1 00:00:24,822 --> 00:00:27,741 All right, y'all, I'm finna head out. 2 00:00:27,825 --> 00:00:29,618 Wait, you're, uh, you're leavin'? 3 00:00:31,245 --> 00:00:33,289 Yeah, I'm about to leave right now. 4 00:00:43,007 --> 00:00:46,844 Is-is everything good? 5 00:00:46,927 --> 00:00:50,306 Yeah, before you go, bro, I, I really gotta talk to you about somethin'. 6 00:00:53,851 --> 00:00:55,936 Like what, man? 7 00:00:57,146 --> 00:00:59,273 Everything. 8 00:00:59,356 --> 00:01:02,192 The fuck is you talkin' 'bout, bruh? 9 00:01:05,154 --> 00:01:06,447 Bro... 10 00:01:09,992 --> 00:01:12,578 The fuckin' cops found Mouse's body. 11 00:01:16,415 --> 00:01:17,666 Sorry. 12 00:01:42,691 --> 00:01:44,944 Did you hear what I said? 13 00:01:45,027 --> 00:01:46,320 Ch-ch-ch... 14 00:01:46,403 --> 00:01:51,992 I thought you told me that Laurie killed Mouse, right? 15 00:01:52,076 --> 00:01:53,494 Laurie? - Wha— 16 00:01:54,995 --> 00:01:56,455 I never said that. 17 00:01:56,538 --> 00:01:58,332 What are you talkin' about? 18 00:01:58,415 --> 00:02:00,167 Yeah, you know, Laurie, 19 00:02:00,250 --> 00:02:04,463 the drug dealer that lives in the apartment complex off Kemper. 20 00:02:04,546 --> 00:02:08,467 Yeah, you were the one that told me she killed Mouse. 21 00:02:08,550 --> 00:02:10,302 I never said that. 22 00:02:12,596 --> 00:02:15,891 - Yes, you did. What are you talking about? 23 00:02:15,975 --> 00:02:18,018 - Are you high? You know that Laurie and those 24 00:02:18,102 --> 00:02:19,478 fucking people, they scare me. 25 00:02:19,561 --> 00:02:21,188 Why are you trying to protect them? 26 00:02:21,271 --> 00:02:23,273 I'm not fuckin' protecting anyone. 27 00:02:23,357 --> 00:02:24,692 What the fuck is this? 28 00:02:24,775 --> 00:02:27,236 - So, you're working for Laurie? Hey, no! 29 00:02:27,319 --> 00:02:29,321 So how about you just shut the fuck up! 30 00:02:29,405 --> 00:02:34,410 Okay, then why are you trying to cover up a murder that she committed? 31 00:02:34,493 --> 00:02:37,037 All right, now. 32 00:02:37,121 --> 00:02:39,540 Think it's time for you to get outta here, big fella. 33 00:02:39,623 --> 00:02:43,293 Bro... we gotta figure out what the fuck we're gonna say. 34 00:02:43,377 --> 00:02:46,088 - Okay, this is becoming a fucking issue. - Wait, Ash. Ash, Ash! 35 00:02:46,171 --> 00:02:47,256 No! 36 00:03:54,364 --> 00:03:56,492 Do you ever think about the future? 37 00:03:56,575 --> 00:03:59,203 Yeah, all the time. - Really? 38 00:03:59,286 --> 00:04:01,080 Yeah. 39 00:04:01,163 --> 00:04:02,539 Like you have a plan? 40 00:04:02,623 --> 00:04:05,959 I mean, I don't, I don't got, like, a plan-plan, 41 00:04:06,043 --> 00:04:08,337 but I be thinking about 42 00:04:08,420 --> 00:04:11,465 living on a farm, you know? 43 00:04:11,548 --> 00:04:13,175 I don't really see you as a farmer. 44 00:04:13,258 --> 00:04:14,635 Yeah, fuck it. 45 00:04:14,718 --> 00:04:18,764 Get some horses, cows, pigs, chickens, goats. 46 00:04:18,847 --> 00:04:20,516 Have a little family. 47 00:04:22,476 --> 00:04:25,479 Like some "Little House on the Prairie"-type shit. You know? 48 00:04:25,562 --> 00:04:27,231 I don't know if I know that show. 49 00:04:27,314 --> 00:04:30,275 You never heard of "Little House on the Prairie"? 50 00:04:30,359 --> 00:04:32,152 Okay, this might sound kind of crazy but, 51 00:04:32,236 --> 00:04:34,738 my plan is to have, like, three kids at 30. 52 00:04:34,822 --> 00:04:37,199 Like, each one a year and a half apart. 53 00:04:37,282 --> 00:04:39,868 So from 30 to 58, I can focus on, 54 00:04:39,952 --> 00:04:43,038 you know, being a good mom and raising my kids, et cetera, et cetera. 55 00:04:43,122 --> 00:04:46,583 And then, drop the last one off at college at 58. 56 00:04:46,667 --> 00:04:48,794 Which will give me, like, 32 years 57 00:04:48,877 --> 00:04:51,296 to focus on me and live my life 58 00:04:51,380 --> 00:04:53,507 and take my time with writing. 59 00:04:53,590 --> 00:04:56,510 I mean, you really got this shit all figured out, huh? 60 00:04:56,593 --> 00:04:59,346 Yeah. It's kind of crazy, right? 61 00:04:59,429 --> 00:05:01,640 I mean... 62 00:05:01,723 --> 00:05:04,476 they got, they got three kids in that show. 63 00:05:06,103 --> 00:05:09,064 There's no need to forget your manners. 64 00:05:09,148 --> 00:05:11,400 Just because we're hundreds of miles from civilized folk. 65 00:05:11,483 --> 00:05:13,902 If you lived in a place like this, do you think you'd have a gun? 66 00:05:13,986 --> 00:05:16,363 Hell yeah, I'd own a gun. 67 00:05:17,239 --> 00:05:19,575 I hate guns. 68 00:05:19,658 --> 00:05:22,828 Nobody's ever got shot at and thought to they-self, 69 00:05:22,911 --> 00:05:28,292 "Whoa! Thank goodness we didn't have a gun to shoot back." You know? 70 00:05:28,375 --> 00:05:31,295 Yeah, but then what are the police for? 71 00:05:31,378 --> 00:05:33,714 Fucked if I know. Shit. 72 00:05:33,797 --> 00:05:36,049 Wait, are you on Instagram or Twitter? 