1 00:02:47,727 --> 00:02:51,400 Based on the novel by Philippe Besson 2 00:03:07,440 --> 00:03:08,490 Mr. Belcourt! 3 00:03:08,650 --> 00:03:11,400 Gaëlle Flamant. Sorry, we came as fast as we could. 4 00:03:11,610 --> 00:03:13,530 - Allow me... - No, it's fine. 5 00:03:13,740 --> 00:03:14,820 Follow me. 6 00:03:15,635 --> 00:03:17,502 - You had a good trip? - Yes. 7 00:03:17,618 --> 00:03:18,618 Good. 8 00:03:19,135 --> 00:03:22,002 It's good to meet you at last. In the flesh. 9 00:03:22,260 --> 00:03:24,327 How long since your last visit? 10 00:03:24,385 --> 00:03:26,065 35 years. Since I left. 11 00:03:26,135 --> 00:03:29,143 Tell me if it's changed. I've always lived here. 12 00:03:29,543 --> 00:03:30,543 This way. 13 00:03:31,610 --> 00:03:33,127 Sorry about the car. 14 00:03:33,127 --> 00:03:36,227 Ours broke down on the way out. This is all we had. 15 00:03:36,227 --> 00:03:40,515 It will be fixed when we arrive, in 45 mins, give or take a tractor. 16 00:03:40,602 --> 00:03:43,069 Thanks, Thierry. This is Mr. Belcourt. 17 00:03:43,585 --> 00:03:45,402 - Front seat? - I prefer behind. 18 00:03:45,402 --> 00:03:46,402 Really? 19 00:03:47,285 --> 00:03:48,285 Fine. 20 00:04:03,210 --> 00:04:05,210 I thought they'd never arrive. 21 00:04:05,752 --> 00:04:07,877 Your story's superb. We were thrilled. 22 00:04:07,877 --> 00:04:10,068 I have more if you want. For Paris. 23 00:04:10,068 --> 00:04:12,601 I already sent some to your publisher. 24 00:04:12,877 --> 00:04:15,477 Here's a memo pad so you don't get lost. 25 00:04:15,685 --> 00:04:20,165 First, we have a signing at Texte Libre. The owner's a fan, you'll see. 26 00:04:20,393 --> 00:04:23,002 The short story with each of your books bought. 27 00:04:23,002 --> 00:04:25,669 Tomorrow, interviews. Local TV and press. 28 00:04:26,068 --> 00:04:30,804 This afternoon, technical rehearsal to get to know the room for your speech. 29 00:04:31,143 --> 00:04:34,791 Usually, we invite visual artists for our special blends. 30 00:04:34,835 --> 00:04:38,483 For our bicentenary, though, a writer seemed just perfect. 31 00:04:38,918 --> 00:04:40,718 Especially a homegrown one. 32 00:04:43,443 --> 00:04:47,252 And there's a guided tour of the cellars for our US importers 33 00:04:47,252 --> 00:04:48,852 if you want to join. 34 00:04:49,218 --> 00:04:52,546 No, thanks. I did it 1,000 times as a kid. I'll pass. 35 00:04:53,127 --> 00:04:55,402 Of course, I understand. 36 00:05:46,627 --> 00:05:49,477 - Andrieu, move it! - I'm coming. 37 00:05:49,602 --> 00:05:50,602 Hurry! 38 00:06:01,452 --> 00:06:02,452 Come alone. 39 00:06:28,335 --> 00:06:29,615 Thanks, Thierry. 40 00:06:31,527 --> 00:06:32,527 Okay? 41 00:06:35,693 --> 00:06:38,701 - Okay, Lucas? How's it going. - Great. Perfect. 42 00:06:39,002 --> 00:06:40,202 Mr. Belcourt... 43 00:06:41,693 --> 00:06:44,426 Let's slip in before the group. Follow me. 44 00:06:48,402 --> 00:06:51,143 Hello, this is Mr. Stéphane Belcourt. 45 00:06:51,302 --> 00:06:53,627 Hello, sir. Just fill this out... 46 00:06:53,868 --> 00:06:55,935 No, it's booked under Baussony. 47 00:06:56,210 --> 00:07:00,360 For the American's passports, Mr. Andrieu has them for you. 48 00:07:02,760 --> 00:07:04,560 - Gaëlle, please. - Coming! 49 00:07:06,060 --> 00:07:07,927 If you drop your things off, 50 00:07:08,293 --> 00:07:10,493 we leave in 15 for the bookstore. 51 00:07:10,610 --> 00:07:11,730 See you later. 52 00:07:11,943 --> 00:07:13,427 Room 15, third floor. 53 00:07:13,427 --> 00:07:14,947 Mr Belcourt, may I? 54 00:07:32,227 --> 00:07:33,667 Come on, sit down. 55 00:07:46,510 --> 00:07:48,577 Am I dreaming or you eye me up? 56 00:07:50,460 --> 00:07:51,980 You like me, right? 57 00:07:59,610 --> 00:08:00,610 Yes. 58 00:08:03,543 --> 00:08:05,063 You already did it? 59 00:08:07,377 --> 00:08:08,377 No. 60 00:08:12,702 --> 00:08:13,702 You? 61 00:08:14,210 --> 00:08:15,210 No. 62 00:08:16,668 --> 00:08:17,868 Not with a guy. 63 00:08:23,527 --> 00:08:24,807 You tell no one. 64 00:08:30,718 --> 00:08:31,718 All right. 65 00:08:36,002 --> 00:08:37,362 Come one, follow me. 66 00:11:24,852 --> 00:11:26,532 Only you and me know. 67 00:11:30,785 --> 00:11:31,785 See you. 68 00:11:59,568 --> 00:12:01,768 - You arrived safely? - Just fine. 69 00:12:02,077 --> 00:12:03,277 All going well? 70 00:12:03,460 --> 00:12:06,724 Sure, even if I wonder what the hell I'm doing here. 71 00:12:07,002 --> 00:12:09,618 It was your call. I didn't force you for one. 72 00:12:09,618 --> 00:12:12,468 We received the short story. They did a fabulous job. 73 00:12:12,468 --> 00:12:13,468 So I saw. 74 00:12:13,510 --> 00:12:16,127 I sent one to Mertot. He wants to reviewer it. 75 00:12:16,127 --> 00:12:17,710 No, it's a commission. 76 00:12:17,710 --> 00:12:21,358 Honestly, I did landscapes. "Cognac, history of the soil." 77 00:12:21,752 --> 00:12:23,860 They aren't even my real memories. 78 00:12:23,860 --> 00:12:25,860 Maybe that's why it's so good. 79 00:12:26,352 --> 00:12:27,527 Thanks a butch. 80 00:12:27,527 --> 00:12:30,568 You could write more. You never published short stories. 81 00:12:30,568 --> 00:12:32,501 The new direction you wanted. 82 00:12:32,668 --> 00:12:34,801 - Still nothing from you. - What? 83 00:12:35,018 --> 00:12:37,452 - The chapters you promised to send. - Actually... 84 00:12:37,452 --> 00:12:39,010 - You forgot? - I trashed them. 85 00:12:39,010 --> 00:12:41,793 You could've send them anyway. It's a great idea. 86 00:12:41,793 --> 00:12:43,843 - You know... - I don't get you right now. 87 00:12:43,843 --> 00:12:46,376 Sorry, gotta go. Can I call you later? 88 00:13:14,952 --> 00:13:16,632 You're a connoisseur? 89 00:13:18,293 --> 00:13:21,143 No, not particularly. An old model, isn't it? 90 00:13:21,143 --> 00:13:22,663 It was my father's. 91 00:13:22,835 --> 00:13:24,515 Lucas. Nice to meet you. 92 00:13:27,377 --> 00:13:29,568 - Stéphane Belcourt. - Yes, I know. 93 00:13:29,568 --> 00:13:31,502 - Really? - Our guest of honor. 94 00:13:31,502 --> 00:13:32,542 Mr. Belcourt? 95 00:13:33,210 --> 00:13:35,877 I'll park her up before I get yelled at. 96 00:13:37,510 --> 00:13:39,190 I was looking all over. 97 00:13:40,693 --> 00:13:43,426 May I introduce our chairman, Mr. Dejean? 98 00:13:43,710 --> 00:13:46,177 Delighted to have the revered author here. 99 00:13:46,177 --> 00:13:48,110 I'm delighted you invited me. 100 00:13:48,560 --> 00:13:50,240 I admit I was skeptical. 101 00:13:50,710 --> 00:13:53,918 Don't get me wrong, nothing against men who like men. 102 00:13:53,918 --> 00:13:56,377 I was concerned about our brand image. 103 00:13:56,377 --> 00:13:58,910 You know, tradition, eternal France... 104 00:13:59,085 --> 00:14:00,952 I was scared you'd be too... 105 00:14:01,927 --> 00:14:02,927 modern. 106 00:14:03,502 --> 00:14:05,969 But I realized my wife was a big fan. 107 00:14:06,210 --> 00:14:09,922 She wept over one of your books, so I though it might work. 108 00:14:10,627 --> 00:14:13,763 Anyway, I'm delighted you accepted our invitation. 109 00:14:14,210 --> 00:14:16,143 In any case, see you tonight. 110 00:14:16,460 --> 00:14:17,820 With the Prefect! 111 00:14:20,752 --> 00:14:22,635 - The Prefect? - It slipped my mind. 112 00:14:22,635 --> 00:14:25,102 An informal dinner at Baussony Manor. 113 00:14:25,293 --> 00:14:28,237 The Prefect's lovely. You can call me for help. 114 00:14:28,352 --> 00:14:30,685 Your readers are waiting. Let's go. 115 00:14:31,252 --> 00:14:32,932 I'll just get my coat. 116 00:14:33,402 --> 00:14:35,269 - Be right back. - All right. 117 00:15:20,043 --> 00:15:21,483 - You scared? - No. 118 00:15:38,718 --> 00:15:40,585 We came as fast as we could. 119 00:15:40,643 --> 00:15:42,376 This is Stéphane Belcourt. 120 00:15:42,493 --> 00:15:46,468 And this is Mr. Teicher, our genial host today. 121 00:15:46,618 --> 00:15:50,650 It's an honor to have you here. I've often tried to organize it. 122 00:15:52,143 --> 00:15:54,327 Take a seat, everybody. 123 00:15:55,627 --> 00:15:56,627 I am... 124 00:15:57,477 --> 00:16:00,810 I am very happy to welcome Mr. Belcourt. 125 00:16:01,543 --> 00:16:05,527 As you know he's a prolific writer, as many as two novels a year. 126 00:16:05,527 --> 00:16:08,394 So prolific I struggle sometimes to keep up. 127 00:16:08,477 --> 00:16:11,377 But there's been a two-year gap. An eternity! 