1 00:00:15,750 --> 00:00:16,999 Go ahead, Rue. 2 00:00:17,000 --> 00:00:18,946 I met someone. 3 00:00:19,390 --> 00:00:20,514 She's helped. 4 00:00:20,515 --> 00:00:22,725 Now, I want to stay clean. 5 00:00:23,667 --> 00:00:26,416 So, thank you. 6 00:00:27,750 --> 00:00:29,207 I'm really proud of you, Rue. 7 00:00:29,208 --> 00:00:31,458 You've come a long way. 8 00:00:31,917 --> 00:00:33,583 Just take your time. 9 00:00:33,958 --> 00:00:34,958 You're delicate. 10 00:00:35,416 --> 00:00:38,249 Every time I feel good, I think it'll last forever. 11 00:00:42,249 --> 00:00:43,999 These states will wax and wane. 12 00:00:45,541 --> 00:00:47,083 I think I need your help. 13 00:00:48,208 --> 00:00:50,999 In bad times, there would be good times. 14 00:00:54,208 --> 00:00:55,918 But also, in the good times... 15 00:00:55,919 --> 00:00:57,207 You're fucking dead to me. 16 00:00:57,208 --> 00:00:58,583 There would be bad times. 17 00:00:59,219 --> 00:01:00,344 You look different. 18 00:01:00,759 --> 00:01:02,051 I miss the old Kat. 19 00:01:03,166 --> 00:01:04,916 Leave Rue and her friends alone. 20 00:01:04,917 --> 00:01:05,958 Is that a threat? 21 00:01:06,708 --> 00:01:09,750 I guess it's true. Life is always this way. 22 00:01:10,625 --> 00:01:13,833 You're okay, baby. You're okay. 23 00:01:26,115 --> 00:01:28,457 One of the benefits of showing up at the hospital 24 00:01:28,458 --> 00:01:31,250 in the middle of the night with a kidney infection 25 00:01:31,251 --> 00:01:32,869 is that the first thing they do... 26 00:01:32,870 --> 00:01:34,628 Take this with a full cup of water. 27 00:01:34,629 --> 00:01:36,582 is give you something to bring down your fever 28 00:01:36,583 --> 00:01:38,916 and subdue the agonizing pain you're in. 29 00:01:38,917 --> 00:01:41,208 - Is this Vicodin? - Yes. 30 00:01:44,124 --> 00:01:47,124 - Five milligrams? - Uh, yes. 31 00:01:47,125 --> 00:01:49,582 I know what you're all thinking. 32 00:01:51,041 --> 00:01:54,033 I, um, I got my wisdom teeth taken out, like, a year ago, 33 00:01:54,034 --> 00:01:55,541 and they gave me Vicodin. 34 00:01:55,542 --> 00:01:57,374 It... It just wasn't... It wasn't good for me. 35 00:01:57,375 --> 00:02:00,457 It really, really upsets my stomach. 36 00:02:00,458 --> 00:02:03,666 - Oh. Okay. - Yeah. 37 00:02:03,667 --> 00:02:06,270 I think I'll just go with plain Tylenol. 38 00:02:06,271 --> 00:02:07,510 Are you sure? 39 00:02:07,511 --> 00:02:09,833 Kidney infections are extremely painful. 40 00:02:10,208 --> 00:02:11,833 I'm sure. 41 00:02:12,917 --> 00:02:15,499 Unless... 42 00:02:15,500 --> 00:02:18,746 I can't quite remember what they put me on instead. 43 00:02:18,747 --> 00:02:21,999 It was, like... I don't know, it sounded like a candy name. 44 00:02:22,000 --> 00:02:24,433 It was like, uh, like Roxi... 45 00:02:24,434 --> 00:02:26,306 - Like Roxis... - Roxicet? 46 00:02:26,307 --> 00:02:29,908 Yeah. Yeah, that's it. Roxicet. Yeah. 47 00:02:31,083 --> 00:02:33,499 I'll go with that. 7.5 milligrams. 48 00:02:33,500 --> 00:02:35,540 Okay. Let me check with the doctor. 49 00:02:35,541 --> 00:02:37,299 Thanks. 50 00:02:37,300 --> 00:02:39,332 It's not a relapse if it's warranted. 51 00:02:39,333 --> 00:02:40,708 It's a hall pass. 52 00:02:40,709 --> 00:02:42,374 God, please don't get in the way. 53 00:02:42,375 --> 00:02:44,499 According to the paperwork that your mother filled out, 54 00:02:44,500 --> 00:02:47,374 it appears that you have some pretty extreme substance abuse issues. 55 00:02:47,375 --> 00:02:49,416 So, I think you're right. 56 00:02:49,417 --> 00:02:51,916 We should just stick with Tylenol. 57 00:02:51,917 --> 00:02:54,708 Huh. Okay, yeah. 58 00:02:54,709 --> 00:02:58,457 You know, if I ever come back here with cancer, 59 00:02:58,458 --> 00:03:00,957 I really hope you're not my doctor. 60 00:03:00,958 --> 00:03:04,541 Uh-huh, yeah, I'm serious. 61 00:03:05,083 --> 00:03:07,438 Wait. Can I... Can I still get the Vicodin? 62 00:03:08,709 --> 00:03:12,165 They put me on Cipro, which is the antibiotic they give to people 63 00:03:12,166 --> 00:03:14,414 that are exposed to anthrax, 64 00:03:14,415 --> 00:03:17,082 started me on Lexapro, which is one of the few antidepressants 65 00:03:17,083 --> 00:03:20,057 that doesn't make me crazier. 66 00:03:20,058 --> 00:03:22,582 And kept me there for three days. 67 00:03:22,583 --> 00:03:25,708 It was actually really nice. 68 00:03:25,709 --> 00:03:27,624 I love hospitals. 69 00:03:27,625 --> 00:03:30,499 If I could spend the rest of my life in a hospital, I would. 70 00:03:30,500 --> 00:03:32,499 - Hey. - Because when you're in a hospital, 71 00:03:32,500 --> 00:03:36,416 you have zero responsibilities. 72 00:03:36,417 --> 00:03:39,499 They make sure you eat, sleep, stay hydrated, 73 00:03:39,500 --> 00:03:42,499 and if anything bad happens, there's always a doctor nearby. 74 00:03:42,500 --> 00:03:43,774 Thank you. 75 00:03:43,775 --> 00:03:45,249 It's also the best place to be 76 00:03:45,250 --> 00:03:47,416 in the event of a mass shooting, 77 00:03:47,417 --> 00:03:50,791 unless the gunman kills all the surgeons. 78 00:03:50,792 --> 00:03:53,576 The point is, I had zero anxiety. 79 00:03:53,577 --> 00:03:56,249 Gel enhancement, gel enhancement nails. 80 00:03:56,250 --> 00:03:59,040 What are gel enhancement nails? Fake nails? 81 00:03:59,041 --> 00:04:02,974 Yes, fake nails. 82 00:04:02,975 --> 00:04:05,916 Then at nighttime, when everyone's asleep, 83 00:04:05,917 --> 00:04:10,332 I close my eyes and imagine all the little beeps to be the sounds of birds, 84 00:04:10,333 --> 00:04:14,582 and the lukewarm air blowing through the vent to be a warm breeze. 85 00:04:14,583 --> 00:04:17,499 Your hospital bed can sort of feel like a poolside chair 86 00:04:17,500 --> 00:04:19,536 on a hot summer night in the Caribbean. 87 00:04:24,166 --> 00:04:26,333 Plus, Jules came to visit. 