1 00:02:45,157 --> 00:02:49,295 Farewell, Pinky. 2 00:02:53,831 --> 00:02:55,867 The potatoes! 3 00:02:59,672 --> 00:03:02,041 Potatoes? 4 00:03:02,141 --> 00:03:03,975 Potatoes? 5 00:03:04,076 --> 00:03:05,344 Pinky? 6 00:03:05,444 --> 00:03:08,581 Pinky, what do you mean? 7 00:03:08,681 --> 00:03:11,283 Oh! 8 00:03:11,383 --> 00:03:13,985 Oh, Pinky. 9 00:03:39,478 --> 00:03:44,049 Be free, Sylvia. 10 00:03:44,149 --> 00:03:47,119 Don't worry. I'll be okay. 11 00:03:47,219 --> 00:03:49,854 I wasn't always this alone. 12 00:03:49,954 --> 00:03:53,259 My childhood was full of people. 13 00:03:56,495 --> 00:03:59,431 Dad used to say that childhood was like being drunk. 14 00:03:59,531 --> 00:04:03,736 Everyone remembers what you did except you. 15 00:04:03,835 --> 00:04:06,705 But my childhood was sobering, Sylvia. 16 00:04:06,804 --> 00:04:12,011 I remember everything right from the start. 17 00:04:12,111 --> 00:04:15,281 I'd always liked feeling caged in. 18 00:04:15,381 --> 00:04:17,650 Snug and protected. 19 00:04:20,252 --> 00:04:22,488 It was a shock to be born premature. 20 00:04:22,588 --> 00:04:27,925 I wasn't fully baked and looked like a baby rabbit. 21 00:04:28,027 --> 00:04:31,563 I was named Grace Prudence Pudel. 22 00:04:31,664 --> 00:04:35,034 My twin brother Gilbert. 23 00:04:35,134 --> 00:04:40,406 The nurse said we had two souls but one heart. 24 00:04:40,506 --> 00:04:42,807 I liked that. 25 00:04:42,907 --> 00:04:48,880 Our birth was very strenuous for Mum, and she died. 26 00:04:48,980 --> 00:04:51,450 We left her womb. 27 00:04:51,550 --> 00:04:54,119 She entered her tomb. 28 00:04:54,219 --> 00:04:59,291 Mother snails do the same after they've had their babies. 29 00:04:59,391 --> 00:05:01,260 Don't they, Sylvia? 30 00:05:04,663 --> 00:05:08,734 As I grew older, I suffered a smorgasbord of afflictions. 31 00:05:10,935 --> 00:05:14,673 I was always back in hospital for something. 32 00:05:14,773 --> 00:05:16,675 The doctors said I was like a China doll 33 00:05:16,775 --> 00:05:20,412 you could shatter with just a stare. 34 00:05:20,512 --> 00:05:24,916 Eventually they needed to fix my floppy lip. 35 00:05:32,957 --> 00:05:34,493 Things went bad. 36 00:05:37,995 --> 00:05:41,966 I lost so much blood I needed a transfusion. 37 00:05:42,067 --> 00:05:45,838 The doctor asked Gilbert if he'd give me his. 38 00:05:45,937 --> 00:05:47,539 Huh? 39 00:05:52,411 --> 00:05:54,380 Oh. 40 00:05:57,049 --> 00:05:58,883 He said yes 41 00:05:58,983 --> 00:06:02,788 even though he thought he'd have to die to save me. 42 00:06:02,887 --> 00:06:05,791 How long before I die? 43 00:06:05,890 --> 00:06:08,527 They quickly explained he wouldn't die. 44 00:06:08,627 --> 00:06:10,596 His body would make new blood. 45 00:06:10,696 --> 00:06:12,765 Oh. 46 00:06:12,865 --> 00:06:15,534 He became everyone's hero that night, 47 00:06:15,634 --> 00:06:18,036 especially mine. 48 00:06:18,137 --> 00:06:23,409 To cheer me up, Dad gave me Mum's old jewelry box. 49 00:06:30,249 --> 00:06:34,653 Inside, it had her snail collection and her ring. 50 00:06:34,753 --> 00:06:39,892 She had loved snails as well and had been a malacologist. 51 00:06:39,991 --> 00:06:42,361 I thought Gilbert should have the ring. 52 00:06:42,461 --> 00:06:47,332 Ooh. I'm gonna wear this till the day I die, Gracie. 53 00:07:12,825 --> 00:07:15,461 Despite my woes, Sylvia, 54 00:07:15,561 --> 00:07:20,199 I believed in glasses half-full and silver linings. 55 00:07:20,299 --> 00:07:23,602 Gilbert's glass was half-empty, though. 56 00:07:23,702 --> 00:07:26,338 I remember how he was often sad. 57 00:07:26,438 --> 00:07:30,175 Seemed like he had a secret he wanted to tell. 58 00:07:30,275 --> 00:07:33,812 He was like Holden Caulfield, James Dean, 59 00:07:33,912 --> 00:07:36,915 and Charlie Brown, all rolled into one. 60 00:07:37,015 --> 00:07:38,617 He saw people as a threat. 61 00:07:40,052 --> 00:07:42,987 At school he was always my warrior. 62 00:07:43,088 --> 00:07:44,523 My defender. 63 00:07:44,623 --> 00:07:46,658 Rabbit face! Rabbit face! 64 00:07:46,758 --> 00:07:51,196 Rabbit face! Rabbit face! 65 00:07:51,296 --> 00:07:52,631 Gimme that. 66 00:08:02,107 --> 00:08:03,742 Hey, morons! 67 00:08:03,842 --> 00:08:05,010 Hmm? 68 00:08:47,920 --> 00:08:49,955 able to breed a chicken with a giraffe. 69 00:08:50,055 --> 00:08:51,390 He said that he's able to lay eggs 70 00:08:51,490 --> 00:08:53,026 but has a really long pecker. 71 00:08:53,125 --> 00:08:56,094 Our home was our sanctuary. 72 00:08:56,194 --> 00:08:59,698 A place where we felt safe to read our books 73 00:08:59,798 --> 00:09:02,601 and watch our favorite shows. 74 00:09:05,837 --> 00:09:09,107 I loved my bedroom. 75 00:09:09,207 --> 00:09:14,913 It's where everything was just so. 76 00:09:15,014 --> 00:09:17,149 Right angles brought me enormous comfort 77 00:09:17,249 --> 00:09:21,119 as did my snails, Sylvia. 78 00:09:21,219 --> 00:09:23,889 They were my friends. 79 00:09:23,989 --> 00:09:26,892 So I made more of them. 80 00:09:26,992 --> 00:09:29,494 I knew they'd never leave me. 81 00:09:29,595 --> 00:09:31,897 Hurt me. 82 00:09:31,997 --> 00:09:35,834 Or die. 83 00:09:35,934 --> 00:09:38,071 I didn't like people dying. 84 00:09:40,372 --> 00:09:42,741 I wanted to save people. 85 00:09:42,841 --> 00:09:45,877 Save the homeless. 86 00:09:45,978 --> 00:09:48,947 My favorite was James. 87 00:09:52,184 --> 00:09:54,519 One Christmas, I covered him in decorations 88 00:09:54,620 --> 00:09:58,223 so he could feel some Christmas cheer. 89 00:09:58,323 --> 00:10:02,728 He loved his tea. 90 00:10:02,828 --> 00:10:06,465 Huh? 91 00:10:07,466 --> 00:10:10,869 Ah, good on ya, little possum. 92 00:10:10,969 --> 00:10:13,939 Good on ya. 93 00:10:14,040 --> 00:10:15,474 He was once a magistrate 94 00:10:15,574 --> 00:10:18,677 but was defrocked for masturbating in court. 95 00:10:21,213 --> 00:10:23,248 Back then, I thought masturbation meant 96 00:10:23,348 --> 00:10:25,951 chewing your food thoroughly. 97 00:10:26,052 --> 00:10:27,419 He once told me 98 00:10:27,519 --> 00:10:31,289 that masturbation was the thief of time. 99 00:10:31,390 --> 00:10:33,892 - Ooh! - Huh? 100 00:10:36,528 --> 00:10:38,864 James gave me my first real snail. 101 00:10:38,964 --> 00:10:40,198 Aha! 102 00:10:40,298 --> 00:10:42,501 Your Mum, Sylvia. 103 00:10:44,137 --> 00:10:47,073 He told me to put her in a big jar 104 00:10:47,172 --> 00:10:50,242 and feed her Vegemite. 105 00:10:50,342 --> 00:10:53,012 While I was busy trying to save the world, 106 00:10:53,112 --> 00:10:56,782 Gilbert wanted to break free from it. 107 00:10:56,882 --> 00:10:58,517 Free others. 108 00:10:58,617 --> 00:11:01,353 What? 109 00:11:04,057 --> 00:11:07,793 Once, he let our neighbor's cockatoo escape. 110 00:11:13,231 --> 00:11:15,734 Fly, Mildred! Come on, fly! 111 00:11:20,338 --> 00:11:21,873 Bye, Mildred! 112 00:11:21,973 --> 00:11:25,544 Gilbert said Mildred never seemed so happy. 113 00:11:29,748 --> 00:11:34,486 If he wasn't letting animals free, he was rescuing them. 114 00:11:36,189 --> 00:11:38,857 He didn't care about the dangers. 115 00:11:41,493 --> 00:11:43,462 I'll save it, Gracie! 116 00:11:48,266 --> 00:11:50,469 Gilbert! 117 00:11:56,408 --> 00:11:58,276 Come on, Stella! 118 00:12:09,955 --> 00:12:12,524 Over here, Gracie! 119 00:12:15,827 --> 00:12:21,500 Gilbert loved animals so much he became a vegetarian. 120 00:12:26,605 --> 00:12:29,775 Ohh, now she's got a boyfriend. 121 00:12:35,014 --> 00:12:37,749 Look, Gracie, they're hugging. 122 00:12:43,889 --> 00:12:45,690 Eggs, wow! 123 00:12:45,791 --> 00:12:48,426 We'd created our own little family. 124 00:12:48,527 --> 00:12:53,266 They've hatched Gracie. Babies! 125 00:12:53,365 --> 00:12:57,103 You became my favorite, Sylvia. 126 00:12:57,203 --> 00:13:00,872 Your swirl went opposite to the others. 127 00:13:00,972 --> 00:13:05,544 Gilbert named you after Mum's favorite author. 128 00:13:09,681 --> 00:13:13,252 But the thing that made Gilbert really unique 129 00:13:13,351 --> 00:13:15,987 was his love of fire. 130 00:13:18,623 --> 00:13:20,759 He wanted to eat it. 131 00:13:24,396 --> 00:13:28,067 He'd spend hours playing with fire. 132 00:13:52,858 --> 00:13:56,962 I remember how he always smelt like burnt matches. 133 00:13:58,530 --> 00:14:01,566 At school, the girls swooned. 134 00:14:01,666 --> 00:14:05,904 He was the flame, they were the moths. 