128 00:16:12,043 --> 00:16:16,168 Dear Stéphane, you are often described as the great writer of love. 129 00:16:16,168 --> 00:16:18,502 True, but of the end of love. 130 00:16:18,618 --> 00:16:22,002 Nobody captures romantic ruins better than you. 131 00:16:22,568 --> 00:16:24,088 If I may quote you, 132 00:16:24,168 --> 00:16:25,848 "When, following grace, 133 00:16:26,127 --> 00:16:29,893 there is nothing but gaping holes opening up ahead." 134 00:16:30,435 --> 00:16:33,218 Mr. Belcourt was due to read from his short story, 135 00:16:33,218 --> 00:16:37,570 but prefers to dip into an earlier novel to celebrate his homecoming. 136 00:16:38,085 --> 00:16:40,152 The Betrayal of Thomas Spencer. 137 00:16:42,168 --> 00:16:43,168 Stay stop. 138 00:16:50,585 --> 00:16:52,785 "In the photo, Thomas is smiling. 139 00:16:52,835 --> 00:16:53,835 slightly. 140 00:16:54,085 --> 00:16:55,085 Awkwardly. 141 00:16:56,168 --> 00:16:58,501 I asked him to pose for the camera. 142 00:16:59,418 --> 00:17:02,682 His discomfort under the lens's scrutiny is blatant. 143 00:17:02,710 --> 00:17:05,377 He rejects the intrusion, the indecency. 144 00:17:05,668 --> 00:17:09,318 He makes an effort for me. An effort to smile. 145 00:17:09,935 --> 00:17:12,335 It's a photo from when we were young. 146 00:17:12,668 --> 00:17:14,108 A moment captured. 147 00:17:14,627 --> 00:17:15,827 Almost nothing. 148 00:17:17,293 --> 00:17:18,293 The photo 149 00:17:21,127 --> 00:17:22,807 says something about him. 150 00:17:23,543 --> 00:17:25,223 His beauty, of course. 151 00:17:26,502 --> 00:17:28,182 His singular virility. 152 00:17:30,460 --> 00:17:32,140 As well as his shyness. 153 00:17:32,752 --> 00:17:34,552 The photo also says some... 154 00:17:34,585 --> 00:17:35,585 thing 155 00:17:36,835 --> 00:17:38,435 about the two of us. 156 00:17:42,085 --> 00:17:43,818 The urge to keep a record, 157 00:17:45,185 --> 00:17:48,641 to testify that happiness existed, since it is there... 158 00:17:57,443 --> 00:17:59,576 since it is there in the photo." 159 00:18:37,877 --> 00:18:39,810 Sorry about those other days. 160 00:18:41,168 --> 00:18:42,968 We can't risk it, you know. 161 00:18:46,702 --> 00:18:48,435 You won't be disappointed. 162 00:18:54,193 --> 00:18:55,553 Amber memories... 163 00:18:56,710 --> 00:18:57,830 among friends. 164 00:18:58,043 --> 00:18:59,723 Thank you, Alexandre. 165 00:19:07,543 --> 00:19:09,610 - What's your name? - Geneviève. 166 00:19:11,252 --> 00:19:13,185 - There. - Thank you. Goodbye. 167 00:19:20,127 --> 00:19:22,594 Can you sign these for the Americans? 168 00:19:22,943 --> 00:19:24,943 Sorry, you thought it was over. 169 00:19:24,943 --> 00:19:26,143 No, no problem. 170 00:19:26,752 --> 00:19:29,485 But they won't understand. It's in French. 171 00:19:29,485 --> 00:19:33,837 Perhaps you could write in English. I saw you lived in San Francisco. 172 00:19:34,585 --> 00:19:35,945 And other places. 173 00:19:36,235 --> 00:19:37,710 I'll start with you. 174 00:19:37,710 --> 00:19:39,310 Okay, with pleasure. 175 00:19:40,210 --> 00:19:43,252 - You work at Baussony? - In the Los Angeles office. 176 00:19:43,252 --> 00:19:47,412 The visitors ate our best distributors, so I'm looking after them. 177 00:19:47,710 --> 00:19:49,643 How's it going? Not too hard? 178 00:19:50,377 --> 00:19:54,568 Not at all. They're delighted to see what they talk about every day. 179 00:19:54,568 --> 00:19:57,435 Make them laugh too, and you've struck gold. 180 00:19:58,002 --> 00:19:59,042 I see. Bravo. 181 00:20:00,485 --> 00:20:01,485 So... 182 00:20:02,627 --> 00:20:04,427 Lucas, if I remember right? 183 00:20:05,210 --> 00:20:06,730 And your last name? 184 00:20:07,460 --> 00:20:09,140 Andrieu. Lucas Andrieu. 185 00:20:10,585 --> 00:20:11,625 That's funny. 186 00:20:12,502 --> 00:20:14,022 Because I knew a... 187 00:20:14,085 --> 00:20:16,085 Thomas Andrieu in high school. 188 00:20:16,435 --> 00:20:18,902 There weren't 150. Must be my father. 189 00:20:19,085 --> 00:20:20,525 You knew him well? 190 00:20:22,960 --> 00:20:24,000 More or less. 191 00:20:24,443 --> 00:20:25,443 Classmates? 192 00:20:25,877 --> 00:20:28,277 No, we did our senior year together. 193 00:20:29,210 --> 00:20:32,218 Nuts. He could have told me he knew a celebrity. 194 00:20:32,502 --> 00:20:33,618 Everything's relative. 195 00:20:33,618 --> 00:20:35,298 I wasn't one back then. 196 00:20:35,485 --> 00:20:37,127 He didn't make the connection. 197 00:20:37,127 --> 00:20:38,647 Come on, a writer. 198 00:20:39,085 --> 00:20:42,285 I'm only half-surprised. My father never said much. 199 00:20:43,018 --> 00:20:44,698 You didn't stay in touch? 200 00:20:44,722 --> 00:20:45,722 No. 201 00:20:45,727 --> 00:20:47,527 After finals, he moved to Spain. 202 00:20:47,593 --> 00:20:49,273 And I was born there. 203 00:20:49,377 --> 00:20:50,977 My mother's Spanish. 204 00:20:51,001 --> 00:20:52,001 All right. 205 00:20:52,093 --> 00:20:54,685 When my grandparents needed help on the farm, 206 00:20:54,685 --> 00:20:55,725 we came back. 207 00:20:57,002 --> 00:20:58,002 I see. 208 00:21:01,085 --> 00:21:02,085 Is he well? 209 00:21:07,543 --> 00:21:08,983 He died last year. 210 00:21:15,285 --> 00:21:17,152 Sorry to tell you like this. 211 00:21:17,377 --> 00:21:18,657 No, it's just... 212 00:21:21,652 --> 00:21:23,332 He was very young to go. 213 00:21:23,710 --> 00:21:24,750 I was sudden. 214 00:21:25,368 --> 00:21:27,435 Excuse me, the bus has arrived. 215 00:21:28,377 --> 00:21:30,057 I have to go. I'm sorry. 216 00:21:31,610 --> 00:21:34,277 We're doing the cellar tour. Want to come? 217 00:21:34,277 --> 00:21:36,860 I don't think Mr. Belcourt is too keen. 218 00:21:36,860 --> 00:21:38,540 Okay, I won't insist. 219 00:21:38,685 --> 00:21:41,893 Hold on, why not? It may have changed. 220 00:21:42,360 --> 00:21:45,260 As you wish. I'll send those up to your room. 221 00:21:45,443 --> 00:21:47,123 All right. Thank you. 222 00:21:47,252 --> 00:21:49,252 Okay, they're waiting for you. 223 00:22:07,135 --> 00:22:09,268 Well, didn't you take your time? 224 00:22:09,668 --> 00:22:11,348 I was about to leave. 225 00:22:11,418 --> 00:22:15,066 - I could've ridden with you. - So people see us together? 226 00:22:15,793 --> 00:22:17,860 It's fine here. There's no one. 227 00:22:19,785 --> 00:22:21,145 You'll like this. 228 00:22:59,568 --> 00:23:00,568 Come on. 229 00:23:32,627 --> 00:23:33,627 Hold on. 230 00:23:34,110 --> 00:23:35,110 What's up? 231 00:23:38,843 --> 00:23:39,843 What? 232 00:23:43,210 --> 00:23:44,250 Do that I do. 233 00:24:22,702 --> 00:24:23,702 Watch out! 234 00:24:24,318 --> 00:24:25,918 Sorry, my apologies. 235 00:25:19,043 --> 00:25:20,083 You're bored. 236 00:25:20,585 --> 00:25:22,335 I feel bad dragging you along. 237 00:25:22,335 --> 00:25:23,535 No, not at all. 238 00:25:23,835 --> 00:25:25,515 But nothing's changed. 239 00:25:25,710 --> 00:25:27,777 Sure, that's tradition for you. 240 00:25:27,877 --> 00:25:29,557 It makes a good cognac. 241 00:25:30,877 --> 00:25:33,144 I don't like raking over the past. 242 00:25:33,210 --> 00:25:36,218 Most likely, you feel nostalgic or disappointed. 243 00:25:36,710 --> 00:25:38,070 I like nostalgia. 244 00:25:38,502 --> 00:25:39,502 Really? 245 00:25:40,127 --> 00:25:41,543 You're too young for it. 246 00:25:41,543 --> 00:25:42,823 No, think again. 247 00:25:43,502 --> 00:25:46,446 In any case, you can't escape your past, right? 248 00:25:48,460 --> 00:25:49,460 Here. 249 00:25:51,152 --> 00:25:52,568 Thanks, I don't drink. 250 00:25:52,568 --> 00:25:55,152 You don't? You write about it really well. 251 00:25:55,152 --> 00:25:56,152 Sure but... 252 00:25:56,152 --> 00:25:58,485 Internet was my friend on that one. 253 00:26:02,502 --> 00:26:04,182 - Be right back. - Sure. 254 00:26:29,260 --> 00:26:31,793 My father mentioned you once or twice. 255 00:26:32,777 --> 00:26:35,444 I think we had one of your books at home. 256 00:26:36,168 --> 00:26:37,608 Really? Which one? 257 00:26:38,002 --> 00:26:39,362 I don't remember. 258 00:26:40,002 --> 00:26:43,543 The cover was a drawing or painting 259 00:26:44,627 --> 00:26:46,360 of an American house. Red. 260 00:26:46,802 --> 00:26:48,482 With wheat around it. 261 00:26:48,877 --> 00:26:50,944 The Betrayal of Thomas Spencer. 