1 00:00:27,452 --> 00:00:30,754 What happens in a month, six months, a year? 2 00:00:30,755 --> 00:00:33,487 When she tells you she just wants to be friends? 3 00:00:34,130 --> 00:00:36,589 Nate, why would I do a single thing for you? 4 00:00:37,047 --> 00:00:38,255 'Cause I'll put you in jail. 5 00:00:38,923 --> 00:00:40,547 I need you to get in your car and drive down 6 00:00:40,548 --> 00:00:41,839 to the East Island police station. 7 00:00:41,840 --> 00:00:43,547 You're going to walk up to the receptionist, 8 00:00:43,548 --> 00:00:45,839 and you're gonna tell her you'd like to confess to a crime. 9 00:00:45,840 --> 00:00:47,175 Do you recognize that man? 10 00:00:47,176 --> 00:00:49,595 He's the guy who assaulted me the night of the carnival. 11 00:00:51,884 --> 00:00:53,462 Can you please get out of the pool? 12 00:00:53,463 --> 00:00:56,130 This whole town is so fucking boring. 13 00:01:00,631 --> 00:01:03,755 I'm a burden, and it is what it is and it's embarrassing 14 00:01:03,756 --> 00:01:04,923 so I'm sorry. 15 00:01:06,297 --> 00:01:08,339 No funny business, Christopher! 16 00:01:13,130 --> 00:01:14,130 Fuck. 17 00:01:30,343 --> 00:01:32,840 Cassie's dad was really handsome. 18 00:01:32,841 --> 00:01:36,510 The kind of handsome that made people treat him differently. 19 00:01:42,881 --> 00:01:45,922 Her mom used to get really upset at him for flirting. 20 00:01:47,881 --> 00:01:50,797 Which wasn't fair. It wasn't his fault. 21 00:01:50,798 --> 00:01:52,752 He really loved her. 22 00:01:54,005 --> 00:01:56,171 He really loved them all. 23 00:02:02,089 --> 00:02:05,630 Her dad always wanted her to become a professional ice skater. 24 00:02:05,631 --> 00:02:07,797 Wow. Thank you! 25 00:02:07,798 --> 00:02:09,755 Aw, happy birthday, kiddo. 26 00:02:09,756 --> 00:02:12,505 And for a while, she thought she might. 27 00:02:12,506 --> 00:02:13,839 She was a natural. 28 00:02:17,756 --> 00:02:19,505 But her dad couldn't afford lessons, 29 00:02:19,506 --> 00:02:22,672 so he stopped encouraging her. 30 00:02:22,673 --> 00:02:25,672 When she hit puberty, her mother and her became best friends. 31 00:02:25,673 --> 00:02:27,756 You're an angel. 32 00:02:29,422 --> 00:02:31,260 I feel like a big baby. 33 00:02:32,756 --> 00:02:36,755 Cassie, woman to woman, hmm? 34 00:02:36,756 --> 00:02:38,672 You're perfect. 35 00:02:44,339 --> 00:02:47,422 - Holy moly, look at you. - What? 36 00:02:48,214 --> 00:02:50,963 You're gonna be a real heart breaker. 37 00:02:50,964 --> 00:02:52,797 Trust me. 38 00:02:52,798 --> 00:02:55,005 And it wasn't just her body that changed. 39 00:02:55,006 --> 00:02:56,380 But the rest of the world, too. 40 00:02:56,381 --> 00:02:57,630 You remember Uncle Ted? 41 00:02:57,631 --> 00:02:59,714 Oh, boy, look at you. All grown up. 42 00:02:59,715 --> 00:03:01,380 Come on, give me a hug. 43 00:03:01,381 --> 00:03:05,630 - You really filled out. - Sassy Cassie. Come here. 44 00:03:05,631 --> 00:03:09,213 I bet you got all the boys wrapped around your finger. 45 00:03:09,214 --> 00:03:10,672 Boop. 46 00:03:12,381 --> 00:03:14,213 Their family wasn't perfect. 47 00:03:16,297 --> 00:03:19,380 Her mom had, you know, some issues. 48 00:03:19,381 --> 00:03:22,171 Oh, my God. 49 00:03:22,172 --> 00:03:25,005 And her dad struggled to keep a steady income. 50 00:03:36,035 --> 00:03:37,922 - Fuck you. - This is my family... 51 00:03:37,923 --> 00:03:40,630 And they fought. 52 00:03:40,631 --> 00:03:43,631 In the way all parents kind of fight. 53 00:03:46,381 --> 00:03:49,631 Except for the night before she started ninth grade. 54 00:04:05,339 --> 00:04:09,088 Her mom told her that her dad was just being irrational. 55 00:04:09,089 --> 00:04:12,588 Your father had some serious jealousy issues. 56 00:04:12,589 --> 00:04:14,588 Let me tell you. 57 00:04:14,589 --> 00:04:17,422 Plus, he couldn't hold a steady job to save his life. 58 00:04:17,423 --> 00:04:21,464 I just think he didn't want the responsibility of being a father. 59 00:04:23,464 --> 00:04:25,165 It's too much work. 60 00:04:26,500 --> 00:04:28,630 But Cassie had heard differently. 61 00:04:28,631 --> 00:04:31,005 My mom said your mom cheated on your dad. 62 00:04:31,006 --> 00:04:33,046 And that's why he left. 63 00:04:33,047 --> 00:04:34,754 What? 64 00:04:42,349 --> 00:04:44,505 At first, she was really angry at her mom. 65 00:04:44,506 --> 00:04:47,287 She resented her for being such a hypocrite. 66 00:04:53,673 --> 00:04:56,911 But then she realized that her dad wasn't perfect. 67 00:04:57,718 --> 00:04:59,505 I don't know if I want to be associated with herpes 68 00:04:59,506 --> 00:05:00,714 but, you know... 69 00:05:00,715 --> 00:05:02,296 And her mom wasn't either, 70 00:05:02,297 --> 00:05:04,679 and maybe they just weren't right for each other. 71 00:05:09,381 --> 00:05:12,296 He used to visit them on weekends. 72 00:05:12,297 --> 00:05:14,089 Bye, Dad. 73 00:05:17,673 --> 00:05:19,422 - Bye, Dad. - But, eventually, 74 00:05:19,423 --> 00:05:21,381 it became once every couple of weeks. 75 00:05:23,381 --> 00:05:25,171 He said he was coming. 76 00:05:25,172 --> 00:05:28,172 And then sometimes, more than a month would go by. 77 00:05:33,548 --> 00:05:35,880 Then one night... 78 00:05:35,881 --> 00:05:38,255 he was driving home from work... 79 00:05:43,047 --> 00:05:45,589 and was in the ICU for 23 days. 80 00:05:47,005 --> 00:05:49,558 The doctors were afraid he'd never walk again. 81 00:05:52,604 --> 00:05:55,331 But Cassie knew he was strong, and that he'd get better. 82 00:06:00,046 --> 00:06:02,620 He was prescribed fentanyl for pain. 83 00:06:03,631 --> 00:06:05,869 Promethazine to offset the nausea. 84 00:06:06,436 --> 00:06:08,005 Liquid Lorazepam to sleep, 85 00:06:08,006 --> 00:06:10,589 and Imitrex injections for migraines. 86 00:06:17,591 --> 00:06:20,547 Cassie would text him and talk to him. 87 00:06:23,964 --> 00:06:27,230 But as more time went by, the less responsive he became. 88 00:06:28,756 --> 00:06:30,255 And eventually, months went by, 89 00:06:30,256 --> 00:06:31,850 and she didn't hear from him at all. 90 00:06:33,131 --> 00:06:36,338 Until one night, a week after her 15th birthday, 91 00:06:36,339 --> 00:06:39,716 she got a text from a random number at about 1:00 in the morning. 92 00:06:55,673 --> 00:06:58,505 And even though she was excited to see him 93 00:06:58,506 --> 00:07:00,088 and wanted to hug him, 94 00:07:00,089 --> 00:07:03,255 there was something about the whole thing that scared her. 95 00:07:03,256 --> 00:07:05,171 I want you to know there's never a day goes by 96 00:07:05,172 --> 00:07:06,839 I don't think about you. 97 00:07:08,200 --> 00:07:10,430 The number you texted me from. 98 00:07:11,773 --> 00:07:13,083 Can I call you? 99 00:07:15,964 --> 00:07:18,255 That's my friend's phone. 