73 00:05:36,133 --> 00:05:37,551 Hell no. 74 00:05:37,634 --> 00:05:40,721 - Really? Why? - Oh yeah. 75 00:05:40,804 --> 00:05:42,431 Well, why would I want anybody 76 00:05:42,514 --> 00:05:44,474 knowin' what I'm thinkin' or feelin'? 77 00:05:44,558 --> 00:05:46,101 I don't know. You can connect 78 00:05:46,185 --> 00:05:47,769 with people who have similar interests. 79 00:05:47,853 --> 00:05:49,563 Mmm. I just feel like people 80 00:05:49,646 --> 00:05:51,732 be sharin' way too much on there. 81 00:05:51,815 --> 00:05:53,483 - Online? - Yeah. 82 00:05:53,567 --> 00:05:56,153 They be ruinin' the mystery, you know? 83 00:05:56,236 --> 00:05:58,488 Like, say if I like a girl, 84 00:05:58,572 --> 00:06:02,034 I wanna find out what she's about on my own, you know? 85 00:06:02,117 --> 00:06:04,703 I don't wanna google the scraps. 86 00:06:04,786 --> 00:06:07,539 I wanna, I wanna peel back the layers. 87 00:06:07,623 --> 00:06:11,084 Yeah, but, like, why would you wanna waste time getting to know someone... 88 00:06:11,168 --> 00:06:13,337 if you don't have anything in common with them? 89 00:06:13,420 --> 00:06:15,547 I don't know. That's what I like 90 00:06:15,631 --> 00:06:18,091 about you the most, though, like... 91 00:06:18,175 --> 00:06:19,968 we don't really have nothin' in common. 92 00:06:20,052 --> 00:06:21,553 That's not true. We both... 93 00:06:21,637 --> 00:06:23,430 have the same sense of humor, 94 00:06:23,513 --> 00:06:27,601 and... are empathic and curious. 95 00:06:29,353 --> 00:06:31,230 And wanna have, like, kids. 96 00:06:31,313 --> 00:06:34,149 Those aren't interests, you know, those are 97 00:06:34,233 --> 00:06:36,109 real character traits. 98 00:06:36,193 --> 00:06:38,570 It's— That's the important shit that, that 99 00:06:38,654 --> 00:06:40,614 people don't post online. 100 00:06:40,697 --> 00:06:43,784 Yeah, I never thought about it that way. 101 00:06:43,867 --> 00:06:47,788 Well, aren't you glad that we became friends? 102 00:06:47,871 --> 00:06:51,083 Yeah... very much so. 103 00:06:52,209 --> 00:06:55,003 Yeah, me too. 104 00:07:08,517 --> 00:07:10,143 Hey, Lexi! It's going so well! 105 00:07:10,227 --> 00:07:11,311 We're gettin' a lot of really good laughs. 106 00:07:11,395 --> 00:07:13,230 Yeah, let's not get cocky, okay? 107 00:08:18,086 --> 00:08:20,172 Oh god. 108 00:09:00,796 --> 00:09:03,882 - ... thousand versions of myself. 109 00:09:03,965 --> 00:09:06,927 Only do I look good, but I fucking feel good— 110 00:09:11,807 --> 00:09:14,434 Lexi, you really outdid yourself. 111 00:09:14,518 --> 00:09:16,937 I mean... 112 00:09:17,020 --> 00:09:19,606 where did she find these knock-offs. 113 00:09:19,689 --> 00:09:20,899 - Oh shit. 114 00:09:20,982 --> 00:09:22,567 I had no idea 115 00:09:22,651 --> 00:09:24,736 that my sister had this in her. 116 00:09:24,820 --> 00:09:26,947 Good job, right? 117 00:09:27,030 --> 00:09:28,907 Isn't she brave? 118 00:09:28,990 --> 00:09:32,702 She's up here, unpacking all of her trauma. 119 00:09:32,786 --> 00:09:35,789 I had no idea how hard your life was, Lexi. 120 00:09:35,872 --> 00:09:38,125 - Shush! - Can we give a round of applause 121 00:09:38,208 --> 00:09:40,419 for how hard Lexi's life is? 122 00:09:42,462 --> 00:09:44,631 Come on, guys. 123 00:09:44,714 --> 00:09:48,385 I know they hack the heads off of women in Afghanistan or wherever. 124 00:09:48,468 --> 00:09:50,137 That's racist! God. 125 00:09:50,220 --> 00:09:53,306 It is nothing compared to living in my shadow. 126 00:09:54,766 --> 00:09:57,269 Yo, is this like a part of the play? 127 00:09:57,352 --> 00:09:59,646 - Is this part of the play? 128 00:10:00,272 --> 00:10:02,274 I don't know. 129 00:10:02,357 --> 00:10:04,526 - Lexi. Her name's Luna! 130 00:10:04,609 --> 00:10:06,153 Is this part of the play? 131 00:10:06,236 --> 00:10:08,572 - Lexi? - LEXI: Stop, please stop. 132 00:10:08,655 --> 00:10:10,949 This is your show. Come out! 133 00:10:11,032 --> 00:10:13,660 You're the big star of the day! 134 00:10:13,743 --> 00:10:15,579 - Oh shit. - Please, Cassie, stop it. 135 00:10:15,662 --> 00:10:16,830 You're the star of the night. 136 00:10:16,913 --> 00:10:18,623 She's always wanted to be the star. 137 00:10:18,707 --> 00:10:20,625 Whoo-hoo! Go, Lexi! 138 00:10:20,709 --> 00:10:23,462 This is your big moment. Shine! 139 00:10:23,545 --> 00:10:26,339 Please, stop. Please, stop. Please, stop. Please, stop. 140 00:10:26,423 --> 00:10:28,842 I should stop? Me? 141 00:10:30,010 --> 00:10:31,678 I'm not the one putting on a play 142 00:10:31,761 --> 00:10:34,139 - to humiliate and embarrass you! - I didn't do that. 143 00:10:34,222 --> 00:10:35,891 Oh really? 144 00:10:35,974 --> 00:10:37,559 Then what is this? 145 00:10:37,642 --> 00:10:40,520 - What act are we in? - Don't question it. 146 00:10:40,604 --> 00:10:43,190 That's the brilliance of Lexi Howard. 