88 00:04:28,958 --> 00:04:31,308 Did all this happen because I left? 89 00:04:31,958 --> 00:04:33,625 No. 90 00:04:35,958 --> 00:04:37,792 You promise? 91 00:04:39,541 --> 00:04:41,375 Yeah, I promise. 92 00:04:42,461 --> 00:04:45,210 I've felt like this my whole life, Jules. 93 00:04:46,580 --> 00:04:49,580 Not all the time, but sometimes. 94 00:04:51,708 --> 00:04:53,708 You make it better, though. 95 00:05:01,875 --> 00:05:03,500 I'm sorry. 96 00:05:05,375 --> 00:05:06,917 For what? 97 00:05:10,458 --> 00:05:12,255 For not telling you the truth. 98 00:05:12,955 --> 00:05:15,332 For everyone who was calling me manic, 99 00:05:15,333 --> 00:05:17,734 I was, like, 92 percent correct. 100 00:05:18,676 --> 00:05:20,997 But something was different about Jules. 101 00:05:22,375 --> 00:05:25,630 Rue, you look fucking amazing. 102 00:05:26,708 --> 00:05:30,957 Jules, I am deeply uncomfortable right now. 103 00:05:30,958 --> 00:05:33,936 Listen, you look hot. 104 00:05:33,937 --> 00:05:36,541 And the fact that you usually dress like Seth Rogen, 105 00:05:36,542 --> 00:05:41,207 although you make it cute sometimes, like, it crushes my soul. 106 00:05:41,208 --> 00:05:43,708 I don't dress like Seth Rogen. 107 00:05:43,709 --> 00:05:46,374 When was the last time you didn't wear a hoodie and sweatpants? 108 00:05:46,375 --> 00:05:48,874 I don't know, like... now. 109 00:05:48,875 --> 00:05:52,137 Exactly. Which is why we're gonna finish. 110 00:05:53,667 --> 00:05:58,124 It was, like, the most amazing weekend ever. 111 00:05:58,125 --> 00:06:01,499 I legit cannot stop thinking about it, you know. 112 00:06:01,500 --> 00:06:04,165 It was, like, the first time... 113 00:06:04,166 --> 00:06:08,207 I ever felt like I had a family, 114 00:06:08,208 --> 00:06:12,708 that wasn't my dad, or, like, you, kind of. 115 00:06:13,083 --> 00:06:15,541 And, oh, my God. Rue... 116 00:06:15,542 --> 00:06:18,957 you would die for Anna. 117 00:06:18,958 --> 00:06:23,666 - Who's Anna? - She's just, like, next level. 118 00:06:23,667 --> 00:06:25,262 I don't know. 119 00:06:25,263 --> 00:06:27,957 Did you guys, like, hook up or something? 120 00:06:27,958 --> 00:06:31,249 Yeah. It was kind of crazy. 121 00:06:31,250 --> 00:06:33,457 We went to the club, 122 00:06:33,458 --> 00:06:36,756 and the energy was, like, crazy in there. 123 00:06:36,757 --> 00:06:39,499 It, like, matched hers, and then I was feelin' it. 124 00:06:39,500 --> 00:06:42,916 And she just, like, grabbed me and sort of like, 125 00:06:42,917 --> 00:06:46,916 pushed me down, and like, kissed me. 126 00:06:46,917 --> 00:06:49,457 And... she fuckin' bit me. 127 00:06:49,458 --> 00:06:51,309 What do you mean she bit you? 128 00:06:51,310 --> 00:06:54,833 Like, when we were hooking up, she, like, fully bit me. 129 00:06:54,834 --> 00:06:56,958 Look. 130 00:06:57,833 --> 00:06:59,999 Oh. Okay. 131 00:07:01,708 --> 00:07:04,541 - Did it, like, feel good? - Yeah, it felt amazing. 132 00:07:04,542 --> 00:07:05,999 That's it, she just... 133 00:07:06,000 --> 00:07:08,708 Has anyone ever done that to you? 134 00:07:08,709 --> 00:07:10,483 No. 135 00:07:10,484 --> 00:07:13,833 - Do you want to see what it feels like? - I don't know. 136 00:07:16,500 --> 00:07:18,332 - Ow! - What? 137 00:07:18,333 --> 00:07:20,416 - Ow! - You don't like it? 138 00:07:20,417 --> 00:07:21,999 I don't think so. 139 00:07:23,375 --> 00:07:24,875 I see. 140 00:07:25,375 --> 00:07:27,124 But you like it. 141 00:07:27,125 --> 00:07:28,708 I liked it. 142 00:07:28,709 --> 00:07:31,207 I don't know. You've gotta meet these kids. 143 00:07:31,208 --> 00:07:36,041 'Cause I swear, you would fuckin' flourish in that energy. 144 00:07:37,041 --> 00:07:39,297 I've never felt anything like it. 145 00:07:41,375 --> 00:07:43,541 There. Mm. 146 00:07:44,375 --> 00:07:46,500 I missed you so much. 147 00:07:55,958 --> 00:07:57,875 You look beautiful. 148 00:07:59,625 --> 00:08:01,750 Thanks. You, too. 149 00:08:03,291 --> 00:08:05,902 By the way, fuck Nate Jacobs. 150 00:08:06,958 --> 00:08:08,958 - Fuck Nate Jacobs. - Mm-hmm. 151 00:08:09,860 --> 00:08:12,457 I know you're not supposed to say this kind of shit out loud, 152 00:08:12,458 --> 00:08:14,582 but if I ever had the chance I would fuckin'... 153 00:08:21,818 --> 00:08:24,040 What a fuckin' pussy. 154 00:08:42,343 --> 00:08:49,329 Sync and corrections by btsix www.addic7ed.com 155 00:08:50,500 --> 00:08:53,499 Hi. I'm Leslie, Rue's mom. 156 00:08:53,500 --> 00:08:56,249 Hi, Leslie. 157 00:08:58,583 --> 00:09:00,400 They asked me to write a letter 158 00:09:00,401 --> 00:09:03,793 about what your addiction has cost us as a family, 159 00:09:04,291 --> 00:09:08,833 and as I sat down last night to write it, 160 00:09:10,208 --> 00:09:13,458 I couldn't stop thinking about the day you were born. 161 00:09:14,833 --> 00:09:17,749 Holding you in my arms for the first time, 162 00:09:18,553 --> 00:09:20,560 looking down at you, 163 00:09:21,583 --> 00:09:24,041 your sweet, beautiful face... 164 00:09:24,458 --> 00:09:29,500 I had never felt so much love and joy in my entire life. 165 00:09:30,333 --> 00:09:32,166 And I thought that... 166 00:09:32,917 --> 00:09:36,416 what if in that moment I heard a voice, 167 00:09:36,417 --> 00:09:39,249 some omniscient narrator who said, 168 00:09:39,250 --> 00:09:41,624 "Here's what's going to happen. 169 00:09:41,625 --> 00:09:47,541 Your daughter is gonna be funny, and smart, and outgoing, 170 00:09:47,542 --> 00:09:50,082 You'll see it instantly, from a young age." 171 00:09:50,083 --> 00:09:53,541 - Are you guys drinking wine? - I mean, barely. 172 00:09:54,333 --> 00:09:55,610 We were waiting for you to leave 173 00:09:55,611 --> 00:09:57,541 so we could get into the hard stuff. 174 00:10:00,958 --> 00:10:03,958 That's cool. I'm not triggered or anything. 175 00:10:04,541 --> 00:10:07,374 Aah. It's a joke. 176 00:10:07,375 --> 00:10:09,457 Okay, let's take some pictures. Come on. 177 00:10:09,458 --> 00:10:12,624 "She'll be charismatic and make friends easily." 