100 00:07:18,256 --> 00:07:21,714 But I promise I'll reach you to you with my new number, I... 101 00:07:23,359 --> 00:07:25,858 Don't cry, baby. 102 00:07:27,172 --> 00:07:29,673 I'm okay. I'm fine. Don't... 103 00:07:31,881 --> 00:07:34,839 I just miss you, Dad. 104 00:07:36,714 --> 00:07:38,984 I miss you, okay. I love you. 105 00:07:45,498 --> 00:07:47,296 He said he needed a few things, 106 00:07:47,297 --> 00:07:49,678 and made her promise that she wouldn't tell a soul. 107 00:08:13,506 --> 00:08:14,963 Cassie kept her promise, 108 00:08:14,964 --> 00:08:16,830 and never told anyone about that night. 109 00:08:18,226 --> 00:08:20,750 She also never saw her dad again. 110 00:08:22,297 --> 00:08:25,186 She fell in love with every guy she ever dated. 111 00:08:26,506 --> 00:08:28,296 Whether they were smart or stupid 112 00:08:28,297 --> 00:08:30,756 or sweet or cruel, it didn't matter. 113 00:08:47,089 --> 00:08:49,297 She didn't like to be alone. 114 00:08:50,320 --> 00:08:53,904 - What are you doing? - I'm just filming you. 115 00:08:54,734 --> 00:08:55,986 Why? 116 00:08:55,987 --> 00:08:59,213 And every guy she ever dated asked for the same things. 117 00:08:59,214 --> 00:09:01,253 Can I film you sucking my dick? 118 00:09:01,254 --> 00:09:02,886 What? No! 119 00:09:02,887 --> 00:09:05,505 - What? Stop. - Let's make a sex tape. 120 00:09:05,506 --> 00:09:06,711 What? Get out of here. 121 00:09:06,712 --> 00:09:08,983 Come on. I won't tell anyone. 122 00:09:08,984 --> 00:09:10,422 It's not that big of a deal. 123 00:09:10,423 --> 00:09:10,922 Yes, it is. 124 00:09:10,923 --> 00:09:12,088 I don't wanna do this. 125 00:09:12,089 --> 00:09:14,005 And she almost always said yes. 126 00:09:14,006 --> 00:09:16,297 Even though it didn't always make her feel good. 127 00:09:19,631 --> 00:09:22,422 And she knew that most guys, after she broke up with them, 128 00:09:22,423 --> 00:09:24,588 would always share those photos or videos. 129 00:09:26,089 --> 00:09:29,046 The first time she found out, she had a panic attack, 130 00:09:29,047 --> 00:09:31,739 and wanted to swallow a whole bottle of Tylenol. 131 00:09:33,547 --> 00:09:35,380 But she didn't. Because, I mean, 132 00:09:35,381 --> 00:09:37,171 what's the worst thing anybody could say to her? 133 00:09:37,172 --> 00:09:40,328 That she gave a blowjob to a guy who didn't deserve it? 134 00:09:40,329 --> 00:09:42,213 And she figured by the time she was out of college 135 00:09:42,214 --> 00:09:44,424 and looking for a job, 99 percent of the population 136 00:09:44,425 --> 00:09:46,631 would have leaked nudes, anyway. 137 00:09:49,589 --> 00:09:52,566 And then, at the beginning of the year, she met McKay. 138 00:09:52,567 --> 00:09:54,505 And fell in love with him. 139 00:09:54,506 --> 00:09:56,251 And he fell in love with her. 140 00:09:56,252 --> 00:09:57,386 I love you. 141 00:09:57,387 --> 00:09:59,255 And even though things weren't perfect, 142 00:09:59,256 --> 00:10:01,630 he loved her for who she was. 143 00:10:01,631 --> 00:10:03,630 And even though she had made a couple of mistakes, 144 00:10:03,631 --> 00:10:05,130 I mean, they weren't big ones. 145 00:10:05,131 --> 00:10:07,630 They weren't the kind of things you couldn't come back from. 146 00:10:37,863 --> 00:10:44,344 Sync and corrections by btsix www.addic7ed.com 147 00:10:45,381 --> 00:10:48,630 Previously on Love Island... 148 00:10:48,631 --> 00:10:51,300 Grab the amazing-ness 149 00:10:51,301 --> 00:10:53,339 that you have with Josh by the balls. 150 00:10:53,340 --> 00:10:56,797 People are always telling me about great TV shows. 151 00:10:56,798 --> 00:10:59,171 How I just have to watch this show. 152 00:10:59,172 --> 00:11:02,797 But the truth is, I don't want good TV. 153 00:11:02,798 --> 00:11:04,839 I don't want a novel, or some slow burn, 154 00:11:04,840 --> 00:11:06,839 or anything that feels like work. 155 00:11:06,840 --> 00:11:08,588 That's why I love reality TV. 156 00:11:08,589 --> 00:11:12,380 It's funny, it's dramatic, and I can focus on it. 157 00:11:12,381 --> 00:11:15,297 It's pure, effortless entertainment. 158 00:11:16,589 --> 00:11:19,880 Romance hits the rocks. 159 00:11:19,881 --> 00:11:21,329 She doesn't talk to me, 160 00:11:21,330 --> 00:11:23,207 she doesn't acknowledge me. She's playing a game. 161 00:11:23,208 --> 00:11:25,380 - Honestly... - I want to lay down one moment 162 00:11:25,381 --> 00:11:27,046 and then look around the next 163 00:11:27,047 --> 00:11:28,505 and realize I have watched 164 00:11:28,506 --> 00:11:30,255 22 straight hours of Love Island 165 00:11:30,256 --> 00:11:31,880 over a two-day period... 166 00:11:31,881 --> 00:11:35,547 and yearn for more. 167 00:11:35,548 --> 00:11:38,714 Some people may find that depressing. 168 00:11:38,715 --> 00:11:40,589 I don't. 169 00:11:43,422 --> 00:11:46,605 It is, however, a good way to measure depression. 170 00:11:46,606 --> 00:11:49,213 Because when reality TV begins to feel like work, 171 00:11:49,214 --> 00:11:52,005 like, final season of Mad Men work, 172 00:11:52,006 --> 00:11:54,505 you know you're depressed. 173 00:11:54,506 --> 00:11:59,339 Like, haven't got out of bed to pee in 24 hours depressed. 174 00:12:08,089 --> 00:12:10,089 Do I look different to you? 175 00:12:10,923 --> 00:12:12,588 You look fine to me. 176 00:12:12,589 --> 00:12:14,755 'Cause I feel different. 177 00:12:14,756 --> 00:12:16,756 Okay, well, you don't look it. 178 00:12:17,673 --> 00:12:19,880 I don't think I'm gonna go to school today. 179 00:12:19,881 --> 00:12:24,171 - 'Cause of Daniel? - No, not 'cause of Daniel, Lexi! 180 00:12:24,172 --> 00:12:26,505 Daniel's the last fucking thing I care about right now. 181 00:12:26,506 --> 00:12:28,338 Okay, well, it's all you ever fucking talk about. 182 00:12:28,339 --> 00:12:32,130 That's not true! I asked you how I look. Not about Daniel! 183 00:12:32,131 --> 00:12:33,963 Yeah, well, you look beautiful, Cassie. 184 00:12:33,964 --> 00:12:35,255 You look fucking amazing. 185 00:12:35,256 --> 00:12:37,046 It's literally all anyone's ever told you 186 00:12:37,047 --> 00:12:38,296 your entire life. 187 00:12:38,297 --> 00:12:41,506 Like, listen to yourself. It's fucking exhausting. 188 00:13:08,839 --> 00:13:10,963 The thought of having to stand up, 189 00:13:10,964 --> 00:13:15,547 exert 172 muscles each step for 35 feet, 190 00:13:15,548 --> 00:13:18,505 just so I can sit on cold porcelain and piss out toxins 191 00:13:18,506 --> 00:13:21,296 over and over again for the rest of my life 192 00:13:21,297 --> 00:13:23,422 makes the whole concept of living 193 00:13:23,423 --> 00:13:26,673 feel like one long, sadistic joke. 194 00:13:28,381 --> 00:13:31,880 But the absolute worst part of depression 195 00:13:31,881 --> 00:13:34,171 is that even though you know you're depressed, 196 00:13:34,172 --> 00:13:37,547 you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse. 197 00:13:39,381 --> 00:13:42,547 But I wasn't the only one feeling down. 198 00:13:44,548 --> 00:13:47,480 Jules? What's wrong? 