48,754
Look, look, look. No, no, no.

1373
01:18:48,856 --> 01:18:50,022
Just... just

1374
01:18:50,124 --> 01:18:51,388
- send me pictures...
- No!

1375
01:18:51,491 --> 01:18:52,821
and I'll have somebody
take care of it.

1376
01:18:52,923 --> 01:18:54,393
No, no, no. No more pictures.
I'm not going back there.

1377
01:18:54,495 --> 01:18:55,791
I'm never going back there.
And I talked to Roscoe...

1378
01:18:55,893 --> 01:18:58,361
- What are you talking about?
- ... and he's so full of shit.

1379
01:18:58,464 --> 01:19:00,303
He's not doing anything.
And by the way,

1380
01:19:00,405 --> 01:19:03,602
I think he has a deal with the
motel because there's another...

1381
01:19:03,705 --> 01:19:07,637
Okay. Stop, stop, stop, okay?
Let me just get this straight.

1382
01:19:07,739 --> 01:19:09,772
You aren't going into
the program anymore,

1383
01:19:09,874 --> 01:19:12,174
and you aren't going
into our apartment anymore?

1384
01:19:12,276 --> 01:19:14,951
- That's right.
- Why?

1385
01:19:15,254 --> 01:19:18,054
How do you expect anything
to get back to normal then?

1386
01:19:19,017 --> 01:19:20,286
It won't.

1387
01:19:20,388 --> 01:19:22,357
What are you talking about?

1388
01:19:22,459 --> 01:19:23,719
It won't!

1389
01:19:26,763 --> 01:19:28,657
All right. Are you...

1390
01:19:28,759 --> 01:19:30,931
are you in your right mind now?
Are you done?

1391
01:19:31,032 --> 01:19:33,163
Also, there's a woman missing.

1392
01:19:33,665 --> 01:19:35,770
What? Who? What are you...
Who's missing?

1393
01:19:35,871 --> 01:19:37,272
My patient. She's missing.

1394
01:19:37,374 --> 01:19:39,141
She left and she's not picking
up her phone, and she's...

1395
01:19:39,242 --> 01:19:42,406
Oh, okay. Okay.
Yeah, let's take a deep breath.

1396
01:19:42,508 --> 01:19:44,339
- Start from the beginning.
- No, no, no.

1397
01:19:44,442 --> 01:19:46,179
I can't talk to you about this.

1398
01:19:46,282 --> 01:19:48,182
Why aren't you going
back into the group?

1399
01:19:48,285 --> 01:19:49,852
I'll just talk to
my therapist later. I... This...

1400
01:19:49,954 --> 01:19:50,986
This is fine.
Everything's fine.

1401
01:19:51,088 --> 01:19:52,081
Hey, hey.
Slow down. Slow down.

1402
01:19:52,183 --> 01:19:53,485
Everything's fine.

1403
01:19:53,587 --> 01:19:55,092
How many times a week
do you see that guy?

1404
01:19:55,193 --> 01:19:56,322
I just looked in the bank
accounts. How often...

1405
01:19:56,424 --> 01:20:00,230
- Every day. Every day.
- Every day? Come on!

1406
01:20:00,331 --> 01:20:01,857
- Hold on. Hold on. Hold on.
- That's costing us a fortune!

1407
01:20:01,959 --> 01:20:06,598
No sitting idle in vehicles.
Please move the car or yourself.

1408
01:20:06,700 --> 01:20:10,473
I have a right to sit in my car
without you harassing me!

1409
01:20:10,575 --> 01:20:11,235
- What
- Yeah.

1410
01:20:11,337 --> 01:20:12,402
Are you talking to somebody?

1411
01:20:12,504 --> 01:20:13,876
Yeah,
there's this creepy asshole

1412
01:20:13,978 --> 01:20:16,010
who's harassing me
every fucking day!

1413
01:20:16,112 --> 01:20:17,474
He harasses me.
He's obsessed with me.

1414
01:20:17,576 --> 01:20:19,308
He's back at my window
wanting something!

1415
01:20:19,410 --> 01:20:20,543
What are you talking about?

1416
01:20:20,645 --> 01:20:21,848
Are you going to leave
the parking lot

1417
01:20:21,950 --> 01:20:22,851
or get out of your car!

1418
01:20:22,952 --> 01:20:24,450
Oh, my God! Are you serious?