147 00:10:43,273 --> 00:10:44,524 Hi, everyone. 148 00:10:44,608 --> 00:10:47,068 I'm Suze. I'm the girls' mom in real life. 149 00:10:47,152 --> 00:10:48,278 - LEXI: Oh my god. 150 00:10:48,361 --> 00:10:49,988 Um, played by Ethan. 151 00:10:50,071 --> 00:10:52,324 Where is he? Ethan? 152 00:10:52,407 --> 00:10:54,117 - Who by the way— 153 00:10:54,201 --> 00:10:57,037 he— you have me down to a, to a, to a science, honey. 154 00:10:57,120 --> 00:10:59,956 - Thank you. Thank you, guys. I appreciate it. - He's gonna win an award. 155 00:11:00,040 --> 00:11:01,791 Honey, let's go home. 156 00:11:01,875 --> 00:11:04,628 - I deserve this, right? - Oh my god, please, Mom, Mom. 157 00:11:04,711 --> 00:11:06,004 - I deserve this? - LEXI: Stop! 158 00:11:06,087 --> 00:11:07,839 Mom, stop! - Shh, you stop it. 159 00:11:07,923 --> 00:11:10,342 Lexi, I'm going to fucking kill you. 160 00:11:10,425 --> 00:11:11,843 I deserve this, right? 161 00:11:11,927 --> 00:11:14,095 Because I've actually lived a life? 162 00:11:14,554 --> 00:11:15,555 Mom? 163 00:11:15,639 --> 00:11:18,433 I'm the one who takes risks. 164 00:11:18,517 --> 00:11:19,726 Show us your boobs! 165 00:11:19,809 --> 00:11:22,979 I'm the one who falls in love? 166 00:11:23,063 --> 00:11:26,650 I'm the one who gets hurt, not you, Lexi! 167 00:11:28,485 --> 00:11:32,531 You never even fucking lived! 168 00:11:32,614 --> 00:11:36,576 That's why you're able to stand up here and judge all of us! 169 00:11:36,660 --> 00:11:39,371 You're just a fuckin' bystander. 170 00:11:39,454 --> 00:11:41,206 - Alright, alright— - Mom, stop! 171 00:11:41,289 --> 00:11:44,459 - Alright! 172 00:11:45,961 --> 00:11:48,463 Oh, okay... 173 00:11:48,547 --> 00:11:51,591 Well if that makes me a villain, 174 00:11:51,675 --> 00:11:54,886 - Whoo! - Then so fuckin' be it. 175 00:11:56,471 --> 00:11:58,139 I can play the fucking villain. 176 00:11:58,223 --> 00:12:00,225 Yeah, do it! 177 00:12:00,308 --> 00:12:03,103 Lexi, is this the part of the play 178 00:12:03,186 --> 00:12:04,813 where I steal Jake from Marta? 179 00:12:04,896 --> 00:12:06,773 No, Cassie, that's not in the play. 180 00:12:06,856 --> 00:12:07,857 It is now! 181 00:12:07,941 --> 00:12:09,776 - Who said that? 182 00:12:09,859 --> 00:12:11,570 Look, I wanna say, I get it. 183 00:12:11,653 --> 00:12:12,988 - Oh god... - I understand what you're going through. 184 00:12:13,071 --> 00:12:14,322 - I do not want to hear from you. - I lived it. 185 00:12:14,406 --> 00:12:16,283 Wait, Hallie steals Marta's boyfriend? 186 00:12:16,366 --> 00:12:17,951 I don't know how many times I have to say this. 187 00:12:18,034 --> 00:12:19,160 They were not fucking together. 188 00:12:19,244 --> 00:12:20,287 Yeah, not only that, 189 00:12:20,370 --> 00:12:22,038 but she was fucking him the entire time 190 00:12:22,122 --> 00:12:25,000 Marta was talking about getting back together with him. 191 00:12:25,083 --> 00:12:26,876 No... Why? 192 00:12:26,960 --> 00:12:28,920 Because Hallie is a two-faced cunt. 193 00:12:29,004 --> 00:12:31,089 - I'm not a cunt! You're the cunt! 194 00:12:31,172 --> 00:12:32,507 You're the fucking cunt, bitch! 195 00:12:32,591 --> 00:12:34,384 - I am not a fucking cunt. 196 00:12:34,467 --> 00:12:36,511 Language, missy! 197 00:12:36,595 --> 00:12:38,305 Okay, okay, you know what? 198 00:12:38,388 --> 00:12:39,389 You're just fucking embarrassing yourself. 199 00:12:39,472 --> 00:12:40,724 - Let's go home. - I'm not going home. 200 00:12:40,807 --> 00:12:42,726 - The play's not over. - Oh, my god. 201 00:12:43,893 --> 00:12:45,478 I feel like I'm gonna throw up. 202 00:12:45,562 --> 00:12:47,939 - Mom, this isn't fair! It's not her fault. She's a writer. 203 00:12:48,023 --> 00:12:49,774 - She's a writer! - This isn't fair, Mom! 204 00:12:49,858 --> 00:12:51,776 How can she do this—? 205 00:12:51,860 --> 00:12:54,613 $3.25 for a grapefruit? What is this, Venezuela? 206 00:12:59,075 --> 00:13:02,203 Lexi, Lexi, I'm gonna fucking kill you! Okay, enough! 207 00:13:02,287 --> 00:13:04,956 Mom! - I don't know. I'm panicking. 208 00:13:05,040 --> 00:13:07,417 - Go away. Just go away. 209 00:13:07,500 --> 00:13:09,294 Stop. Stop it! 210 00:13:09,377 --> 00:13:12,672 Oh, my god, yes! Oh, that's it! 211 00:13:12,756 --> 00:13:16,301 Oh, my god, I just love fucking everything! 212 00:13:16,384 --> 00:13:19,262 No! I'm going to fucking kill you! 213 00:13:19,346 --> 00:13:20,680 - Get the fuck off of the horse. - Ow! 214 00:13:20,764 --> 00:13:23,350 - Get off! 215 00:13:23,433 --> 00:13:26,227 Get off! You fucking bitch! 216 00:13:30,440 --> 00:13:32,400 Oh, this bitch needs to be put down. 217 00:13:32,484 --> 00:13:34,653 No, no, no. Maddy! No! 218 00:13:34,736 --> 00:13:36,488 Maddy, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no! 219 00:13:36,571 --> 00:13:39,908 - No, no, no, Maddy! No, no, no, no, no! 220 00:13:39,991 --> 00:13:42,077 - Maddy, no! - Maddy, beat her ass! 221 00:13:42,160 --> 00:13:44,663 - Fucking bitch! 