199 00:13:48,076 --> 00:13:49,222 I'm sick. 200 00:13:49,780 --> 00:13:52,214 Okay. Let me know if you need anything. 201 00:13:53,923 --> 00:13:55,505 After Halloween, 202 00:13:55,506 --> 00:13:58,047 Jules didn't go to school for a full week. 203 00:14:01,464 --> 00:14:05,297 And even though I sent her about 50 texts, she didn't respond. 204 00:14:06,054 --> 00:14:07,843 Happy Halloween. 205 00:14:07,844 --> 00:14:10,296 I could tell something bad had happened. 206 00:14:10,297 --> 00:14:12,923 And that it had something to do with Nate. 207 00:14:22,387 --> 00:14:24,465 Tyler Clarkson was booked for assault. 208 00:14:26,755 --> 00:14:31,129 But this shit wasn't adding up. 209 00:14:31,130 --> 00:14:33,922 And I was putting together the pieces of the puzzle. 210 00:14:35,155 --> 00:14:36,460 Howard, let's roll. 211 00:14:37,256 --> 00:14:40,422 I wasn't gonna stop until I got the truth. 212 00:14:42,297 --> 00:14:44,714 False accusations in today's world 213 00:14:44,715 --> 00:14:46,547 can cause serious long-term damage 214 00:14:46,548 --> 00:14:50,130 to one's career, reputation, and emotional well-being. 215 00:14:52,798 --> 00:14:55,588 We all owe Nate Jacobs a heartfelt apology, 216 00:14:55,589 --> 00:14:56,963 and are excited and thrilled 217 00:14:56,964 --> 00:14:59,839 to have him back at East Highland. 218 00:14:59,840 --> 00:15:02,005 Why would Jules lie to help Nate? 219 00:15:02,006 --> 00:15:03,255 I don't know. 220 00:15:03,256 --> 00:15:06,130 - Well, have you asked her about it? - No. 221 00:15:06,131 --> 00:15:08,213 - You haven't asked her? - No. 222 00:15:08,214 --> 00:15:10,171 Keep looking, you mook. 223 00:15:10,172 --> 00:15:12,105 I'm Morgan fuckin' Freeman 224 00:15:12,106 --> 00:15:14,255 and this is the beginning of the third act. 225 00:15:14,256 --> 00:15:17,130 Well, doesn't that seem like the first logical step? 226 00:15:18,756 --> 00:15:22,088 Honestly, Howard, this whole thing is beyond logic. 227 00:15:22,089 --> 00:15:24,881 Unless... 228 00:15:27,547 --> 00:15:29,005 Jules is in love with Nate. 229 00:15:29,422 --> 00:15:31,287 Why would Jules be in love with Nate? 230 00:15:31,288 --> 00:15:32,422 You should listen to me. 231 00:15:32,423 --> 00:15:33,711 Bennett, the cigarettes are killing me. 232 00:15:33,712 --> 00:15:34,712 Hear me out. Listen. Listen. 233 00:15:34,713 --> 00:15:36,630 Listen, the night of the carnival, she said she wanted 234 00:15:36,631 --> 00:15:38,547 to go meet up with this guy she met online, okay? 235 00:15:38,548 --> 00:15:41,171 He's some fuckin' jock, he's from a conservative family, 236 00:15:41,172 --> 00:15:43,338 and they were talking and texting. 237 00:15:43,339 --> 00:15:45,046 They've been texting for weeks. 238 00:15:45,047 --> 00:15:48,463 And when I say texting, I don't just mean regular fuckin' texting. 239 00:15:48,464 --> 00:15:49,798 They were sexting. 240 00:15:51,506 --> 00:15:53,490 Like nudes? 241 00:15:53,491 --> 00:15:55,422 Yeah. Side note, 242 00:15:55,423 --> 00:15:57,547 very nice dick. Very clean room. 243 00:15:57,548 --> 00:15:58,963 Oh. 244 00:15:58,964 --> 00:16:00,880 She never fucking saw his face. 245 00:16:00,881 --> 00:16:03,130 Yeah, so Jules is catfished. 246 00:16:03,131 --> 00:16:04,880 Now hear me out. So the night of the carnival, 247 00:16:04,881 --> 00:16:06,088 she made plans with this guy 248 00:16:06,089 --> 00:16:07,505 to meet up with him at the lake, okay? 249 00:16:07,506 --> 00:16:09,171 I fucking go home. Next thing I know... 250 00:16:09,172 --> 00:16:11,213 She's fucking knocking at my window. 251 00:16:11,214 --> 00:16:12,630 She's all emotional, 252 00:16:12,631 --> 00:16:14,088 she's got fucking tears in her eyes. 253 00:16:14,089 --> 00:16:16,922 I say, Jules, what the fuck happened? 254 00:16:16,923 --> 00:16:19,089 She looks at me. She goes... 255 00:16:19,839 --> 00:16:22,130 "He didn't look like his pictures." 256 00:16:22,714 --> 00:16:25,213 Yeah, that's like, the definition of catfishing. 257 00:16:25,214 --> 00:16:27,541 No, but do you know what his name was? 258 00:16:28,464 --> 00:16:31,214 - Nate Jacobs? - Tyler. 259 00:16:33,573 --> 00:16:36,005 Like, Tyler Clarkson? 260 00:16:37,506 --> 00:16:39,798 You're goddamned right. 261 00:16:40,782 --> 00:16:44,171 Maddy is 17, Tyler's 22, and they fornicated. 262 00:16:44,172 --> 00:16:45,799 Statutory. 263 00:16:45,800 --> 00:16:48,039 Yeah. You saw it, I saw it. We all fucking saw it. 264 00:16:48,040 --> 00:16:49,273 Including Nate. 265 00:16:49,274 --> 00:16:52,005 And what is a lighter offense than statutory? 266 00:16:52,006 --> 00:16:53,630 Assault. 267 00:16:53,631 --> 00:16:55,589 Bingo! 268 00:16:58,756 --> 00:17:01,296 Rue, are you pouring coffee in the water filter? 269 00:17:01,297 --> 00:17:03,171 - Yes, I am. - Instead of water? 270 00:17:03,172 --> 00:17:04,797 - Yes, I am. - Well, please, don't do that. 271 00:17:04,798 --> 00:17:07,630 And it's late. You shouldn't be drinking caffeine. 272 00:17:07,631 --> 00:17:10,311 Mom, please. I have homework. 273 00:17:11,317 --> 00:17:13,266 Well, there's a sentence I never thought I'd hear. 274 00:17:15,639 --> 00:17:17,714 Will you let me know when this is ready? 275 00:17:20,404 --> 00:17:21,496 Hello? 276 00:17:21,497 --> 00:17:23,005 Howard, it's Bennett. 277 00:17:23,006 --> 00:17:25,422 It's 2:45 in the morning. Don't you ever sleep? 278 00:17:25,423 --> 00:17:29,130 Listen, why would Nate single out Jules in the first place? 279 00:17:29,131 --> 00:17:31,923 It's obvious he was sexually attracted to her. 280 00:17:33,923 --> 00:17:36,963 And because Jules is predominantly het, okay, 281 00:17:36,964 --> 00:17:40,422 he wooed her with his, uh, fucking creepy jock magic shit. 282 00:17:40,423 --> 00:17:42,922 She's super fuckin' sensitive, she's very forgiving, 283 00:17:42,923 --> 00:17:44,503 and she's basically the most wonderful 284 00:17:44,504 --> 00:17:46,755 fucking person on the planet... 285 00:17:46,756 --> 00:17:48,672 she fell for him. 286 00:17:48,673 --> 00:17:50,839 That's why she fucking testified. 287 00:17:50,840 --> 00:17:53,922 I'm a genius. I'm a fucking genius. 288 00:17:53,923 --> 00:17:56,673 Hey, Mom! I'm a fucking genius. 289 00:17:57,964 --> 00:17:59,547 I'm not even tired. It's crazy. 290 00:17:59,548 --> 00:18:01,171 I'm not even fucking tired. 