135 00:14:06,005 --> 00:14:10,343 But he was more interested in reading and magic. 136 00:14:10,442 --> 00:14:13,645 I think he just wanted to disappear 137 00:14:13,745 --> 00:14:16,815 and spend all his pocket money at Bert's. 138 00:14:23,222 --> 00:14:25,358 Bert was the type of person 139 00:14:25,457 --> 00:14:28,894 parents told you to avoid, Sylvia. 140 00:14:28,994 --> 00:14:32,331 Someone who might offer you boiled lollies. 141 00:14:32,430 --> 00:14:35,268 Ooh, wow. 142 00:14:35,368 --> 00:14:37,903 Bert seemed anything but magical. 143 00:14:46,711 --> 00:14:50,116 Gilbert's dream was to be a street performer in Paris. 144 00:15:01,693 --> 00:15:03,662 Look, Gracie! 145 00:15:05,497 --> 00:15:08,100 He was always practicing. 146 00:15:10,303 --> 00:15:13,272 Oh, shit! 147 00:15:14,439 --> 00:15:16,108 Ow! Ow! Argh! 148 00:15:16,208 --> 00:15:18,777 And often burnt himself. 149 00:15:21,347 --> 00:15:23,615 We got little scars from the sparks. 150 00:15:23,715 --> 00:15:29,454 And when we put our arms together, they formed a face. 151 00:15:29,554 --> 00:15:30,855 Oh, look, Gracie! 152 00:15:30,956 --> 00:15:34,393 It felt great when we did this. 153 00:15:34,492 --> 00:15:36,795 Our feelings aligned. 154 00:15:38,797 --> 00:15:43,235 A lot of twins say this, Sylvia, and it's true. 155 00:15:43,336 --> 00:15:45,537 I felt his emotions. 156 00:15:45,637 --> 00:15:49,507 His happiness and his sadness, 157 00:15:49,607 --> 00:15:53,645 which seemed to be the fourth member of our family. 158 00:15:53,745 --> 00:15:56,548 Mum's death had left a hole. 159 00:15:56,648 --> 00:15:58,683 Dad had tried to fill the void, 160 00:15:58,783 --> 00:16:03,955 but he had his own problems. 161 00:16:04,056 --> 00:16:10,029 Dad was French and had once been an animator in Paris. 162 00:16:10,129 --> 00:16:14,699 He made stop motion films with an old Bolex camera. 163 00:16:17,403 --> 00:16:19,738 He showed them to us sometimes. 164 00:16:27,712 --> 00:16:32,218 To pay for his art form, he busked on the streets. 165 00:16:38,523 --> 00:16:39,891 Mum met him on a holiday 166 00:16:39,991 --> 00:16:42,560 she'd won in the Woman's Weekly magazine. 167 00:16:59,944 --> 00:17:01,546 Wow! 168 00:17:10,688 --> 00:17:13,259 Ooh-la-la! 169 00:17:15,161 --> 00:17:19,098 They fell in love, and he followed her back to Australia. 170 00:17:27,972 --> 00:17:29,574 Wanker! 171 00:17:31,043 --> 00:17:32,211 Hey, watch out! 172 00:17:43,155 --> 00:17:45,157 Mum had only just got pregnant 173 00:17:45,257 --> 00:17:49,061 when his career was cut short by a drunk driver. 174 00:17:49,161 --> 00:17:53,499 He never juggled again and became a paraplegic. 175 00:17:53,598 --> 00:17:56,968 Then, slowly an alcoholic 176 00:17:57,069 --> 00:18:00,905 just like the guy who'd hit him. 177 00:18:01,006 --> 00:18:03,641 Money had always been a problem. 178 00:18:03,741 --> 00:18:06,845 Much worse since his accident. 179 00:18:06,945 --> 00:18:10,815 His pension barely paid for his wheelchair batteries. 180 00:18:12,585 --> 00:18:16,888 Winning scratchies was the only thing that brought him hope. 181 00:18:16,988 --> 00:18:19,291 We found them everywhere. 182 00:18:21,360 --> 00:18:25,297 To make matters worse he developed sleep apnea. 183 00:18:30,935 --> 00:18:33,671 Huh? 184 00:18:33,771 --> 00:18:36,308 We'd have to clap to wake him up. 185 00:18:51,923 --> 00:18:54,160 Despite our hardships, 186 00:18:54,260 --> 00:18:57,862 our little family unit was strong. 187 00:18:57,962 --> 00:19:00,599 And there was plenty of joy. 188 00:19:00,698 --> 00:19:02,734 Ready! 189 00:19:02,834 --> 00:19:05,304 Whoo! 190 00:19:09,208 --> 00:19:13,179 Our happiest day was when we went on the Big Dipper. 191 00:19:16,549 --> 00:19:19,552 It was scary. 192 00:19:19,652 --> 00:19:22,321 Scary because it was a hundred years old. 193 00:19:24,822 --> 00:19:27,293 Dad felt alive. 194 00:19:27,393 --> 00:19:29,261 Escaped his body. 195 00:19:36,101 --> 00:19:39,505 When he died, he said he wanted his ashes sprinkled 196 00:19:39,605 --> 00:19:42,074 off the Big Dipper. 197 00:19:42,174 --> 00:19:44,677 The day got even better on the way home, 198 00:19:44,776 --> 00:19:48,214 when Gilbert found a scratchy on the ground. 199 00:19:48,314 --> 00:19:50,748 We won 20 dollars! 200 00:19:50,848 --> 00:19:52,618 So Dad bought 20 more. 201 00:19:54,353 --> 00:19:57,122 Too bad, Dad. 202 00:19:57,223 --> 00:20:00,059 He hated we had to look after him. 203 00:20:02,794 --> 00:20:07,166 I suppose his cage was his body. 204 00:20:07,266 --> 00:20:12,737 His glass wasn't full or empty, just a glass. 205 00:20:14,240 --> 00:20:18,843 Knitting and black jellybeans were his other addictions. 206 00:20:18,943 --> 00:20:21,280 He was the one who knitted my snail hat 207 00:20:21,380 --> 00:20:25,984 and made the eyeballs out of his old juggling balls. 208 00:20:26,085 --> 00:20:28,254 The jellybeans made his tongue all black 209 00:20:28,354 --> 00:20:31,590 and his breath aniseedy. 210 00:20:31,690 --> 00:20:32,890 Watch, Gracie! 211 00:20:32,991 --> 00:20:34,126 We arranged them on his head 212 00:20:34,226 --> 00:20:36,395 while he pretended to be asleep. 213 00:20:36,495 --> 00:20:38,530 He let us do stuff like that. 214 00:20:43,835 --> 00:20:47,006 We were free to do what we wanted, Sylvia. 215 00:20:49,541 --> 00:20:53,279 He said, "Childhood was life's best season. 216 00:20:53,379 --> 00:20:56,948 It never lasts, but everyone deserves one." 217 00:21:01,420 --> 00:21:05,424 He was so proud Gilbert wanted to be a performer. 218 00:21:05,524 --> 00:21:07,593 Follow in his footsteps. 219 00:21:07,693 --> 00:21:09,628 Whoa. Whoa! 220 00:21:09,728 --> 00:21:12,431 Bravo! 221 00:21:12,531 --> 00:21:15,601 That night, we got out Mum's jewelry box 222 00:21:15,701 --> 00:21:18,037 and sang our heads off. 223 00:21:38,990 --> 00:21:40,392 Ha! Good one, Dad. 224 00:21:40,492 --> 00:21:42,960 Later, Dad got out his old Bolex camera 225 00:21:43,062 --> 00:21:45,930 and gave me some tips on how to animate. 226 00:21:50,235 --> 00:21:53,105 I wanted to become an animator, just like him. 227 00:21:56,208 --> 00:21:59,211 To top the day off, we had a competition 228 00:21:59,311 --> 00:22:01,979 to see who could create the best hairdo. 229 00:22:02,081 --> 00:22:05,117 Mr. Ian Ramsbottom, who is agnostic, dyslexic... 230 00:22:05,217 --> 00:22:06,884 - I won. - ... and insomniac. 231 00:22:06,984 --> 00:22:09,987 He stays up all night wondering if there is a dog. 232 00:22:10,089 --> 00:22:13,659 I remember the stillness that night, 233 00:22:13,759 --> 00:22:19,064 the wonderful memories of that day fresh in our heads. 234 00:22:20,733 --> 00:22:25,371 A day so precious 235 00:22:25,471 --> 00:22:27,306 but fleeting. 236 00:22:38,617 --> 00:22:40,285 Huh? 237 00:22:53,031 --> 00:22:56,068 Despite our clapping 238 00:22:56,168 --> 00:23:00,938 this time Dad never woke. 239 00:23:11,083 --> 00:23:13,752 We couldn't afford a proper funeral, 240 00:23:13,852 --> 00:23:17,055 so Dad was cremated by the government. 241 00:23:17,156 --> 00:23:21,794 His ashes given to us in a cardboard box. 242 00:23:21,894 --> 00:23:25,130 I sprinkled him into his jellybean jar. 243 00:23:25,230 --> 00:23:27,633 He woulda liked that. 244 00:23:36,141 --> 00:23:38,877 Child Services came to take us away. 245 00:23:38,976 --> 00:23:43,148 Come on, you two. Let's go. 246 00:23:43,248 --> 00:23:47,219 And we were to be sent to foster homes in separate states. 247 00:23:50,355 --> 00:23:54,159 We had no relatives, and no one wanted to adopt twins. 248 00:23:54,259 --> 00:23:57,563 Especially weird ones like us. 249 00:24:05,270 --> 00:24:08,340 Look after it, Gilbert. 250 00:24:16,281 --> 00:24:19,251 Hurry up. Say your goodbyes. 251 00:24:19,351 --> 00:24:22,054 Bye, Gracie. 252 00:24:22,154 --> 00:24:24,723 Bye, Gilbert. 253 00:24:29,461 --> 00:24:32,997 That was the last time I saw my brother. 254 00:24:33,098 --> 00:24:37,035 The last time I smelt his scent of burnt matches. 255 00:24:42,641 --> 00:24:46,245 We never got to sprinkle Dad off the Big Dipper. 256 00:24:54,386 --> 00:24:59,858 Our lives were turned upside down and back to front, Sylvia. 257 00:24:59,958 --> 00:25:02,828 We had no choice but to move onwards. 258 00:25:02,928 --> 00:25:06,098 Upwards. Sidewards. 259 00:25:10,335 --> 00:25:14,206 I was sent to live with a childless couple in Canberra 260 00:25:14,306 --> 00:25:19,545 which had won Safest City three years in a row. 261 00:25:19,645 --> 00:25:22,548 Some people even wore helmets, driving. 