222 00:13:44,746 --> 00:13:45,914 Fuck you! 223 00:13:47,457 --> 00:13:49,167 - Oh fuck. 224 00:13:49,250 --> 00:13:51,169 Ooh! 225 00:14:02,597 --> 00:14:05,183 No, no! Stop! Stop! Stop this! Stop, stop... 226 00:14:08,645 --> 00:14:11,356 Maddy! No, no, no, no, no, no! No, no, no! 227 00:14:11,439 --> 00:14:12,899 Maddy! No! 228 00:14:15,652 --> 00:14:18,196 Beat her fuckin' ass, Maddy! She fuckin' deserves that shit! 229 00:14:18,279 --> 00:14:20,657 She fucked your boyfriend! 230 00:14:20,740 --> 00:14:23,159 It's all make-believe. This is all scripted. 231 00:14:23,243 --> 00:14:25,995 Can you believe this? My baby's a genius. 232 00:14:26,079 --> 00:14:28,623 - Close the curtain! 233 00:14:28,707 --> 00:14:30,500 Close the fucking curtain! 234 00:14:30,583 --> 00:14:31,960 Now! 235 00:14:48,017 --> 00:14:50,228 A few days earlier, 236 00:14:50,311 --> 00:14:51,980 I stopped by Elliot's. 237 00:14:54,607 --> 00:14:57,444 Yo... Hey. 238 00:14:57,527 --> 00:15:01,781 - What's goin' on? - Ah, nothin' much. I was just, uh... 239 00:15:01,865 --> 00:15:03,408 walkin' around the neighborhood. 240 00:15:03,491 --> 00:15:05,201 Thought I'd stop by and come tell ya 241 00:15:05,285 --> 00:15:08,246 to go fuck yourself for bein' a snitch. 242 00:15:11,583 --> 00:15:12,584 Uh... 243 00:15:14,627 --> 00:15:15,795 uh... 244 00:15:17,213 --> 00:15:19,466 I know, but for real, man, I, um... 245 00:15:22,427 --> 00:15:25,138 I think you might've accidentally saved my life. 246 00:15:29,642 --> 00:15:32,103 So, uh, you know, whatever happened... 247 00:15:33,605 --> 00:15:36,566 however it happened, you know, however... 248 00:15:36,649 --> 00:15:41,654 it got to be... whatever it is, uh... 249 00:15:41,738 --> 00:15:43,156 thank God it did. 250 00:15:46,868 --> 00:15:50,455 'Cause I wouldn't be here to tell you that I forgive you. 251 00:15:50,538 --> 00:15:52,207 And that feels... 252 00:15:52,290 --> 00:15:55,251 that feels really, really nice because, uh, 253 00:15:55,335 --> 00:15:58,004 I have a lot of "I'm sorry's" to do. 254 00:16:00,215 --> 00:16:02,425 But not a lot of "I forgive you's." 255 00:16:03,426 --> 00:16:04,761 So... 256 00:16:07,013 --> 00:16:08,473 thank you for that. 257 00:16:12,894 --> 00:16:14,771 So, you're not doin' anything? 258 00:16:17,524 --> 00:16:18,817 Nah, you? 259 00:16:20,693 --> 00:16:21,778 Yeah. 260 00:16:23,446 --> 00:16:26,741 - Don't worry. I'm not gonna tell anyone. - Thank you. Yeah. 261 00:16:30,119 --> 00:16:31,913 You talk to Jules? 262 00:16:35,875 --> 00:16:39,003 - No, you? - Not really. 263 00:16:42,841 --> 00:16:45,718 Yeah, that one's gonna take me a little bit longer. 264 00:16:46,594 --> 00:16:47,846 I get that. 265 00:16:54,102 --> 00:16:56,938 - Can I play you something? 266 00:16:58,857 --> 00:17:00,817 Uh, yeah, sure. Go ahead. 267 00:17:08,700 --> 00:17:09,784 Okay. 268 00:20:32,987 --> 00:20:34,947 I'm still workin' on it. 269 00:20:39,410 --> 00:20:40,495 I like it. 270 00:20:43,831 --> 00:20:47,502 Um... truth or dare? 271 00:20:51,339 --> 00:20:52,799 Truth. 272 00:20:56,010 --> 00:20:58,262 Do you think we can still be friends? 273 00:21:01,682 --> 00:21:04,644 You know you're the one who said we weren't any good for each other. 274 00:21:06,229 --> 00:21:08,397 I still think that. 275 00:21:43,599 --> 00:21:46,769 Yeah... I, I found her. 276 00:21:50,439 --> 00:21:54,277 I'm telling everyone that that was a part of the play. 277 00:21:58,030 --> 00:22:02,285 It's the only thing I've ever done and it's a disaster. 278 00:22:02,368 --> 00:22:03,661 It could be worse. 279 00:22:05,329 --> 00:22:06,414 How? 280 00:22:07,248 --> 00:22:10,376 It could be boring. 281 00:22:10,459 --> 00:22:11,794 That's true. 282 00:22:12,837 --> 00:22:15,089 I mean, how many shows 283 00:22:15,173 --> 00:22:17,341 in the history of East Highland High 284 00:22:17,425 --> 00:22:18,926 has started a riot? 285 00:22:21,304 --> 00:22:25,141 It's not even over yet. 286 00:22:25,224 --> 00:22:27,852 Art should be dangerous. 287 00:22:30,479 --> 00:22:32,356 The show goes on. 288 00:23:23,824 --> 00:23:26,410 Lexi, Lexi, Lexi! 289 00:23:26,494 --> 00:23:29,372 Lexi, Lexi, Lexi! 290 00:23:34,293 --> 00:23:36,504 Lexi, Lexi, Lexi! 291 00:24:04,657 --> 00:24:08,369 Hallie... dust yourself off... 292 00:24:08,452 --> 00:24:10,705 and get back on that pony. 293 00:24:10,788 --> 00:24:11,998 Giddy up. 294 00:24:13,374 --> 00:24:15,501 Let's fuckin' do this. 295 00:24:27,013 --> 00:24:29,140 Um, as you may have noticed, 296 00:24:29,223 --> 00:24:32,435 we're experiencing some technical difficulties. 297 00:24:33,394 --> 00:24:34,812 Um, but seriously, 298 00:24:34,895 --> 00:24:37,315 I think we're gonna need a few minutes. 