291 00:18:01,172 --> 00:18:02,588 I feel amazing. 292 00:18:02,589 --> 00:18:04,542 I'll be honest with you, Bennett. 293 00:18:05,335 --> 00:18:06,880 You're too close to this case. 294 00:18:18,464 --> 00:18:21,464 - Who was that? - Rue. 295 00:18:22,381 --> 00:18:25,085 Think she's in, like, a manic state. 296 00:18:25,638 --> 00:18:26,840 Is she okay? 297 00:18:28,089 --> 00:18:30,088 I don't think so. 298 00:18:43,422 --> 00:18:45,839 - Fuck. 299 00:18:56,130 --> 00:18:58,672 I don't know what you're gonna say, but this feels like... 300 00:18:58,673 --> 00:19:00,164 really dramatic. 301 00:19:00,964 --> 00:19:03,296 Yeah, this is spooky. 302 00:19:03,297 --> 00:19:05,714 It is not spooky, BB. 303 00:19:06,381 --> 00:19:10,338 I just, I need your advice on, like, two things. 304 00:19:10,339 --> 00:19:14,089 And I need you guys to promise me not to say a single fucking word. 305 00:19:17,547 --> 00:19:21,362 So, the night of Daniel's Halloween party, 306 00:19:21,363 --> 00:19:23,371 something happened. 307 00:19:34,110 --> 00:19:37,130 I don't usually come that fast. 308 00:19:39,047 --> 00:19:41,130 That was amazing. 309 00:19:42,756 --> 00:19:45,881 It's funny. I always thought I was gonna lose my virginity to you. 310 00:19:49,756 --> 00:19:53,839 - You're a virgin? - No, I mean, when we were younger. 311 00:19:53,840 --> 00:19:57,589 - When we dated. - We dated? 312 00:19:59,589 --> 00:20:01,332 Yeah, in sixth grade. 313 00:20:03,297 --> 00:20:04,540 You and me? 314 00:20:05,589 --> 00:20:08,589 Yeah, for like five months. 315 00:20:10,130 --> 00:20:11,631 Oh. 316 00:20:12,214 --> 00:20:15,964 I literally have no recollection of that. 317 00:20:20,297 --> 00:20:22,547 Wait. Am I hearing this correctly? 318 00:20:22,548 --> 00:20:24,797 You want to tell McKay that you made out with Daniel 319 00:20:24,798 --> 00:20:26,841 at the carnival and on Halloween? 320 00:20:26,842 --> 00:20:28,797 Yeah, but, I don't... I don't have to say it's Daniel. 321 00:20:28,798 --> 00:20:31,588 Bitch, that's the craziest idea I've ever heard. Right? 322 00:20:31,589 --> 00:20:32,922 For sure. 323 00:20:32,923 --> 00:20:35,123 Yeah, but I want to be honest with him. 324 00:20:37,464 --> 00:20:41,005 - You cannot tell McKay. - But it's not like I cheated-cheated. 325 00:20:41,006 --> 00:20:44,088 Kissing is worse. It's so much more intimate. 326 00:20:44,089 --> 00:20:47,338 And if anybody brings it up, you deny, deny, deny. 327 00:20:47,339 --> 00:20:49,171 Okay, but, I just... I don't want there to be 328 00:20:49,172 --> 00:20:50,672 something this bad between us forever. 329 00:20:50,673 --> 00:20:52,422 I wouldn't worry about it, Cassie. It's not like 330 00:20:52,423 --> 00:20:54,422 you guys are gonna be together forever. 331 00:20:54,423 --> 00:20:56,691 Kat, what the fuck is your problem? 332 00:20:56,692 --> 00:20:59,171 You're being a bad friend now. You were a bad friend to me, 333 00:20:59,172 --> 00:21:02,296 and this whole new personality is seriously unlikable. 334 00:21:02,297 --> 00:21:03,797 World Star! 335 00:21:03,798 --> 00:21:05,463 Why, because I won't sit and listen to you bitch and moan 336 00:21:05,464 --> 00:21:07,463 about your psychotic, abusive boyfriend 337 00:21:07,464 --> 00:21:09,755 who you've literally broken up with a thousand times? 338 00:21:09,756 --> 00:21:12,839 It was literally the lowest point in my life, so, yeah. 339 00:21:12,840 --> 00:21:15,046 That and the fact that you're just fuckin' mean. 340 00:21:15,047 --> 00:21:17,547 Maddy, ever since I've met you, all you talk about is yourself. 341 00:21:17,548 --> 00:21:19,922 Your clothes, your boyfriends, whatever superficial shit 342 00:21:19,923 --> 00:21:21,630 you think is so fucking important. 343 00:21:21,631 --> 00:21:23,296 Sorry I'm no longer interested. 344 00:21:23,297 --> 00:21:26,255 I don't know about everyone else, but I miss the old Kat. 345 00:21:26,256 --> 00:21:28,088 You know, the one who had a sense of humor 346 00:21:28,089 --> 00:21:29,926 and wasn't a fuckin' cunt? 347 00:21:29,927 --> 00:21:31,678 Damn. 348 00:22:06,172 --> 00:22:08,005 What was the other thing? 349 00:22:08,006 --> 00:22:10,005 What other thing? 350 00:22:10,006 --> 00:22:13,047 You said you needed advice on two things. 351 00:22:14,798 --> 00:22:16,228 I don't remember. 352 00:22:17,798 --> 00:22:19,229 What would you do? 353 00:22:20,881 --> 00:22:23,260 Um, I don't know. 354 00:22:23,261 --> 00:22:24,963 I've never really been in a situation 355 00:22:24,964 --> 00:22:27,588 where two guys have been interested in me. 356 00:22:27,589 --> 00:22:29,589 That's 'cause you're shy. 357 00:22:30,785 --> 00:22:33,880 I guess so, but I've also never been in a situation 358 00:22:33,881 --> 00:22:35,880 where I've been interested in two guys. 359 00:22:35,881 --> 00:22:38,047 That's also 'cause you're shy. 360 00:22:38,631 --> 00:22:40,185 Maybe. 361 00:22:41,098 --> 00:22:44,016 But if you were in my situation, what would you do? 362 00:22:46,255 --> 00:22:49,255 Honestly, I don't think I would say anything. 363 00:22:52,464 --> 00:22:55,881 What if not saying something makes you feel really bad? 364 00:22:57,454 --> 00:22:59,132 Worse than saying it? 365 00:23:00,326 --> 00:23:01,701 Yeah. 366 00:23:03,923 --> 00:23:07,464 Well, then, I don't think you have any other option. 367 00:23:23,214 --> 00:23:24,695 How are you feeling? 368 00:23:25,651 --> 00:23:28,567 Uh, I think I have the flu or something. 369 00:23:28,964 --> 00:23:31,029 You want me to get you something? 370 00:23:31,030 --> 00:23:34,339 - Something to drink, or something... - Uh, no, I'm good. 371 00:23:39,881 --> 00:23:42,127 You sure you got the flu, Rue? 372 00:23:44,015 --> 00:23:45,222 Gia, right now I just need you 373 00:23:45,223 --> 00:23:46,932 to leave me the fuck alone, all right? 374 00:23:58,255 --> 00:24:01,673 Previously... 375 00:24:09,881 --> 00:24:13,214 Look, Nate, we all make mistakes in life. 376 00:24:14,130 --> 00:24:15,714 We hurt the ones we love. 377 00:24:15,715 --> 00:24:18,005 We let down our friends, our family. 378 00:24:19,089 --> 00:24:20,755 Sometimes we do it out of ignorance. 379 00:24:20,756 --> 00:24:22,964 Sometimes it's selfishness. 380 00:24:25,422 --> 00:24:27,028 I am not perfect. 381 00:24:28,381 --> 00:24:30,047 You know that. 382 00:24:31,005 --> 00:24:33,338 But I've spent my life trying to do better. 383 00:24:33,339 --> 00:24:34,790 You have not. 384 00:24:36,881 --> 00:24:38,756 But it is my wish for you. 385 00:24:40,214 --> 00:24:42,564 I don't know how you got out of this situation. 386 00:24:43,214 --> 00:24:46,610 I know you didn't deserve to, but you did. 387 00:24:47,303 --> 00:24:49,179 And I admire whatever it took. 388 00:24:50,422 --> 00:24:52,996 I just hope it didn't teach you the wrong lesson. 