262 00:25:28,554 --> 00:25:32,257 Back then, Canberra wasn't the exciting place it is today. 263 00:25:35,294 --> 00:25:40,265 I suppose "settled" is the wrong word for how I felt. 264 00:25:40,365 --> 00:25:43,435 "Traumatized" was more accurate. 265 00:25:45,470 --> 00:25:50,309 The separation from Gilbert made me anxious. 266 00:25:50,409 --> 00:25:53,178 But you and your siblings, Sylvia, 267 00:25:53,278 --> 00:25:55,581 you brought me some comfort. 268 00:25:58,350 --> 00:26:01,153 Lovely. 269 00:26:01,253 --> 00:26:04,890 My new foster parents Ian and Narelle 270 00:26:04,990 --> 00:26:07,626 were pleasant enough. 271 00:26:07,726 --> 00:26:09,761 They were accountants for a company 272 00:26:09,861 --> 00:26:12,798 that made traffic lights. 273 00:26:12,898 --> 00:26:16,868 They were well meaning and addicted to self-help books. 274 00:26:16,969 --> 00:26:19,171 Hmm? 275 00:26:19,271 --> 00:26:21,940 - Good morning! - Hey! 276 00:26:22,041 --> 00:26:27,512 They believed a good dose of self-esteem cured everything. 277 00:26:27,613 --> 00:26:30,682 Every week they'd make me a new certificate. 278 00:26:30,782 --> 00:26:35,153 Our little baby. Oh, we're so proud. 279 00:26:35,253 --> 00:26:38,390 Now, watch this. My finger work! 280 00:26:38,490 --> 00:26:42,494 On the weekends, they'd play netball. 281 00:26:42,594 --> 00:26:44,429 Gracie, can you get the ball for us? 282 00:26:44,529 --> 00:26:47,265 They tried to get me to play, as well. 283 00:26:49,868 --> 00:26:51,603 Here we go! 284 00:26:53,805 --> 00:26:54,940 Catch it! 285 00:26:55,041 --> 00:26:56,174 Oh! 286 00:26:56,274 --> 00:26:58,410 Oh, no! 287 00:26:58,510 --> 00:27:00,646 Ian, what's happened to her? 288 00:27:00,746 --> 00:27:01,780 You right, babe? 289 00:27:01,880 --> 00:27:02,914 Babe! 290 00:27:03,016 --> 00:27:04,383 She's going blue! 291 00:27:04,483 --> 00:27:06,019 Sometimes I faked asthma attacks. 292 00:27:06,119 --> 00:27:07,853 Hey, Narelle, better get the puffer! 293 00:27:07,953 --> 00:27:10,188 - Okay. - I felt bad telling lies, 294 00:27:10,288 --> 00:27:12,924 but sport was one of my allergies. 295 00:27:13,026 --> 00:27:14,259 You alright, babe? 296 00:27:14,359 --> 00:27:17,229 Breathe, pumpkin, breathe! 297 00:27:24,503 --> 00:27:28,407 Their favorite color was beige. 298 00:27:30,642 --> 00:27:34,013 They even had guinea pigs that were beige. 299 00:27:34,113 --> 00:27:37,282 Okay, we're off now, pumpkin. 300 00:27:37,382 --> 00:27:40,686 - See you later! - Bye! 301 00:27:40,786 --> 00:27:43,122 On Saturdays they went to key parties. 302 00:27:43,255 --> 00:27:44,556 Ready, love? 303 00:27:44,656 --> 00:27:46,758 I'm looking forward to tonight, babe. 304 00:27:48,593 --> 00:27:50,962 They were swingers, Sylvia. 305 00:27:52,197 --> 00:27:53,265 Daryl! 306 00:27:58,970 --> 00:28:03,575 Back then I thought swinging meant something else. 307 00:28:06,211 --> 00:28:09,015 My new school was predictably bad. 308 00:28:09,115 --> 00:28:10,215 - Grace Pudel! - Huh? 309 00:28:10,315 --> 00:28:12,517 Stop daydreaming. 310 00:28:15,487 --> 00:28:19,224 I tried to make friends 311 00:28:19,324 --> 00:28:23,129 but Gilbert wasn't there to break their fingers. 312 00:28:23,228 --> 00:28:27,232 So I absorbed the abuse, 313 00:28:27,332 --> 00:28:31,970 came home, and played with my clay friends. 314 00:28:32,071 --> 00:28:34,940 I missed Gilbert like crazy. 315 00:28:35,041 --> 00:28:36,441 We wrote each other letters 316 00:28:36,541 --> 00:28:40,012 and I saved every cent I could to go see him. 317 00:28:41,680 --> 00:28:43,415 He'd been sent to live with a family 318 00:28:43,515 --> 00:28:46,318 of fruit farmers near Perth. 319 00:28:47,753 --> 00:28:50,622 I definitely got the better family, Sylvia. 320 00:28:50,722 --> 00:28:53,325 He hated his. 321 00:28:54,793 --> 00:28:58,663 "Dear Gracie, My new parents Ruth and Owen 322 00:28:58,764 --> 00:29:02,567 are strange and do a weird sort of praying." 323 00:29:11,276 --> 00:29:15,047 "They make me pray four times a day. 324 00:29:15,148 --> 00:29:16,681 They said the more I pray 325 00:29:16,782 --> 00:29:20,552 the more the pain of Dad's death will disappear. 326 00:29:20,652 --> 00:29:25,423 They're really old fashioned and don't even have a phone. 327 00:29:25,524 --> 00:29:29,528 We all have to have magnets taped to us. 328 00:29:29,628 --> 00:29:32,098 They reckon it keeps our auras balanced. 329 00:29:32,198 --> 00:29:36,135 Protects us from the devil. 330 00:29:36,235 --> 00:29:40,939 Ruth is obsessed with her poor budgies. 331 00:29:41,040 --> 00:29:45,111 I reckon she loves them more than her own kids." 332 00:29:48,181 --> 00:29:49,948 Worship thy apple! 333 00:29:50,049 --> 00:29:54,486 "They've built their own church and school. 334 00:29:54,586 --> 00:29:57,956 Owen is the Minister." 335 00:29:58,057 --> 00:29:59,991 Cleanse thy soul! 336 00:30:04,362 --> 00:30:09,268 Cast out thy demons and worship thy fruit! 337 00:30:12,904 --> 00:30:15,473 Hmm? 338 00:30:17,809 --> 00:30:19,678 "He's got stomach ulcers, 339 00:30:19,778 --> 00:30:22,114 which he blames on the devil." 340 00:30:30,388 --> 00:30:34,693 "My new brothers are all morons. 341 00:30:34,793 --> 00:30:37,662 One of them is always staring." 342 00:30:42,400 --> 00:30:45,137 Worship the baby Jesus! 343 00:30:48,506 --> 00:30:51,710 "I have to work in the orchard after school. 344 00:30:51,810 --> 00:30:54,813 The brothers get the better jobs." 345 00:30:56,915 --> 00:31:00,186 "Ruth said if I'm going to be a good orchardman 346 00:31:00,286 --> 00:31:04,123 I'd have to start at the bottom and work my way up." 347 00:31:06,158 --> 00:31:08,426 "I'd rather eat glass." 348 00:31:13,665 --> 00:31:15,934 "Anyway they can all get stuffed 349 00:31:16,035 --> 00:31:19,071 because as soon as I'm old enough and got money 350 00:31:19,171 --> 00:31:21,406 I'm coming to get you. 351 00:31:21,506 --> 00:31:25,211 I'll walk across that big burning desert. 352 00:31:25,311 --> 00:31:27,346 We'll escape to Paris. 353 00:31:27,445 --> 00:31:30,649 I'll become a fire eater. 354 00:31:30,749 --> 00:31:33,485 And you'll become an amazing animator!" 355 00:31:42,228 --> 00:31:44,429 "It'll be great." 356 00:31:59,045 --> 00:32:01,680 Gilbert's letters gave me hope. 357 00:32:01,780 --> 00:32:04,417 So I tried to get on with life 358 00:32:04,516 --> 00:32:07,485 squashing my sorrows down into my shoes 359 00:32:07,585 --> 00:32:09,821 as the years dragged on. 360 00:32:09,921 --> 00:32:11,656 To pass time, 361 00:32:11,756 --> 00:32:15,760 I began volunteering at the local library. 362 00:32:15,860 --> 00:32:20,333 One of my jobs was to erase rude drawings done by boys. 363 00:32:22,500 --> 00:32:25,204 That's when I first met Pinky. 364 00:32:27,106 --> 00:32:30,809 I saw her returning books into a rubbish bin. 365 00:32:30,909 --> 00:32:33,611 She thought it was the return chute 366 00:32:33,712 --> 00:32:37,116 and had been doing it for months. 367 00:32:37,216 --> 00:32:39,151 - Excuse me? - Hmm? 368 00:32:39,251 --> 00:32:40,518 Um... 369 00:32:40,618 --> 00:32:43,222 She was mortified when I explained. 370 00:32:43,322 --> 00:32:44,889 Ah, poo. 371 00:32:44,990 --> 00:32:47,393 Don't worry, I won't turn you in. 372 00:32:47,492 --> 00:32:52,231 Oh, thank you dear. Bless your cotton socks. 373 00:32:52,331 --> 00:32:54,233 What's your name? 374 00:32:54,333 --> 00:32:56,135 Grace Pudel. 375 00:32:56,235 --> 00:32:58,270 Oh, I'm Pinky. 376 00:32:58,371 --> 00:33:01,374 Just Pinky. Like Cher. 377 00:33:01,474 --> 00:33:03,942 Or Liberace. 378 00:33:04,043 --> 00:33:06,245 Or Prince. 379 00:33:06,345 --> 00:33:08,481 Casanova. 380 00:33:08,580 --> 00:33:10,949 Popeye. 381 00:33:11,050 --> 00:33:13,585 People call me Pinky because of this. 382 00:33:13,685 --> 00:33:16,855 Lost it dancing in Barcelona. 383 00:33:22,094 --> 00:33:23,928 Argh! 384 00:33:27,466 --> 00:33:30,069 Why are you dressed like an ant? 385 00:33:30,169 --> 00:33:33,872 Oh, um... 386 00:33:33,972 --> 00:33:35,374 No, I'm a snail. 387 00:33:35,474 --> 00:33:39,211 Oh! Funny. 388 00:33:39,311 --> 00:33:42,148 I used to think I was a pigeon. 389 00:33:43,715 --> 00:33:45,717 She was a true eccentric 390 00:33:45,817 --> 00:33:50,022 and smelt like ginger and secondhand shops. 391 00:33:53,292 --> 00:33:55,528 Dickhead! 