299 00:24:37,398 --> 00:24:39,025 Um... 300 00:24:39,108 --> 00:24:42,445 I just wanted to thank you all for being here. 301 00:24:42,528 --> 00:24:46,198 I didn't know any of that was gonna happen, uh... 302 00:24:46,282 --> 00:24:47,658 A little bit ago, 303 00:24:47,742 --> 00:24:52,496 I was talking to a friend about this play, 304 00:24:52,580 --> 00:24:54,707 and I asked him... 305 00:24:55,708 --> 00:24:58,377 "What if I upset people?" 306 00:24:58,461 --> 00:25:00,212 And he said to me, 307 00:25:00,296 --> 00:25:03,841 "Sometimes, people need to get their feelings hurt." 308 00:25:06,719 --> 00:25:07,887 Um... 309 00:25:07,970 --> 00:25:11,766 so even though he couldn't be here with us tonight... 310 00:25:11,849 --> 00:25:13,601 this one's for you. 311 00:25:32,119 --> 00:25:34,372 I'm sorry, bruh, 312 00:25:34,455 --> 00:25:37,541 but we have to make it look like you ain't do this. 313 00:25:37,625 --> 00:25:42,505 Just get out, man. The cops are gon' kick down that door any second, bro. 314 00:25:42,588 --> 00:25:45,633 Even if they know that you did this, bruh... 315 00:25:45,716 --> 00:25:48,511 I'm still gonna go down longer. 316 00:25:48,594 --> 00:25:50,221 - No. - Come here, bruh. 317 00:25:52,181 --> 00:25:53,516 Listen to me. 318 00:25:54,475 --> 00:25:56,018 Just go out there and surrender. 319 00:25:56,102 --> 00:25:58,521 It's all on me, bruh. You hear me? 320 00:25:58,604 --> 00:26:00,272 - No. - They gon' come in here. 321 00:26:00,356 --> 00:26:03,484 They gon' find me with the knife in my hand. 322 00:26:03,567 --> 00:26:05,903 Tell 'em you had nothin' to do with this shit. 323 00:26:05,986 --> 00:26:09,115 Listen to me. I did this shit! 324 00:26:09,198 --> 00:26:11,075 I killed this muthafucker. 325 00:26:11,158 --> 00:26:13,577 You hearin' me? Not you. 326 00:26:13,661 --> 00:26:14,954 Mm-mm. No. 327 00:26:15,037 --> 00:26:18,749 C'mon, now go wash your fucking hands. 328 00:26:18,833 --> 00:26:20,376 I love you, brother. 329 00:27:30,070 --> 00:27:34,742 Ash, stop playin'! I need you to walk out this fuckin' door right now, bruh! 330 00:27:34,825 --> 00:27:37,286 Ash, we not doin' this shit, man! 331 00:27:37,369 --> 00:27:39,830 How you think this gonna end, bruh? 332 00:27:39,914 --> 00:27:41,624 You trying to die? 333 00:27:53,928 --> 00:27:55,888 Give me the gun, bruh. 334 00:27:59,350 --> 00:28:01,727 Ash... 335 00:28:01,810 --> 00:28:04,438 I'm not finna let nothin' happen to you. Now, give me the gun. 336 00:28:04,522 --> 00:28:06,440 Come on, bro. 337 00:28:09,151 --> 00:28:11,320 I'm not fuckin' askin', bro. 338 00:28:13,072 --> 00:28:15,199 Come on, bro, please. 339 00:28:44,478 --> 00:28:45,688 Fuck! 340 00:28:53,487 --> 00:28:56,782 Ash! Ash, open the fucking door right now! 341 00:28:59,451 --> 00:29:00,828 I'm not playin' with you! 342 00:29:00,911 --> 00:29:02,246 - Ash! 343 00:29:02,329 --> 00:29:04,164 Open the fucking door! 344 00:29:47,958 --> 00:29:49,627 Wrong. I know. 345 00:29:49,710 --> 00:29:52,296 Enough with the dirty dad joke. 346 00:29:52,379 --> 00:29:53,756 Who is that? 347 00:29:55,591 --> 00:29:57,301 You know him? 348 00:30:03,682 --> 00:30:06,060 You're not even gonna give me a hug, Dad? 349 00:30:14,735 --> 00:30:16,236 That's your son? 350 00:30:22,701 --> 00:30:23,744 Yep. 351 00:30:24,912 --> 00:30:26,705 Got all the best parts of him. 352 00:30:27,665 --> 00:30:29,541 Think I know what part that is. 353 00:30:39,176 --> 00:30:41,804 You know what I think we have in common? 354 00:30:46,308 --> 00:30:48,936 When we both get off on hurting other people. 355 00:30:49,728 --> 00:30:51,188 What do ya think? 356 00:30:54,733 --> 00:30:57,611 - You wanna talk about this upstairs? No. 357 00:31:13,293 --> 00:31:16,088 So, you, uh, livin' here now? 358 00:31:18,048 --> 00:31:19,883 Uh, or the moment, yeah. 359 00:31:23,762 --> 00:31:25,013 Ya happy? 360 00:31:27,599 --> 00:31:28,976 I'm figuring it out. 361 00:31:33,647 --> 00:31:34,815 Sorry. 362 00:31:46,827 --> 00:31:49,913 - Are you happier? Why don't we go talk about this upstairs? 363 00:31:49,997 --> 00:31:52,374 - It's a simple question. - Yes... 364 00:31:54,084 --> 00:31:55,377 In some ways. 365 00:31:57,755 --> 00:32:01,175 - That's not fair. I know. 366 00:32:01,258 --> 00:32:03,886 You don't get to ruin our lives. 367 00:32:03,969 --> 00:32:07,222 And then, just... move on and get to be happier. 368 00:32:08,724 --> 00:32:10,893 I've made a lot of mistakes. 369 00:32:13,896 --> 00:32:15,397 When I was... 370 00:32:18,400 --> 00:32:20,110 eleven years old... 371 00:32:21,737 --> 00:32:26,283 I found these videos of my dad fucking hookers in a motel room. 372 00:32:29,870 --> 00:32:31,205 You know, for the longest time, 373 00:32:31,288 --> 00:32:34,541 I had this recurring nightmare, just over and over... 374 00:32:36,043 --> 00:32:39,546 and in it, he was fuckin' me the way that he fucked them. 375 00:32:45,594 --> 00:32:48,514 Did I ever tell you about that, Dad? 376 00:32:48,597 --> 00:32:53,018 I think it's time that... uh, that everybody go. 377 00:32:53,101 --> 00:32:57,397 - Um, um, I need to talk to my son. - Oh god. 378 00:33:01,318 --> 00:33:03,195 Good luck. 379 00:33:03,278 --> 00:33:05,364 - Bye. - See ya, buddy. 