389 00:25:15,350 --> 00:25:17,213 Okay, this is gonna sound sick, 390 00:25:17,214 --> 00:25:19,422 because I'm actually in a lot of pain right now, 391 00:25:19,423 --> 00:25:22,168 due to the sheer weight and strain on my bladder, 392 00:25:22,988 --> 00:25:25,923 but, man, does this make me miss opiates. 393 00:25:28,546 --> 00:25:31,088 Because your bladder is trained from a very early age 394 00:25:31,089 --> 00:25:32,922 not to pee whenever it wants to, 395 00:25:32,923 --> 00:25:34,714 it needs permission from your brain. 396 00:25:34,715 --> 00:25:36,046 And when you're really high, 397 00:25:36,047 --> 00:25:39,130 your brain gets a little... lazy. 398 00:25:39,131 --> 00:25:41,588 Too lazy to say something. 399 00:25:41,589 --> 00:25:44,213 Come on. Breathe. 400 00:25:44,214 --> 00:25:45,812 Come on, please. 401 00:25:45,813 --> 00:25:49,505 It's probably why so many drug addicts die on toilets. 402 00:25:55,005 --> 00:25:58,213 The truth is, the last time I left this room, 403 00:25:58,214 --> 00:26:00,506 I didn't have the best experience. 404 00:26:22,756 --> 00:26:24,487 Sleeping all day? 405 00:26:25,506 --> 00:26:28,062 It's quite the life. 406 00:26:28,063 --> 00:26:32,296 Meet Rick. My mom's new boyfriend. 407 00:26:32,297 --> 00:26:34,963 If you were to ask Rick to describe himself, 408 00:26:34,964 --> 00:26:36,755 he'd say he was... 409 00:26:36,756 --> 00:26:38,255 "A romantic at heart. 410 00:26:38,256 --> 00:26:41,088 I'm adventurous. I love to travel. 411 00:26:41,089 --> 00:26:43,296 I love the outdoors... 412 00:26:43,297 --> 00:26:48,506 great art, great movies, great wine. Forever young." 413 00:26:55,714 --> 00:26:58,296 Sorry, I'm sorry. 414 00:26:58,297 --> 00:26:59,797 Oh. 415 00:26:59,798 --> 00:27:03,255 - I miss your dad. - Me, too. 416 00:27:03,256 --> 00:27:06,068 So, enter Rick. 417 00:27:06,069 --> 00:27:08,172 So... 418 00:27:09,964 --> 00:27:13,505 Your mom tells me that you have a new, uh, 419 00:27:13,506 --> 00:27:15,255 "best friend." 420 00:27:16,881 --> 00:27:18,438 What is that supposed to mean? 421 00:27:19,589 --> 00:27:21,255 That, you know. 422 00:27:22,214 --> 00:27:25,339 You got a new best friend. 423 00:27:28,875 --> 00:27:30,232 You know what, Rick? 424 00:27:32,047 --> 00:27:33,641 Why don't you go fuck yourself? 425 00:27:34,339 --> 00:27:36,380 How dare you speak to someone like that? 426 00:27:36,381 --> 00:27:38,005 - Like that? - Who? Rick. 427 00:27:38,006 --> 00:27:39,963 - Don't be a smart-ass. - Did I offend you? 428 00:27:39,964 --> 00:27:41,672 Apologize right now. 429 00:27:41,673 --> 00:27:43,922 In retrospect, that was a little cunt-y. 430 00:27:43,923 --> 00:27:47,338 But Rick does suck, and I was angry. 431 00:27:47,339 --> 00:27:49,130 For a lot of reasons. 432 00:27:49,131 --> 00:27:51,130 Rick, I sincerely apologize 433 00:27:51,131 --> 00:27:53,120 for telling you to go fuck yourself. 434 00:27:55,460 --> 00:27:57,714 What I really meant to say is that my mom can do better 435 00:27:57,715 --> 00:28:00,422 and I hate seeing you sit in the chair my dad sat at. 436 00:28:47,217 --> 00:28:49,175 If I am bipolar... 437 00:28:50,884 --> 00:28:54,258 I sure as shit prefer mania over depression. 438 00:28:56,214 --> 00:28:59,213 Yo, Fez. So you know how in every '90s thriller, right, 439 00:28:59,214 --> 00:29:02,630 Morgan Freeman plays, like, the same semi-psychic black cop. 440 00:29:02,631 --> 00:29:05,046 - Yeah. - So, I know that's kind of racist, 441 00:29:05,047 --> 00:29:06,797 but the point is, in every movie, 442 00:29:06,798 --> 00:29:10,213 he's always calmly putting the fucking pieces of the case together, 443 00:29:10,214 --> 00:29:12,213 while everybody else around him is fucking freaking out, 444 00:29:12,214 --> 00:29:14,547 saying, "You don't know what the fuck you're talking about, Morgan. 445 00:29:14,548 --> 00:29:16,255 You're... You're a fucking bad husband. 446 00:29:16,256 --> 00:29:17,863 You should fucking retire." 447 00:29:17,864 --> 00:29:21,922 But no. Morgan is fucking hyper-focused. 448 00:29:21,923 --> 00:29:24,422 Because he can see beyond the little details. 449 00:29:24,423 --> 00:29:26,714 He's looking for the big fuckin' picture. 450 00:29:26,715 --> 00:29:29,756 Because all of this shit? It's connected, Fez. 451 00:29:30,297 --> 00:29:34,463 And it is way bigger than any of us can even fucking see. 452 00:29:37,172 --> 00:29:38,963 The point is, that's me. 453 00:29:38,964 --> 00:29:42,213 Right now, that is fucking me. 454 00:29:42,214 --> 00:29:45,673 I can see everything so fucking clearly. 455 00:29:46,214 --> 00:29:48,296 I know what happened, I know why it happened, 456 00:29:48,297 --> 00:29:51,151 and I know what the fuck I'm gonna do about it. 457 00:29:52,881 --> 00:29:54,213 Word. 458 00:29:54,214 --> 00:29:55,631 Word. 459 00:29:56,464 --> 00:30:00,005 - She can't hear me, right? - She can't see you, either. 460 00:30:00,006 --> 00:30:03,214 Okay, good, 'cause this is, like, some real top-secret shit. 461 00:30:03,714 --> 00:30:07,547 Trust me, Rue, she not gonna gossip. 462 00:30:08,693 --> 00:30:10,160 Okay. 463 00:30:11,214 --> 00:30:14,214 - Do you still have that gun? - What gun? 464 00:30:15,161 --> 00:30:16,881 The one from the couch. 465 00:30:18,260 --> 00:30:21,208 I mean, I got a couple guns. 466 00:30:21,794 --> 00:30:23,437 Why do you have so many guns? 467 00:30:23,438 --> 00:30:25,172 My grandma. 468 00:30:28,106 --> 00:30:29,396 That's cool. 469 00:30:29,398 --> 00:30:31,767 What you worried about my guns for? 470 00:30:34,214 --> 00:30:37,123 Okay, well, I was thinking... 471 00:30:37,976 --> 00:30:42,581 that maybe you could use one to scare Nate Jacobs. 472 00:30:44,964 --> 00:30:46,964 Are you serious? 473 00:30:46,966 --> 00:30:50,317 I mean, I'm not not serious. 474 00:30:50,318 --> 00:30:52,296 Rue, that must be the dumbest shit 475 00:30:52,297 --> 00:30:53,963 you've said all fucking day. 476 00:30:53,964 --> 00:30:56,880 You don't have to fucking point it at him. You could just... 477 00:30:56,881 --> 00:31:00,296 You could, like... You could flash it. 478 00:31:00,297 --> 00:31:03,380 You really have lost your fuckin' mind, Rue. 479 00:31:03,381 --> 00:31:05,547 Fuck, it's a bad fucking idea, okay? 480 00:31:05,548 --> 00:31:07,699 I just was fucking spit balling, here. 481 00:31:10,171 --> 00:31:12,130 I mean, he fucked with me, he fucked with Jules. 482 00:31:12,131 --> 00:31:14,547 And I want fucking revenge. Okay? 483 00:31:14,548 --> 00:31:16,381 Sorry. 484 00:31:20,422 --> 00:31:22,547 Fuck. Mouse is here. 485 00:31:22,548 --> 00:31:23,881 The guy with the... 486 00:31:23,882 --> 00:31:26,630 All right, so, stay in here. Be quiet... 