1419
01:20:24,553 --> 01:20:26,853
- I will call the police!
- Oh, my God! Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1420
01:20:26,955 --> 01:20:28,257
- Call the police.
- Move!

1421
01:20:28,358 --> 01:20:29,587
Call the police. Yeah, I'm gonna
call the police on you!

1422
01:20:29,688 --> 01:20:31,087
I never want
to see you here again!

1423
01:20:31,188 --> 01:20:32,290
Oh, my God!

1424
01:20:32,392 --> 01:20:34,098
You're harass...
This is harassment!

1425
01:21:02,326 --> 01:21:05,624
Anything in particular
keeping you silent right now?

1426
01:21:08,299 --> 01:21:10,826
The fact that I want to be
silent is keeping me silent.

1427
01:21:12,134 --> 01:21:14,204
- I think...
- This isn't about you.

1428
01:21:16,807 --> 01:21:19,074
What I mean is I...

1429
01:21:19,175 --> 01:21:21,244
I mean, I pay for your time.

1430
01:21:21,346 --> 01:21:25,482
Right? So I can do
anything I want with that time,

1431
01:21:25,584 --> 01:21:28,284
and right now...

1432
01:21:30,321 --> 01:21:34,254
I just want to lay here
without you talking.

1433
01:21:34,357 --> 01:21:36,786
Well, you did not have to
come here for that.

1434
01:21:37,861 --> 01:21:39,657
Go lie on your own couch.

1435
01:21:41,565 --> 01:21:44,459
Do you wish I lied on my own
couch instead of coming here?

1436
01:21:44,895 --> 01:21:48,802
All I'm saying is
you chose not to be alone.

1437
01:21:50,773 --> 01:21:51,933
Oh, I'm alone.

1438
01:21:52,911 --> 01:21:56,272
No, you're not alone. I'm here.

1439
01:21:56,641 --> 01:21:59,178
But no, you aren't. Not really.

1440
01:21:59,281 --> 01:22:01,415
- What we can do...
- Can we just not?

1441
01:22:02,246 --> 01:22:03,517
Seriously.

1442
01:22:08,923 --> 01:22:10,052
Okay.

1443
01:22:10,388 --> 01:22:11,722
Do you know what?

1444
01:22:11,824 --> 01:22:15,498
Did I ever tell you
that I was pregnant before?

1445
01:22:15,968 --> 01:22:17,893
Like, I've been pregnant twice.

1446
01:22:23,071 --> 01:22:24,967
I never tell anyone this.

1447
01:22:27,510 --> 01:22:30,576
It was when Charles and I
were first dating and, um...

1448
01:22:35,416 --> 01:22:37,985
I got an abortion
right away, like...

1449
01:22:38,087 --> 01:22:39,454
I took a pregnancy test

1450
01:22:39,556 --> 01:22:43,358
and then just went to
a random clinic the next day.

1451
01:22:45,825 --> 01:22:49,794
I got the surgical kind
with the vacuum thing.

1452
01:22:51,701 --> 01:22:52,830
And it...

1453
01:22:54,300 --> 01:22:56,240
hurt really badly, like...

1454
01:22:58,811 --> 01:23:00,739
A nurse held my hand.

1455
01:23:04,079 --> 01:23:05,445
And for some reason,

1456
01:23:05,548 --> 01:23:07,713
I didn't realize
how badly it would hurt but...

1457
01:23:09,647 --> 01:23:11,387
it really did.

1458
01:23:15,391 --> 01:23:18,223
Yeah, it was almost
20 years ago.

1459
01:23:18,924 --> 01:23:21,927
I'd have a kid in college
by now if I hadn't done that.

1460
01:23:36,839 --> 01:23:40,013
Maybe I got rid
of the wrong one.

1461
01:23:44,549 --> 01:23:46,916
Why won't you say anything?

1462
01:23:49,353 --> 01:23:50,920
I can't breathe.

1463
01:23:56,431 --> 01:23:58,665
You don't get it.
You don't see.

1464
01:24:00,833 --> 01:24:04,468
You... you love to tell me
I don't get it.

1465
01:24:04,669 --> 01:24:06,874
What is it you think
I don't get?

1466
01:24:07,143 --> 01:24:09,942
What is it you're so sure...