380 00:33:10,577 --> 00:33:13,747 I spent my whole life tryin' to protect you. 381 00:33:13,831 --> 00:33:17,125 And instead of loving me, you fuckin' hated me for it. 382 00:33:20,087 --> 00:33:23,173 I'm not proud of the person I've been. 383 00:33:23,257 --> 00:33:25,509 I know that I've hurt you. 384 00:33:27,427 --> 00:33:28,804 I don't wanna hear it. 385 00:33:28,887 --> 00:33:31,056 I tried to keep it separate. 386 00:33:31,139 --> 00:33:32,599 I failed. 387 00:33:38,313 --> 00:33:40,065 I fucked up, Nate... 388 00:33:42,985 --> 00:33:44,486 but I love you. 389 00:33:46,113 --> 00:33:47,614 I love you. 390 00:33:48,615 --> 00:33:49,992 And I should've protected you, 391 00:33:50,075 --> 00:33:52,703 I should've kept you safe, and I didn't. 392 00:33:53,370 --> 00:33:54,913 I didn't. 393 00:33:57,374 --> 00:33:59,793 And there's nothing I regret more. 394 00:34:06,466 --> 00:34:08,594 I don't want your apology. 395 00:34:14,516 --> 00:34:16,643 I just want revenge. 396 00:34:17,728 --> 00:34:19,396 What does that mean? 397 00:34:30,866 --> 00:34:32,618 What is that? 398 00:34:38,916 --> 00:34:40,500 It's everything. 399 00:34:44,129 --> 00:34:45,547 Everything. 400 00:34:52,387 --> 00:34:53,639 Nate... 401 00:34:57,059 --> 00:34:58,393 don't do this. 402 00:34:59,561 --> 00:35:00,896 Nate, look at me. 403 00:35:02,064 --> 00:35:04,024 Do not do this. 404 00:35:05,984 --> 00:35:07,027 Nate, don't do this. 405 00:35:07,110 --> 00:35:08,612 I'm, I'm, I'm begging you. 406 00:35:08,695 --> 00:35:11,114 - Don't do this. - You are... 407 00:35:11,198 --> 00:35:12,658 who you are. 408 00:35:15,369 --> 00:35:17,579 I don't think you're ever gonna change. 409 00:35:36,098 --> 00:35:38,892 Chief Greenwood? He's in here. 410 00:35:42,437 --> 00:35:44,439 Thanks, Nate. Appreciate it. 411 00:36:00,330 --> 00:36:02,249 Cal, you're under arrest. 412 00:36:02,332 --> 00:36:04,793 Put your hands behind your head. 413 00:36:04,876 --> 00:36:06,128 Both of 'em. 414 00:36:30,944 --> 00:36:32,863 Hands up! 415 00:36:37,117 --> 00:36:40,412 Ash! 416 00:36:43,081 --> 00:36:45,000 Hands in the air! 417 00:36:45,083 --> 00:36:47,252 Hands in the air! 418 00:36:48,462 --> 00:36:50,922 Don't do this shit! 419 00:36:51,006 --> 00:36:52,549 Hands up! 420 00:36:53,633 --> 00:36:55,510 Hands up! 421 00:36:55,594 --> 00:36:57,054 On the ground! 422 00:36:57,137 --> 00:36:58,346 Open door right! 423 00:37:00,849 --> 00:37:02,684 Get 'em up! 424 00:37:07,022 --> 00:37:09,066 Come on! Come out! 425 00:37:09,149 --> 00:37:10,650 Ash! 426 00:37:10,734 --> 00:37:12,611 Ash, open the door! 427 00:37:12,694 --> 00:37:15,614 - Don't move! - Drop the knife now! 428 00:37:15,697 --> 00:37:18,575 Don't shoot, don't shoot! There's a kid in there! 429 00:37:18,658 --> 00:37:20,369 Don't shoot! Don't shoot! Don't shoot! 430 00:37:20,452 --> 00:37:23,163 - There's a kid in here! There's a kid in here! - Drop the knife now! 431 00:37:23,246 --> 00:37:24,498 Please, don't shoot! 432 00:37:24,581 --> 00:37:26,541 Ash, come outta there! 433 00:37:26,625 --> 00:37:27,876 Drop your knife! 434 00:37:27,959 --> 00:37:30,212 Move slowly! There's a kid in here! 435 00:37:30,295 --> 00:37:31,588 Please, don't shoot! 436 00:37:31,671 --> 00:37:34,049 - Please, Ash, come out! - Move back to my voice! 437 00:37:34,132 --> 00:37:35,509 - Keep backing out! - Ash! 438 00:37:35,592 --> 00:37:37,260 Come out, man! 439 00:37:39,387 --> 00:37:41,264 There's a fuckin' kid up in there! 440 00:37:46,770 --> 00:37:47,896 Aaaah! 441 00:37:52,776 --> 00:37:55,278 Ash! 442 00:38:03,662 --> 00:38:05,622 Ash! 443 00:38:15,590 --> 00:38:16,675 Don't shoot! 444 00:38:16,758 --> 00:38:20,595 Ash, come on! Get outta there! 445 00:38:27,769 --> 00:38:32,357 Please! Ash, come on, please! 446 00:38:32,440 --> 00:38:35,569 Don't shoot him! It's a fucking kid! 447 00:38:36,570 --> 00:38:40,490 Don't shoot! Don't shoot! Ash! 448 00:38:57,591 --> 00:39:00,260 Ash! 449 00:39:15,984 --> 00:39:17,152 Ash! 450 00:39:20,822 --> 00:39:22,324 Ash! 451 00:39:24,034 --> 00:39:26,578 Ash! Ash! 452 00:39:28,038 --> 00:39:29,289 Answer me! 453 00:39:32,792 --> 00:39:35,670 Ash! 454 00:39:45,263 --> 00:39:46,514 Shh. 455 00:40:06,326 --> 00:40:07,577 He's down! 456 00:40:53,873 --> 00:40:56,126 I was in the hall when you died. 457 00:40:58,003 --> 00:41:02,507 You let out a loud cry like you didn't know what was gonna happen... 458 00:41:03,425 --> 00:41:05,468 and then, it was silent. 459 00:41:07,762 --> 00:41:11,975 My... my first thought was... 460 00:41:12,058 --> 00:41:14,185 "This feels like a movie." 