487 00:31:26,631 --> 00:31:28,755 Fez, I can't... I can't stay in here. Like, I'm really... 488 00:31:28,756 --> 00:31:30,797 - Yes, the fuck you can. Shh! - I'm not good with awkward silences. 489 00:31:30,798 --> 00:31:33,422 Be quiet. Listen, I'm really serious right now. 490 00:31:33,423 --> 00:31:35,839 You just need to sit your manic ass down, 491 00:31:35,840 --> 00:31:38,422 and be quiet for five fuckin' minutes, Rue. 492 00:31:38,423 --> 00:31:40,171 I'm not fuckin' playin' with you. 493 00:31:40,172 --> 00:31:43,964 Sit down and shut the fuck up. 494 00:31:59,464 --> 00:32:01,505 Okay. 495 00:32:01,506 --> 00:32:03,673 So fuckin' weird. 496 00:32:14,800 --> 00:32:16,425 Psst. 497 00:32:18,469 --> 00:32:19,761 Psst. 498 00:32:23,339 --> 00:32:24,339 Psst. 499 00:32:25,422 --> 00:32:26,881 Yo, Rue. 500 00:32:28,754 --> 00:32:30,380 Rue. 501 00:32:30,381 --> 00:32:32,213 Rue, I'm so lonely. 502 00:32:32,214 --> 00:32:35,100 Me, too. Don't forget about me. 503 00:32:35,101 --> 00:32:38,630 That old lady? She doesn't even know we exist. 504 00:32:38,631 --> 00:32:40,839 Rue! 505 00:32:40,840 --> 00:32:43,963 Eat us all. 506 00:32:43,964 --> 00:32:45,004 - Eat... - Us... 507 00:32:45,005 --> 00:32:45,963 - All! - Eat... 508 00:32:45,964 --> 00:32:46,984 - Us... - All! 509 00:32:46,985 --> 00:32:49,505 Eat us all! Eat us all! 510 00:32:54,881 --> 00:32:57,714 Yo, I'm gonna need you to start moving some weight. 511 00:32:59,214 --> 00:33:02,505 Yo, I'm just trying to keep it low-key over here, man. 512 00:33:02,506 --> 00:33:04,380 And I'm trying to make fuckin' money. 513 00:33:04,381 --> 00:33:06,880 Even if wanted all this shit, bruh, 514 00:33:06,881 --> 00:33:09,005 I don't got the money for all this, man. 515 00:33:09,006 --> 00:33:11,880 That's why you in luck. I'm gonna front it to you. 516 00:33:11,881 --> 00:33:15,089 Ten percent on the vig, and I'll collect in a month. 517 00:33:17,130 --> 00:33:19,338 I'm not tryin' to do all that shit, man. 518 00:33:21,131 --> 00:33:22,620 I ain't asking, bruh. 519 00:33:23,589 --> 00:33:25,673 Step yo shit up. 520 00:33:29,172 --> 00:33:32,296 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven. 521 00:33:32,297 --> 00:33:35,755 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven. 522 00:33:35,756 --> 00:33:37,089 One... 523 00:34:12,923 --> 00:34:14,547 The other thing about depression 524 00:34:14,548 --> 00:34:16,755 is it kind of collapses time. 525 00:34:16,756 --> 00:34:18,589 Rue, are you listening? 526 00:34:20,798 --> 00:34:24,005 Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together 527 00:34:24,006 --> 00:34:27,422 to create one endless and suffocating loop. 528 00:34:36,130 --> 00:34:38,130 So you find yourself trying to remember 529 00:34:38,131 --> 00:34:40,589 the things that made you happy. 530 00:34:45,005 --> 00:34:47,505 - Do you want to get closer? - Yeah. 531 00:34:47,506 --> 00:34:50,046 But slowly, your brain begins to erase 532 00:34:50,047 --> 00:34:52,964 every memory that ever brought you joy. 533 00:34:58,798 --> 00:35:00,839 And eventually, 534 00:35:00,840 --> 00:35:04,673 all you can think about is how life has always been this way. 535 00:35:08,673 --> 00:35:11,714 And will only continue to be this way. 536 00:35:17,462 --> 00:35:20,547 Previously, on Love Island... 537 00:35:20,548 --> 00:35:22,672 Grab the amazing-ness 538 00:35:22,673 --> 00:35:24,630 that you have with Josh by the balls. 539 00:35:24,631 --> 00:35:27,672 I wonder if Jules is having fun. 540 00:35:27,673 --> 00:35:29,714 Stay clear of the tracks... 541 00:35:58,381 --> 00:36:00,714 Oh, I missed you! 542 00:36:01,589 --> 00:36:03,630 So how are the suburbs treating you? 543 00:36:03,631 --> 00:36:05,547 They're claustrophobic. 544 00:36:05,548 --> 00:36:08,296 Yeah, how do you like it? How you doing? 545 00:36:08,297 --> 00:36:12,547 I don't know. It's been a weird, weird-ass year. 546 00:36:13,631 --> 00:36:15,380 Weird in what way? 547 00:36:15,381 --> 00:36:17,672 Weird in every way. 548 00:36:17,673 --> 00:36:20,839 Shit. You make some good friends, at least? 549 00:36:20,840 --> 00:36:23,213 - Yeah, I got one. - Yeah? 550 00:36:23,214 --> 00:36:25,880 But it's, like, complicated. 551 00:36:25,881 --> 00:36:27,422 Oh. 552 00:36:27,423 --> 00:36:30,380 Well, are you friends, or are you a little bit more, 553 00:36:30,381 --> 00:36:32,714 - like a special kind of friend? - Both, I guess? 554 00:36:32,715 --> 00:36:34,296 - Aah. - Yeah. 555 00:36:34,297 --> 00:36:36,922 Okay. What, are you in love with him or something? 556 00:36:36,923 --> 00:36:39,922 - Her, not him. - Oh! 557 00:36:39,923 --> 00:36:41,672 - Ooh, a little plot twist. Okay! - Yeah. 558 00:36:41,673 --> 00:36:43,714 No room for hetero-normativity in here. 559 00:36:43,715 --> 00:36:44,715 My bad. 560 00:36:45,255 --> 00:36:47,463 So... what? 561 00:36:47,464 --> 00:36:50,714 - I don't know. I don't know what it is. - Yeah. 562 00:36:50,715 --> 00:36:53,381 It's not, like, great right now. 563 00:36:56,964 --> 00:37:00,464 I'm not exactly, like, in the best place. 564 00:37:02,589 --> 00:37:04,631 Why? What's going on? 565 00:37:07,631 --> 00:37:10,589 I came here so I wouldn't have to think about it. 566 00:37:13,255 --> 00:37:14,798 Understood. 567 00:37:41,673 --> 00:37:43,005 Oh! 568 00:37:51,297 --> 00:37:54,214 - This one? - No, I'm one more up. 569 00:38:07,131 --> 00:38:08,964 Yo, Anna. 570 00:38:10,839 --> 00:38:12,338 - Hey. - Anna, 571 00:38:12,339 --> 00:38:14,631 someone I want you to meet. 572 00:38:15,255 --> 00:38:17,881 Hi. I'm Jules. 573 00:38:19,172 --> 00:38:20,881 I know. 574 00:38:21,714 --> 00:38:24,088 - Like it? - Did y'all make these? 575 00:38:24,089 --> 00:38:28,297 - Our friend did. - I mean, are you guys gonna go out? 576 00:38:28,798 --> 00:38:31,380 Uh, Anna's always trying to put makeup on me. 577 00:38:31,381 --> 00:38:33,338 So awkward. 578 00:38:39,881 --> 00:38:42,588 I remember walking out of Sears 579 00:38:42,589 --> 00:38:45,131 with my first pair of heels in my backpack. 580 00:38:45,132 --> 00:38:46,046 Cute. 581 00:38:46,047 --> 00:38:50,171 And my heart was fucking racing. 582 00:38:50,172 --> 00:38:53,338 And I got home, and went straight to my room, 583 00:38:53,339 --> 00:38:56,046 locked the door, put 'em on... 584 00:38:56,047 --> 00:38:59,130 And, I just... 585 00:38:59,131 --> 00:39:00,797 felt like... 586 00:39:00,798 --> 00:39:03,005 I was collecting... 587 00:39:03,006 --> 00:39:09,089 herbs, or making potions in order to up my manna, you know? 588 00:39:10,547 --> 00:39:11,922 Like, it started with that, 589 00:39:11,923 --> 00:39:14,380 and then it was clothes, and then it was... 590 00:39:14,381 --> 00:39:18,380 makeup, and eventually hormones. 