392 00:33:55,627 --> 00:33:57,862 She clothed herself in corduroy 393 00:33:57,962 --> 00:34:01,033 and her face had more wrinkles than her jacket. 394 00:34:01,133 --> 00:34:05,237 It was hard to know where the fabric ended and her skin began. 395 00:34:05,337 --> 00:34:07,206 Apart from you, Sylvia, 396 00:34:07,306 --> 00:34:10,509 she was my first real friend. 397 00:34:10,608 --> 00:34:14,779 My only real friend. 398 00:34:14,879 --> 00:34:17,083 She'd lived an amazing life. 399 00:34:17,183 --> 00:34:20,652 I thought one day I might make a film about her. 400 00:34:20,752 --> 00:34:24,223 She'd seen the Northern Lights. 401 00:34:24,323 --> 00:34:26,492 Floated in the Dead Sea. 402 00:34:30,829 --> 00:34:33,932 Been an exotic dancer in a schnitzel bar. 403 00:34:40,638 --> 00:34:44,443 Won a bee beard contest. 404 00:34:44,543 --> 00:34:45,910 My turn. 405 00:34:46,011 --> 00:34:48,613 Bathed with a snow monkey. 406 00:34:50,182 --> 00:34:54,919 Made love to John Denver in a helicopter. 407 00:34:55,020 --> 00:34:58,290 Take me home, country road! 408 00:35:00,992 --> 00:35:05,598 And once played ping pong with Fidel Castro. 409 00:35:10,369 --> 00:35:11,703 She'd never been sick. 410 00:35:11,803 --> 00:35:14,473 Her secret to longevity were coffee enemas 411 00:35:14,573 --> 00:35:17,343 and a daily shot of ginger wine. 412 00:35:19,445 --> 00:35:21,380 She'd outlived two husbands. 413 00:35:21,480 --> 00:35:26,552 The first, Hector, had died just a week after they got married. 414 00:35:26,651 --> 00:35:28,420 Careful, sweetie. 415 00:35:31,789 --> 00:35:33,292 Bugger. 416 00:35:37,729 --> 00:35:40,266 Her second husband, Bill, 417 00:35:40,366 --> 00:35:43,068 had been a postman 418 00:35:43,169 --> 00:35:47,039 who wrote love notes on her mail. 419 00:35:47,139 --> 00:35:50,742 "Roses are red, violets are camp. 420 00:35:50,842 --> 00:35:54,647 I'll be your letter, you be my stamp. 421 00:35:54,746 --> 00:35:58,384 You are the clouds, and I am the skies. 422 00:35:58,484 --> 00:36:03,522 Let me shipwreck meself between your thighs." 423 00:36:03,622 --> 00:36:05,324 Smile! 424 00:36:07,825 --> 00:36:11,063 Ready for my close up, Mr. DeMille. 425 00:36:13,065 --> 00:36:15,900 They'd just begun a trek across Australia... 426 00:36:16,000 --> 00:36:18,037 Just a little to your left, sweetheart. 427 00:36:18,137 --> 00:36:19,837 when nature struck. 428 00:36:22,740 --> 00:36:25,044 No! No! 429 00:36:27,346 --> 00:36:28,614 Bugger. 430 00:36:37,456 --> 00:36:39,158 Careful, kiddies. 431 00:36:39,258 --> 00:36:44,963 She was a real survivor, and had so many jobs. 432 00:36:45,064 --> 00:36:47,166 Dickhead! 433 00:36:47,266 --> 00:36:48,234 Dickhead! 434 00:36:48,334 --> 00:36:50,402 But they never lasted long. 435 00:36:50,502 --> 00:36:53,072 You're fired. 436 00:36:53,172 --> 00:36:54,872 On her 80th birthday 437 00:36:54,973 --> 00:36:59,144 she'd got a job promoting pineapple chunks. 438 00:37:01,946 --> 00:37:04,882 Gosh, she had a great sense of humour. 439 00:37:06,851 --> 00:37:09,188 She drove her dead husband's postal truck 440 00:37:09,288 --> 00:37:11,490 and once told me she wanted to die peacefully 441 00:37:11,590 --> 00:37:15,160 in her sleep like her cousin, who was a bus driver 442 00:37:15,261 --> 00:37:18,731 not screaming in horror like his passengers. 443 00:37:18,830 --> 00:37:20,832 I'm not sure whether she was joking. 444 00:37:20,932 --> 00:37:23,402 It was hard to know with her. 445 00:37:25,371 --> 00:37:28,140 Her house was fabulous. 446 00:37:30,808 --> 00:37:33,512 It smelt like popcorn and mothballs. 447 00:37:38,684 --> 00:37:42,021 She had an enormous trophy collection 448 00:37:42,121 --> 00:37:44,856 which I soon discovered were other people's trophies 449 00:37:44,956 --> 00:37:47,226 she'd found at secondhand stores. 450 00:37:52,197 --> 00:37:55,100 There were post-it-notes everywhere. 451 00:37:55,200 --> 00:37:57,503 She had a dreadful memory. 452 00:37:59,705 --> 00:38:03,609 She was terrified of Alzheimer's and had taken up tap dancing. 453 00:38:03,709 --> 00:38:06,178 She'd read it staved off dementia. 454 00:38:09,748 --> 00:38:13,452 She didn't believe in banks and put her savings in an old tin. 455 00:38:13,552 --> 00:38:17,222 She said she kept her secrets in there as well. 456 00:38:17,323 --> 00:38:23,696 You know, Gracie, biscuit tins rarely contain biscuits. 457 00:38:23,796 --> 00:38:26,065 I'd never seen her mysterious tin. 458 00:38:26,165 --> 00:38:29,101 She was always hiding it in different places 459 00:38:29,201 --> 00:38:33,105 and often couldn't remember where. 460 00:38:33,205 --> 00:38:37,242 Her home was also full of seedlings 461 00:38:37,343 --> 00:38:42,214 which she later confessed were marijuana. 462 00:38:42,314 --> 00:38:45,484 She loved to bake ginger hash-people 463 00:38:45,584 --> 00:38:50,656 because she said they relieved her arthritis. 464 00:38:50,756 --> 00:38:52,658 She also enjoyed gardening 465 00:38:52,758 --> 00:38:55,494 especially when she felt a bit miserable. 466 00:38:55,594 --> 00:38:58,263 She called it her "pity-pit." 467 00:38:58,364 --> 00:39:01,933 She wanted her ashes sprinkled in her pity-pit. 468 00:39:02,034 --> 00:39:04,536 Be returned to nature. 469 00:39:04,636 --> 00:39:08,474 Fertilize her veggies. 470 00:39:08,574 --> 00:39:11,276 Gardening fixes everything. 471 00:39:18,117 --> 00:39:22,588 She also enjoyed mini-golf and had built her own course. 472 00:39:34,133 --> 00:39:37,935 Aha! Hole in one! 473 00:39:38,036 --> 00:39:40,806 But the thing that made Pinky truly remarkable 474 00:39:40,905 --> 00:39:42,408 was what she did every Monday. 475 00:39:42,508 --> 00:39:44,042 There, there. 476 00:39:44,143 --> 00:39:47,746 She'd visit the lonely and hold their hands. 477 00:39:47,846 --> 00:39:52,885 She said the thing the elderly craved most was human touch. 478 00:39:52,984 --> 00:39:56,021 She'd sit with them calmly in silence. 479 00:39:56,121 --> 00:40:00,325 Something so simple yet so comforting. 480 00:40:03,162 --> 00:40:06,298 An occasional ginger hash-person helped as well. 481 00:40:10,968 --> 00:40:16,074 Pinky told me she'd never got to hold her own parents' hands. 482 00:40:16,175 --> 00:40:18,277 She never said why. 483 00:40:18,377 --> 00:40:22,714 Her childhood was off-limits. 484 00:40:22,815 --> 00:40:25,317 Whoo-hoo! 485 00:40:25,417 --> 00:40:30,289 You know, life isn't about looking backwards, Gracie. 486 00:40:30,389 --> 00:40:33,392 It's about living forwards. 487 00:40:33,492 --> 00:40:37,362 She was the jewel in the Canberra junk heap. 488 00:40:37,463 --> 00:40:43,268 She'd crammed so much into her life and I'd crammed nothing. 489 00:40:45,337 --> 00:40:48,774 Pinky's friendship helped ease my sadness, 490 00:40:48,874 --> 00:40:51,210 my feelings of loss. 491 00:40:51,310 --> 00:40:54,646 I suppose she was the medicine I needed. 492 00:40:54,746 --> 00:40:57,616 A vitamin for hope. 493 00:40:59,984 --> 00:41:03,722 Bugger. Better luck next time, Gracie. 494 00:41:06,058 --> 00:41:09,361 The years fluttered past, Sylvia. 495 00:41:12,531 --> 00:41:16,068 Apart from Pinky, letters from Gilbert were the only things 496 00:41:16,168 --> 00:41:19,071 that confirmed I existed. 497 00:41:30,015 --> 00:41:33,285 I missed Gilbert like crazy. 498 00:41:58,677 --> 00:42:01,947 Ian and Narelle were still obsessed about my mental health 499 00:42:02,047 --> 00:42:04,316 and sent me to self-help classes 500 00:42:04,416 --> 00:42:07,119 which were supposed to raise my endorphins, 501 00:42:07,219 --> 00:42:10,889 balance my chakra, and cleanse my third eye. 502 00:42:10,989 --> 00:42:14,426 Ready, set, go! 503 00:42:14,526 --> 00:42:17,296 Ha! Ha! Ha! 504 00:42:30,009 --> 00:42:31,677 Ooh! 505 00:42:34,713 --> 00:42:37,115 Oh, Craig. 506 00:42:37,215 --> 00:42:39,018 Heal me, heal me! 507 00:42:39,117 --> 00:42:40,252 I'll heal you, Vicki. 508 00:42:40,352 --> 00:42:43,689 - I'll heal you. - Oh, Craig! 509 00:42:43,789 --> 00:42:44,756 Oh, Vick. 510 00:42:44,856 --> 00:42:48,093 Oh, Craig! 511 00:42:48,193 --> 00:42:51,663 Part of me died in those classes, Sylvia. 512 00:43:06,079 --> 00:43:09,948 Self-help was just a shallow quick fix. 513 00:43:10,049 --> 00:43:12,551 None of it actually worked. 514 00:43:12,651 --> 00:43:16,421 I just wanted the earth to stop so I could get off. 515 00:43:18,357 --> 00:43:22,861 Puberty arrived and brought its gifts. 516 00:43:22,961 --> 00:43:26,198 I'd have loved a boyfriend. 