178 00:10:12,625 --> 00:10:14,916 Aw, you guys look so cute. 179 00:10:14,917 --> 00:10:17,206 "She'll be kind and sensitive. 180 00:10:18,750 --> 00:10:21,208 Maybe too sensitive. 181 00:10:21,999 --> 00:10:25,208 She won't be an easy child. 182 00:10:25,833 --> 00:10:28,166 She'll struggle." 183 00:10:30,041 --> 00:10:31,656 Just walk in, 184 00:10:32,792 --> 00:10:35,332 and hold your head up high, baby. 185 00:10:35,333 --> 00:10:40,165 "And in turn, you'll struggle to understand her." 186 00:10:40,166 --> 00:10:44,208 - You look beautiful. - I don't know. 187 00:10:45,750 --> 00:10:49,457 "To understand what's going on inside of her head. 188 00:10:49,458 --> 00:10:52,917 The night terrors that can't be interrupted. 189 00:10:56,124 --> 00:10:58,666 The times after dinner where 190 00:10:58,667 --> 00:11:03,332 she'll just sit at the kitchen table and count the tiles over and over, 191 00:11:03,333 --> 00:11:05,667 until she hyperventilates." 192 00:11:08,166 --> 00:11:11,708 - Do you have a... a date? - No. 193 00:11:11,709 --> 00:11:16,249 "To fight to hold her in your arms, to tell her it's okay." 194 00:11:16,250 --> 00:11:18,750 Do you think this makes me look stupid? 195 00:11:20,416 --> 00:11:23,083 No, not in the least. 196 00:11:25,750 --> 00:11:29,541 "To calm down. The kicking. The screaming. 197 00:11:29,542 --> 00:11:32,583 The anxiety of being harmed. 198 00:11:33,958 --> 00:11:36,416 The transitions from day to night, 199 00:11:36,417 --> 00:11:41,040 from home to school, from meal to meal. 200 00:11:41,041 --> 00:11:45,499 Of losing her mother or father or little sister." 201 00:11:45,500 --> 00:11:47,041 Hey. 202 00:11:48,213 --> 00:11:50,006 You guys have such a beautiful home. 203 00:11:50,007 --> 00:11:51,082 Aw, thank you. 204 00:11:51,083 --> 00:11:53,124 - Hi. - Hi. 205 00:11:53,958 --> 00:11:56,040 - You look beautiful. - Thanks. 206 00:11:56,041 --> 00:11:58,332 - That's an understatement. - "Of being alone." 207 00:11:58,333 --> 00:12:00,165 Hey. I really like her. 208 00:12:00,166 --> 00:12:04,749 "The panic attacks, mood swings, confusion, disorganization." 209 00:12:04,750 --> 00:12:07,291 - Have fun, mija. - I will. 210 00:12:12,708 --> 00:12:16,124 - Look at you! - Oh, my God! 211 00:12:16,917 --> 00:12:19,791 "And all that rage. 212 00:12:19,792 --> 00:12:23,416 Not just at you, but at herself. 213 00:12:23,417 --> 00:12:24,957 And the tough part is..." 214 00:12:24,958 --> 00:12:26,333 Aah! 215 00:12:27,208 --> 00:12:28,916 You want some, Cass? 216 00:12:28,917 --> 00:12:32,457 "... you'll feel as helpless to help her as she does herself." 217 00:12:32,458 --> 00:12:34,791 - What is it? - Gatorade and Everclear. 218 00:12:34,792 --> 00:12:37,791 "You'll make mistakes. Small ones and big ones." 219 00:12:37,792 --> 00:12:39,749 Fuck it. 220 00:12:39,750 --> 00:12:42,624 Fuck it. Aah. 221 00:12:42,625 --> 00:12:45,457 "You'll look for help from people who aren't helpful. 222 00:12:45,458 --> 00:12:49,124 Or who don't actually understand what's happening." 223 00:12:57,333 --> 00:13:00,625 "And the guilt will never leave you." 224 00:13:03,999 --> 00:13:06,208 Love you, Grandma. 225 00:13:10,958 --> 00:13:13,791 But if you remain calm and patient, 226 00:13:13,792 --> 00:13:16,040 if you listen closely, 227 00:13:16,041 --> 00:13:18,124 you'll begin to understand her more." 228 00:13:18,125 --> 00:13:19,833 You okay? 229 00:13:19,834 --> 00:13:22,165 Yeah, I'm just having an asthma thing. 230 00:13:22,166 --> 00:13:25,092 "The counting, the repetition, 231 00:13:25,698 --> 00:13:27,390 the need for symmetry. 232 00:13:28,541 --> 00:13:31,040 That if you kiss her left cheek before bed, 233 00:13:31,041 --> 00:13:32,999 you have to kiss her right cheek. 234 00:13:33,000 --> 00:13:35,678 And her forehead. Then her chin. 235 00:13:37,132 --> 00:13:40,666 That it's about balance, stability. 236 00:13:40,667 --> 00:13:44,457 The need to organize her feelings and thoughts, so... 237 00:13:44,458 --> 00:13:46,749 she can breathe easier." 238 00:13:46,750 --> 00:13:50,040 - I feel really good about tonight. - Really? 239 00:13:50,041 --> 00:13:51,999 Yeah. I mean... 240 00:13:52,000 --> 00:13:53,749 I was thinking this is the first time 241 00:13:53,750 --> 00:13:56,082 since the beginning of high school that I haven't, like, 242 00:13:56,083 --> 00:13:57,541 been in love with somebody. 243 00:13:57,542 --> 00:14:00,041 Honestly, I love that for you. 244 00:14:02,417 --> 00:14:05,917 I've always, like, really been into pickup trucks. 245 00:14:09,500 --> 00:14:11,624 You can take your shoes off the dash. 246 00:14:18,249 --> 00:14:20,666 "And there will be moments of relief... 247 00:14:20,667 --> 00:14:23,189 in her and in you." 248 00:14:23,190 --> 00:14:26,957 "Moments that feel so normal and calm, and rewarding 249 00:14:26,958 --> 00:14:31,082 that you'll find yourself praying they last forever." 250 00:14:33,625 --> 00:14:36,457 "Even though she's only a child, 251 00:14:36,458 --> 00:14:40,166 and all the hard parts have yet to even come." 252 00:14:44,625 --> 00:14:45,999 Kat. Hi. 253 00:14:47,500 --> 00:14:49,124 Wow. 254 00:15:30,917 --> 00:15:34,124 What if these are, like, the big moments in life? 255 00:15:34,708 --> 00:15:37,124 Like, my mom always talks about how high school was 256 00:15:37,125 --> 00:15:39,449 like this big, monumental part of her life. 257 00:15:39,450 --> 00:15:43,316 But I cannot imagine being 40 and looking back at this, like, "Wow." 258 00:15:43,317 --> 00:15:46,086 Yeah, but that's because most people peak in high school. 259 00:15:46,087 --> 00:15:48,290 I definitely haven't peaked, so... 260 00:15:48,291 --> 00:15:49,957 I feel like I'm not even a person yet. 261 00:15:49,958 --> 00:15:53,124 Yeah, I'm definitely at, like, 25 percent peakness. 262 00:15:53,125 --> 00:15:54,812 I feel like I'm at a hundred. 