262 00:26:51,543 --> 00:26:54,343 Funny. I read from it earlier. You read it? 263 00:26:54,643 --> 00:26:59,743 I began it but I was young and it was too psychological for me. 264 00:27:00,418 --> 00:27:02,098 I'll have another go. 265 00:27:03,810 --> 00:27:06,543 How do you come up with all these stories? 266 00:27:07,127 --> 00:27:09,260 They just come to you like that? 267 00:27:10,460 --> 00:27:11,740 The inspiration? 268 00:27:12,235 --> 00:27:14,702 I always wondered how you guys do it. 269 00:27:15,377 --> 00:27:17,057 You dream it up or... 270 00:27:17,768 --> 00:27:20,101 or you find inspiration in reality? 271 00:27:20,127 --> 00:27:21,127 Your life? 272 00:27:21,460 --> 00:27:22,580 Your memories? 273 00:27:22,960 --> 00:27:24,640 - My father may be? - No. 274 00:27:25,293 --> 00:27:26,493 No, not at all. 275 00:27:27,543 --> 00:27:30,368 Talk about me to expose my so-called traumas? 276 00:27:30,368 --> 00:27:32,235 No, I like making things up. 277 00:27:32,685 --> 00:27:36,397 As a kid I loved watching people and imagining their lives. 278 00:27:36,877 --> 00:27:38,557 When I was just a boy. 279 00:27:38,893 --> 00:27:41,760 My mother always said, "Stop with the lies." 280 00:27:42,085 --> 00:27:44,085 All I did was to tell stories. 281 00:27:44,710 --> 00:27:47,377 It's not lying, making up stories, right? 282 00:27:48,043 --> 00:27:50,043 Unless you don't make them up. 283 00:28:07,993 --> 00:28:10,860 - Sure there's no one? - My folks get home late. 284 00:28:10,860 --> 00:28:12,993 It's cool. Just what you wanted. 285 00:28:13,210 --> 00:28:14,210 Come on. 286 00:28:37,902 --> 00:28:39,377 You listen to that? 287 00:28:39,377 --> 00:28:41,057 Yes, I like his lyrics. 288 00:28:41,418 --> 00:28:43,418 I prefer Téléphone. They rock. 289 00:28:49,152 --> 00:28:50,832 - What's that? - Nothing. 290 00:28:51,377 --> 00:28:54,833 - You wrote it? - No, please, they're terrible stories. 291 00:28:57,052 --> 00:28:58,052 It's cool. 292 00:29:43,277 --> 00:29:44,277 What? 293 00:30:32,985 --> 00:30:34,105 How did it go? 294 00:30:34,543 --> 00:30:36,168 Never gets boring, huh? 295 00:30:36,168 --> 00:30:37,901 Shall we go test the mics? 296 00:30:39,177 --> 00:30:40,877 I planned to write my speech. 297 00:30:40,877 --> 00:30:42,677 - You haven't already? - No. 298 00:30:43,002 --> 00:30:45,735 I always wait until the last minute to... 299 00:30:46,002 --> 00:30:48,002 to let the present inspire me. 300 00:30:48,085 --> 00:30:49,765 I hope it hits the mark. 301 00:30:50,752 --> 00:30:53,152 I mean the present, not your speech. 302 00:30:54,918 --> 00:30:57,452 Take your time, I'll manage with the mics. 303 00:30:57,452 --> 00:30:58,572 See you later. 304 00:31:03,502 --> 00:31:04,542 Come with me. 305 00:31:04,918 --> 00:31:07,785 - Sorry? - I messed up with the cellar tour, 306 00:31:08,002 --> 00:31:10,069 and I don't like to fall short. 307 00:31:10,643 --> 00:31:13,310 Hold on, I said I was writing my speech. 308 00:31:13,435 --> 00:31:15,302 Sure, but it's now or never. 309 00:31:15,502 --> 00:31:17,252 They're free. I'll be busy later. 310 00:31:17,252 --> 00:31:18,932 You likewise. Let's go. 311 00:31:32,760 --> 00:31:35,493 - And you like the USA? - Sure, it's cool. 312 00:31:35,668 --> 00:31:38,568 It was a golden opportunity to see the world, 313 00:31:38,627 --> 00:31:40,627 and still be here for Grandma. 314 00:31:40,752 --> 00:31:42,252 I'm all she has now. 315 00:31:42,252 --> 00:31:43,252 Your mother? 316 00:31:43,335 --> 00:31:46,135 No, she went home to Spain a long time ago. 317 00:31:46,710 --> 00:31:48,843 She was never really happy here. 318 00:31:49,418 --> 00:31:51,885 Galicia has more going for it, right? 319 00:31:53,143 --> 00:31:56,727 - You have brothers and sisters? - No, I'm an only child. 320 00:31:56,835 --> 00:32:00,168 Mom tried talking Dad round but it was non-negotiable. 321 00:32:00,168 --> 00:32:02,193 Poor woman got the short straw. 322 00:32:02,193 --> 00:32:03,393 She wanted six. 323 00:32:04,810 --> 00:32:07,460 - Your father didn't want more? - He never gave in. 324 00:32:07,460 --> 00:32:09,327 Maybe they had me too young. 325 00:32:09,752 --> 00:32:12,952 They hardly knew each other when Mom became pregnant. 326 00:32:13,585 --> 00:32:17,002 Abortion wasn't an option with super catholic grandmothers. 327 00:32:17,002 --> 00:32:18,935 So, shotgun wedding and done. 328 00:32:19,335 --> 00:32:21,468 Can't say I was a child of love. 329 00:32:37,602 --> 00:32:38,602 Well? 330 00:32:39,910 --> 00:32:41,590 We'll go down this way. 331 00:32:45,577 --> 00:32:47,818 It's an old clay quarry that filled up. 332 00:32:47,818 --> 00:32:50,485 The earth's too acidic for plants or fish. 333 00:32:51,252 --> 00:32:52,932 That explains the color. 334 00:32:53,418 --> 00:32:56,746 Dad didn't share much with me but he brought me here. 335 00:32:57,468 --> 00:32:58,988 His secret hideout. 336 00:33:00,043 --> 00:33:01,043 Like it? 337 00:33:02,743 --> 00:33:03,783 - Okay? - Yes. 338 00:33:04,152 --> 00:33:06,793 - You don't look it. - It's nothing, just... 339 00:33:06,793 --> 00:33:08,473 You're so unlike him. 340 00:33:08,668 --> 00:33:10,601 Yeah, I took after my mother. 341 00:33:10,818 --> 00:33:12,551 Physically, personality... 342 00:33:13,252 --> 00:33:16,644 It's odd, all from one parent, nothing from the other. 343 00:33:32,235 --> 00:33:33,235 Tell me... 344 00:33:36,410 --> 00:33:38,090 What was my father like? 345 00:33:40,918 --> 00:33:41,918 Meaning? 346 00:33:44,602 --> 00:33:46,042 When he was young? 347 00:33:47,835 --> 00:33:50,635 It's hard to imagine your folks before you. 348 00:33:51,127 --> 00:33:52,993 Before you existed. 349 00:33:54,793 --> 00:33:56,313 So I was wondering. 350 00:34:00,418 --> 00:34:02,098 I don't know what to say. 351 00:34:04,377 --> 00:34:06,444 For example, was he a brainbox? 352 00:34:07,027 --> 00:34:08,707 Or a numbskull at school? 353 00:34:10,860 --> 00:34:12,927 Was he serious? A party monster? 354 00:34:14,793 --> 00:34:15,913 Did he act up? 355 00:34:17,627 --> 00:34:18,987 Or with you even? 356 00:34:19,960 --> 00:34:23,096 - Did he get on with you? - He was solid in class. 357 00:34:23,710 --> 00:34:26,043 I'm not really bothered about that. 358 00:34:27,127 --> 00:34:28,487 I was thinking... 359 00:34:29,043 --> 00:34:31,510 You might know stuff he never told me. 360 00:34:33,052 --> 00:34:34,652 Him being my father. 361 00:34:36,818 --> 00:34:38,551 He never told me anything. 362 00:34:41,543 --> 00:34:42,543 Look... 363 00:34:45,418 --> 00:34:48,285 He was quite reserved, true enough. 364 00:34:48,877 --> 00:34:49,877 But... 365 00:34:51,377 --> 00:34:52,417 Very popular. 366 00:34:52,860 --> 00:34:54,593 - Really? - Sure, I mean... 367 00:34:55,002 --> 00:34:56,418 With the girls, especially. 368 00:34:56,418 --> 00:34:59,362 The usual. Popular with girls. Or just popular. 369 00:35:00,418 --> 00:35:02,543 But he was always with his buddies. 370 00:35:02,543 --> 00:35:03,543 Really? 371 00:35:05,735 --> 00:35:07,935 I can't imagine him with buddies. 372 00:35:08,918 --> 00:35:11,651 At the farm, it was all work and no play. 373 00:35:13,085 --> 00:35:14,685 Nobody ever came by. 374 00:35:14,710 --> 00:35:17,110 Yes, he really helped your grandparents. 375 00:35:17,110 --> 00:35:18,230 You knew them? 376 00:35:18,835 --> 00:35:19,835 No. 377 00:35:20,168 --> 00:35:22,168 But he told me about the farm. 378 00:35:24,485 --> 00:35:26,218 You're his first friend... 379 00:35:28,260 --> 00:35:29,940 The first one I've met. 380 00:35:56,802 --> 00:35:57,922 Why come here? 381 00:35:58,710 --> 00:36:01,910 - You've been off school all week. - My Dad's sick. 382 00:36:02,418 --> 00:36:03,960 Seriously, you're nuts. 383 00:36:03,960 --> 00:36:05,640 Did I say you could come? 384 00:36:05,793 --> 00:36:08,168 Life here and with you are different things. 385 00:36:08,168 --> 00:36:09,448 Separate worlds. 386 00:36:10,085 --> 00:36:13,477 - Can't you have friends? - Not like you. Look at you. 387 00:36:15,152 --> 00:36:17,419 - What does that mean? - Nothing... 388 00:36:18,152 --> 00:36:19,885 - Just... - You're ashamed? 389 00:36:20,168 --> 00:36:21,288 Ashamed of me? 390 00:36:21,460 --> 00:36:22,460 No. 391 00:36:22,918 --> 00:36:24,935 If they see us, they'll wonder. 392 00:36:24,935 --> 00:36:27,268 - You know... - Wonder what? Say it! 393 00:36:30,193 --> 00:36:33,068 You started this. Why choose me? Why with me? 394 00:36:33,068 --> 00:36:34,428 I'm not with you! 395 00:36:36,585 --> 00:36:38,265 I told you all along. 