517 00:43:32,604 --> 00:43:34,906 It didn't help matters when Pinky convinced me 518 00:43:35,008 --> 00:43:37,142 to get a perm. 519 00:44:04,302 --> 00:44:07,606 Nice hairdo. 520 00:44:14,746 --> 00:44:17,816 Dickhead! 521 00:44:17,916 --> 00:44:19,184 There, there, love. 522 00:44:19,284 --> 00:44:20,986 Ignore him. 523 00:44:21,087 --> 00:44:23,422 I think we look fabulous. 524 00:44:23,522 --> 00:44:25,490 Thank God for Pinky. 525 00:44:25,590 --> 00:44:28,027 She became my real foster parent. 526 00:44:28,127 --> 00:44:32,165 Especially as Ian and Narelle weren't around much anymore. 527 00:44:32,264 --> 00:44:33,598 They'd discovered nude cruises 528 00:44:33,699 --> 00:44:35,901 and were gone for weeks at a time. 529 00:44:36,001 --> 00:44:37,103 Whee! 530 00:44:37,202 --> 00:44:38,670 Good morning. 531 00:44:38,770 --> 00:44:40,572 Oh, hi! 532 00:44:46,845 --> 00:44:49,881 I still grieved the loss of my family 533 00:44:49,981 --> 00:44:55,487 and continued filling the void with more and more snails. 534 00:44:57,823 --> 00:45:03,495 If I saw something snaily it had to be mine. 535 00:45:03,595 --> 00:45:06,732 My obsession had blossomed, Sylvia. 536 00:45:06,832 --> 00:45:10,902 My room had become a snail shrine. 537 00:45:11,002 --> 00:45:14,840 I'd become a snail hoarder. 538 00:45:20,412 --> 00:45:24,483 Oh, I missed Gilbert so much. 539 00:45:24,583 --> 00:45:27,452 His letters still gave me hope. 540 00:45:27,552 --> 00:45:30,189 But he began to worry me. 541 00:45:30,288 --> 00:45:33,391 I felt he wasn't telling me everything. 542 00:45:33,492 --> 00:45:37,096 "Dear Gracie, Life at the Garden of Eden 543 00:45:37,196 --> 00:45:39,165 is certainly no Garden of Eden." 544 00:45:39,264 --> 00:45:42,467 Gilbert, get back to work! 545 00:45:42,567 --> 00:45:45,437 "Ruth seems to have it in for me. 546 00:45:45,537 --> 00:45:47,272 But I don't give a stuff." 547 00:45:47,372 --> 00:45:49,741 Sorry, Ruth. 548 00:45:49,841 --> 00:45:55,280 "Oh, and she hates that I call her Ruth instead of Mum. 549 00:45:55,380 --> 00:45:59,218 And she hates that I won't let Owen shave my head. 550 00:45:59,317 --> 00:46:02,954 They make me work really hard for lousy money. 551 00:46:04,656 --> 00:46:09,861 There's no one here to talk to. I try to be friendly 552 00:46:09,961 --> 00:46:15,201 but their weirdo religion has them all brainwashed. 553 00:46:15,300 --> 00:46:18,603 The brothers really hate me." 554 00:46:18,703 --> 00:46:20,639 Poofta! 555 00:46:33,785 --> 00:46:36,122 "Owen forces me to read the Bible. 556 00:46:36,222 --> 00:46:39,958 And Ruth forces me to eat meat." 557 00:46:40,059 --> 00:46:41,726 Hello, piggies. 558 00:46:47,866 --> 00:46:49,334 Eat it. 559 00:46:49,434 --> 00:46:52,337 "She's barred me from playing with fire. 560 00:46:52,437 --> 00:46:56,641 She's bonkers and thinks magic is the devil's vice. 561 00:46:56,741 --> 00:46:58,244 And she's always trying to stick 562 00:46:58,343 --> 00:47:01,880 more and more magnets on me to fix my aura. 563 00:47:01,980 --> 00:47:05,483 But I don't care. 564 00:47:05,584 --> 00:47:08,753 I hide behind the church to practise my stuff 565 00:47:08,854 --> 00:47:13,859 with one of the brothers who seems to like me. 566 00:47:13,959 --> 00:47:19,931 Ruth reckons Lucifer's trying to invade my soul. 567 00:47:20,032 --> 00:47:24,103 So they tried to baptize me to get the devil out." 568 00:47:38,184 --> 00:47:43,222 Dunk thee and cleanse thy demons! 569 00:47:45,624 --> 00:47:48,094 "I pretended I was possessed. 570 00:47:48,194 --> 00:47:51,264 I hid some of Owen's antacid tablets in my pockets." 571 00:47:53,165 --> 00:47:54,399 Oh, my goodness! 572 00:47:54,499 --> 00:47:56,235 "It was hilarious." 573 00:47:58,536 --> 00:48:00,306 "Ben loved it." 574 00:48:06,945 --> 00:48:09,614 "Ruth is always trying to control me. 575 00:48:09,714 --> 00:48:12,118 She even tried drugging me." 576 00:48:17,422 --> 00:48:19,758 Eat it. 577 00:48:35,640 --> 00:48:39,477 "But I'm not dumb. 578 00:48:39,577 --> 00:48:42,447 I hid the pills in my cheeks. 579 00:48:43,882 --> 00:48:47,519 Ruth says Jesus' love isn't free. 580 00:48:47,619 --> 00:48:52,291 So what money we do earn, Gracie, goes back to Jesus." 581 00:48:52,391 --> 00:48:56,661 Pennies for Jesus. Pennies for Jesus. 582 00:49:02,034 --> 00:49:05,971 Pennies for Jesus. Pennies for Jesus. 583 00:49:06,072 --> 00:49:08,606 That's a good boy. 584 00:49:17,515 --> 00:49:19,884 Gilbert! 585 00:49:22,854 --> 00:49:26,258 "And Jesus then gives his money back to Owen." 586 00:49:27,492 --> 00:49:31,130 Thank you, Jesus. 587 00:49:31,230 --> 00:49:32,964 "And his vices." 588 00:49:35,301 --> 00:49:37,236 Oh, Owen, how are ya? 589 00:49:37,336 --> 00:49:39,238 The usual? 590 00:49:45,144 --> 00:49:47,179 Have a good night. 591 00:49:51,050 --> 00:49:54,986 Pennies for Jesus, and whisky for Owen. 592 00:50:07,299 --> 00:50:10,169 "They're such hypocrites! 593 00:50:10,269 --> 00:50:12,371 But I made them pay for it." 594 00:50:12,471 --> 00:50:15,274 Run free, guys. Come on, run! 595 00:50:22,647 --> 00:50:25,184 "I hate it here. 596 00:50:25,284 --> 00:50:28,254 No! My budgies! 597 00:50:29,455 --> 00:50:32,624 "And I hate her. 598 00:50:32,724 --> 00:50:35,061 She punished me. 599 00:50:35,161 --> 00:50:36,761 Big time." 600 00:50:44,836 --> 00:50:47,273 Hold him tight! 601 00:50:49,008 --> 00:50:52,244 Sinners must be punished, Gilbert. 602 00:50:52,344 --> 00:50:57,782 Leviticus 24 — An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. 603 00:51:00,219 --> 00:51:03,822 Burn, thy wicked thoughts of pleasures! 604 00:51:03,922 --> 00:51:06,092 - Burn! Burn! - "She punished me, 605 00:51:06,192 --> 00:51:08,027 but it didn't bother me. 606 00:51:08,127 --> 00:51:11,063 I'm fine. 607 00:51:11,163 --> 00:51:14,732 Anyway, I better go. 608 00:51:14,833 --> 00:51:17,635 I'm saving my money and I'll be escaping soon 609 00:51:17,735 --> 00:51:20,672 and crossing that desert to come and get to you." 610 00:51:33,751 --> 00:51:36,654 "Hang in there, Gracie. 611 00:51:36,754 --> 00:51:40,526 Everything is okay. 612 00:51:40,625 --> 00:51:43,761 See you soon. Hopefully. 613 00:51:43,862 --> 00:51:47,032 Love, Gilbert." 614 00:51:56,941 --> 00:52:01,413 Puberty finally finished its cruelty, Sylvia. 615 00:52:01,514 --> 00:52:04,949 The season of our teens ended. 616 00:52:06,918 --> 00:52:08,953 But life got even lonelier 617 00:52:09,054 --> 00:52:13,758 when Ian and Narelle retired to a nudist colony in Sweden. 618 00:52:13,858 --> 00:52:16,195 It's a shame we never really connected. 619 00:52:16,295 --> 00:52:20,965 What family we did have, though, was now gone. 620 00:52:21,066 --> 00:52:23,768 Is that your foot? 621 00:52:26,905 --> 00:52:31,210 Despite my woes, Sylvia, I tried to be optimistic. 622 00:52:31,310 --> 00:52:33,745 Be more social. 623 00:52:35,914 --> 00:52:37,082 I remember how there were 624 00:52:37,183 --> 00:52:41,520 intriguing people at the library. 625 00:52:41,620 --> 00:52:45,024 But they lived vicariously. 626 00:52:46,791 --> 00:52:49,861 A boyfriend seemed a work of fiction. 627 00:52:51,564 --> 00:52:56,168 I felt invisible. Began to fade. 628 00:53:02,575 --> 00:53:05,477 Pinky was the only color in my life. 629 00:53:05,578 --> 00:53:08,047 Still effervescent. 630 00:53:08,147 --> 00:53:12,117 Her hand-holding idea had become a fully fledged charity. 631 00:53:12,218 --> 00:53:15,720 She'd even engaged the long-term unemployed to help out. 632 00:53:17,523 --> 00:53:20,226 We went from home to home. 633 00:53:20,326 --> 00:53:22,428 Hand to hand. 634 00:53:31,570 --> 00:53:37,409 I think over time the loss of my family had somehow frozen me. 635 00:53:41,447 --> 00:53:47,253 I thought it was safer to just live in a pretend world. 636 00:53:47,353 --> 00:53:49,588 Oh, Dad would have been disappointed 637 00:53:49,688 --> 00:53:52,890 I'd resorted to trashy novels. 638 00:53:52,991 --> 00:53:56,428 It was now just me, some sexy pirates, 639 00:53:56,528 --> 00:54:01,734 and a few frisky guinea pigs who mocked my virginity. 640 00:54:01,833 --> 00:54:04,570 The stereotype was now complete, Sylvia. 641 00:54:04,670 --> 00:54:07,772 I'd become an unloved recluse. 642 00:54:07,872 --> 00:54:10,442 And the guinea pig hair that coated me? 643 00:54:10,542 --> 00:54:13,212 A lonely person's glitter. 644 00:54:18,484 --> 00:54:21,687 As my boredom worsened, 645 00:54:21,786 --> 00:54:25,124 I found myself having new urges. 