263 00:15:56,302 --> 00:15:58,458 But I can definitely get to 150. 264 00:15:59,168 --> 00:16:01,416 Honestly, I never thought I'd make it this far. 265 00:16:01,417 --> 00:16:03,290 What do you mean? 266 00:16:03,291 --> 00:16:04,916 I don't know. I just always had, like, 267 00:16:04,917 --> 00:16:07,708 this overwhelming anxiety that something bad would happen. 268 00:16:07,709 --> 00:16:09,666 In all fairness, last summer, there were, like, 269 00:16:09,667 --> 00:16:11,666 three weeks where I thought you were dead. 270 00:16:11,667 --> 00:16:14,416 Okay, but she's been sober for, like, three months. 271 00:16:14,417 --> 00:16:17,708 Weren't you in rehab, like, six months ago? 272 00:16:18,958 --> 00:16:22,499 Uh, yeah. 273 00:16:22,500 --> 00:16:24,624 Maybe people are nostalgic about high school 274 00:16:24,625 --> 00:16:27,666 'cause it's, like, the last time in their life that they get to dream. 275 00:16:29,333 --> 00:16:34,917 After this is just bad jobs, and bills, and bad husbands. 276 00:16:37,750 --> 00:16:40,833 Maybe I'm generalizing, but... 277 00:16:40,834 --> 00:16:43,208 I don't know. Do you guys get what I mean? 278 00:16:43,917 --> 00:16:46,249 I don't know. I kind of feel the opposite. 279 00:16:46,250 --> 00:16:50,082 I feel like high school's super fucking suffocating. 280 00:16:50,083 --> 00:16:53,041 - Really? - Yeah. 281 00:16:54,750 --> 00:16:56,416 Hmm. 282 00:16:58,875 --> 00:17:00,874 I'll be right back. 283 00:17:42,083 --> 00:17:45,083 First of all, ew. 284 00:17:45,708 --> 00:17:48,124 Second of all, ew. 285 00:17:48,125 --> 00:17:51,541 - Just a second. - Are you, like, not hard? 286 00:17:53,083 --> 00:17:55,124 Not yet. Fuck. 287 00:17:55,125 --> 00:17:57,990 It... It doesn't really feel like you're hard. 288 00:17:57,991 --> 00:17:59,290 I am. I'm... 289 00:17:59,291 --> 00:18:00,463 I am hard. 290 00:18:00,464 --> 00:18:02,249 Nate, this isn't something you just, like, lie about. 291 00:18:02,250 --> 00:18:04,124 Maddy, I just got a lot of shit on my mind, okay? 292 00:18:04,125 --> 00:18:06,290 Like right now? Like, during sex? 293 00:18:06,291 --> 00:18:07,791 - Maddy, stop. - Stop what? 294 00:18:07,792 --> 00:18:10,290 Talking. Stop talking. Fuck. 295 00:18:10,291 --> 00:18:12,541 Okay, I'm officially turned off. Just get off me. 296 00:18:12,542 --> 00:18:15,749 - Why the fuck are we even having sex? - We weren't. 297 00:18:15,750 --> 00:18:17,499 You know what your fucking problem is? 298 00:18:17,500 --> 00:18:19,874 You can't keep your fucking mouth shut. 299 00:18:19,875 --> 00:18:21,457 Yeah, and you can't keep your dick hard. 300 00:18:21,458 --> 00:18:23,416 Maybe the reason I can't keep my dick hard is because 301 00:18:23,417 --> 00:18:25,749 everyone at school is spreading these fucking rumors about me. 302 00:18:25,750 --> 00:18:27,957 They're not rumors. They're facts. 303 00:18:27,958 --> 00:18:31,040 You literally had, like, 40 different guys' dicks in your phone. 304 00:18:31,041 --> 00:18:33,582 - I told you not to fucking tell anyone. - Yeah, well, I told people 305 00:18:33,583 --> 00:18:34,999 before you told me not to tell anyone. 306 00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:36,749 Yeah, but you told them out of fucking context. 307 00:18:36,750 --> 00:18:38,999 Really? What is the context? 308 00:18:39,000 --> 00:18:41,499 I'd tell you, but I don't even fucking trust you anymore. 309 00:18:41,500 --> 00:18:44,040 Kind of like how you fuck me, but you're not hard anymore? 310 00:18:44,041 --> 00:18:47,957 Huh? Keep talking. Come on, keep fucking talking. 311 00:18:47,958 --> 00:18:50,040 Keep talking. Huh? 312 00:18:57,249 --> 00:19:00,457 Look, Nate, I don't mind if you're into guys. 313 00:19:00,458 --> 00:19:03,957 - I'm not into fucking guys, Maddy. - Sexuality is a spectrum. 314 00:19:03,958 --> 00:19:05,484 Fuck. What the fuck are you talking about? 315 00:19:05,485 --> 00:19:06,656 It's not like anyone's 316 00:19:06,657 --> 00:19:09,040 100 percent straight or 100 percent gay. 317 00:19:09,041 --> 00:19:11,552 Oh, that is 100 percent bullshit. 318 00:19:58,625 --> 00:20:00,708 Hey, look, I don't really know you. 319 00:20:00,709 --> 00:20:03,040 You might be a good girl, you might not. 320 00:20:03,041 --> 00:20:05,083 But I do know my son. 321 00:20:05,750 --> 00:20:08,541 - Do you? - I'm not defending him. 322 00:20:08,542 --> 00:20:11,624 But I do want to protect him, and what I know is this relationship 323 00:20:11,625 --> 00:20:14,083 you two have is not sustainable, 324 00:20:14,541 --> 00:20:17,916 and it's only a matter of time before it takes the both of you down. 325 00:20:17,917 --> 00:20:21,791 Sometimes two people in the universe who aren't meant for each other 326 00:20:21,792 --> 00:20:23,833 find each other. 327 00:20:23,834 --> 00:20:25,599 You're a beautiful girl, 328 00:20:26,266 --> 00:20:27,668 and a smart one. 329 00:20:28,500 --> 00:20:31,708 It's time to let go. 330 00:20:32,333 --> 00:20:35,509 Your whole family is so fucking weird. 331 00:21:06,914 --> 00:21:08,957 Ladies and gentlemen, this is it. 332 00:21:08,958 --> 00:21:11,164 This is the game you've all been waiting for. 333 00:21:11,165 --> 00:21:13,124 That's right, Bart. This is the first game back 334 00:21:13,125 --> 00:21:15,457 for the Hawks starting QB Nate Jacobs. 335 00:21:15,458 --> 00:21:18,249 It could be the final game of his high school career 336 00:21:18,250 --> 00:21:20,124 unless he can bring home the W, 337 00:21:20,125 --> 00:21:22,124 and get this struggling team to regionals. 338 00:21:22,125 --> 00:21:25,124 Speaking of struggles, he's had a lot off the field. 339 00:21:25,125 --> 00:21:27,422 It's been a big topic of conversation, 340 00:21:27,423 --> 00:21:29,624 not only around the team, but also in this community. 