461 00:41:16,521 --> 00:41:18,148 I know a lot of people feel that way when 462 00:41:18,231 --> 00:41:20,400 traumatic things happen to them. 463 00:41:23,361 --> 00:41:26,156 Uh, at least, I, I hear that a lot. 464 00:41:27,449 --> 00:41:29,492 It didn't feel real. 465 00:41:33,830 --> 00:41:35,790 It felt like a movie. 466 00:41:37,751 --> 00:41:39,544 Uh, and this is it. This is... 467 00:41:39,628 --> 00:41:42,922 This is the part where the character never recovers. 468 00:41:46,968 --> 00:41:50,180 The part where... life takes them down. 469 00:41:51,514 --> 00:41:52,974 This is the s— 470 00:41:55,185 --> 00:41:57,687 This is the scene that scars her forever. 471 00:42:05,737 --> 00:42:07,155 Lexi. 472 00:42:07,238 --> 00:42:09,949 - Get dressed. It's your dad. What? 473 00:43:42,000 --> 00:43:45,128 Feel like your whole life you've been forced to take care of everyone. 474 00:44:12,363 --> 00:44:14,699 I, uh— 475 00:44:15,450 --> 00:44:17,702 I watched you die... 476 00:44:17,785 --> 00:44:21,581 and all I could think about was how none of it felt real. 477 00:44:25,585 --> 00:44:28,129 The lights, the heavy boots of the EMTs 478 00:44:28,213 --> 00:44:31,299 and their respectful, quiet voices... 479 00:44:33,218 --> 00:44:35,178 "Let's lift him on three." 480 00:44:38,139 --> 00:44:39,849 It was so quiet. 481 00:44:45,146 --> 00:44:46,356 I was numb. 482 00:44:46,981 --> 00:44:48,900 I didn't care. 483 00:44:48,983 --> 00:44:52,946 I wasn't feeling life in the way it was meant to be felt because... 484 00:44:54,572 --> 00:44:57,700 I wasn't present. I wasn't actually there. 485 00:44:57,784 --> 00:44:59,619 I was just watching it. 486 00:45:05,208 --> 00:45:07,126 But that's not true. 487 00:45:09,462 --> 00:45:11,923 I do care. 488 00:45:15,552 --> 00:45:16,970 And what if... 489 00:45:20,014 --> 00:45:22,934 what if... the reason it felt like a movie 490 00:45:23,017 --> 00:45:26,396 was because I wanted to believe that losing you... 491 00:45:27,480 --> 00:45:29,816 is a part of a larger story. 492 00:45:32,026 --> 00:45:33,820 One that maybe I could... 493 00:45:34,988 --> 00:45:36,906 maybe I could still shape. 494 00:45:44,414 --> 00:45:49,919 I... I remember a couple of days before you passed away. 495 00:45:51,504 --> 00:45:52,839 You told me... 496 00:45:54,132 --> 00:45:56,467 that if I ever wanted to be with you... 497 00:45:58,469 --> 00:46:00,972 all I would have to do is close my eyes... 498 00:46:02,390 --> 00:46:04,434 and we'd be together. 499 00:46:11,482 --> 00:46:12,775 You said that... 500 00:46:13,985 --> 00:46:16,779 memories exist outside of time... 501 00:46:17,989 --> 00:46:20,450 and have no beginning or end. 502 00:46:22,869 --> 00:46:25,955 You said as long as I live... 503 00:46:26,039 --> 00:46:28,166 you'll be with me forever. 504 00:46:33,379 --> 00:46:35,131 I miss you, Dad. 505 00:46:38,092 --> 00:46:40,261 I miss you until I close my eyes. 506 00:46:42,597 --> 00:46:43,890 That's it. 507 00:46:45,808 --> 00:46:47,352 Thank you. 508 00:47:13,294 --> 00:47:14,545 LEXI Hey. 509 00:47:15,213 --> 00:47:16,589 Hey. 510 00:47:17,423 --> 00:47:18,591 Um... 511 00:47:20,551 --> 00:47:23,513 I, I just, I just wanted to tell you that I... 512 00:47:24,889 --> 00:47:27,517 I thought your play was really beautiful. 513 00:47:30,353 --> 00:47:32,397 You might be the only one who thinks that. 514 00:47:32,480 --> 00:47:35,358 Yeah, well, could you imagine if I, like, 515 00:47:35,441 --> 00:47:37,568 hated it and Cassie loved it? 516 00:47:41,322 --> 00:47:43,324 Um, but what are you doing today? 517 00:47:43,408 --> 00:47:44,909 Um, I was— 518 00:47:47,161 --> 00:47:49,372 Yeah, just laying in bed. 519 00:47:51,457 --> 00:47:55,503 Cool, well, um, can I... maybe, like, come over? 520 00:47:57,005 --> 00:47:58,047 Yeah. 521 00:47:58,840 --> 00:47:59,924 Totally. 522 00:48:00,007 --> 00:48:02,719 Okay cool. I'll... see you later then. 523 00:48:02,802 --> 00:48:04,554 - Okay. - Okay, bye. 524 00:48:56,355 --> 00:48:59,650 I feel like all the kids in high school are super crazy. 525 00:48:59,734 --> 00:49:01,444 It's literally the same as eighth grade. 526 00:49:01,527 --> 00:49:04,113 People are just way more dramatic. 527 00:49:04,197 --> 00:49:06,616 All the senior guys are, like, nice. 528 00:49:07,450 --> 00:49:09,202 How are you feeling? 529 00:49:11,037 --> 00:49:13,206 I don't know. I'm okay. 530 00:49:23,841 --> 00:49:25,176 All right, all right. I never see the five 531 00:49:25,259 --> 00:49:26,260 of you little babies together, 532 00:49:26,344 --> 00:49:27,845 so we're gonna take a photo, okay? 533 00:49:27,929 --> 00:49:29,680 - No, Mom, please don't take a photo. - All right, everyone come 534 00:49:29,764 --> 00:49:31,182 together like that. Beautiful! 535 00:49:31,265 --> 00:49:33,059 - Mom, no one wants to remember this moment. - Oh, you little 536 00:49:33,142 --> 00:49:35,561 - sugar sweethearts. - Please, stop, stop. 537 00:49:45,238 --> 00:49:46,823 I think your play was the first time 538 00:49:46,906 --> 00:49:49,742 I was able to look at my life and not hate myself... 