396 00:36:39,210 --> 00:36:41,543 - Only you and me know. - Yes but... 397 00:37:10,227 --> 00:37:11,227 Go. 398 00:37:21,318 --> 00:37:23,851 I can't start without thanking Baussony 399 00:37:24,252 --> 00:37:27,580 and the elixir that made our town famous worldwide... 400 00:37:46,160 --> 00:37:47,360 Cognac, a town. 401 00:37:48,127 --> 00:37:49,567 Cognac, an elixir. 402 00:37:56,952 --> 00:37:58,472 To Lucas Andrieu... 403 00:38:20,493 --> 00:38:22,493 To the young man, I don't say, 404 00:38:23,543 --> 00:38:25,543 "You wouldn't be related to... 405 00:38:26,310 --> 00:38:27,350 Nor do I say, 406 00:38:27,527 --> 00:38:32,768 If you had any idea how close I was to a person with the same last name... 407 00:38:32,902 --> 00:38:36,614 I say, "Funny that. I was at school with a Thomas Andrieu." 408 00:38:36,835 --> 00:38:38,035 He shoots back, 409 00:38:38,293 --> 00:38:41,093 "He aren't 150 of them. Must be my father." 410 00:38:41,168 --> 00:38:44,240 He astonished his father never told him about me. 411 00:38:45,168 --> 00:38:48,535 I act indifferent, poker-faced. 412 00:38:49,543 --> 00:38:53,127 "Celebrity? Everything relative. I wasn't one back then." 413 00:38:53,585 --> 00:38:58,102 I was just a 17-year-old, hiding behind his glasses. 414 00:39:00,118 --> 00:39:02,851 A young man madly in love with his father. 415 00:39:03,668 --> 00:39:05,601 Who lived only for the moment 416 00:39:06,043 --> 00:39:07,910 when he'd be with him again. 417 00:39:07,927 --> 00:39:10,127 Of course, I don't tell him that. 418 00:39:10,193 --> 00:39:12,127 Actually, what may I say to him? 419 00:39:12,127 --> 00:39:15,263 How can I talk about him without talking about us? 420 00:39:16,010 --> 00:39:20,160 My bedroom had become our kingdom. 421 00:39:20,385 --> 00:39:21,385 Our nest. 422 00:39:22,527 --> 00:39:24,794 Where nobody ever could reach us." 423 00:40:55,243 --> 00:40:56,763 I think I love you. 424 00:40:57,627 --> 00:40:58,627 What? 425 00:41:01,693 --> 00:41:02,893 Ich liebe dich. 426 00:41:05,277 --> 00:41:06,957 Te quiero. Je t'aime. 427 00:41:07,193 --> 00:41:09,193 You don't say stuff like that. 428 00:41:10,360 --> 00:41:11,400 Sure, you do. 429 00:41:13,152 --> 00:41:15,885 If not, how do people know you love them? 430 00:41:16,277 --> 00:41:17,957 It's something you feel. 431 00:41:18,660 --> 00:41:20,180 Something you feel? 432 00:41:23,168 --> 00:41:24,768 I'm feeling nothing. 433 00:41:28,052 --> 00:41:29,652 Say it, just to see. 434 00:41:30,952 --> 00:41:31,952 - No. - Yes! 435 00:41:33,460 --> 00:41:34,927 - Say "I love you." - No way. 436 00:41:34,927 --> 00:41:36,607 You unromantic old fart. 437 00:41:36,685 --> 00:41:37,885 Say I love you. 438 00:41:39,752 --> 00:41:40,752 No way. 439 00:41:41,793 --> 00:41:43,473 Stéphane, are you home? 440 00:41:45,577 --> 00:41:46,937 - Stéphane? - Yes! 441 00:41:47,360 --> 00:41:50,568 I don't feel well. I asked to leave early. All good? 442 00:41:50,568 --> 00:41:51,943 I'm working. Be right there. 443 00:41:51,943 --> 00:41:54,843 Don't. I'm going to take a nap. See you later. 444 00:41:54,927 --> 00:41:55,927 Sleep well. 445 00:41:59,927 --> 00:42:01,635 What a fairy! Come on, out. 446 00:42:01,635 --> 00:42:02,915 Shit! You idiot. 447 00:42:05,118 --> 00:42:06,118 That hurt. 448 00:42:07,652 --> 00:42:08,652 Sorry. 449 00:42:09,235 --> 00:42:11,702 - You need help. - I can't get caught. 450 00:42:13,360 --> 00:42:14,360 So what? 451 00:42:16,010 --> 00:42:18,143 If it happens, it won't kill us. 452 00:42:19,043 --> 00:42:20,323 You don' get it. 453 00:42:21,085 --> 00:42:22,952 You got it easy. You're gay. 454 00:42:24,418 --> 00:42:26,485 All right, because you're what? 455 00:42:27,335 --> 00:42:29,668 Note the same. I can go with girls. 456 00:42:30,810 --> 00:42:33,010 I "can" too, but I don't want to. 457 00:42:33,210 --> 00:42:34,250 There you go. 458 00:42:34,710 --> 00:42:36,577 I wanted to, and will again. 459 00:42:41,260 --> 00:42:42,300 That's great. 460 00:42:43,918 --> 00:42:45,918 So if you're not gay, beat it. 461 00:42:46,043 --> 00:42:48,043 Beat it while my mom's asleep. 462 00:42:50,777 --> 00:42:52,577 Come out. It's not a coffin. 463 00:42:55,277 --> 00:42:56,717 You don't realize. 464 00:42:59,293 --> 00:43:01,760 You'll take off and I'll stay behind. 465 00:43:03,168 --> 00:43:04,901 No, you can leave as well. 466 00:43:05,935 --> 00:43:07,802 Impossible. I'm an only son. 467 00:43:09,918 --> 00:43:11,718 I work the farm or it dies. 468 00:43:13,602 --> 00:43:15,282 If you go, nobody dies. 469 00:43:17,002 --> 00:43:18,522 You'll be a writer. 470 00:43:19,168 --> 00:43:21,901 - You'll meet anyone who's... - Stop that. 471 00:43:24,210 --> 00:43:25,943 I don't know what I'll be. 472 00:43:27,585 --> 00:43:30,485 But staying's a death sentence. For you, too. 473 00:43:39,685 --> 00:43:41,618 We'll come up with something. 474 00:43:42,402 --> 00:43:43,402 Okay? 475 00:44:36,735 --> 00:44:37,735 At last! 476 00:44:38,293 --> 00:44:40,160 You all know Gaëlle Flamant. 477 00:44:40,252 --> 00:44:44,156 But allow me to introduce our great writer, Stéphane Belcourt. 478 00:44:44,793 --> 00:44:47,865 This is Mrs. Burdo, the Prefect, and her husband. 479 00:44:48,943 --> 00:44:53,043 Mr. and Mrs. Debauchies, regional director of tourism. 480 00:44:53,735 --> 00:44:56,518 And now your most fervent admirer, 481 00:44:56,618 --> 00:44:57,978 my wife Éléonore. 482 00:44:58,468 --> 00:44:59,585 A real pleasure. 483 00:44:59,585 --> 00:45:02,252 Mutual. I believe I'm here thanks to you. 484 00:45:02,427 --> 00:45:04,560 Above all, thanks to your books. 485 00:45:08,710 --> 00:45:12,477 That's right, our happy band of American importers. 486 00:45:12,877 --> 00:45:15,277 We've organized a mixology workshop. 487 00:45:16,027 --> 00:45:17,960 They're cocktail crazy there. 488 00:45:19,985 --> 00:45:22,785 - Let's go in for a drink. - With pleasure. 489 00:45:24,777 --> 00:45:26,710 Gaëlle, where's the bathroom? 490 00:45:26,793 --> 00:45:28,233 Just on the right. 491 00:46:01,493 --> 00:46:03,173 Mr. Belcourt, join us. 492 00:46:05,618 --> 00:46:07,685 - May I? - They're be delighted. 493 00:48:21,077 --> 00:48:22,757 What a jerk! A real jerk! 494 00:48:26,527 --> 00:48:27,527 May I? 495 00:48:28,368 --> 00:48:29,368 Be my guest. 496 00:48:33,035 --> 00:48:35,768 I hear you're hard at work on your speech. 497 00:48:35,985 --> 00:48:37,665 If you need re-reading... 498 00:48:38,693 --> 00:48:40,373 No, it's fine, thanks. 499 00:48:41,877 --> 00:48:44,885 I'll stick to tradition. You'll be very pleased. 500 00:48:45,127 --> 00:48:49,435 Tradition must be respected to make a good cognac, 501 00:48:49,585 --> 00:48:51,585 but life is a different story. 502 00:48:57,260 --> 00:48:58,940 I'll let you into secret. 503 00:48:59,210 --> 00:49:02,418 My daughter aimed to be a master-assembler, making fine cognac. 504 00:49:02,418 --> 00:49:05,052 I stopped her. By tradition it's a man's job. 505 00:49:05,052 --> 00:49:08,393 She moved to Australia after severing ties here 506 00:49:08,393 --> 00:49:09,393 and she makes whiskey. 507 00:49:10,127 --> 00:49:13,071 It's fair to say that tradition made me stupid. 508 00:49:13,710 --> 00:49:16,035 So for your speech, feel free. 509 00:49:16,235 --> 00:49:17,235 Let it out. 510 00:49:17,543 --> 00:49:18,543 Actually, 511 00:49:18,693 --> 00:49:20,360 make my wife cry again. 512 00:49:20,360 --> 00:49:22,040 You're very good at it. 513 00:49:26,927 --> 00:49:27,927 I'll try. 514 00:49:33,877 --> 00:49:36,277 Young blood! You know our dear Lucas? 515 00:49:36,293 --> 00:49:37,860 Yes, we met already. 516 00:49:37,860 --> 00:49:39,769 His future with us is bright. 517 00:49:39,793 --> 00:49:42,060 Without him, you wouldn't be here. 518 00:49:42,443 --> 00:49:43,443 Really? 519 00:49:43,943 --> 00:49:46,968 - It's not thanks to your wife? - She sealed the deal. 520 00:49:46,968 --> 00:49:50,296 But Mr. Andrieu first proposed you as guest of honor. 521 00:49:50,585 --> 00:49:52,452 He knows your work by heart. 522 00:49:53,193 --> 00:49:55,202 No, it wasn't exactly like that. 523 00:49:55,202 --> 00:49:56,722 Don't be so modest. 524 00:49:57,043 --> 00:49:58,910 Lucas was born to work here. 525 00:49:58,918 --> 00:50:02,360 His father was one of our winegrowers. His grandparents likewise. 