1467
01:24:10,212 --> 01:24:12,182
I can't help you with?

1468
01:24:12,483 --> 01:24:15,583
I'm one of those people that's
not supposed to be a mom.

1469
01:24:19,022 --> 01:24:21,257
I'm not a mom. I'm not.

1470
01:24:21,358 --> 01:24:22,750
This isn't supposed to be
what it's like.

1471
01:24:22,852 --> 01:24:25,593
This isn't it.
This can't be it.

1472
01:24:28,361 --> 01:24:30,499
Will you say something?

1473
01:24:33,601 --> 01:24:35,635
Not everyone can do it.
I can't...

1474
01:24:39,977 --> 01:24:41,873
Do you have any kids?

1475
01:24:45,179 --> 01:24:47,351
Do you have a kid!

1476
01:24:49,514 --> 01:24:52,422
Hello!

1477
01:24:54,592 --> 01:24:58,087
Why won't you talk to me?
Why won't you help me?

1478
01:25:01,692 --> 01:25:03,795
I know what you're doing...

1479
01:25:04,727 --> 01:25:06,370
and I can't have it.

1480
01:25:08,235 --> 01:25:10,032
What am I doing?

1481
01:25:13,945 --> 01:25:14,906
This isn't working.

1482
01:25:17,047 --> 01:25:18,481
What do you mean?

1483
01:25:20,250 --> 01:25:23,013
We can't see each other anymore.

1484
01:25:58,120 --> 01:25:59,884
I got here early.

1485
01:26:00,785 --> 01:26:02,888
You'll have to wait outside.

1486
01:26:14,467 --> 01:26:15,932
Uh, look,

1487
01:26:16,035 --> 01:26:16,932
I don't know why
you aren't answering your cell,

1488
01:26:17,034 --> 01:26:19,271
but Dr. Spring called and...

1489
01:26:19,373 --> 01:26:20,906
It's Dr. Spring.

1490
01:26:21,008 --> 01:26:23,045
You cannot bring your daughter
here for further treatment

1491
01:26:23,147 --> 01:26:25,008
until we have...

1492
01:26:25,110 --> 01:26:27,380
You are too much, you know?

1493
01:26:27,482 --> 01:26:28,943
You are... I'm gonna...

1494
01:26:29,045 --> 01:26:30,447
Hey, thanks for checking in.

1495
01:26:30,549 --> 01:26:31,883
In case you forgot,

1496
01:26:31,985 --> 01:26:33,620
my wife still happens
to be fucking missing.

1497
01:26:33,723 --> 01:26:35,090
You know, I don't know
what kind of number...

1498
01:26:40,932 --> 01:26:42,223
What the fuck?

1499
01:26:47,598 --> 01:26:49,063
You...

1500
01:26:49,166 --> 01:26:52,003
You mentioned
an aphorism from the Bible

1501
01:26:52,105 --> 01:26:54,704
about a millstone.
Would you say what that is?

1502
01:26:55,139 --> 01:26:58,642
That it's better to tie a stone
around your neck

1503
01:26:58,744 --> 01:27:01,044
and throw yourself into the sea

1504
01:27:01,146 --> 01:27:05,087
than to cause anyone
to stumble... stumble.

1505
01:27:05,857 --> 01:27:07,148
All right, let me
make sure I'm getting that.

1506
01:27:07,250 --> 01:27:09,186
It's better to tie a millstone
around your neck

1507
01:27:09,288 --> 01:27:13,094
and throw yourself in the sea
rather than to do what?

1508
01:27:13,565 --> 01:27:16,059
Cause someone
to stumble. Stumble.

1509
01:27:16,161 --> 01:27:19,499
To cause
someone to stumble? Okay.

1510
01:27:19,768 --> 01:27:21,733
What were you trying
to accomplish there

1511
01:27:21,837 --> 01:27:24,373
when you did take your
children's lives?

1512
01:27:35,587 --> 01:27:38,147
all women,
all Gen Z group think.

1513
01:27:39,521 --> 01:27:40,887
Like, what are your thoughts?

1514
01:27:45,830 --> 01:27:47,156
And?

1515
01:27:48,592 --> 01:27:49,931
Hello?

1516
01:27:50,232 --> 01:27:52,263
Yeah. Mm-hm. Mm-hm.

1517
01:27:52,365 --> 01:27:53,568
Mm-hm.