646 00:54:27,526 --> 00:54:32,164 I added kleptomania to my list of hobbies. 647 00:54:32,264 --> 00:54:36,635 Buying, hoarding and now stealing 648 00:54:36,735 --> 00:54:39,338 became a cheap thrill and distraction 649 00:54:39,438 --> 00:54:43,008 from my mundane world 650 00:54:43,108 --> 00:54:46,712 which slowly began to collapse. 651 00:54:51,916 --> 00:54:54,586 I lost three guinea pigs that night. 652 00:54:57,723 --> 00:55:00,825 I cremated them in the backyard 653 00:55:00,925 --> 00:55:03,595 and put their ashes in little jars. 654 00:55:03,696 --> 00:55:07,266 It looked like I was starting a guinea pig spice rack. 655 00:55:11,370 --> 00:55:14,807 My life had become truly pathetic 656 00:55:14,906 --> 00:55:18,010 and things had gotten out of control. 657 00:55:19,645 --> 00:55:22,348 I held my own hand patiently, 658 00:55:22,448 --> 00:55:25,617 waiting for Gilbert to come and rescue me 659 00:55:25,718 --> 00:55:27,686 while I continued to withdraw 660 00:55:27,786 --> 00:55:31,889 into the safety of my snail fortress. 661 00:55:31,989 --> 00:55:37,429 Lonely, loveless, and imprisoned. 662 00:55:46,638 --> 00:55:51,076 But just as I was considering joining a nunnery, 663 00:55:51,176 --> 00:55:55,481 from the mess of my life came one of those silver linings. 664 00:56:03,088 --> 00:56:05,290 His name was Ken. 665 00:56:08,427 --> 00:56:12,030 And he was obsessed with his leaf blower. 666 00:56:14,533 --> 00:56:19,304 There he stood, more delicious than a Chiko Roll. 667 00:56:25,444 --> 00:56:28,247 Well, hi. 668 00:56:28,347 --> 00:56:31,949 Hey. Could I, ah... maybe, ah... 669 00:56:32,050 --> 00:56:35,187 He wanted to know if he could blow my leaves. 670 00:56:35,287 --> 00:56:39,892 His presence gave me hot flushes and sweaty knickers. 671 00:56:40,025 --> 00:56:42,994 It was love at first sight. 672 00:56:43,095 --> 00:56:46,632 He was a Canberra Adonis. 673 00:56:46,732 --> 00:56:49,067 A Cadonis. 674 00:56:54,473 --> 00:56:57,376 He was a microwave oven repairman and told me 675 00:56:57,476 --> 00:57:01,380 that he was extremely shallow and one dimensional. 676 00:57:01,480 --> 00:57:05,117 He said if he was an onion and you peeled back the layers 677 00:57:05,217 --> 00:57:08,120 you'd just find more onion. 678 00:57:08,220 --> 00:57:13,559 He had hobbies like me and enjoyed repairing broken bowls. 679 00:57:13,659 --> 00:57:17,196 It was a Japanese art form called Kintsugi 680 00:57:17,296 --> 00:57:21,166 based on the philosophy that just like the soul, 681 00:57:21,266 --> 00:57:27,172 all things can be repaired and our cracks celebrated. 682 00:57:27,272 --> 00:57:29,041 Ken said that I was a broken bowl 683 00:57:29,141 --> 00:57:31,510 and that he'd help repair my wounds. 684 00:57:31,610 --> 00:57:34,012 Fill up my cracks. 685 00:57:36,348 --> 00:57:40,118 He was so thoughtful and community minded. 686 00:57:40,219 --> 00:57:43,789 He volunteered as a lifeguard at the local pool. 687 00:57:43,889 --> 00:57:47,493 Mm. Hello. 688 00:57:47,593 --> 00:57:50,295 He adored me 689 00:57:50,395 --> 00:57:54,233 and even built a milkshake station in my kitchen. 690 00:58:06,745 --> 00:58:08,914 We dated for a month and then... 691 00:58:09,014 --> 00:58:10,115 What do you reckon? 692 00:58:21,627 --> 00:58:25,364 He said he really did love me. 693 00:58:25,464 --> 00:58:26,798 Loved my quirks. 694 00:58:28,967 --> 00:58:31,870 We celebrated with another milkshake. 695 00:58:31,970 --> 00:58:34,072 He said he'd make me something special. 696 00:58:34,172 --> 00:58:37,809 Spoonful of that. Cinnamon. 697 00:58:37,910 --> 00:58:39,411 - No! - What? 698 00:58:39,511 --> 00:58:44,750 Oh... um... That's my guinea pig. 699 00:58:44,850 --> 00:58:46,885 A normal person would have thought I was bonkers 700 00:58:46,985 --> 00:58:49,821 keeping those guinea pigs' ashes. 701 00:58:49,922 --> 00:58:53,091 But he didn't. 702 00:58:53,191 --> 00:58:58,397 He loved all of me, even my bum and wobbly bits. 703 00:59:02,701 --> 00:59:05,537 Yeah. Nice. Oh, yeah. 704 00:59:05,637 --> 00:59:07,573 Oh! 705 00:59:07,673 --> 00:59:09,608 Yeah. Nice, Gracie. 706 00:59:09,708 --> 00:59:15,280 He moved in and I finally lost my virginity. 707 00:59:15,380 --> 00:59:17,282 We were desperate to get pregnant. 708 00:59:17,382 --> 00:59:18,584 Clean up, Room 6. 709 00:59:18,684 --> 00:59:21,253 But Ken was told he was sterile 710 00:59:21,353 --> 00:59:24,023 from all those microwave ovens he'd repaired. 711 00:59:24,122 --> 00:59:26,458 Rotten luck. 712 00:59:26,558 --> 00:59:28,694 But I wasn't too disappointed. 713 00:59:28,794 --> 00:59:32,164 I had more than I could ever wish for, Sylvia. 714 00:59:32,264 --> 00:59:35,867 I had a Cadonis, a herd of guinea pigs, 715 00:59:35,968 --> 00:59:38,003 and a horde of snails. 716 00:59:38,103 --> 00:59:41,440 Say cheese, Gracie. 717 00:59:41,540 --> 00:59:46,012 We set a wedding date and sent Gilbert the good news. 718 00:59:46,111 --> 00:59:47,679 Huh? 719 00:59:47,779 --> 00:59:49,648 Oh! Wow! 720 00:59:49,748 --> 00:59:52,351 Hey, Ben, guess what? 721 00:59:54,786 --> 00:59:56,455 Ooh! 722 00:59:56,555 --> 00:59:59,691 Ken gave him money for an airfare to Canberra. 723 00:59:59,791 --> 01:00:02,961 I asked Gilbert to walk me down the aisle. 724 01:00:03,062 --> 01:00:05,998 Pinky would be the flower girl. 725 01:00:08,934 --> 01:00:11,336 We'd finally be a family again. 726 01:00:11,436 --> 01:00:14,339 Finally sprinkle Dad's ashes. 727 01:00:16,208 --> 01:00:18,377 My glass was now brimming. 728 01:00:18,477 --> 01:00:22,314 And there were silver linings galore. 729 01:00:22,414 --> 01:00:24,349 Gilbert would live with us. 730 01:00:24,449 --> 01:00:27,252 He'd be here tomorrow! 731 01:00:31,890 --> 01:00:35,193 I'd never felt so happy. 732 01:00:35,293 --> 01:00:37,429 So optimistic. 733 01:01:04,756 --> 01:01:06,224 Delivery! 734 01:01:06,324 --> 01:01:08,460 I'll get it. 735 01:01:10,896 --> 01:01:12,798 Oh. 736 01:01:18,071 --> 01:01:20,338 Ooh! 737 01:01:20,439 --> 01:01:22,607 Ooh, for you, dear. 738 01:01:26,645 --> 01:01:32,018 "Dear Grace, This is Ruth, Gilbert's foster mother. 739 01:01:32,118 --> 01:01:33,618 It saddens me to tell you 740 01:01:33,719 --> 01:01:38,990 that Gilbert has died in an horrific fire. 741 01:01:39,092 --> 01:01:40,759 Our church burnt down 742 01:01:40,859 --> 01:01:44,696 and he was unable to escape the flames. 743 01:01:47,866 --> 01:01:54,840 Last week I found Gilbert and my son Ben fornicating. 744 01:02:00,146 --> 01:02:01,546 Lucifer! 745 01:02:01,646 --> 01:02:03,915 I'm sure you will agree our only course of action 746 01:02:04,016 --> 01:02:08,620 was to purge and correct their homosexual sickness 747 01:02:08,720 --> 01:02:11,890 in the correct fashion, as instructed by 748 01:02:11,990 --> 01:02:15,894 The Lord our Saviour. 749 01:02:15,994 --> 01:02:18,497 This was not a simple task. 750 01:02:18,597 --> 01:02:21,767 We could not just pray the gay away 751 01:02:21,867 --> 01:02:25,771 so the only solution was a dual expulsion 752 01:02:25,871 --> 01:02:28,007 to cast the demons out, 753 01:02:28,107 --> 01:02:30,209 eject the devil from their souls, 754 01:02:30,308 --> 01:02:32,878 and correct their auras." 755 01:02:32,978 --> 01:02:36,115 Out, out, evilness! 756 01:02:36,215 --> 01:02:38,316 Out, out, Satan! 757 01:02:42,420 --> 01:02:45,791 The time has come! 758 01:02:45,891 --> 01:02:48,693 Purge their souls! 759 01:02:50,295 --> 01:02:52,798 Cleanse their sickness! 760 01:02:55,700 --> 01:02:58,670 Gay away! 761 01:02:58,770 --> 01:03:01,107 Out, gayness! 762 01:03:01,207 --> 01:03:03,341 Purge their souls! 763 01:03:03,441 --> 01:03:06,812 Out, out, Lucifer! 764 01:03:06,912 --> 01:03:12,617 Cast out thy demons and shock the gay away! 765 01:03:35,473 --> 01:03:39,111 Enough! 766 01:03:39,212 --> 01:03:41,346 Excellent, excellent. 767 01:03:41,446 --> 01:03:46,018 "I am glad to say for my son this was a success. 768 01:03:46,118 --> 01:03:51,090 But for your brother the devil would not vacate. 769 01:03:51,190 --> 01:03:55,094 And being so full of Satan, well..." 770 01:03:59,198 --> 01:04:01,867 "... he assaulted me." 771 01:04:01,967 --> 01:04:05,470 Aah! Lucifer! 772 01:04:14,213 --> 01:04:15,981 Get him! 773 01:04:18,084 --> 01:04:19,951 Look, an angel! 774 01:04:20,052 --> 01:04:21,786 - Huh? - Ooh! 775 01:04:24,823 --> 01:04:26,158 Liar! 776 01:04:29,694 --> 01:04:30,629 Huh? 777 01:04:30,729 --> 01:04:33,598 You Judas! 