526 00:50:02,360 --> 00:50:04,493 We really are a family business. 527 00:50:04,877 --> 00:50:06,610 All good with our friends? 528 00:50:07,685 --> 00:50:10,585 Yes, great. Actually, I must get back to them. 529 00:50:10,635 --> 00:50:12,835 Of course, I'll drop by. Let's go. 530 00:50:39,877 --> 00:50:40,877 Excuse me... 531 00:50:41,343 --> 00:50:43,543 - I'll be right back. - Of course. 532 00:51:04,652 --> 00:51:06,443 - Care to explain? - Not here. 533 00:51:06,443 --> 00:51:09,318 - Someplace else then. - I have to stay with them. 534 00:51:09,318 --> 00:51:12,394 - So let's stay. - I can't talk. I'm working here. 535 00:51:12,418 --> 00:51:15,318 You just have to smile. You never played that? 536 00:51:15,752 --> 00:51:19,208 Talking trash about bemused foreigners with a big smile. 537 00:51:19,710 --> 00:51:20,710 Smile! 538 00:51:21,777 --> 00:51:22,777 That's good. 539 00:51:23,102 --> 00:51:25,302 So what's the deal? What the heck? 540 00:51:25,585 --> 00:51:28,052 You said you barely started one book. 541 00:51:28,068 --> 00:51:30,401 That's Dejean, always exaggerating. 542 00:51:30,610 --> 00:51:34,343 Really? Same goes for the invitation being your idea? 543 00:51:34,543 --> 00:51:37,143 You might have said. I get a sense of... 544 00:51:37,502 --> 00:51:40,402 deception or even lies. Or am I getting ideas? 545 00:51:42,652 --> 00:51:44,332 Smile. They're looking. 546 00:51:44,818 --> 00:51:46,418 Cat got your tongue? 547 00:51:47,627 --> 00:51:50,360 Turns out, you're as stubborn as your dad. 548 00:51:51,168 --> 00:51:53,235 Other surprises up your sleeve? 549 00:51:53,460 --> 00:51:55,140 He is dead, at least? 550 00:51:55,777 --> 00:51:57,137 What did you say? 551 00:51:57,168 --> 00:51:58,528 What did you say? 552 00:51:59,277 --> 00:52:00,637 I didn't mean it. 553 00:52:03,110 --> 00:52:04,110 I'm sorry. 554 00:52:09,327 --> 00:52:10,327 Sorry. 555 00:52:21,077 --> 00:52:22,077 Wait! 556 00:52:22,660 --> 00:52:23,660 Stop! 557 00:52:23,918 --> 00:52:24,958 Stop, please! 558 00:52:28,335 --> 00:52:29,695 You want to know? 559 00:52:31,043 --> 00:52:34,068 I was always struck by my parents' wedding photo. 560 00:52:34,068 --> 00:52:35,748 My father's expression. 561 00:52:36,335 --> 00:52:38,343 Wondering what he's doing there. 562 00:52:38,343 --> 00:52:41,287 He only ever brightened up when you were on TV. 563 00:52:42,960 --> 00:52:46,480 He said you were a school friend. He had all your books. 564 00:52:47,585 --> 00:52:50,452 You on TV, we had to shut up. It was sacred. 565 00:52:50,793 --> 00:52:52,335 My mother didn't watch. 566 00:52:52,335 --> 00:52:55,202 Books didn't interest her. Dad's earlier life even less. 567 00:52:55,202 --> 00:52:56,202 I stayed. 568 00:52:56,710 --> 00:52:59,110 Watching dad watch you with a smile. 569 00:52:59,835 --> 00:53:02,035 I wondered what you meant to him. 570 00:53:02,418 --> 00:53:05,218 And how come only you could make him smile. 571 00:53:07,168 --> 00:53:08,768 What was he for you? 572 00:53:10,627 --> 00:53:12,494 - What did he say? - Nothing! 573 00:53:12,710 --> 00:53:15,918 My dad never talked but I need to understand. 574 00:53:16,585 --> 00:53:18,935 Your thing ruined our lives. 575 00:53:19,752 --> 00:53:21,352 He walked out on us. 576 00:53:21,443 --> 00:53:22,803 What? We were 17. 577 00:53:23,252 --> 00:53:26,593 I never saw him again. His walking out isn't my doing. 578 00:53:26,593 --> 00:53:30,433 I'm sure he went looking for you. That's what I need to hear. 579 00:53:30,585 --> 00:53:32,265 Whether it was worth it. 580 00:53:32,685 --> 00:53:35,160 It's nuts. I last saw your dad 35 years ago. 581 00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:38,104 You rock up, load all this onto me. Just think! 582 00:53:38,127 --> 00:53:40,460 - Was it worth it? - No, it was not. 583 00:53:40,477 --> 00:53:42,877 Be sure of that. It was not worth it! 584 00:53:47,052 --> 00:53:48,735 Why write so much about it? 585 00:53:48,735 --> 00:53:49,735 What? 586 00:53:49,768 --> 00:53:53,672 In And Finally Farewell, you're writing to a man who left you. 587 00:53:53,818 --> 00:53:56,535 A woman's writing! My heroine. I make things up. 588 00:53:56,535 --> 00:53:58,518 - Back to the hotel? - Wait here while I... 589 00:53:58,518 --> 00:53:59,860 I'll wait outside. 590 00:53:59,860 --> 00:54:04,340 The Protagonist of Thomas Spencer. In His Brother, it's Thomas Andrieu! 591 00:54:04,527 --> 00:54:06,027 Who are you kidding? 592 00:54:06,027 --> 00:54:07,827 Why won't you talk, dammit? 593 00:54:08,860 --> 00:54:12,993 You father dumped me, same as you. Not a word, no explanation. 594 00:54:13,168 --> 00:54:16,318 It's the past now. I suffered enough, so leave me alone! 595 00:54:16,318 --> 00:54:17,998 Mr. Belcourt, a problem? 596 00:54:18,093 --> 00:54:20,860 I was a long day. I need rest for my speech. 597 00:54:20,860 --> 00:54:24,027 - You can't just go. - Tell the Prefect I felt unwell. 598 00:54:24,027 --> 00:54:25,802 - I'll come too. - Don't bother! 599 00:54:25,802 --> 00:54:26,802 I insist. 600 00:54:27,002 --> 00:54:28,935 - Lucas? - I have to email LA. 601 00:54:28,985 --> 00:54:30,425 Thierry, let's go. 602 00:54:42,527 --> 00:54:46,559 Mr. Dejean was worried about your speech. I said you were on it. 603 00:54:48,377 --> 00:54:51,244 He mentioned it and didn't seem too worried. 604 00:54:51,293 --> 00:54:52,293 All right. 605 00:54:53,335 --> 00:54:56,202 - The main thing is you're happy. - I'm not. 606 00:54:57,960 --> 00:54:59,502 I suffered a lot here. 607 00:54:59,502 --> 00:55:02,446 A small town when you don't fit in, just think. 608 00:55:04,168 --> 00:55:07,368 The short story was a miracle already, so a speech? 609 00:55:07,568 --> 00:55:10,452 Why come back if you suffered so much? 610 00:55:11,752 --> 00:55:16,085 As least your suffering has paid well. Others weren't so lucky. 611 00:55:16,568 --> 00:55:18,088 What? What's wrong? 612 00:55:18,668 --> 00:55:22,418 Mr Belcourt slings mud at our town when he should be grateful. 613 00:55:22,418 --> 00:55:24,098 It's his only subject. 614 00:55:25,168 --> 00:55:28,152 It's getting old. Could be time to change record. 615 00:55:28,152 --> 00:55:29,593 Lucas, that's enough. 616 00:55:29,593 --> 00:55:32,827 No, I listen to my readers. It's very instructive. 617 00:55:32,927 --> 00:55:35,068 Mr. Andrieu knows my work by heart. 618 00:55:35,068 --> 00:55:36,668 So it's repetitive, is it? 619 00:55:36,668 --> 00:55:39,218 Yes, lately, you're going round in circles. 620 00:55:39,218 --> 00:55:42,402 - As you know. Two years without a book. - The short story! 621 00:55:42,402 --> 00:55:44,135 True. We lucked out there. 622 00:55:44,710 --> 00:55:46,510 Not brooding works for you. 623 00:55:46,585 --> 00:55:48,860 - Lying works for me. - So keep it up. 624 00:55:48,860 --> 00:55:49,860 Stop! 625 00:55:50,918 --> 00:55:55,142 I've no idea what's going on, but it's awkward, so let's calm down. 626 00:55:56,193 --> 00:55:58,993 And we stay focused on tomorrow's ceremony. 627 00:56:00,943 --> 00:56:04,143 I'm sorry, Mr. Belcourt, and I apologize for Lucas. 628 00:56:04,585 --> 00:56:07,529 Whatever came over you, we'll discuss it later. 629 00:56:13,510 --> 00:56:16,454 Silence, I said. And stop taking me for a fool. 630 00:56:38,552 --> 00:56:40,232 What's going on? Tell me. 631 00:56:43,527 --> 00:56:44,527 It's fine. 632 00:56:45,985 --> 00:56:47,585 I'll tell you later. 633 00:58:02,752 --> 00:58:03,752 Congrats. 634 00:58:07,335 --> 00:58:08,335 You too. 635 00:58:10,860 --> 00:58:12,220 See you tomorrow? 636 00:58:14,818 --> 00:58:16,551 Can't. I'm going to Spain. 637 00:58:22,202 --> 00:58:25,658 Every year, I help my uncle's family out on their farm. 638 00:58:27,318 --> 00:58:28,358 How long for? 639 00:58:29,027 --> 00:58:30,027 All July. 640 00:58:33,052 --> 00:58:34,052 Can we call? 641 00:58:34,818 --> 00:58:35,818 Not really. 642 00:58:36,918 --> 00:58:38,651 Anyway, I'm in the fields. 643 00:58:38,943 --> 00:58:40,623 You can't write either. 644 00:58:42,710 --> 00:58:43,910 But I'll write. 645 00:58:46,485 --> 00:58:48,085 When will I see you? 646 00:58:48,193 --> 00:58:49,873 I get back early August. 647 00:58:50,252 --> 00:58:52,852 I'm away with my parents, back the 18th. 648 00:58:52,860 --> 00:58:54,540 See? You'll make me wait. 649 00:58:57,918 --> 00:58:58,958 Here, look... 650 00:58:59,377 --> 00:59:01,510 Let's meet on the 18th at 18:00. 