1518
01:27:53,670 --> 01:27:56,000
That is totally
unbelievable, right?

1519
01:27:57,102 --> 01:28:00,808
That's completely unbelievable.
All of it.

1520
01:28:00,910 --> 01:28:03,978
- But Dr. Spring said...
- I don't care what she said.

1521
01:28:04,080 --> 01:28:05,139
I'm telling you,

1522
01:28:05,241 --> 01:28:08,945
I had a work emergency
and I couldn't stay.

1523
01:28:09,047 --> 01:28:11,719
I had to leave.
It isn't my fault.

1524
01:28:11,821 --> 01:28:13,849
I came right back to pick you up
when I was supposed to

1525
01:28:13,951 --> 01:28:16,624
like I always do.
I just... I just...

1526
01:28:16,925 --> 01:28:20,396
I just couldn't stay
for the group, but, you know...

1527
01:28:20,498 --> 01:28:21,763
I work with
a lot of very sick people,

1528
01:28:21,865 --> 01:28:24,492
- honey, and sometimes they are...
- Sicker than me?

1529
01:28:25,062 --> 01:28:28,066
Sick in a different
way than you.

1530
01:28:28,736 --> 01:28:31,206
- But Dr. Spring said...
- I told you,

1531
01:28:31,308 --> 01:28:33,469
I don't care what she said.

1532
01:28:33,571 --> 01:28:34,639
I'm your mother.

1533
01:28:34,741 --> 01:28:37,910
She loves me though.
She said so.

1534
01:28:39,413 --> 01:28:40,946
She said that?

1535
01:28:41,049 --> 01:28:43,245
She loves all of us. The kids.

1536
01:28:43,348 --> 01:28:46,556
She has no right to
tell you that. She's a doctor.

1537
01:28:46,657 --> 01:28:48,856
- She doesn't have a right...
- It's true, though!

1538
01:28:48,958 --> 01:28:51,120
You know, I don't think we need
the program anymore.

1539
01:28:51,222 --> 01:28:54,029
- I'm better?
- Yeah. I think maybe, yeah.

1540
01:28:54,130 --> 01:28:55,559
Maybe we...

1541
01:28:55,661 --> 01:28:57,259
we just do it, you and me.

1542
01:28:58,201 --> 01:28:59,834
What would happen?

1543
01:29:01,233 --> 01:29:05,070
Uh... So many
wonderful things. You would...

1544
01:29:06,137 --> 01:29:07,638
You'd be able
to get the tube out,

1545
01:29:07,741 --> 01:29:09,041
and you could go back to school

1546
01:29:09,143 --> 01:29:11,608
and you'd be eating everything
delicious in the whole word.

1547
01:29:11,710 --> 01:29:13,848
Wouldn't that be great?

1548
01:29:14,183 --> 01:29:15,784
You can do that?

1549
01:29:16,647 --> 01:29:18,114
Do what?

1550
01:29:18,215 --> 01:29:21,418
Make me better?
I won't need the machine?

1551
01:29:21,754 --> 01:29:23,219
Well...

1552
01:29:23,922 --> 01:29:25,325
I'm better? They said that?

1553
01:29:25,427 --> 01:29:26,963
I think, maybe.

1554
01:29:27,065 --> 01:29:28,629
You know, and...

1555
01:29:28,732 --> 01:29:31,893
And if not, then
we'll just do it, you know?

1556
01:29:31,995 --> 01:29:33,402
You're better than you were,

1557
01:29:33,504 --> 01:29:35,264
and Dr. Spring's
not the boss of us.

1558
01:29:41,606 --> 01:29:42,777
Mommy?

1559
01:29:44,379 --> 01:29:45,307
Yeah?

1560
01:29:46,916 --> 01:29:49,013
I'm really
sorry, but I'm not better.

1561
01:29:49,115 --> 01:29:51,919
Please don't be mad or sad
that I said that.

1562
01:30:15,509 --> 01:30:17,012
Hello?

1563
01:30:17,714 --> 01:30:18,876
There's someone here

1564
01:30:18,978 --> 01:30:20,782
who wants to see you
in the lobby.

1565
01:30:23,813 --> 01:30:25,952
What? Who?

1566
01:30:27,117 --> 01:30:30,157
Won't say. Come down or don't.