778 01:04:33,698 --> 01:04:36,302 He's escaping! Catch him! 779 01:04:36,401 --> 01:04:38,137 Get him! 780 01:04:49,814 --> 01:04:53,885 "He then raced to our church and set it alight." 781 01:05:22,181 --> 01:05:25,951 No! Gilbert, stop! 782 01:05:35,560 --> 01:05:37,829 "He then sacrificed himself... 783 01:05:37,929 --> 01:05:40,232 - Let me out! - "... as penance for his sins." 784 01:05:40,333 --> 01:05:43,568 "We tried to rescue him, 785 01:05:43,668 --> 01:05:46,571 but the Inferno was too intense. 786 01:05:46,671 --> 01:05:49,507 The Good Lord took his soul." 787 01:05:52,445 --> 01:05:54,679 Let me out! 788 01:05:55,847 --> 01:05:58,817 "And Lucifer lost the battle." 789 01:06:14,933 --> 01:06:18,603 Now cleansed and with the baby Jesus. 790 01:06:18,703 --> 01:06:20,473 "We had a memorial for him 791 01:06:20,572 --> 01:06:23,142 and are confident he is now in a happier place 792 01:06:23,242 --> 01:06:26,678 with God and the baby Jesus." 793 01:06:31,117 --> 01:06:34,487 "Please find enclosed a vessel of your brother's ashes. 794 01:06:34,586 --> 01:06:37,256 I think it best you have them. 795 01:06:37,356 --> 01:06:41,327 Once again I am sorry to be the bearer of such tragic news. 796 01:06:41,427 --> 01:06:42,927 Gilbert was a good soul 797 01:06:43,029 --> 01:06:48,100 who sadly fell to repugnant persuasions. 798 01:06:48,200 --> 01:06:51,936 We will always pray for him as well as you. 799 01:06:52,038 --> 01:06:56,108 Our deepest sympathies, Ruth and Owen Appleby." 800 01:07:06,951 --> 01:07:11,956 Losing a twin is like losing an eye, Sylvia. 801 01:07:12,058 --> 01:07:15,428 You never see the world quite the same way again. 802 01:07:17,862 --> 01:07:20,799 Grief is a nothingness. 803 01:07:20,899 --> 01:07:24,203 Leaves a metallic taste in your mouth. 804 01:07:24,303 --> 01:07:29,108 Places stones in your stomach. 805 01:07:29,208 --> 01:07:31,444 Tears don't flow. 806 01:07:31,544 --> 01:07:34,046 They're too scared. 807 01:07:34,146 --> 01:07:39,351 I no longer believed in silver linings or glasses half full. 808 01:07:39,452 --> 01:07:42,054 My glass was shattered. 809 01:07:42,154 --> 01:07:47,826 I'd lost my mother, father, brother. 810 01:07:55,834 --> 01:07:59,038 Luckily I had Pinky. 811 01:07:59,138 --> 01:08:00,239 Hey, Gracie. 812 01:08:00,339 --> 01:08:01,973 And Ken. 813 01:08:02,074 --> 01:08:05,910 His spoonfuls of love kept me going. 814 01:08:08,414 --> 01:08:14,953 But weirdly, my snails seemed like my real family. 815 01:08:15,054 --> 01:08:18,424 Real ones hoard together when threatened. 816 01:08:18,524 --> 01:08:20,792 Survival in numbers. 817 01:08:23,862 --> 01:08:28,334 I was emotionally attached to every single one of them. 818 01:08:28,434 --> 01:08:34,140 That's why I couldn't ever, ever throw any of you away. 819 01:08:34,240 --> 01:08:39,278 So I kept buying, adding, 820 01:08:39,378 --> 01:08:41,313 and stealing. 821 01:08:50,655 --> 01:08:52,491 Eventually... 822 01:08:52,591 --> 01:08:54,726 Excuse me, Madam. 823 01:08:54,826 --> 01:08:56,595 I got caught. 824 01:08:56,694 --> 01:08:59,331 The shame was crushing. 825 01:09:02,000 --> 01:09:04,436 And there were consequences. 826 01:09:09,275 --> 01:09:11,277 Oh, Gracie. 827 01:09:20,152 --> 01:09:24,956 And then things got even worse. 828 01:09:26,559 --> 01:09:28,160 Love can be blind. 829 01:09:28,260 --> 01:09:30,362 Huh? 830 01:09:30,462 --> 01:09:34,366 It can hide darkness and horror. 831 01:09:39,138 --> 01:09:42,807 It seemed Ken's onion did have layers. 832 01:09:42,907 --> 01:09:45,611 He didn't love me. 833 01:09:45,710 --> 01:09:48,013 He loved my fat. 834 01:09:55,120 --> 01:09:59,058 He had some sort of fetish. 835 01:09:59,158 --> 01:10:00,925 He didn't want to fix my bowl. 836 01:10:01,026 --> 01:10:05,730 He wanted to fill it, and fill it, and fill it. 837 01:10:05,830 --> 01:10:08,200 With lard. 838 01:10:08,300 --> 01:10:11,437 It was one thing for me to create a cage for myself. 839 01:10:11,537 --> 01:10:13,105 Bit of duck for luck! 840 01:10:13,205 --> 01:10:15,907 It was another for someone else to imprison me. 841 01:10:16,008 --> 01:10:17,243 Nice, Gracie. 842 01:10:17,343 --> 01:10:19,978 I knew he admired my largeness 843 01:10:20,079 --> 01:10:21,746 but this was something more. 844 01:10:21,846 --> 01:10:24,316 Oh, yeah. Nice. 845 01:10:24,416 --> 01:10:28,654 He said he'd love me more the bigger I got 846 01:10:28,753 --> 01:10:31,357 and now I knew why. 847 01:10:31,457 --> 01:10:34,260 What an idiot I was. 848 01:10:34,360 --> 01:10:36,828 But not for much longer. 849 01:10:47,872 --> 01:10:51,110 Whoa! 850 01:10:51,210 --> 01:10:52,544 Oh! 851 01:11:05,790 --> 01:11:08,360 Sorry, Gracie. 852 01:11:26,011 --> 01:11:30,149 Pinky moved in and tended to my wounds. 853 01:11:30,249 --> 01:11:32,151 I'd read that snails hibernate 854 01:11:32,251 --> 01:11:35,054 when they needed to repair themselves. 855 01:11:35,154 --> 01:11:40,192 I slept for a week and wrestled my demons. 856 01:12:03,082 --> 01:12:05,617 I loathed myself. 857 01:12:05,718 --> 01:12:08,454 My hoarding had caused this. 858 01:12:08,554 --> 01:12:10,222 It had kept me poor. 859 01:12:10,322 --> 01:12:14,727 And being poor had kept me from Gilbert. 860 01:12:14,827 --> 01:12:18,464 The money I'd wasted could have bought a dozen plane tickets 861 01:12:18,564 --> 01:12:20,632 to see him, Sylvia. 862 01:12:20,733 --> 01:12:23,302 Now he was dead. 863 01:12:32,077 --> 01:12:34,279 Gracie? 864 01:12:37,015 --> 01:12:40,352 Got your lunch. 865 01:12:40,452 --> 01:12:43,921 Pinky put me on a strict diet 866 01:12:44,022 --> 01:12:48,260 and life became slightly bearable. 867 01:12:48,360 --> 01:12:51,163 As I slowly emerged from my darkness 868 01:12:51,263 --> 01:12:55,100 I began to notice how much Pinky had aged. 869 01:12:57,069 --> 01:12:58,470 I'll never forget the day 870 01:12:58,570 --> 01:13:02,007 I discovered she had the beginnings of dementia 871 01:13:02,107 --> 01:13:03,842 when I found her attempting what she thought 872 01:13:03,941 --> 01:13:08,447 was a jigsaw of a rooster. 873 01:13:08,547 --> 01:13:11,583 That was just a few months ago, Sylvia. 874 01:13:13,252 --> 01:13:16,188 She was diagnosed with Alzheimer's 875 01:13:16,288 --> 01:13:18,223 and went downhill quickly. 876 01:13:18,323 --> 01:13:20,859 Pinky, what are you doing? 877 01:13:20,958 --> 01:13:23,662 I'm looking for something. 878 01:13:23,762 --> 01:13:25,197 What? 879 01:13:28,600 --> 01:13:30,536 I don't know. 880 01:13:34,206 --> 01:13:36,742 Roles reversed. 881 01:13:36,842 --> 01:13:39,645 It was my turn to care for her. 882 01:13:41,814 --> 01:13:45,717 Ah, ah, ah. My medicine. 883 01:13:48,053 --> 01:13:51,056 One day she decided not to get out of bed. 884 01:13:51,156 --> 01:13:54,693 Did I tell you that thing I can't remember? 885 01:13:54,793 --> 01:13:58,564 That thing I was looking for but don't know what it is? 886 01:13:58,664 --> 01:14:01,667 Oh, stupid brain. 887 01:14:01,767 --> 01:14:03,502 Stupid disease. 888 01:14:03,602 --> 01:14:07,840 What's the name of that German guy whose disease I got? 889 01:14:07,940 --> 01:14:11,577 Ah, Guggenheimers? 890 01:14:11,677 --> 01:14:14,413 Yeah, Guggenheimers. 891 01:14:14,513 --> 01:14:16,381 Relax, Pinky. 892 01:14:16,482 --> 01:14:18,484 It doesn't matter. 893 01:14:18,584 --> 01:14:20,752 Oh, Gracie. 894 01:14:20,853 --> 01:14:24,089 Such a marvelous friend. 895 01:14:52,985 --> 01:14:56,121 Farewell, Pinky. 896 01:15:02,494 --> 01:15:04,596 The potatoes! 897 01:15:08,667 --> 01:15:10,802 Potatoes? 898 01:15:10,903 --> 01:15:12,938 Potatoes? 899 01:15:13,038 --> 01:15:14,573 Pinky? 900 01:15:14,673 --> 01:15:18,243 Pinky, what do you mean? 901 01:15:18,343 --> 01:15:20,612 Oh! 902 01:15:20,712 --> 01:15:22,748 Oh, Pinky. 903 01:15:53,545 --> 01:15:55,814 Farewell, Pinky. 904 01:16:20,639 --> 01:16:22,874 Be free, Sylvia. 905 01:16:44,730 --> 01:16:46,598 Potatoes? 906 01:16:46,698 --> 01:16:48,600 Potatoes? 907 01:16:48,700 --> 01:16:51,136 Sylvia. Oh! 908 01:16:51,236 --> 01:16:54,873 Maybe that's what she wanted her last meal to be? 909 01:16:54,973 --> 01:16:56,742 Oh! 910 01:16:56,842 --> 01:16:59,578 Goddamn life! 911 01:16:59,678 --> 01:17:01,680 Oh, goddamn life! 912 01:17:01,780 --> 01:17:03,248 Such a... 913 01:17:03,348 --> 01:17:06,685 Such a stupid, stupid puzzle! 