651 00:59:02,168 --> 00:59:03,528 Easy to remember. 652 00:59:03,985 --> 00:59:06,118 At the pool like the first time. 653 00:59:09,677 --> 00:59:13,197 My parents gave me a camera for my finals. Wanna try it? 654 00:59:13,443 --> 00:59:16,110 Then gave you a gift before the results? 655 00:59:16,960 --> 00:59:18,480 They had no doubts. 656 00:59:21,577 --> 00:59:23,577 I'll get my bike and let's go. 657 01:00:45,160 --> 01:00:47,760 Get some sleep. Tomorrow's your big day. 658 01:00:49,293 --> 01:00:53,552 I barely ate earlier. Any idea where I can find something? 659 01:00:54,043 --> 01:00:55,723 It's a small town here. 660 01:01:00,252 --> 01:01:02,652 Luckily for you, I can pull strings. 661 01:01:04,952 --> 01:01:06,952 And you, don't you ever sleep? 662 01:01:07,210 --> 01:01:08,943 We shuttled everyone back. 663 01:01:09,835 --> 01:01:12,702 I was taking five. I live around the corner. 664 01:01:13,543 --> 01:01:16,093 So we have chips and raisins. 665 01:01:16,527 --> 01:01:17,527 Or almonds. 666 01:01:18,110 --> 01:01:19,630 A feast! Thank you. 667 01:01:25,118 --> 01:01:28,618 I love it when everybody's asleep and all is calm. 668 01:01:28,960 --> 01:01:30,640 Thanks, I don't drink. 669 01:01:31,318 --> 01:01:33,735 - You're not fun, are you? - How come? 670 01:01:33,735 --> 01:01:35,255 You're just no fun. 671 01:01:35,443 --> 01:01:37,043 I can be very funny. 672 01:01:37,068 --> 01:01:38,188 - Sure? - Sure! 673 01:01:38,377 --> 01:01:39,977 For example, if I... 674 01:01:41,085 --> 01:01:42,085 If I... 675 01:01:43,785 --> 01:01:44,985 Yes, hold on... 676 01:01:47,652 --> 01:01:49,092 Now, that's funny. 677 01:01:55,710 --> 01:01:57,977 I wanted to apologize for earlier. 678 01:01:58,818 --> 01:01:59,818 What for? 679 01:01:59,993 --> 01:02:02,726 What I said about small towns was unfair. 680 01:02:03,710 --> 01:02:04,750 You're right. 681 01:02:05,152 --> 01:02:08,480 Life in a small town is harder when you don't fit in. 682 01:02:09,252 --> 01:02:10,372 I should know. 683 01:02:12,360 --> 01:02:14,360 I got out at the first chance. 684 01:02:14,418 --> 01:02:17,874 And I soon came back because this is where I feel best. 685 01:02:18,127 --> 01:02:20,194 But I made a promise to myself. 686 01:02:20,543 --> 01:02:23,276 To live life my way and love who I wanted. 687 01:02:23,693 --> 01:02:25,626 It cost me part of my family. 688 01:02:26,002 --> 01:02:27,042 Some friends. 689 01:02:28,002 --> 01:02:29,442 But I made others. 690 01:02:31,002 --> 01:02:33,069 Staying doesn't mean caving in. 691 01:02:36,918 --> 01:02:38,598 To those who stay then. 692 01:02:53,202 --> 01:02:56,530 Why accept our invitation if coming back was so hard? 693 01:03:00,018 --> 01:03:01,951 When I received it, it was... 694 01:03:02,585 --> 01:03:03,585 a year ago? 695 01:03:04,793 --> 01:03:05,793 My life was 696 01:03:06,427 --> 01:03:07,467 in the dumps. 697 01:03:08,460 --> 01:03:10,393 I'd just broken up yet again. 698 01:03:11,377 --> 01:03:13,377 My fault as usual, apparently. 699 01:03:14,252 --> 01:03:17,772 "A wonderful writer about love who's incapable of love." 700 01:03:17,843 --> 01:03:19,868 My ex's last words. 701 01:03:21,018 --> 01:03:22,677 My writing tanked, too. 702 01:03:22,677 --> 01:03:26,389 I'd forgotten why I was a writer, if I ever knew. Anyway... 703 01:03:26,527 --> 01:03:28,927 The invitation came and I thought... 704 01:03:29,102 --> 01:03:31,769 May be it's time to call up some ghosts. 705 01:03:32,252 --> 01:03:37,043 Then the year flew by and I arrived totally unprepared. 706 01:03:41,218 --> 01:03:43,160 You already knew Lucas? 707 01:03:43,760 --> 01:03:44,760 No. 708 01:03:45,668 --> 01:03:47,348 I'd no idea he existed. 709 01:03:50,585 --> 01:03:51,585 But... 710 01:03:54,152 --> 01:03:55,832 I knew his father well. 711 01:03:59,043 --> 01:04:00,043 We were 17. 712 01:04:04,618 --> 01:04:06,058 He was your ghost. 713 01:04:09,360 --> 01:04:11,040 He was my first love. 714 01:04:16,327 --> 01:04:17,687 Did you know him? 715 01:04:17,793 --> 01:04:18,793 No. 716 01:04:20,210 --> 01:04:24,268 When Lucas started with us, they'd lost touch long ago. 717 01:04:24,918 --> 01:04:26,651 But I went to his funeral. 718 01:04:26,677 --> 01:04:28,952 - Really? - Yes. Lucas began with me. 719 01:04:28,952 --> 01:04:31,018 He's kind of my protégé. 720 01:04:32,943 --> 01:04:36,202 But I'd never been to such a morose funeral. 721 01:04:36,402 --> 01:04:38,082 There was no one there. 722 01:04:38,668 --> 01:04:40,348 No friends, no coworkers. 723 01:04:40,543 --> 01:04:42,610 Just Lucas and his grandmother. 724 01:04:43,793 --> 01:04:47,185 He took care of everything. Paperwork, the cemetery... 725 01:04:47,777 --> 01:04:48,777 Everything. 726 01:04:50,085 --> 01:04:51,343 Where's he buried? 727 01:04:51,343 --> 01:04:53,023 Their village. Javrezac. 728 01:04:55,652 --> 01:04:58,168 The toughest part is his father left nothing. 729 01:04:58,168 --> 01:04:59,901 No letter, no explanation. 730 01:05:02,443 --> 01:05:04,576 If you do that, you love a note. 731 01:05:10,960 --> 01:05:12,240 You didn't know? 732 01:05:16,993 --> 01:05:17,993 I'm sorry. 733 01:05:24,668 --> 01:05:26,028 How did he do it? 734 01:05:26,568 --> 01:05:28,248 Hanged himself at home. 735 01:05:32,885 --> 01:05:33,925 Are you okay? 736 01:05:38,352 --> 01:05:39,352 Stéphane? 737 01:08:08,535 --> 01:08:09,735 Morning, Lucas. 738 01:08:10,402 --> 01:08:11,602 Can I sit down? 739 01:08:13,110 --> 01:08:14,843 Go ahead, I'm nearly done. 740 01:08:24,835 --> 01:08:26,902 Gaëlle told me about your father. 741 01:08:26,902 --> 01:08:28,422 She thought I knew. 742 01:08:30,510 --> 01:08:32,627 Yes, she said. It's okay. 743 01:08:34,360 --> 01:08:35,360 I'm sorry. 744 01:08:39,168 --> 01:08:41,301 He really left zero explanation? 745 01:08:44,152 --> 01:08:45,952 Is it any of your business? 746 01:08:49,368 --> 01:08:52,268 You couldn't talk about him and now I have to? 747 01:08:59,210 --> 01:09:00,210 Know what? 748 01:09:00,702 --> 01:09:01,902 You were right. 749 01:09:04,360 --> 01:09:05,480 It's the past. 750 01:09:07,502 --> 01:09:10,169 Your dad was a miracle. He wasn't for me. 751 01:09:12,927 --> 01:09:14,660 He was made for the girls. 752 01:09:15,693 --> 01:09:17,826 In the schoolyard, he stood out. 753 01:09:18,777 --> 01:09:21,913 I noticed him right away but I'd never have dared. 754 01:09:22,777 --> 01:09:24,057 Then, one day... 755 01:09:25,027 --> 01:09:26,707 He came over to me and... 756 01:09:27,985 --> 01:09:29,665 I still can't believe it. 757 01:09:31,335 --> 01:09:34,202 I could tell no one. That was the condition. 758 01:09:36,502 --> 01:09:38,182 We'd go up to my bedroom. 759 01:09:39,793 --> 01:09:41,473 It became our kingdom. 760 01:09:42,585 --> 01:09:43,585 We talked. 761 01:09:44,835 --> 01:09:45,875 We made love. 762 01:09:47,443 --> 01:09:49,576 I thought it would last forever. 763 01:09:50,585 --> 01:09:53,318 Then he went to Spain and never came back. 764 01:10:05,260 --> 01:10:07,527 I always wondered why he chose me. 765 01:10:08,693 --> 01:10:10,053 If he'd loved me. 766 01:10:11,193 --> 01:10:12,873 Just a little bit even. 767 01:10:14,443 --> 01:10:16,443 All he left me were questions. 768 01:10:17,652 --> 01:10:19,985 But I loved your father like crazy. 769 01:10:52,568 --> 01:10:53,608 Good evening, 770 01:10:54,127 --> 01:10:56,502 may I speak to Thomas, please? 771 01:10:56,668 --> 01:10:59,018 He's not here. Who's calling? 772 01:11:00,002 --> 01:11:01,002 Vincent. 773 01:11:01,110 --> 01:11:02,110 A classmate. 774 01:11:03,652 --> 01:11:04,652 Yes. 775 01:11:04,877 --> 01:11:06,527 When will he be back? 776 01:11:06,527 --> 01:11:08,860 I don't know. He lives in Spain now. 777 01:11:10,793 --> 01:11:11,793 How come? 778 01:11:11,918 --> 01:11:14,318 He stayed on to work with his uncle. 779 01:11:15,393 --> 01:11:17,660 Can I give him a message? 780 01:11:21,427 --> 01:11:22,427 Hello? 781 01:11:28,518 --> 01:11:30,198 From Stéphane to Thomas 782 01:12:13,777 --> 01:12:17,873 Stéphane's not answering his phone. It's for the press interview. 783 01:12:18,127 --> 01:12:19,994 - He's not in his room? - No. 784 01:12:23,418 --> 01:12:24,418 Yes? 785 01:12:26,302 --> 01:12:27,302 Where? 