1567
01:30:38,434 --> 01:30:40,330
Thanks for checking on me.

1568
01:30:41,971 --> 01:30:44,638
Oh, you would not believe
the day I had, honestly.

1569
01:30:44,740 --> 01:30:47,201
After you just left me
all alone,

1570
01:30:47,303 --> 01:30:49,105
abandoned in your
spooky-ass apartment,

1571
01:30:49,206 --> 01:30:50,312
with my bone sticking
out my leg.

1572
01:30:50,414 --> 01:30:51,178
I called you an ambulance.

1573
01:30:51,281 --> 01:30:52,449
No big deal.

1574
01:30:52,550 --> 01:30:53,347
What else did you expect me
to do?

1575
01:30:53,449 --> 01:30:54,648
It's really painful.

1576
01:30:54,750 --> 01:30:56,849
I had to get back here
to my kid, okay?

1577
01:30:56,951 --> 01:30:58,952
Mother of the fucking year.
I almost forgot.

1578
01:30:59,585 --> 01:31:00,655
I don't care.

1579
01:31:00,757 --> 01:31:02,456
And what exactly
am I supposed to do

1580
01:31:02,558 --> 01:31:03,688
with your brick of cocaine?

1581
01:31:03,790 --> 01:31:05,192
- Flush it.
- Okay.

1582
01:31:05,294 --> 01:31:06,187
It must be nice.

1583
01:31:06,290 --> 01:31:08,291
Why didn't they give
you any crutches?

1584
01:31:09,160 --> 01:31:11,800
Fuck them crutches.

1585
01:31:27,483 --> 01:31:29,181
It's... It is you!

1586
01:31:30,552 --> 01:31:32,317
You... you're here.

1587
01:31:32,587 --> 01:31:34,120
I hope that's okay.

1588
01:31:34,222 --> 01:31:37,190
I accidentally followed you
this one time, and...

1589
01:31:37,459 --> 01:31:38,788
You live here?

1590
01:31:38,889 --> 01:31:41,764
Are... are you okay?

1591
01:31:42,630 --> 01:31:45,134
- I'm okay.
- Okay. Okay.

1592
01:31:45,236 --> 01:31:46,799
Where did you go?

1593
01:31:46,968 --> 01:31:50,503
I just...
I... I had to get out of there.

1594
01:31:51,004 --> 01:31:54,175
- Okay, I understand. So, let's...
- Do you?

1595
01:31:54,645 --> 01:31:57,076
Do you really,
really understand?

1596
01:31:57,742 --> 01:31:58,815
I think so.

1597
01:31:59,647 --> 01:32:01,513
Oh, shit. No. This is...

1598
01:32:01,615 --> 01:32:03,277
This is a mistake.

1599
01:32:03,379 --> 01:32:05,914
This is a mistake
because I thought...

1600
01:32:06,182 --> 01:32:08,018
I thought that you understood,

1601
01:32:08,120 --> 01:32:09,553
and that
I wouldn't even have to say...

1602
01:32:09,656 --> 01:32:11,023
Let's calm down.

1603
01:32:11,125 --> 01:32:12,187
I think what we should do
is get in a car right now

1604
01:32:12,290 --> 01:32:13,789
and go straight
to the emergency room.

1605
01:32:13,891 --> 01:32:14,790
A hospital?

1606
01:32:14,892 --> 01:32:16,391
- Yes.
- Why? Why?

1607
01:32:16,492 --> 01:32:17,827
Because
it's just a safe place to go...

1608
01:32:17,929 --> 01:32:19,062
Why? Why? No, I'm fine.

1609
01:32:19,165 --> 01:32:20,996
if you don't feel ready
to go home.

1610
01:32:21,099 --> 01:32:22,806
Well, what about your daughter?

1611
01:32:23,972 --> 01:32:26,471
- My daughter?
- Where is your daughter?

1612
01:32:26,973 --> 01:32:28,874
She's upstairs. She's sleeping.

1613
01:32:28,976 --> 01:32:30,138
I don't want to go
to a hospital.

1614
01:32:30,240 --> 01:32:31,245
I don't want to
go to a hospital.

1615
01:32:31,347 --> 01:32:31,973
Okay.

1616
01:32:32,075 --> 01:32:34,150
I want you to help me.

1617
01:32:34,251 --> 01:32:35,210
I'm trying to.