341 00:21:29,625 --> 00:21:31,624 Here's the big question... Can he overcome this? 342 00:21:31,625 --> 00:21:34,332 I think Nate Jacobs is gonna unify this ball club. 343 00:21:34,333 --> 00:21:36,457 Thankfully his teammates have his back. 344 00:21:36,458 --> 00:21:38,207 We know the community has his back. 345 00:21:38,208 --> 00:21:40,457 How much of the game is he going to put on his back? 346 00:21:40,458 --> 00:21:41,538 Play! 347 00:21:41,539 --> 00:21:43,498 Here we go. It's game time. 348 00:21:43,499 --> 00:21:44,999 Red, twelve. 349 00:21:45,000 --> 00:21:47,249 Red, twelve. Hut. 350 00:22:06,500 --> 00:22:08,375 Maddy, don't. 351 00:22:14,041 --> 00:22:17,458 - Maddy. Don't do it. - Fuck this. 352 00:22:24,166 --> 00:22:26,083 Can you dance? 353 00:22:26,500 --> 00:22:28,083 Um... 354 00:22:30,875 --> 00:22:33,708 - Can you dance? - Fuck, yeah. 355 00:22:53,399 --> 00:22:56,082 I guarantee you Maddy and Nate are gonna get married. 356 00:22:56,083 --> 00:22:59,082 And probably, like, divorced three times, and in some strange way, 357 00:22:59,083 --> 00:23:01,667 live a pretty happy life. 358 00:23:02,166 --> 00:23:04,624 - Yeah. - Yeah. 359 00:23:04,625 --> 00:23:06,291 Yeah. 360 00:23:33,291 --> 00:23:34,667 Jules! 361 00:23:39,776 --> 00:23:41,317 Jules. 362 00:23:43,041 --> 00:23:45,624 - What are you doing? - Nothing. 363 00:23:45,625 --> 00:23:48,541 - What are you doing? - Nothing. 364 00:23:50,792 --> 00:23:52,749 I like the way I dressed you, but I'm worried 365 00:23:52,750 --> 00:23:54,999 I fucked with your gender expression. 366 00:23:55,000 --> 00:23:57,833 Thank you? 367 00:23:58,875 --> 00:24:02,625 I feel a little stupid, so... 368 00:24:06,483 --> 00:24:08,204 Can I ask you a question? 369 00:24:09,249 --> 00:24:12,818 - Yeah. - Why don't you kiss me? 370 00:24:15,958 --> 00:24:17,239 I kiss you. 371 00:24:18,375 --> 00:24:22,138 No. Why don't you, like, kiss-kiss me? 372 00:24:23,701 --> 00:24:29,034 Um, I mean, did you want me to, like, kiss-kiss you? 373 00:24:32,583 --> 00:24:34,499 I want you... 374 00:24:34,500 --> 00:24:37,635 to wanna kiss me so bad that you don't even ask. 375 00:24:47,249 --> 00:24:49,667 Okay. Fuck it. Let's dance. 376 00:25:38,041 --> 00:25:41,957 I feel like love is super dark and no one ever talks about it. 377 00:25:41,958 --> 00:25:45,623 Yeah, but that might be specific to their kind of love. 378 00:25:45,624 --> 00:25:47,541 Or my kind of love. 379 00:26:08,124 --> 00:26:10,082 I think I'm gonna do everything in my power 380 00:26:10,083 --> 00:26:13,165 for at least, like, the next three years to not fall in love. 381 00:26:13,166 --> 00:26:14,666 But what if you do? 382 00:26:14,667 --> 00:26:18,666 Then intervene and fucking destroy it. 383 00:26:36,667 --> 00:26:38,416 Hey. 384 00:26:38,417 --> 00:26:41,500 - Hey. - Um, can I talk to you for a second? 385 00:26:42,333 --> 00:26:44,207 Um, yeah. 386 00:27:12,083 --> 00:27:13,875 What's up? 387 00:27:15,208 --> 00:27:18,207 Um, I just... I don't really know what else to say, 388 00:27:18,208 --> 00:27:20,332 and I'm so, so sorry. It's... 389 00:27:20,333 --> 00:27:21,846 But that night at the carnival 390 00:27:21,847 --> 00:27:23,834 when you were flirting with that girl, I just... 391 00:27:24,416 --> 00:27:28,083 I don't know. I just had, like, this reaction, and I just, like, hated you. 392 00:27:29,166 --> 00:27:32,333 Whether that's fair or not, I don't know. I... 393 00:27:34,576 --> 00:27:36,787 But, um... I guess I just... 394 00:27:36,788 --> 00:27:41,192 I guess I just wanted to hurt you as much as I imagined you'd hurt me. 395 00:27:41,193 --> 00:27:43,749 And I know that sounds juvenile, but it's true, 396 00:27:43,750 --> 00:27:45,666 and I wouldn't even be saying this to you, 397 00:27:45,667 --> 00:27:47,290 because you're actually not like this. 398 00:27:47,291 --> 00:27:49,916 You're actually really kind, and you're actually really nice, 399 00:27:49,917 --> 00:27:53,249 and I'm just... I just... I'm so shitty, 400 00:27:53,250 --> 00:27:55,791 and I just wish I could go back... 401 00:27:55,792 --> 00:27:58,416 Kat, I liked you since I sat down next to you. 402 00:27:59,179 --> 00:28:01,332 You know, and I know that you think there's, like, zero chance 403 00:28:01,333 --> 00:28:04,041 that we're gonna be together forever, and, uh... 404 00:28:05,041 --> 00:28:06,708 I don't know. I guess, we're both juniors, 405 00:28:06,709 --> 00:28:09,083 so you're probably right about that. 406 00:28:10,375 --> 00:28:13,917 You know, I mean, like, is one of us gonna get hurt? 407 00:28:15,249 --> 00:28:18,083 Yeah. Probably. 408 00:28:19,708 --> 00:28:23,708 But I'll do my best to make sure that it's me. 409 00:28:27,208 --> 00:28:29,082 I'm crying. 410 00:28:29,083 --> 00:28:31,458 - Sorry. - It's okay. 411 00:28:47,208 --> 00:28:49,186 - Sorry. Was that awkward? - No. 412 00:28:57,417 --> 00:28:59,916 - Want to get the fuck out of here? - Yeah. 413 00:28:59,917 --> 00:29:01,416 - Yeah? - Yeah. 414 00:29:04,208 --> 00:29:06,082 What did you say? 415 00:29:06,083 --> 00:29:07,916 I started to say one thing, 416 00:29:07,917 --> 00:29:11,582 and then I said something else, but she knows what I meant. 417 00:29:11,583 --> 00:29:13,374 Lexi! 418 00:29:54,541 --> 00:29:57,208 - Yo, I'll be right back, all right? - Okay. 419 00:30:12,750 --> 00:30:14,708 Can I ask you something? 420 00:30:15,416 --> 00:30:16,792 Yeah. 421 00:30:17,291 --> 00:30:21,041 How do you decide who you wanna hook up with? 422 00:30:22,333 --> 00:30:24,833 I don't know. They usually just come to you. 423 00:30:24,834 --> 00:30:27,124 Yeah, but what if they don't? 424 00:30:27,125 --> 00:30:30,041 Then go and do whoever the fuck you want. 425 00:30:31,541 --> 00:30:33,041 Yeah. 426 00:30:34,375 --> 00:30:36,083 Okay. 427 00:30:39,083 --> 00:30:41,917 I'm gonna do that. 428 00:30:43,458 --> 00:30:45,416 I love you, Lex. 429 00:30:46,124 --> 00:30:47,917 I love you, too. 430 00:31:06,291 --> 00:31:07,792 Cassie? 