591 00:39:18,381 --> 00:39:22,631 Um, I just kind of kept leveling up. 592 00:39:23,839 --> 00:39:27,213 So, what level are you at now? 593 00:39:27,214 --> 00:39:29,338 I don't know. 594 00:39:29,339 --> 00:39:34,631 But I definitely haven't reached my full power. 595 00:39:37,297 --> 00:39:39,880 But you date guys, right? 596 00:39:39,881 --> 00:39:42,547 Date isn't really the right word. 597 00:39:42,548 --> 00:39:44,880 What she means to say is that she's a slut. 598 00:39:44,881 --> 00:39:48,255 - Fuck you! - What, it's not an insult! 599 00:39:48,256 --> 00:39:51,506 - I mean... - But you normally hook up with guys. 600 00:39:52,964 --> 00:39:54,630 Yeah, but... 601 00:39:54,631 --> 00:39:57,755 my relationship to men is weird. 602 00:39:57,756 --> 00:40:01,297 - Like, how? - In my head, it's like... 603 00:40:03,923 --> 00:40:06,296 If I can conquer men, 604 00:40:06,297 --> 00:40:09,464 then I can conquer femininity. 605 00:40:11,464 --> 00:40:14,339 Why do you need a guy to make you feel more feminine? 606 00:40:17,631 --> 00:40:18,964 Hmm? 607 00:40:20,798 --> 00:40:23,631 We'll circle back to that one. 608 00:40:26,714 --> 00:40:29,922 - So have you? - Have I what? 609 00:40:29,924 --> 00:40:32,047 Conquered femininity? 610 00:40:33,547 --> 00:40:35,339 I don't know. 611 00:40:35,798 --> 00:40:38,630 But, it's not like I even want to conquer it. 612 00:40:38,631 --> 00:40:41,463 It's like I want to fuckin' obliterate it. 613 00:40:41,464 --> 00:40:45,463 - And then move on to the next level. - Mmm. 614 00:40:45,464 --> 00:40:48,338 And the next, and the next. 615 00:40:48,339 --> 00:40:51,463 Level up. Level up! 616 00:40:51,464 --> 00:40:55,547 Yeah. I don't really know what the means, or looks like, but... 617 00:40:56,839 --> 00:40:59,422 - I want it. - Queerness is infinite. 618 00:41:01,297 --> 00:41:03,839 Okay, look at me. 619 00:41:05,339 --> 00:41:08,214 Yeah. You look adorable. 620 00:41:09,506 --> 00:41:11,547 Stop. 621 00:41:17,813 --> 00:41:19,161 I'm pregnant. 622 00:41:21,130 --> 00:41:22,422 What? 623 00:41:24,340 --> 00:41:26,885 Are you for real that you're 100 percent pregnant? 624 00:41:29,297 --> 00:41:30,339 Yeah. 625 00:41:38,923 --> 00:41:40,839 I... 626 00:41:42,714 --> 00:41:44,589 I'm sorry, uh... 627 00:41:46,005 --> 00:41:47,881 Are you all right? 628 00:41:50,631 --> 00:41:53,756 Yeah, I'm... I'm just a little bit nervous. 629 00:41:55,589 --> 00:41:57,381 Nervous about what? 630 00:41:59,297 --> 00:42:01,089 About what you're gonna say. 631 00:42:07,504 --> 00:42:09,541 You're not really thinking about having this kid, are you? 632 00:42:14,288 --> 00:42:15,975 I really love you, McKay. 633 00:42:16,923 --> 00:42:18,046 Yeah, I love you, too, 634 00:42:18,047 --> 00:42:20,089 but I'm doing a lot of shit right now. 635 00:42:21,422 --> 00:42:23,207 I'm in the middle of school right now. 636 00:42:24,140 --> 00:42:26,682 It's a big fuckin' responsibility, Cassie. 637 00:42:29,005 --> 00:42:31,923 What if this is what I'm supposed to do with my life? 638 00:42:37,005 --> 00:42:38,506 What the fuck? 639 00:42:39,255 --> 00:42:41,463 My parents are gonna kill me. 640 00:42:41,464 --> 00:42:42,672 My coach is gonna kill me. 641 00:42:42,673 --> 00:42:44,234 My parents are gonna fucking kill me. 642 00:42:44,923 --> 00:42:46,506 Fuck. 643 00:42:49,047 --> 00:42:52,088 Cass, I don't even think you wanna have this baby, okay? 644 00:42:52,089 --> 00:42:54,505 It's not a... It's not a fuckin' fairy tale. Like... 645 00:42:54,506 --> 00:42:58,089 It may seem all cute and cuddly to you, but this is real shit. 646 00:42:58,798 --> 00:43:00,547 I'm not even ready to be a dad. 647 00:43:00,548 --> 00:43:03,714 I don't know if that's selfish to say or whatever, but... 648 00:43:03,715 --> 00:43:05,964 Children are fuckin' scary. 649 00:43:08,806 --> 00:43:11,045 You wanted to talk about it, so here we are, we're talking about it. 650 00:43:11,047 --> 00:43:12,839 But I say we don't do it. 651 00:43:14,798 --> 00:43:18,339 I'm not saying I'm gonna have a baby. 652 00:43:22,786 --> 00:43:25,753 I just wanted to dream about it for a minute. 653 00:43:51,312 --> 00:43:54,198 You'll make the best mother on the planet one day. 654 00:43:56,881 --> 00:43:59,381 I say that without a doubt. 655 00:44:07,673 --> 00:44:10,547 Hello? 656 00:44:12,214 --> 00:44:15,255 For some reason your screen is black. Should I call you back? 657 00:44:15,256 --> 00:44:18,088 No, I prefer to keep it that way. 658 00:44:18,089 --> 00:44:20,338 Oh. Okay. 659 00:44:20,339 --> 00:44:22,063 You drive a hard bargain. 660 00:44:22,064 --> 00:44:24,755 Yeah, well, a girl's gotta eat. 661 00:44:24,756 --> 00:44:26,672 300 for thirty minutes. 662 00:44:26,673 --> 00:44:31,171 - You should have asked for more. - Really? 663 00:44:31,172 --> 00:44:35,589 Let me see your whole body. Stand up. 664 00:44:42,589 --> 00:44:43,929 Yes. 665 00:44:45,589 --> 00:44:47,422 Keep going. 666 00:44:48,464 --> 00:44:49,964 Yes. 667 00:44:51,422 --> 00:44:53,464 Fantastic. 668 00:45:04,964 --> 00:45:07,005 Are you nervous? 669 00:45:07,006 --> 00:45:10,588 I-I-I... I mean, I don't usually, um... 670 00:45:10,589 --> 00:45:12,338 undress. 671 00:45:12,339 --> 00:45:16,589 But I am special. Right? 672 00:45:19,047 --> 00:45:20,589 Yes. 673 00:45:21,756 --> 00:45:23,964 Then say it. 674 00:45:25,631 --> 00:45:27,755 You're special. 675 00:45:27,756 --> 00:45:31,464 So, get undressed. 676 00:45:48,631 --> 00:45:51,798 Oh, wow. 677 00:45:58,902 --> 00:46:02,130 You're beautiful. 678 00:46:20,839 --> 00:46:23,839 - Can you get me a mango La Croix? - Um-hmm. 679 00:46:23,840 --> 00:46:27,214 - And those cherry rolling papers? - Anything else? 680 00:46:37,756 --> 00:46:40,422 - What up, Fez? - What's up, man? 681 00:46:40,423 --> 00:46:44,089 Yo, can I get, uh, two of the rolling papers, too, bruh? 682 00:46:45,756 --> 00:46:47,505 Yo, man. 683 00:46:47,506 --> 00:46:51,464 I don't know what's been going on with you, Rue, and Jules and shit. 684 00:46:52,172 --> 00:46:56,255 But you should know, I really do care about her. 685 00:47:00,850 --> 00:47:02,828 Aren't you, like, her drug dealer? 686 00:47:03,839 --> 00:47:05,422 Nah, man. 687 00:47:06,964 --> 00:47:09,214 What, are you in a relationship? 688 00:47:10,297 --> 00:47:12,714 Nah, bruh, that's like, my family. 689 00:47:12,715 --> 00:47:14,279 So it's platonic. 690 00:47:15,006 --> 00:47:16,755 Look, man, 691 00:47:16,756 --> 00:47:19,841 all I'm saying is, leave her and her friends alone. 692 00:47:22,005 --> 00:47:23,268 Is that a threat? 