1618
01:32:35,312 --> 01:32:36,619
- I am trying to help you.
- Please help me.

1619
01:32:36,721 --> 01:32:37,652
No, no, because you
don't understand.

1620
01:32:37,754 --> 01:32:40,584
You don't see it.
All of their faces.

1621
01:32:41,088 --> 01:32:43,486
Their little faces.
They look at us,

1622
01:32:43,589 --> 01:32:46,727
- and there is nothing there.
- Okay, you need to calm down.

1623
01:32:46,829 --> 01:32:48,692
- No! No!
- You need to calm down.

1624
01:32:48,794 --> 01:32:50,062
No, I am fine! Okay?

1625
01:32:50,165 --> 01:32:51,799
- But I just need you...
- Let's just breathe.

1626
01:32:51,901 --> 01:32:52,830
- No, but you don't know...
- Just breathe.

1627
01:32:52,932 --> 01:32:53,697
In and out, Caroline.

1628
01:32:53,799 --> 01:32:54,767
Just take a breath.

1629
01:32:54,870 --> 01:32:55,865
- Just breathe with me.
- Stop.

1630
01:32:55,968 --> 01:32:56,965
Just start with a breath.

1631
01:33:08,012 --> 01:33:09,577
Caroline, wait!

1632
01:33:17,657 --> 01:33:19,723
Stop!

1633
01:33:34,641 --> 01:33:36,044
Caroline!

1634
01:33:38,378 --> 01:33:40,383
If this is an emergency,

1635
01:33:40,485 --> 01:33:42,512
hang up and call 911.

1636
01:33:42,614 --> 01:33:46,050
Otherwise, call back
during normal business hours.

1637
01:33:46,152 --> 01:33:47,083
Okay, call me back.

1638
01:33:47,184 --> 01:33:48,418
Call me back tonight, okay?

1639
01:33:48,520 --> 01:33:50,022
Please? Please, you said
that you could help me.

1640
01:33:50,124 --> 01:33:52,590
Please. Please, just
call me back, okay?

1641
01:33:52,692 --> 01:33:54,458
I need you. Bye.

1642
01:36:13,635 --> 01:36:15,331
Mommy?

1643
01:36:15,633 --> 01:36:19,602
Go back to sleep.
Everything's okay.

1644
01:36:20,576 --> 01:36:22,843
My tummy is wet.

1645
01:36:23,213 --> 01:36:27,214
Sh-sh-sh. It's okay.
I made it better, okay?

1646
01:36:27,882 --> 01:36:29,678
Go back to sleep.

1647
01:37:59,874 --> 01:38:01,839
Hello?

1648
01:38:01,941 --> 01:38:02,870
Hello?

1649
01:38:07,848 --> 01:38:09,485
Hello?

1650
01:38:15,955 --> 01:38:17,291
Oh!

1651
01:38:18,321 --> 01:38:19,491
Why are you here?

1652
01:38:20,895 --> 01:38:22,165
Are you okay?

1653
01:38:22,532 --> 01:38:23,492
Where...

1654
01:38:23,594 --> 01:38:25,794
When did you get here?
Why are you here?

1655
01:38:28,165 --> 01:38:29,232
Where is she?

1656
01:38:29,334 --> 01:38:32,235
She's asleep.

1657
01:38:32,504 --> 01:38:34,177
- With the babysitter?
- Yes.

1658
01:38:35,779 --> 01:38:37,111
Look, I just...

1659
01:38:37,213 --> 01:38:39,241
I couldn't think.
I couldn't function.

1660
01:38:39,343 --> 01:38:40,543
I couldn't do anything.

1661
01:38:40,645 --> 01:38:42,277
All I was doing was thinking
about you,

1662
01:38:42,379 --> 01:38:43,513
and her, and the apartment

1663
01:38:43,615 --> 01:38:45,682
so I had to come back.
I was scared.

1664
01:38:45,784 --> 01:38:48,322
- I wanted to help.
- Wait, wait, wait. Wait, I...

1665
01:38:52,123 --> 01:38:54,222
What? You just gotta
know how to talk to these guys.

1666
01:38:54,324 --> 01:38:55,625
That's all.

1667
01:38:55,727 --> 01:38:58,964
Did you look at it, the hole?
Did you see it?

1668
01:38:59,066 --> 01:39:00,327
Did you see anything?