431 00:31:10,416 --> 00:31:13,041 - I'm okay. - You sure? 432 00:31:14,208 --> 00:31:17,166 - Yeah. - Okay. Okay. 433 00:31:33,333 --> 00:31:35,625 Any history of depression? 434 00:31:36,458 --> 00:31:40,207 Um, I guess the normal amount. 435 00:31:40,208 --> 00:31:44,040 - But not diagnosed. - No. 436 00:31:44,041 --> 00:31:46,333 Family history of depression? 437 00:31:47,792 --> 00:31:49,625 Yeah, my mom. 438 00:31:50,166 --> 00:31:52,667 Any history with drugs or alcohol? 439 00:31:53,291 --> 00:31:54,582 No, not really. 440 00:31:54,583 --> 00:31:56,916 Any family history with addiction? 441 00:31:56,917 --> 00:31:59,375 Alcohol? Other substances? 442 00:32:01,999 --> 00:32:06,166 Yeah. My mom, with wine. 443 00:32:07,583 --> 00:32:10,999 And then my dad with painkillers and then, 444 00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:12,999 heroin and stuff. 445 00:32:20,999 --> 00:32:21,999 Okay. 446 00:32:24,583 --> 00:32:26,833 How do you feel about being here today? 447 00:32:31,291 --> 00:32:33,208 Nervous, I guess. 448 00:32:33,833 --> 00:32:36,290 Do you have any reservations about the procedure? 449 00:32:36,291 --> 00:32:38,166 Any second thoughts? 450 00:32:43,625 --> 00:32:44,875 No. 451 00:32:46,541 --> 00:32:48,124 Come with me. 452 00:32:53,458 --> 00:32:57,658 Welcome back. Fourth quarter. Time running down. Hawks trailing. 453 00:32:57,659 --> 00:33:00,666 23 to 27, red. Here we go. 454 00:33:00,667 --> 00:33:02,541 It's first in ten, on the 20. 455 00:33:02,542 --> 00:33:04,594 A minute and a half left to go, 456 00:33:04,595 --> 00:33:06,457 in what is a very close game. We need a good play. 457 00:33:06,458 --> 00:33:09,416 Green 13. Hut. 458 00:33:09,417 --> 00:33:11,833 Okay, here we go. Jacobs steps back. 459 00:33:11,834 --> 00:33:14,165 He's looking. He's looking... 460 00:33:14,166 --> 00:33:17,208 He's got a guy. He's got a guy. He throws it up! 461 00:33:18,249 --> 00:33:21,290 - Oh! A perfect ball by Jacobs. - Fuck! 462 00:33:21,291 --> 00:33:23,082 Goes right through the hands of the receiver. 463 00:33:23,083 --> 00:33:26,583 - Jacobs threw him a perfect ball. - Hut! 464 00:33:30,249 --> 00:33:32,207 Oh, my gosh, again! 465 00:33:32,208 --> 00:33:34,040 - Right through the receiver's hands. - Let's fucking go! 466 00:33:34,041 --> 00:33:35,207 Let's fucking go! 467 00:33:35,208 --> 00:33:37,457 Bottom line, the wide receivers 468 00:33:37,458 --> 00:33:39,999 have got to give their QB some help tonight. 469 00:33:57,075 --> 00:33:59,957 Why do I feel like you're the reason Fez's house got raided? 470 00:33:59,958 --> 00:34:03,236 You know, sometimes, when you do illegal shit, 471 00:34:04,792 --> 00:34:06,570 bad things happen to you. 472 00:34:07,284 --> 00:34:09,916 You've never done anything illegal, Nate? 473 00:34:09,917 --> 00:34:11,584 You talking about your friend Jules? 474 00:34:11,585 --> 00:34:13,518 No, actually, I'm talking about your dad. 475 00:34:19,030 --> 00:34:21,582 I just want to make sure you've given it some forethought. 476 00:34:21,583 --> 00:34:24,290 I know over the years you've lost some brain cells. 477 00:34:24,291 --> 00:34:27,082 I wouldn't want you to say something you might regret. 478 00:34:27,083 --> 00:34:28,801 What are you gonna do? You gonna ruin my life? 479 00:34:28,802 --> 00:34:32,348 I fucking promise you I can do that a lot better than you can. 480 00:34:32,349 --> 00:34:35,510 - What do you want, Rue? - I want you to leave Fez alone. 481 00:34:35,511 --> 00:34:37,314 I want you to leave Jules alone. 482 00:34:37,315 --> 00:34:40,287 If you ever fuck with them again, I'll destroy your life. 483 00:34:41,083 --> 00:34:42,872 I'll destroy your dad's life. 484 00:34:42,873 --> 00:34:44,685 I'll fucking burn your whole shit to the ground. 485 00:34:44,686 --> 00:34:47,874 'Cause I personally have no problem walking into any police station 486 00:34:47,875 --> 00:34:50,305 and telling them that Nate Jacobs' daddy 487 00:34:51,290 --> 00:34:53,620 likes to fuck little kids. 488 00:34:56,833 --> 00:34:58,917 You look very pretty tonight. 489 00:34:59,667 --> 00:35:02,209 Are you sure that Jules told you everything? 490 00:35:03,768 --> 00:35:05,124 You know what I like about her? 491 00:35:05,125 --> 00:35:07,722 She has these very real dreams. 492 00:35:07,723 --> 00:35:11,375 And I seriously think that she's going to achieve them. 493 00:35:13,875 --> 00:35:16,316 If you look at everyone inside, 494 00:35:16,317 --> 00:35:18,040 most of them are going to go on 495 00:35:18,041 --> 00:35:22,402 to lives these lives that aren't even fucking worth mentioning. 496 00:35:23,249 --> 00:35:24,648 Not Jules. 497 00:35:25,750 --> 00:35:27,144 What about you? 498 00:35:27,844 --> 00:35:29,375 Honestly, 499 00:35:30,216 --> 00:35:33,508 - I don't really give a fuck. - Yeah, I gathered that. 500 00:35:34,083 --> 00:35:36,092 That's probably why you're spending all your time 501 00:35:36,093 --> 00:35:37,421 with someone who's going to leave you 502 00:35:37,422 --> 00:35:40,041 and won't even remember who the fuck you are in ten years. 503 00:35:44,667 --> 00:35:46,728 I really meant what I said. You, uh... 504 00:35:47,625 --> 00:35:49,999 You look really beautiful. 505 00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:51,708 Mm. 506 00:35:55,636 --> 00:35:58,416 All right, here we go. Ten seconds left on the clock. 507 00:35:58,417 --> 00:35:59,999 Let's go, Blackhawks! 508 00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:01,916 Can Nate Jacobs do it? 509 00:36:01,917 --> 00:36:03,833 This could be the final play of the game. 510 00:36:03,834 --> 00:36:06,457 - Could be the final play of his career. - Let's go, Blackhawks! 511 00:36:06,458 --> 00:36:07,916 Stay! 512 00:36:07,917 --> 00:36:09,457 Let's go, Blackhawks! 513 00:36:09,458 --> 00:36:11,499 Blue 36! 514 00:36:11,500 --> 00:36:14,040 Blue 36! Hut! 515 00:36:14,041 --> 00:36:17,249 Nate Jacobs, he steps back. He's looking... 