786 01:12:28,460 --> 01:12:31,327 Now you tell me. I've been looking all over. 787 01:12:32,668 --> 01:12:34,348 All right. Thank you. 788 01:12:36,418 --> 01:12:39,151 He asked Thierry to take him to Javrezac. 789 01:13:14,602 --> 01:13:17,202 There you are. We were looking all over. 790 01:13:17,502 --> 01:13:20,402 - Did I miss something? - Local TV and press. 791 01:13:20,552 --> 01:13:22,568 Shoot! I should get back. 792 01:13:22,668 --> 01:13:23,668 Too late. 793 01:13:23,918 --> 01:13:25,568 They'll be there tonight. 794 01:13:25,568 --> 01:13:26,568 Great. 795 01:13:32,885 --> 01:13:35,152 I never expected to see him again. 796 01:13:35,260 --> 01:13:36,993 Specially here, like this. 797 01:13:39,585 --> 01:13:41,265 He never let me visit. 798 01:13:45,985 --> 01:13:48,318 The time I tried, I'll never forget. 799 01:13:50,377 --> 01:13:52,718 I never saw his farm or his parents. 800 01:13:52,718 --> 01:13:54,238 Never saw his room. 801 01:13:56,293 --> 01:13:58,693 I knew nothing of his life, in fact. 802 01:14:02,860 --> 01:14:03,900 Before you... 803 01:14:05,777 --> 01:14:07,577 I knew nothing of his life. 804 01:14:14,918 --> 01:14:16,598 Tell me what happened? 805 01:14:22,243 --> 01:14:24,376 He never let me read your books. 806 01:14:24,710 --> 01:14:26,443 Said they were for adults. 807 01:14:28,002 --> 01:14:32,110 Sure enough, as a freshman in Bordeaux, I went into the first bookstore, 808 01:14:32,110 --> 01:14:33,790 and bought all they had. 809 01:14:35,168 --> 01:14:36,448 That's when I... 810 01:14:37,543 --> 01:14:41,193 When his first name kept cropping up, or even his full name, 811 01:14:41,193 --> 01:14:43,260 the idea took shape in my mind. 812 01:14:44,652 --> 01:14:46,252 I knew you were gay. 813 01:14:46,402 --> 01:14:48,469 You never hid it in interviews. 814 01:14:49,102 --> 01:14:52,238 One week-end, when he was alone in his workshop... 815 01:14:53,560 --> 01:14:55,827 I told him I'd read all your books 816 01:14:56,585 --> 01:14:58,452 and his name kept recurring. 817 01:14:59,168 --> 01:15:00,848 He just brushed it off, 818 01:15:01,310 --> 01:15:03,243 kept doing what he was doing. 819 01:15:04,585 --> 01:15:06,385 I asked him if he knew why. 820 01:15:08,210 --> 01:15:09,943 And what you meant to him. 821 01:15:11,610 --> 01:15:14,682 He looked up, and you should have seen that look. 822 01:15:16,293 --> 01:15:18,560 That's when I Knew it had existed. 823 01:15:19,777 --> 01:15:21,710 My father in love with a boy. 824 01:15:27,060 --> 01:15:32,180 Next week-end in the kitchen, he told us he was leaving, and not to look for him. 825 01:15:32,485 --> 01:15:35,235 My mother begged, my grandfather threatened, 826 01:15:35,235 --> 01:15:37,818 but nothing doing. He had it all organized. 827 01:15:37,818 --> 01:15:39,777 He gave up the farm, everything. 828 01:15:39,777 --> 01:15:43,527 He told me I was a grown-up and didn't need him anymore. 829 01:15:44,227 --> 01:15:47,243 He took a bag and his motorbike, and he left. 830 01:15:52,568 --> 01:15:54,568 He didn't come looking for me. 831 01:15:55,002 --> 01:15:56,682 Yes, I know that now. 832 01:16:52,402 --> 01:16:53,402 Coming? 833 01:16:56,602 --> 01:16:57,882 It's me, Granny. 834 01:16:59,277 --> 01:17:00,957 Granny, are you home? 835 01:17:03,835 --> 01:17:05,702 Hello, sweetie, how are you? 836 01:17:06,543 --> 01:17:07,983 I'm good, and you? 837 01:17:08,168 --> 01:17:10,368 Fine, thanks. This is a surprise. 838 01:17:10,568 --> 01:17:12,968 Sure, I'm showing a friend around... 839 01:17:13,043 --> 01:17:15,043 - How about that? - This is Stéphane. 840 01:17:15,043 --> 01:17:17,310 - Ma'am. - Hello. Nice to meet you. 841 01:17:17,835 --> 01:17:19,394 You work with Lucas? 842 01:17:19,418 --> 01:17:21,098 Non, he lives in Paris. 843 01:17:21,552 --> 01:17:23,502 He's here for the bicentenary. 844 01:17:23,502 --> 01:17:26,510 Take a seat. Can you get you anything? A pineau? 845 01:17:26,843 --> 01:17:27,963 With pleasure. 846 01:17:29,585 --> 01:17:33,202 Well, in this case, I'll fetch the bottle. 847 01:17:36,252 --> 01:17:39,685 - How are things in the US? - All good still. 848 01:17:39,785 --> 01:17:42,227 - That's great. - I'm happy there, you know. 849 01:17:42,227 --> 01:17:43,907 That's the main thing. 850 01:17:45,443 --> 01:17:47,343 With my little Americans. 851 01:17:47,543 --> 01:17:50,487 They're here visiting. I'm showing them around. 852 01:17:50,502 --> 01:17:52,860 - Great, thanks. - I'm looking after them. 853 01:17:52,860 --> 01:17:54,727 So they're depending on you. 854 01:17:54,960 --> 01:17:56,793 - They're depending on me. - Good. 855 01:17:56,793 --> 01:17:59,785 - You went to choir the week? - Of course. 856 01:18:00,285 --> 01:18:02,485 What did you sing this Wednesday? 857 01:18:02,543 --> 01:18:04,223 Le Temps des Cerises. 858 01:18:05,360 --> 01:18:07,627 - Did you enjoy it? - Yes, you bet. 859 01:18:08,277 --> 01:18:12,885 - You were with Bernadette and Michèle? - Sébastien played La Java Bleue. 860 01:18:13,960 --> 01:18:16,160 - Yes, it's another one. - I know. 861 01:18:16,385 --> 01:18:18,943 But our Michèle was sick. 862 01:18:19,127 --> 01:18:20,807 She couldn't come so... 863 01:18:21,460 --> 01:18:24,060 We miss her because she's our conductor. 864 01:18:24,235 --> 01:18:25,260 Nothing serious? 865 01:18:25,260 --> 01:18:28,302 No, exhaustion. It happens, doesn't it? 866 01:18:28,502 --> 01:18:31,793 - She'll be back? - I hope so... 867 01:19:08,268 --> 01:19:10,601 After he died, I cleared his house. 868 01:19:10,960 --> 01:19:12,160 And found this. 869 01:19:16,552 --> 01:19:19,085 I always wondered if he's received it. 870 01:19:24,843 --> 01:19:27,243 We took it after our finals results. 871 01:19:34,110 --> 01:19:36,843 Your father hated having his photo taken. 872 01:19:40,610 --> 01:19:42,477 But for one he didn't argue. 873 01:19:44,168 --> 01:19:47,176 Perhaps he knew we'd never see each other again. 874 01:19:51,252 --> 01:19:52,372 I didn't know. 875 01:20:00,927 --> 01:20:03,318 On his computer, I found lots of emails. 876 01:20:03,318 --> 01:20:04,758 From the same man. 877 01:20:05,860 --> 01:20:07,540 His lover, apparently. 878 01:20:07,943 --> 01:20:10,210 In fact, my father moved to Brest. 879 01:20:10,793 --> 01:20:12,473 They met there and... 880 01:20:12,835 --> 01:20:14,568 had a secret relationship. 881 01:20:16,252 --> 01:20:18,785 But this guy couldn't take it anymore. 882 01:20:19,810 --> 01:20:21,810 He wanted to love in the open. 883 01:20:24,335 --> 01:20:26,468 His last email was an ultimatum. 884 01:20:29,627 --> 01:20:30,987 Three days later, 885 01:20:31,152 --> 01:20:33,819 my father was found hanged in his garage. 886 01:20:37,427 --> 01:20:39,107 Know what hurts the most? 887 01:20:39,960 --> 01:20:42,427 Not my father loving men. Seriously... 888 01:20:44,652 --> 01:20:47,635 No, it's him hiding it his whole life. 889 01:20:49,793 --> 01:20:51,660 He never overcame his shame. 890 01:20:56,252 --> 01:20:57,532 What hurts is... 891 01:20:58,652 --> 01:21:00,585 He was a coward till the end. 892 01:21:07,935 --> 01:21:09,615 This was in this study. 893 01:21:12,077 --> 01:21:15,213 It was blank, so I thought it was his last wishes. 894 01:21:15,568 --> 01:21:16,568 But no. 895 01:21:17,252 --> 01:21:19,119 It's a letter he never sent. 896 01:21:21,710 --> 01:21:23,070 Dated August '84. 897 01:21:28,885 --> 01:21:30,752 I think it has your answers. 898 01:21:35,843 --> 01:21:37,776 I'll be outside, ready to go. 899 01:23:11,293 --> 01:23:13,026 Stéphane, Lucas, let's go. 900 01:23:13,485 --> 01:23:15,085 Quick, it's started. 901 01:23:15,627 --> 01:23:18,763 - You can change there. - It's fine. Give me that. 902 01:23:29,952 --> 01:23:33,977 We're here to celebrate this elixir of fraternity 903 01:23:34,177 --> 01:23:35,535 of conviviality 904 01:23:35,635 --> 01:23:38,643 and of warmth that brings us together. 905 01:23:38,843 --> 01:23:41,576 And to celebrate the excellence of the art 906 01:23:41,843 --> 01:23:43,693 that constitutes this elixir. 907 01:23:43,693 --> 01:23:46,960 "Time, suspend thy flight, and at auspicious hours..." 908 01:23:46,960 --> 01:23:48,640 You know how it goes. 909 01:23:48,652 --> 01:23:53,018 But it is with great pride that I invite to join me 910 01:23:53,127 --> 01:23:56,647 the man who uniquely captured the nobility of our region, 911 01:23:56,902 --> 01:23:58,502 its past and values, 912 01:23:58,502 --> 01:24:00,182 Mr. Stéphane Belcourt! 