914 01:17:06,785 --> 01:17:08,754 Damn it! 915 01:17:12,724 --> 01:17:14,693 I'm so alone! 916 01:17:14,793 --> 01:17:18,530 I'm so — so alone. 917 01:17:29,108 --> 01:17:31,376 Rabbit face! Rabbit face! 918 01:17:31,476 --> 01:17:33,979 Rabbit face! Rabbit face! 919 01:17:34,080 --> 01:17:35,114 Nice, Gracie. 920 01:17:35,213 --> 01:17:36,648 Nice hairdo! 921 01:17:36,748 --> 01:17:39,284 Come on, you two, let's go. 922 01:17:39,384 --> 01:17:41,820 "I hate it here. 923 01:17:41,920 --> 01:17:43,288 I'll be escaping soon 924 01:17:43,388 --> 01:17:45,223 and crossing that desert to come and get to you." 925 01:17:45,323 --> 01:17:47,093 "It saddens me to tell you 926 01:17:47,192 --> 01:17:50,096 that Gilbert has died in an horrific fire." 927 01:17:50,195 --> 01:17:52,364 Fire... Fire... Fire... 928 01:18:10,116 --> 01:18:12,451 The potatoes! 929 01:18:16,655 --> 01:18:18,557 The potatoes! 930 01:18:40,213 --> 01:18:43,882 "Dear Grace, If you're reading this 931 01:18:43,982 --> 01:18:47,220 then I'm as dead as a doughnut 932 01:18:47,319 --> 01:18:49,488 and you found my biscuit tin 933 01:18:49,588 --> 01:18:53,525 and some things I want you to have. 934 01:18:53,625 --> 01:18:56,229 You've been asleep for days 935 01:18:56,328 --> 01:18:59,464 and I need to tell you important stuff 936 01:18:59,564 --> 01:19:02,367 before my brain fully rots." 937 01:19:04,036 --> 01:19:07,606 "Oh, old age is such a bastard. 938 01:19:07,706 --> 01:19:10,709 Creeps up without you knowing. 939 01:19:10,809 --> 01:19:17,049 One day you sink your teeth into an apple and they stay." 940 01:19:18,717 --> 01:19:22,687 "You go to straighten the wrinkles in your pantyhose 941 01:19:22,788 --> 01:19:26,025 and then realize you're not wearing any." 942 01:19:26,125 --> 01:19:28,027 Oh. 943 01:19:28,127 --> 01:19:31,030 "Anyway, I digress. 944 01:19:31,130 --> 01:19:33,465 My secrets. 945 01:19:33,565 --> 01:19:36,601 Firstly I'm an orphan 946 01:19:36,701 --> 01:19:39,471 and was raised in an orphanage 947 01:19:39,571 --> 01:19:42,241 after the Great War. 948 01:19:42,340 --> 01:19:44,376 It was a terrible place 949 01:19:44,476 --> 01:19:48,480 where I was kept in a crib day and night. 950 01:19:48,580 --> 01:19:52,151 Never held, or hugged. 951 01:19:52,251 --> 01:19:57,290 The only contact the little boy next to me. 952 01:19:57,389 --> 01:20:01,893 No, I won't tell you the horrors I remember 953 01:20:01,993 --> 01:20:07,566 but do want to tell you what it's like to feel imprisoned. 954 01:20:07,666 --> 01:20:08,867 Caged. 955 01:20:08,967 --> 01:20:12,504 It was simply dreadful. 956 01:20:12,604 --> 01:20:15,540 But in the years since 957 01:20:15,640 --> 01:20:19,444 I've learnt that the worst cages 958 01:20:19,544 --> 01:20:23,882 are the ones we create for ourselves. 959 01:20:23,982 --> 01:20:29,654 You have created a cage for yourself, Gracie. 960 01:20:29,754 --> 01:20:33,425 Your cage has never been locked. 961 01:20:33,525 --> 01:20:36,628 But your fears have kept you trapped. 962 01:20:40,199 --> 01:20:43,902 Get rid of those snails. 963 01:20:44,002 --> 01:20:47,173 Set yourself free. 964 01:20:47,273 --> 01:20:50,442 You got rid of that creepy Ken. 965 01:20:50,542 --> 01:20:54,412 Now it's time for you to shed your shell. 966 01:20:54,512 --> 01:20:58,416 Purge your hoard. 967 01:20:58,516 --> 01:21:01,053 Start anew. 968 01:21:01,153 --> 01:21:04,589 Oh, a bit of self pity's okay. 969 01:21:04,689 --> 01:21:08,194 But it's time to move on. 970 01:21:08,294 --> 01:21:12,731 There'll be pain but that's life. 971 01:21:12,831 --> 01:21:16,102 You have to face it head on. 972 01:21:16,202 --> 01:21:18,603 Be brave." 973 01:22:07,086 --> 01:22:11,489 "Anyway, I want to thank you, Gracie. 974 01:22:11,589 --> 01:22:14,193 You've been terrific. 975 01:22:14,293 --> 01:22:18,397 Not long now till my number's up. 976 01:22:18,496 --> 01:22:21,800 It's time to close my curtains. 977 01:22:21,900 --> 01:22:27,672 For the first time in my life I feel older than I look. 978 01:22:27,772 --> 01:22:31,643 And I look like a testicle. 979 01:22:31,743 --> 01:22:38,317 Life's a beautiful tapestry that needs to be experienced. 980 01:22:38,417 --> 01:22:42,587 Its small pleasures savored. 981 01:22:42,687 --> 01:22:47,226 Like smoking a cigar in the rain. 982 01:22:49,161 --> 01:22:54,400 Or wearing a jumper straight from the dryer. 983 01:22:54,499 --> 01:22:56,469 Enough rambling. 984 01:22:56,568 --> 01:23:01,007 Time for both of us to let go. 985 01:23:01,107 --> 01:23:07,846 Like I've said, life can only be understood backwards 986 01:23:07,946 --> 01:23:11,916 but we have to live it forwards. 987 01:23:12,018 --> 01:23:16,155 Snails never go back over their trails, 988 01:23:16,255 --> 01:23:19,824 always moving forwards. 989 01:23:19,924 --> 01:23:23,129 Time for you to leave some glittering snail trails 990 01:23:23,229 --> 01:23:26,499 all over the world. 991 01:23:26,598 --> 01:23:31,970 And remember, never, never go back." 992 01:23:38,643 --> 01:23:42,348 All rise! Order in the court. 993 01:23:42,448 --> 01:23:44,316 Miss Pudel. 994 01:23:44,417 --> 01:23:46,818 Your crime is serious. 995 01:23:46,918 --> 01:23:51,990 Theft is theft, whether it be a diamond or a cucumber. 996 01:23:52,091 --> 01:23:53,992 And if you forgive the fox for stealing your chickens, 997 01:23:54,093 --> 01:23:56,529 well, then he'll steal your sheep. 998 01:23:59,098 --> 01:24:03,436 However... I can tell from your face 999 01:24:03,536 --> 01:24:06,905 that you are full of shame and regret. 1000 01:24:07,006 --> 01:24:10,276 And true regret is punishment enough. 1001 01:24:10,376 --> 01:24:14,280 I know you are a kind person, as many years ago, 1002 01:24:14,380 --> 01:24:18,917 a little girl showed me kindness when I was at my lowest ebb. 1003 01:24:19,018 --> 01:24:21,053 Ah. 1004 01:24:22,354 --> 01:24:24,323 Ah, good on ya, little possum. 1005 01:24:24,423 --> 01:24:26,058 Good on ya. 1006 01:24:26,158 --> 01:24:30,129 That little girl gave me hope and courage to start again. 1007 01:24:30,229 --> 01:24:32,931 And escape my — my vices. 1008 01:24:33,032 --> 01:24:34,133 Oh! 1009 01:24:34,233 --> 01:24:37,669 You may have light fingers, Miss Pudel, 1010 01:24:37,769 --> 01:24:39,904 but I know you have a heart of gold 1011 01:24:40,004 --> 01:24:42,774 and have done many good deeds. 1012 01:24:42,874 --> 01:24:47,480 I therefore release you from your charges. 1013 01:24:47,580 --> 01:24:49,647 Case dismissed! 1014 01:25:11,703 --> 01:25:14,507 Life had bashed me round a bit 1015 01:25:14,607 --> 01:25:18,144 but the roses smelt better. 1016 01:25:18,244 --> 01:25:22,348 And I finally started to become the person I'd always wanted. 1017 01:25:24,849 --> 01:25:27,019 I made a film about my life. 1018 01:25:46,971 --> 01:25:49,707 It wasn't very good. 1019 01:25:49,807 --> 01:25:51,976 But a few people came. 1020 01:25:52,077 --> 01:25:55,181 I even had a question and answer session afterwards. 1021 01:25:55,281 --> 01:25:58,117 Any — Any questions? 1022 01:26:07,526 --> 01:26:09,562 Oh, well. 1023 01:26:09,662 --> 01:26:12,598 Thanks for coming. 1024 01:26:12,697 --> 01:26:16,335 Yes. 1025 01:26:16,435 --> 01:26:18,470 I've got one. 1026 01:26:20,838 --> 01:26:24,909 Do you believe in magic? 1027 01:26:36,788 --> 01:26:39,058 Gilbert? 1028 01:26:39,158 --> 01:26:40,526 Yes. 1029 01:26:40,626 --> 01:26:43,329 It's me. 1030 01:26:43,429 --> 01:26:46,465 I walked across that desert. 1031 01:27:46,191 --> 01:27:49,561 It took me a while to believe Gilbert was alive. 1032 01:27:56,702 --> 01:27:59,238 How he'd escaped the fire. 1033 01:28:03,175 --> 01:28:06,245 And how his ashes were nothing more than... 1034 01:28:06,345 --> 01:28:08,880 ashes. 1035 01:28:08,980 --> 01:28:12,850 His urn now found a new purpose. 1036 01:28:15,920 --> 01:28:19,124 The cycle of life continued 1037 01:28:19,224 --> 01:28:23,062 and your job was done, Sylvia. 1038 01:28:24,396 --> 01:28:28,534 We were all finally free of our cages. 1039 01:28:32,604 --> 01:28:36,275 And even though our family had shrunk a little... 1040 01:28:38,110 --> 01:28:41,013 we were together again. 1041 01:28:46,819 --> 01:28:50,922 With only one thing left to release. 1042 01:28:58,464 --> 01:29:03,068 Gilbert still smelt like burnt matches. 1043 01:29:03,168 --> 01:29:07,206 The setting sun tingled our skin, 1044 01:29:07,306 --> 01:29:09,907 our two souls, 1045 01:29:10,008 --> 01:29:13,312 and our single heart.