516 00:36:17,250 --> 00:36:19,708 Oh, he's off, he's off! He's going! 517 00:36:19,709 --> 00:36:22,457 He's taking the game into his own hands. There he goes! 518 00:36:22,458 --> 00:36:26,082 He's at the 30, he's at the 20. I think he's gonna do it. 519 00:36:26,083 --> 00:36:29,708 He's at the line! Yes! He made it! 520 00:36:36,208 --> 00:36:39,541 Let's go! Let's fucking go! Let's go! 521 00:36:39,542 --> 00:36:41,999 Get the fuck up! 522 00:36:42,000 --> 00:36:44,791 East Highland crowd going bananas. 523 00:36:44,792 --> 00:36:46,999 He has warmed this place up in a heartbeat. 524 00:36:47,000 --> 00:36:49,207 This kid can get it done. 525 00:36:58,625 --> 00:37:00,082 You may have won the game, 526 00:37:00,083 --> 00:37:02,291 but you lost control of the team. 527 00:37:03,124 --> 00:37:06,166 And in the long run. If you don't lead, you're gonna lose. 528 00:37:26,917 --> 00:37:29,416 You need to take a step back, Nate. 529 00:37:30,833 --> 00:37:33,124 I said take a step back. 530 00:37:35,999 --> 00:37:38,082 Get the fuck off me! Get the... 531 00:37:38,083 --> 00:37:40,582 Get your fucking hands off me, you fucking faggot! 532 00:37:40,583 --> 00:37:43,124 - Get the fuck off! Get the fuck off! - Stop fighting. 533 00:37:43,125 --> 00:37:46,124 - Stop fighting! - Fuck you! Fuck you! 534 00:37:46,125 --> 00:37:47,957 - You need to stop! - Fuck you! 535 00:37:47,958 --> 00:37:49,332 - You had enough? - Fuck you! 536 00:37:49,333 --> 00:37:51,207 - Get the fuck off me! - Huh? Keep fighting. 537 00:37:53,166 --> 00:37:55,957 - Keep it up. Huh? - Get off! 538 00:37:55,958 --> 00:37:58,249 Motherfuck... 539 00:37:58,250 --> 00:38:01,290 Do you wanna keep fighting? Huh? 540 00:38:01,291 --> 00:38:04,124 Oh, you think you're tough now, huh? 541 00:38:04,125 --> 00:38:07,290 Huh? Come on, Nate. 542 00:38:51,291 --> 00:38:53,041 Fuck! 543 00:40:07,999 --> 00:40:09,458 What? 544 00:40:11,208 --> 00:40:12,999 I fuckin' hate this town. 545 00:40:14,041 --> 00:40:17,207 If I could, I'd burn it to the fucking ground. 546 00:40:17,208 --> 00:40:19,833 And salt the earth behind you. 547 00:40:26,124 --> 00:40:28,667 Jules, are you in love with Anna? 548 00:40:33,750 --> 00:40:35,166 Yeah. 549 00:40:40,899 --> 00:40:42,375 Are you, um... 550 00:40:44,500 --> 00:40:46,458 Are you in love with me? 551 00:40:50,375 --> 00:40:51,833 Yeah. 552 00:40:54,416 --> 00:40:57,041 Do you wish I was different? 553 00:41:02,659 --> 00:41:04,712 This will help with the discomfort. 554 00:41:11,041 --> 00:41:13,270 Some patients like to listen to music. 555 00:41:24,041 --> 00:41:27,667 And just a little pinch. 556 00:42:58,083 --> 00:43:01,792 What if we just fucking left? Like, um, what if we just... 557 00:43:02,375 --> 00:43:04,540 We just fucking left this dance, 558 00:43:04,541 --> 00:43:06,145 we went home, grabbed a bunch of our shit. 559 00:43:06,146 --> 00:43:07,791 Just went to the city. What if we fucking left? 560 00:43:07,792 --> 00:43:10,708 That's fucking crazy. 561 00:43:39,291 --> 00:43:41,374 I ain't here to hurt you. 562 00:43:41,375 --> 00:43:44,667 But if you fuck around, I swear to God, I'll fucking kill you. 563 00:43:45,166 --> 00:43:47,165 Where's the money at? 564 00:43:47,166 --> 00:43:48,874 It's in the table. 565 00:43:59,833 --> 00:44:01,999 We're almost done. 566 00:44:50,041 --> 00:44:52,917 Jesus fucking Christ. 567 00:44:53,335 --> 00:44:56,003 You're a fucking doctor? 568 00:45:02,708 --> 00:45:04,731 Hurry the fuck up, man. 569 00:45:30,291 --> 00:45:32,249 Motherfucker, what the fuck you doing? 570 00:45:32,250 --> 00:45:35,332 Ass, drop the fucking gun! Bitch-ass motherfucker! 571 00:45:35,333 --> 00:45:37,582 Hey! Motherfucker! 572 00:45:37,583 --> 00:45:39,499 Drop the fucking gun! 573 00:45:56,458 --> 00:45:58,707 Stop! Stop! Stop going for the fucking gun! 574 00:45:59,458 --> 00:46:00,957 Bitch-ass motherfucker! 575 00:46:00,958 --> 00:46:04,833 I told you to fucking be cool! Bitch! Don't be doing that! 576 00:46:06,583 --> 00:46:08,500 Let's get the fuck out of here. 577 00:46:08,917 --> 00:46:10,833 Come on. 578 00:46:18,792 --> 00:46:20,290 - Rue! - Let's go. 579 00:46:20,291 --> 00:46:23,500 Oh, my God! Bitch! 580 00:46:33,833 --> 00:46:35,500 All done. 581 00:46:38,458 --> 00:46:40,999 What the fuck did you do that for? 582 00:46:41,000 --> 00:46:43,666 Fuck! 583 00:46:43,667 --> 00:46:46,208 Fuck. Shit. 584 00:46:47,208 --> 00:46:48,708 Goddamn. 585 00:46:57,875 --> 00:46:59,916 Woo! 586 00:48:08,291 --> 00:48:10,249 Jules. 587 00:48:11,416 --> 00:48:13,458 Is this a bad idea? 588 00:48:18,208 --> 00:48:19,458 No. 589 00:48:29,792 --> 00:48:32,083 What the fuck? 590 00:48:33,291 --> 00:48:35,291 How do you feel? 591 00:48:39,958 --> 00:48:41,208 Better. 592 00:49:12,125 --> 00:49:14,124 - Maddy, get up. - No. 593 00:49:14,125 --> 00:49:15,332 - Just get up. - Why? 594 00:49:15,333 --> 00:49:16,624 Could you stop being such a fucking cunt 595 00:49:16,625 --> 00:49:18,332 and just come dance with me, please? 596 00:49:18,333 --> 00:49:20,708 - You don't even know how to dance. - It's a fucking slow song. 597 00:49:20,709 --> 00:49:23,624 - Let's go. Get up. - Mostly you're despicable. 598 00:49:23,625 --> 00:49:24,999 But fine. 599 00:49:35,333 --> 00:49:39,249 - I really fuckin' hate you. - I know. 600 00:49:40,041 --> 00:49:43,829 You're abusive, psychopathic. 601 00:49:43,830 --> 00:49:47,833 Most of the time I really hate the way you make me feel. 602 00:49:47,834 --> 00:49:49,917 I know. 603 00:49:50,541 --> 00:49:52,708 It's not good for us. 604 00:49:55,428 --> 00:49:56,742 I know. 605 00:49:58,291 --> 00:50:01,249 Meaning, like, we shouldn't be together. 606 00:50:07,632 --> 00:50:09,006 I know. 607 00:50:26,124 --> 00:50:27,750 Hi. 608 00:50:29,291 --> 00:50:30,583 Hi. 609 00:50:33,249 --> 00:50:37,499 I thought this was gonna be, like, a night I'd remember forever. 