913 01:24:11,902 --> 01:24:12,942 Good evening. 914 01:24:14,793 --> 01:24:18,560 Naturally, I cannot begin without thanking Baussony 915 01:24:18,660 --> 01:24:22,785 and son elixir that made our town famous worldwide. 916 01:24:23,377 --> 01:24:26,377 I say "our town" since I grew up here. 917 01:24:35,543 --> 01:24:37,223 Writing this short story, 918 01:24:38,268 --> 01:24:41,404 I wanted to give pride of place to certain values. 919 01:24:41,502 --> 01:24:45,086 Know-how that Baussony has preserved for 200 years and... 920 01:24:47,277 --> 01:24:49,210 the preservation of know-how. 921 01:24:50,610 --> 01:24:53,152 For know-how is... 922 01:24:53,343 --> 01:24:54,343 It's also... 923 01:25:02,452 --> 01:25:05,702 Actually, I'm very happy to be back. 924 01:25:05,902 --> 01:25:08,468 I often delayed it, but I don't regret it. 925 01:25:08,468 --> 01:25:10,148 It was full of surprises. 926 01:25:10,668 --> 01:25:11,668 Yes. 927 01:25:12,860 --> 01:25:14,540 25 years writing books. 928 01:25:15,543 --> 01:25:18,935 So many characters, places and scenes I've dreamed up. 929 01:25:19,377 --> 01:25:22,705 As a boy, I'd watch people and invent lives for them. 930 01:25:23,277 --> 01:25:25,410 It worried my mother, who'd say, 931 01:25:25,502 --> 01:25:27,182 "Stop with the lies." 932 01:25:27,877 --> 01:25:30,868 She meant, "Stop telling stories." 933 01:25:31,518 --> 01:25:32,878 It stuck with me. 934 01:25:34,835 --> 01:25:35,835 But... 935 01:25:35,943 --> 01:25:39,935 Behind the lies you tell, there is always some truth. 936 01:25:41,210 --> 01:25:42,330 Our own truth. 937 01:25:43,002 --> 01:25:44,682 The one we keep hidden. 938 01:25:47,360 --> 01:25:48,400 Personally... 939 01:25:49,477 --> 01:25:51,944 I kept hidden the existence of a boy. 940 01:25:52,460 --> 01:25:53,935 We met here. 941 01:25:55,043 --> 01:25:56,043 We were 17. 942 01:25:58,068 --> 01:26:01,318 He was the first one to look at me. 943 01:26:01,918 --> 01:26:03,718 To give me self-confidence. 944 01:26:04,543 --> 01:26:07,460 To know before me that I'd be a writer. 945 01:26:09,668 --> 01:26:12,060 And then life separated us. 946 01:26:13,210 --> 01:26:16,052 Until this week-end when I learned he ended his life 947 01:26:16,052 --> 01:26:18,652 because he could not overcome his shame 948 01:26:19,110 --> 01:26:20,470 about loving men. 949 01:26:22,277 --> 01:26:23,957 It was son who told me. 950 01:26:24,902 --> 01:26:25,902 Yes... 951 01:26:26,735 --> 01:26:27,775 He had a son. 952 01:26:28,835 --> 01:26:30,515 He had a "normal" life. 953 01:26:31,293 --> 01:26:32,733 Or tried at least. 954 01:26:34,043 --> 01:26:35,643 Like so many others. 955 01:26:36,860 --> 01:26:39,868 I've known men who have hidden their whole lives 956 01:26:40,227 --> 01:26:43,877 because telling their truth seemed insurmountable. 957 01:26:44,077 --> 01:26:46,277 Because they were simply ashamed. 958 01:26:46,627 --> 01:26:50,083 After always being told it's wrong, unnatural, deviant, 959 01:26:51,127 --> 01:26:52,927 they wound up believing it. 960 01:26:54,902 --> 01:26:55,902 Thomas... 961 01:26:56,585 --> 01:26:58,185 His name was Thomas. 962 01:26:58,668 --> 01:27:00,348 was one of those men. 963 01:27:02,210 --> 01:27:04,577 Even if he spent his life lying, 964 01:27:05,477 --> 01:27:08,997 I cannot help thinking it's not what he wanted in death. 965 01:27:09,260 --> 01:27:10,260 It's true. 966 01:27:11,043 --> 01:27:14,252 He could have erased any trace of his story, but no! 967 01:27:14,252 --> 01:27:16,452 He left letters, emails, a photo. 968 01:27:16,585 --> 01:27:20,235 So the finder would learn the truth. His truth. 969 01:27:20,435 --> 01:27:22,435 He knew that would be his son. 970 01:27:25,418 --> 01:27:27,098 Sure, he did it his way. 971 01:27:27,627 --> 01:27:28,747 Like a puzzle. 972 01:27:30,210 --> 01:27:33,077 But he knew his son would piece it together. 973 01:27:34,152 --> 01:27:36,110 It's easy to criticize him 974 01:27:36,310 --> 01:27:38,777 but he never doubted his child. 975 01:27:38,877 --> 01:27:40,435 No, never. 976 01:27:45,493 --> 01:27:46,933 Through his death, 977 01:27:47,185 --> 01:27:48,865 he overcame his shame 978 01:27:49,043 --> 01:27:51,710 and found the strength to tell his son... 979 01:27:52,460 --> 01:27:53,980 "This is who I am." 980 01:27:55,777 --> 01:27:57,844 Like finally being able to say, 981 01:27:59,127 --> 01:28:00,127 I love you. 982 01:28:12,185 --> 01:28:13,185 It's crazy 983 01:28:13,295 --> 01:28:16,103 to have spent all these years inventing stories, 984 01:28:16,127 --> 01:28:18,127 while denying the whole point. 985 01:28:18,127 --> 01:28:20,385 You always write to someone. 986 01:28:21,277 --> 01:28:24,797 You write because they're far away, because you've gone, 987 01:28:24,960 --> 01:28:28,288 because you've fled, and space and time separate you. 988 01:28:28,768 --> 01:28:30,368 You write to someone 989 01:28:30,577 --> 01:28:32,710 to give back what they gave you. 990 01:28:33,668 --> 01:28:36,001 The warmth of the day on your skin. 991 01:28:37,543 --> 01:28:40,743 The thrill of having a body and feeling it vibrate. 992 01:28:41,210 --> 01:28:44,827 The joy of feeling that you exist at least, 993 01:28:45,027 --> 01:28:46,707 when they look at you. 994 01:28:47,643 --> 01:28:49,910 You write to someone so they know. 995 01:28:51,227 --> 01:28:54,068 You write to someone to make them present again. 996 01:28:54,068 --> 01:28:56,385 Present for us as well as themselves. 997 01:28:56,385 --> 01:28:57,745 Present for life. 998 01:28:58,627 --> 01:29:00,694 Even if it doesn't always work. 999 01:29:00,877 --> 01:29:01,877 But at least 1000 01:29:02,543 --> 01:29:04,010 you must try. 1001 01:29:04,210 --> 01:29:05,752 Again and again. 1002 01:29:08,460 --> 01:29:09,460 And again. 1003 01:29:37,035 --> 01:29:38,968 - Hi, Stéphane. Sleep well? - Very well. 1004 01:29:38,968 --> 01:29:41,435 I'll get my bag, meet you at the car. 1005 01:29:41,718 --> 01:29:42,838 See you there. 1006 01:30:01,310 --> 01:30:04,177 If ever you come to California, let me know. 1007 01:30:04,318 --> 01:30:05,438 With pleasure. 1008 01:30:05,943 --> 01:30:07,743 And if you come to Paris... 1009 01:30:16,202 --> 01:30:18,535 You'll write about this, won't you? 1010 01:30:19,210 --> 01:30:20,650 You can't help it. 1011 01:30:21,068 --> 01:30:23,401 Never about my life. You know that. 1012 01:30:27,510 --> 01:30:29,190 I have your permission? 1013 01:30:32,252 --> 01:30:34,252 I'm sure he'd have liked that. 1014 01:30:50,093 --> 01:30:51,093 Thanks. 1015 01:30:52,860 --> 01:30:53,860 Thank you. 1016 01:30:58,543 --> 01:30:59,983 - Gotta go. - Sure. 1017 01:31:26,627 --> 01:31:27,627 Stéphane... 1018 01:31:28,627 --> 01:31:30,827 I'm in Spain and I won't be back. 1019 01:31:31,543 --> 01:31:33,143 Not so soon, anyway. 1020 01:31:38,193 --> 01:31:39,873 You'll move to Bordeaux. 1021 01:31:40,793 --> 01:31:42,860 And I bet you won't stop there. 1022 01:31:47,468 --> 01:31:49,111 You know what I think. 1023 01:31:49,135 --> 01:31:50,815 You're made to go places. 1024 01:31:52,502 --> 01:31:53,502 So... 1025 01:31:53,752 --> 01:31:55,432 Our paths separate here. 1026 01:31:59,793 --> 01:32:02,260 I know you'd want it to be different. 1027 01:32:02,277 --> 01:32:04,944 For me to find the words to reassure you. 1028 01:32:07,002 --> 01:32:08,002 I couldn't. 1029 01:32:10,118 --> 01:32:11,798 One day, you asked me, 1030 01:32:12,443 --> 01:32:13,443 "Why me?" 1031 01:32:14,252 --> 01:32:17,152 I should've said, "Because you're different." 1032 01:32:17,193 --> 01:32:19,793 "You'll go away and we'll stay behind." 1033 01:32:20,860 --> 01:32:22,060 You'll go away. 1034 01:32:22,527 --> 01:32:25,727 And you'll tell all you see. You'll find the words. 1035 01:32:26,460 --> 01:32:27,460 Unlike me. 1036 01:32:29,985 --> 01:32:32,385 At the end, I tell myself, you know. 1037 01:32:32,960 --> 01:32:34,160 Ich liebe dich. 1038 01:32:35,260 --> 01:32:36,260 Te quiero. 1039 01:32:37,943 --> 01:32:41,027 We couldn't go on. Your life's waiting for you. 1040 01:32:41,985 --> 01:32:42,985 Without me. 1041 01:32:45,277 --> 01:32:46,957 Because I won't change. 1042 01:33:06,468 --> 01:33:10,308 I'm writing to tell you I was happy in these months together. 1043 01:33:17,593 --> 01:33:19,033 And I already know 1044 01:33:20,668 --> 01:33:22,852 I'll never be so happy again.