1669
01:39:00,830 --> 01:39:04,371
Oh, yeah. No, it, uh...
It was not fixed.

1670
01:39:05,005 --> 01:39:06,404
Now it's fixed.

1671
01:39:06,839 --> 01:39:10,145
Okay. Okay, I think we should
just... Let's just go now.

1672
01:39:10,246 --> 01:39:12,010
I just don't see
how it got so bad.

1673
01:39:12,112 --> 01:39:13,540
How did it get so bad?

1674
01:39:13,642 --> 01:39:15,245
Are you trying to blame me?

1675
01:39:15,547 --> 01:39:17,885
No, I'm not blaming you.
I just...

1676
01:39:17,989 --> 01:39:19,254
I just want to get out of here.

1677
01:39:19,356 --> 01:39:20,750
- It was a huge hole.
- I want to get out of here.

1678
01:39:30,735 --> 01:39:31,959
Do you love me?

1679
01:39:33,834 --> 01:39:34,798
Yeah.

1680
01:39:44,709 --> 01:39:47,513
- Hey, hey. Wait, wait, wait.
- What?

1681
01:39:48,213 --> 01:39:49,647
What's the rush?

1682
01:39:49,749 --> 01:39:52,218
You were the one who was
in a rush to get back here.

1683
01:39:52,320 --> 01:39:54,214
I don't want to be here anymore.

1684
01:39:54,616 --> 01:39:56,356
We are here, all right?

1685
01:39:56,459 --> 01:39:58,156
Let's relieve the babysitter.
I'm exhausted.

1686
01:39:58,258 --> 01:39:59,558
I want to get to sleep,

1687
01:39:59,660 --> 01:40:01,195
and I'm excited to see her
even if she's sleeping.

1688
01:40:01,297 --> 01:40:03,097
I know, but why don't
you go downstairs

1689
01:40:03,199 --> 01:40:04,393
and get us some wine
or something

1690
01:40:04,495 --> 01:40:05,762
and I can relieve the sitter

1691
01:40:05,864 --> 01:40:07,066
and then you can come
back up and then we can...

1692
01:40:07,169 --> 01:40:08,870
What's going on?
What's going on?

1693
01:40:08,972 --> 01:40:10,405
There's nothing going on.

1694
01:40:11,940 --> 01:40:13,870
Open the door.

1695
01:40:16,276 --> 01:40:18,874
- Me?
- I don't have a key.

1696
01:40:20,179 --> 01:40:22,615
Right, yeah. Okay.

1697
01:40:23,879 --> 01:40:25,451
Oh, God. Don't tell me
you left her here

1698
01:40:25,553 --> 01:40:28,686
- without having a key. Come on.
- No, no, no. No.

1699
01:40:28,788 --> 01:40:31,789
Of course, I have a key.
What do you think I am?

1700
01:40:37,759 --> 01:40:41,401
Hey. I'm her dad. I'm Charles.

1701
01:40:41,504 --> 01:40:43,499
Nice to meet you.
You must be the babysitter.

1702
01:40:43,602 --> 01:40:45,767
- Babysitter?
- Yeah, James, right?

1703
01:40:45,869 --> 01:40:49,040
- Jamie, right.
- Oh, thank you for...

1704
01:40:49,142 --> 01:40:50,772
Oh, hell no.

1705
01:40:50,874 --> 01:40:53,281
I'm not doing this
shit with you, yo.

1706
01:40:53,383 --> 01:40:54,477
Not doing what?
What are you talking about?

1707
01:40:54,580 --> 01:40:56,879
I'm not a fucking
babysitter, dude.

1708
01:40:58,183 --> 01:40:59,754
Excuse me?

1709
01:41:00,557 --> 01:41:03,491
Your daughter woke up
and was crying, scared shitless.

1710
01:41:03,593 --> 01:41:07,294
So I pounded on the fucking door
till she finally opened it.

1711
01:41:07,397 --> 01:41:08,990
I had to tell her
I was a friend of your wife.

1712
01:41:09,093 --> 01:41:11,959
Bro, it took me forever
to get her to go to sleep.

1713
01:41:12,062 --> 01:41:14,402
And by the way,
I had to give her a Band-Aid.

1714
01:41:14,504 --> 01:41:16,566
She has some shit oozing
from her stomach or something.