693 00:47:25,506 --> 00:47:27,500 Nah, I'm just telling you. 694 00:47:28,339 --> 00:47:29,566 Or what? 695 00:47:30,881 --> 00:47:33,756 We're not gonna be having this conversation. 696 00:47:43,547 --> 00:47:45,589 Fezco, let's get this straight. 697 00:47:46,547 --> 00:47:48,422 You're, like, half a retard. 698 00:47:48,423 --> 00:47:50,963 You dropped out of school at 20, and now... 699 00:47:50,964 --> 00:47:52,661 you're a gangster. 700 00:47:53,662 --> 00:47:57,130 What are you, like, fucking Tony Montana? What's the plan? Hmm? 701 00:47:57,131 --> 00:48:00,422 You gonna be living in a mansion, fuckin' pet tigers and shit? 702 00:48:02,077 --> 00:48:04,038 Go fuck yourself. 703 00:48:05,214 --> 00:48:06,891 Listen, bruh. 704 00:48:08,778 --> 00:48:12,410 All I'm sayin', you keep fuckin' with Rue and her friends, 705 00:48:12,990 --> 00:48:14,383 and I'mma kill you. 706 00:48:17,984 --> 00:48:20,255 It's gonna be $5.75, playboy. 707 00:48:39,423 --> 00:48:44,005 An adult bladder can hold two cups of urine. 708 00:48:44,006 --> 00:48:46,880 But if you're telling your bladder to hold off because, say, 709 00:48:46,881 --> 00:48:49,714 you're in the worst depression of your fucking life, 710 00:48:49,715 --> 00:48:52,088 your bladder will eventually fill. 711 00:48:54,256 --> 00:48:56,839 And what begins to happen is... 712 00:48:56,840 --> 00:48:58,797 all of the toxins that your kidneys 713 00:48:58,798 --> 00:49:00,296 have pushed into your bladder 714 00:49:00,297 --> 00:49:02,714 begin to travel back into your kidneys. 715 00:49:07,089 --> 00:49:08,463 Fuck. 716 00:49:08,464 --> 00:49:11,171 I know what you're thinking. Rue, this is insane. 717 00:49:11,172 --> 00:49:14,005 Don't get a kidney infection. Walk to the bathroom. 718 00:49:15,172 --> 00:49:18,798 Trust me, I'm thinking the same fuckin' thing. 719 00:49:22,130 --> 00:49:24,005 Like a little pot? 720 00:50:33,047 --> 00:50:35,463 - You remind me of her. - Who? 721 00:50:37,172 --> 00:50:39,380 My best friend. 722 00:50:39,381 --> 00:50:42,005 So what's she like? 723 00:50:42,006 --> 00:50:45,672 Honestly? Kind of a mess. 724 00:50:45,673 --> 00:50:47,422 So I'm a mess? 725 00:50:48,255 --> 00:50:51,093 - Yeah. - How am I a mess? 726 00:50:52,798 --> 00:50:55,714 I don't know yet. 727 00:51:08,172 --> 00:51:10,506 - Should I text her? - No. 728 00:51:31,798 --> 00:51:33,963 You only get one more. 729 00:51:35,589 --> 00:51:37,463 Fuck. 730 00:52:26,381 --> 00:52:27,756 Jules. 731 00:52:28,839 --> 00:52:30,380 What are you doing here? 732 00:52:30,381 --> 00:52:32,869 - You texted me. - I did? 733 00:52:33,381 --> 00:52:35,381 Did you not want me to come? 734 00:52:37,422 --> 00:52:39,073 You here alone? 735 00:52:45,131 --> 00:52:46,922 No, no, no, no, no. 736 00:52:52,964 --> 00:52:54,755 I'm scared of you, Nate. 737 00:52:54,756 --> 00:52:57,297 I'm sorry. For everything. 738 00:52:58,839 --> 00:53:01,130 I'm sorry for hurting you. 739 00:53:02,923 --> 00:53:04,380 You... 740 00:53:04,381 --> 00:53:08,046 you were the most beautiful person that I've ever known. 741 00:53:08,047 --> 00:53:10,588 I'm Tyler. 742 00:53:10,589 --> 00:53:12,861 I'm the person that you fell in love with. 743 00:53:14,030 --> 00:53:16,630 I wanna kill you. 744 00:53:16,631 --> 00:53:19,130 I'm yours. I'm all yours. 745 00:53:32,631 --> 00:53:34,839 You're a pussy. 746 00:53:34,840 --> 00:53:37,089 You're a bitch. 747 00:53:39,422 --> 00:53:42,089 And I wish the whole fucking world could know. 748 00:54:08,673 --> 00:54:10,523 I know this isn't gonna end well. 749 00:54:31,631 --> 00:54:32,795 Hello? 750 00:54:35,130 --> 00:54:36,889 Yeah, I'd like to report a crime. 751 00:54:52,130 --> 00:54:53,798 Mom. 752 00:54:57,297 --> 00:54:59,172 I think I need your help. 753 00:55:15,798 --> 00:55:16,964 Come here. 754 00:55:17,422 --> 00:55:20,505 Come here. It's okay. It's okay. I love you so much. 755 00:55:21,798 --> 00:55:24,215 I love you so much. You're so beautiful. 756 00:55:39,089 --> 00:55:40,380 Fuck! 757 00:55:40,381 --> 00:55:42,255 East Highland PD! 758 00:55:42,256 --> 00:55:43,880 - Open the door! - Come on, bro. 759 00:55:43,881 --> 00:55:45,547 Hurry the fuck up out there! 760 00:55:45,548 --> 00:55:47,246 We know you're in there. Open up! 761 00:55:47,247 --> 00:55:49,839 Fuck! Goddamn it! 762 00:55:50,381 --> 00:55:52,797 - Fuck, bro. - What the fuck, man? 763 00:55:52,798 --> 00:55:54,388 Come on, bruh. Hurry up, for real, man. 764 00:55:57,172 --> 00:55:59,839 Unlock the door! Open up, now! 765 00:55:59,840 --> 00:56:01,880 Goddamn it! 766 00:56:10,255 --> 00:56:12,756 Rue, what's wrong? 767 00:56:19,339 --> 00:56:21,422 Okay, baby. Come on. 768 00:56:22,089 --> 00:56:24,255 Come on. Come on. 769 00:56:25,214 --> 00:56:26,588 I had a therapist once 770 00:56:26,589 --> 00:56:29,296 who said that these states will wax and wane. 771 00:56:29,297 --> 00:56:30,922 Which gave my mother relief, 772 00:56:30,923 --> 00:56:33,088 because it meant that in the bad times, 773 00:56:33,089 --> 00:56:35,255 there would be good times. 774 00:56:38,339 --> 00:56:39,755 But it also gave her anxiety 775 00:56:39,756 --> 00:56:41,880 because it meant that in the good times, 776 00:56:41,881 --> 00:56:43,567 there would be bad times. 777 00:56:44,381 --> 00:56:45,630 It always confused me, 778 00:56:45,631 --> 00:56:48,255 because I didn't really know what it meant. 779 00:56:48,589 --> 00:56:50,506 It's okay, baby. 780 00:56:51,756 --> 00:56:53,297 It's okay. 781 00:56:54,214 --> 00:56:55,839 But it did sound a lot calmer 782 00:56:55,840 --> 00:56:58,130 than the way I would describe it. 783 00:57:07,798 --> 00:57:11,339 I think I need to go back on medication. 784 00:57:18,673 --> 00:57:23,673 There you go. How you feel? Okay? 785 00:57:29,798 --> 00:57:32,672 I know you're feeling low right now, baby. 786 00:57:32,673 --> 00:57:36,464 But the fact that you didn't turn back means you're gettin' better. 787 00:57:39,005 --> 00:57:40,964 It does. 788 00:57:43,005 --> 00:57:44,506 It does. 789 00:57:48,255 --> 00:57:50,213 Granted, I didn't realize until later 790 00:57:50,214 --> 00:57:53,463 what waxing and waning implied. 791 00:57:53,464 --> 00:57:56,338 That these feelings were fixed and constant 792 00:57:56,339 --> 00:57:59,506 and would never end for the rest of my life. 793 01:00:48,844 --> 01:00:50,464 Last night, 794 01:00:50,466 --> 01:00:52,330 I couldn't stop thinking about the day you were born. 795 01:00:53,798 --> 01:00:55,547 What if I heard a voice... 796 01:00:57,193 --> 01:00:59,046 Some narrator who said... 797 01:01:01,464 --> 01:01:03,213 "Here's what's going to happen." 798 01:01:24,089 --> 01:01:26,672 Obviously, there's something wrong with her! 799 01:01:31,089 --> 01:01:33,380 But all this happened because I left.