610 00:50:38,631 --> 00:50:41,874 Well, I think you will remember it forever. 611 00:50:41,875 --> 00:50:45,249 Like, not in a bad way. 612 00:50:45,250 --> 00:50:50,124 Just... in a way that stays with you. 613 00:50:54,124 --> 00:50:55,792 Yeah. 614 00:51:04,458 --> 00:51:06,041 You're late. 615 00:51:06,792 --> 00:51:09,792 I got caught up dealing with some bullshit. 616 00:51:11,416 --> 00:51:13,583 I heard you got raided. 617 00:51:17,620 --> 00:51:19,624 But they ain't find nothin', though. 618 00:51:19,625 --> 00:51:21,833 Ain't got shit on me. 619 00:51:24,458 --> 00:51:26,124 Let's hope not. 620 00:51:51,875 --> 00:51:53,833 So, we all good? 621 00:52:06,166 --> 00:52:09,749 Here you go. Deck seven. Departing in two minutes. 622 00:52:09,750 --> 00:52:11,583 Thank you. 623 00:52:25,416 --> 00:52:28,582 Jules, I just realized that I didn't bring my medication. 624 00:52:28,583 --> 00:52:31,332 We can get medication, like, everywhere. 625 00:52:31,333 --> 00:52:33,025 Yeah, but I don't think it's... 626 00:52:33,026 --> 00:52:34,918 you know, I can, like, miss a day, you know? 627 00:52:35,875 --> 00:52:40,041 Rue, we'll figure it out. I promise. 628 00:52:48,750 --> 00:52:51,833 Jules, I don't... I don't think this is a good idea. 629 00:52:51,834 --> 00:52:54,374 - Rue, it was your idea. - I know it was my idea, 630 00:52:54,375 --> 00:52:56,256 but I just... I don't think it's a good idea anymore 631 00:52:56,257 --> 00:52:58,424 - is what I'm trying to tell you. - It was a fucking great idea. 632 00:52:58,425 --> 00:52:59,707 I don't know what you're talking about. 633 00:52:59,708 --> 00:53:01,957 Can you slow down? 'Cause I'm thinking, you know, my mom, 634 00:53:01,958 --> 00:53:04,374 I don't want her to fucking freak out, all right? I don't want... 635 00:53:04,375 --> 00:53:07,999 Rue, it's not that far, and, like, we're good. 636 00:53:08,000 --> 00:53:09,111 It's... You can... We can call. 637 00:53:09,112 --> 00:53:11,165 Okay, what am I gotta tell Gia, though, you know, like... 638 00:53:11,166 --> 00:53:12,815 She's gonna wake up in the fucking morning. 639 00:53:12,816 --> 00:53:14,584 She's gonna think I'm missing. 640 00:53:15,791 --> 00:53:17,998 We're good. Come on. 641 00:53:17,999 --> 00:53:19,750 It's gonna be amazing. 642 00:53:21,917 --> 00:53:24,083 Rue! 643 00:53:35,917 --> 00:53:37,792 Come on. 644 00:53:43,500 --> 00:53:45,458 Please. 645 00:53:46,124 --> 00:53:47,750 I love you. 646 00:54:04,041 --> 00:54:06,352 "And there will be moments of relief, 647 00:54:07,250 --> 00:54:09,166 in her and in you. 648 00:54:09,708 --> 00:54:14,666 Moments that feel so normal, and calm, and rewarding that... 649 00:54:14,667 --> 00:54:18,041 you'll find yourself praying they last forever. 650 00:54:19,208 --> 00:54:21,792 Even though she's only a child, 651 00:54:22,625 --> 00:54:25,667 and all the hard parts have yet to even come. 652 00:54:27,500 --> 00:54:30,457 And at the age of 16, 653 00:54:30,458 --> 00:54:32,666 she'll overdose, 654 00:54:32,667 --> 00:54:35,457 spend four days in a coma, 655 00:54:35,458 --> 00:54:38,500 and you won't know if she'll live or die. 656 00:54:39,124 --> 00:54:41,124 But when she wakes up, 657 00:54:41,125 --> 00:54:44,624 she'll be given the opportunity to get clean, 658 00:54:44,625 --> 00:54:47,624 to become a different person, 659 00:54:47,625 --> 00:54:49,833 a better person. 660 00:54:50,875 --> 00:54:52,957 Here's the toughest part. 661 00:54:52,958 --> 00:54:56,833 No matter what you say, or do, or wish, 662 00:54:56,834 --> 00:54:59,416 the decision will be all hers. 663 00:54:59,417 --> 00:55:01,833 And all you can do is hope 664 00:55:01,834 --> 00:55:05,500 she gives herself the chance that she deserves." 665 00:57:21,955 --> 00:57:24,124 Did you take my money out of the wallet? 666 00:57:24,125 --> 00:57:25,667 No, ma'am. 667 00:57:26,541 --> 00:57:28,124 - Rue? - Yeah? 668 00:57:28,125 --> 00:57:30,082 I asked you a simple question. 669 00:57:30,083 --> 00:57:32,124 - You make everything fucking worse. - Back up. 670 00:57:32,125 --> 00:57:33,666 - It's fucking forty dollars. - I don't care. 671 00:57:33,667 --> 00:57:35,666 - It's forty fucking dollars! - I don't care... 672 00:57:35,667 --> 00:57:37,249 - It's fucking forty dollars. - I don't care. 673 00:57:37,250 --> 00:57:38,749 - What do you want? - What do you mean, what do I want? 674 00:57:38,750 --> 00:57:40,667 - What the fuck do you want? - Get out of my face. 675 00:58:35,625 --> 00:58:38,207 You can't be any more of a bitch. You're such a fucking bitch. 676 00:58:38,208 --> 00:58:39,804 Oh, I'm a bitch? 677 00:58:39,805 --> 00:58:42,040 Yeah, you're a fucking bitch, because you just fucking s... 678 00:58:42,041 --> 00:58:43,951 No! Stop! Stop! 679 00:58:43,952 --> 00:58:45,874 Obviously there's something wrong with her, 680 00:58:45,875 --> 00:58:48,290 and she's trying to get better. 681 00:58:48,291 --> 00:58:50,249 She's fucking mental, 682 00:58:50,250 --> 00:58:51,929 and I'm tired of you using that excuse. 683 00:58:51,930 --> 00:58:53,249 And you think this helps? 684 00:58:53,250 --> 00:58:55,625 It doesn't matter. I'm done. 685 00:59:25,458 --> 00:59:26,916 - Leave. - Mom! 686 00:59:26,917 --> 00:59:29,999 Leave. I don't care. Fucking leave! 687 00:59:30,000 --> 00:59:31,833 Leave. Yeah, leave. 688 00:59:31,834 --> 00:59:33,957 - Go. - You're fucking crazy. 689 00:59:33,958 --> 00:59:36,916 Fucking psychotic bitch. You fucking make me wanna... 690 00:59:36,917 --> 00:59:39,958 Fuck this shit, man. You're fuckin' crazy. 691 00:59:42,708 --> 00:59:44,957 - What? - You proud? 692 00:59:44,958 --> 00:59:48,169 - You proud? - Go after your sister. 693 00:59:48,170 --> 00:59:50,957 You wanna be like her. 694 00:59:50,958 --> 00:59:53,667 I don't want to be like you. 695 01:04:12,667 --> 01:04:14,165 Until then... 696 01:04:14,166 --> 01:04:16,708 Sync and corrections by btsix www.addic7ed.com