1715
01:41:16,668 --> 01:41:18,440
Hey. Okay, okay, hold on.
Hold on.

1716
01:41:18,541 --> 01:41:20,275
- Listen, who the fuck are you...
- Watch the leg, man.

1717
01:41:20,378 --> 01:41:21,605
and what the hell
are you doing in my room?

1718
01:41:21,706 --> 01:41:23,942
- Your room?
- Yeah. This is my wife.

1719
01:41:24,044 --> 01:41:25,111
That's my child.

1720
01:41:25,213 --> 01:41:26,347
- Mommy?
- My room.

1721
01:41:26,449 --> 01:41:27,879
I just fucking told you
who I was,

1722
01:41:27,981 --> 01:41:30,317
and you need to ask your wife
why I got this cast on my leg.

1723
01:41:30,419 --> 01:41:32,617
- It's... I don't...
- Who is this guy?

1724
01:41:32,719 --> 01:41:35,156
- He's the babysitter.
- He's not the babysitter!

1725
01:41:35,258 --> 01:41:36,290
He just told me
he's not the babysitter.

1726
01:41:36,392 --> 01:41:37,357
I don't know
what he's talking about.

1727
01:41:37,459 --> 01:41:38,255
- Who the fuck is he?
- She's awake.

1728
01:41:38,357 --> 01:41:39,458
Can we just go inside?

1729
01:41:39,559 --> 01:41:40,758
She can hear everything
you're saying.

1730
01:41:40,860 --> 01:41:41,822
Can you even explain to me
why her machine is off

1731
01:41:41,924 --> 01:41:42,723
and the tube
is outside of her body?

1732
01:41:42,825 --> 01:41:44,057
Daddy! Are you out there?

1733
01:41:44,160 --> 01:41:45,464
- I ain't in this shit, man.
- Come see me!

1734
01:41:45,566 --> 01:41:47,099
- Let's go inside.
- Daddy! Daddy!

1735
01:41:47,201 --> 01:41:49,199
Hey. Hey. Lookit. Yes, hi.

1736
01:41:49,300 --> 01:41:50,503
Daddy's home!

1737
01:41:50,606 --> 01:41:51,835
Mom said we didn't need
the program anymore.

1738
01:41:51,937 --> 01:41:53,409
Oh, my gosh.
Look at you! You're beautiful.

1739
01:41:53,510 --> 01:41:54,772
But I didn't believe her
because Dr. Spring said I do.

1740
01:41:54,874 --> 01:41:57,978
- But look, she was right!
- What? What are you saying?

1741
01:41:58,080 --> 01:42:00,883
- Look! No tube!
- What?

1742
01:42:00,985 --> 01:42:02,008
The tube is garbage now.

1743
01:42:02,111 --> 01:42:03,884
I can go back to school!

1744
01:42:03,986 --> 01:42:05,548
Oh, my God.

1745
01:42:05,650 --> 01:42:07,552
- Oh, my God.
- But Daddy...

1746
01:42:07,654 --> 01:42:08,690
I still don't want to
eat food...

1747
01:42:08,791 --> 01:42:10,053
What...

1748
01:42:10,155 --> 01:42:11,022
- ... because it's too squishy.
- What's going on?

1749
01:42:16,599 --> 01:42:18,395
Will you take me
to the playground tomorrow?

1750
01:42:18,496 --> 01:42:20,031
What did you do?

1751
01:42:20,299 --> 01:42:21,362
What did you do?

1752
01:42:21,464 --> 01:42:22,602
Mommy!

1753
01:45:09,568 --> 01:45:11,673
Don't touch me!

1754
01:46:05,592 --> 01:46:07,025
Mommy!

1755
01:46:08,097 --> 01:46:09,258
Mommy!

1756
01:46:09,625 --> 01:46:11,264
Mommy!

1757
01:46:16,635 --> 01:46:18,905
Mommy, I'm here.

1758
01:46:20,606 --> 01:46:22,744
Mommy, please!

1759
01:46:25,048 --> 01:46:25,874
Mommy!

1760
01:46:29,010 --> 01:46:30,518
Please!

1761
01:46:51,437 --> 01:46:52,740
Mommy?

1762
01:46:59,876 --> 01:47:02,245
I'll be better. I promise.

1763
01:47:04,584 --> 01:47:06,348
I'll be better.