539 00:49:51,577 --> 00:49:53,329 for everything I've done. 540 00:49:55,081 --> 00:49:56,415 What do you mean? 541 00:49:59,627 --> 00:50:02,797 I don't know. I think I've been through a lot. 542 00:50:04,423 --> 00:50:06,384 And I don't know what to do with it. 543 00:50:08,636 --> 00:50:10,972 But you've been through a lot and you know what to do with it. 544 00:50:11,055 --> 00:50:14,976 - I don't know about that. - Lex, look what you made. 545 00:50:16,269 --> 00:50:18,855 I don't know how to do that. 546 00:50:24,944 --> 00:50:27,822 I don't know how to get to where you are. 547 00:50:33,119 --> 00:50:36,455 But I just wanted you to know that seeing it meant the world to me. 548 00:50:54,181 --> 00:50:56,601 Do you think about your dad often? 549 00:51:02,565 --> 00:51:03,566 Me too. 550 00:51:03,649 --> 00:51:05,276 I feel like I had so much to learn 551 00:51:05,359 --> 00:51:08,404 from him still, you know? 552 00:51:08,487 --> 00:51:10,698 I also think I'm really angry about it. 553 00:51:11,324 --> 00:51:12,909 Yeah. 554 00:51:15,953 --> 00:51:19,165 Do you ever... get angry about it? 555 00:51:20,958 --> 00:51:23,878 It's a bit more complicated than that. 556 00:51:23,961 --> 00:51:25,671 What do you mean? 557 00:51:25,755 --> 00:51:27,548 I think, like... 558 00:51:27,632 --> 00:51:30,635 I was kind of relieved when he stopped showing up. 559 00:51:30,718 --> 00:51:33,471 'Cause I was so worried something bad was gonna happen. 560 00:51:38,851 --> 00:51:39,977 I get that. 561 00:51:41,896 --> 00:51:42,939 Now... 562 00:51:43,022 --> 00:51:46,192 every time the phone rings, it's like... 563 00:51:48,110 --> 00:51:49,236 You know? 564 00:52:00,164 --> 00:52:02,291 But you figured it out. 565 00:52:04,168 --> 00:52:05,920 You fuckin' figured it out. 566 00:52:11,133 --> 00:52:13,552 When my dad died, everybody would tell me that... 567 00:52:13,636 --> 00:52:15,471 he died for a reason. 568 00:52:17,306 --> 00:52:20,851 Ah, that shit used to piss me off. 569 00:52:20,935 --> 00:52:23,354 I would literally wanna fucking strangle them. 570 00:52:26,816 --> 00:52:28,693 But... 571 00:52:28,776 --> 00:52:32,446 I think what they're actually saying is that you gotta give it a reason. 572 00:52:37,159 --> 00:52:39,370 You gotta give all this shit a reason. 573 00:52:43,165 --> 00:52:46,544 Because I don't wanna hold on to this forever. 574 00:52:49,463 --> 00:52:52,550 I can't, I can't hold on to it forever. 575 00:52:56,679 --> 00:52:58,347 Just doesn't feel good. 576 00:53:00,474 --> 00:53:01,851 It's just— 577 00:53:01,934 --> 00:53:05,229 - I know other people are, like, built different, but— - Yeah. 578 00:53:08,065 --> 00:53:09,692 it's too much for me. 579 00:53:13,446 --> 00:53:16,157 - I'm sorry. I'm sorry. - No. 580 00:53:16,240 --> 00:53:19,452 - No, sorry. - I'm sorry. I didn't— 581 00:53:23,247 --> 00:53:24,498 Lexi... 582 00:53:26,000 --> 00:53:28,544 I promise you, it's not all his fault. 583 00:53:34,800 --> 00:53:36,552 I don't know for certain... 584 00:53:40,181 --> 00:53:41,390 but I'm, uh... 585 00:53:43,893 --> 00:53:45,519 I'm pretty sure he wakes up every day 586 00:53:45,603 --> 00:53:48,064 and he thinks, "I'm gonna be better for her. 587 00:53:49,523 --> 00:53:51,484 I'm gonna be there for her." 588 00:53:58,240 --> 00:53:59,992 That's also the problem. 589 00:54:01,660 --> 00:54:03,913 Because he only wants to be better for you. 590 00:54:12,463 --> 00:54:16,008 Because I know that he loves you a lot more than he loves himself. 591 00:54:20,471 --> 00:54:21,972 Mm. 592 00:54:22,056 --> 00:54:24,767 I don't know if that made you feel better. 593 00:54:27,728 --> 00:54:28,979 Thank you. 594 00:54:43,911 --> 00:54:45,329 It's okay. 595 00:55:05,266 --> 00:55:06,934 I miss you. 596 00:56:25,262 --> 00:56:27,181 Do you know what's funny? 597 00:56:29,767 --> 00:56:33,062 Nate broke up with me before I even went on that stage. 598 00:56:36,857 --> 00:56:38,150 Don't worry. 599 00:56:39,276 --> 00:56:41,362 This is just the beginning. 600 00:57:44,466 --> 00:57:46,010 Sorry. 601 00:57:46,093 --> 00:57:47,344 Sorry. 602 00:57:48,012 --> 00:57:49,388 Sorry. 603 00:57:50,014 --> 00:57:51,223 Hi! 604 00:57:59,982 --> 00:58:03,944 I know you're probably still really angry at me... 605 00:58:05,404 --> 00:58:10,117 but I just wanted to tell you that I love you. 606 00:58:12,828 --> 00:58:14,580 And I miss you. 607 00:58:15,456 --> 00:58:16,874 So much. 608 00:59:07,424 --> 00:59:10,302 Jules was my first love. 609 00:59:10,386 --> 00:59:13,138 I'd like to remember it that way. 610 00:59:13,222 --> 00:59:16,141 I don't know if that's actually true, though. 611 00:59:16,225 --> 00:59:18,435 I think I was high for too much of it. 612 00:59:19,686 --> 00:59:21,397 I know it wasn't easy for her. 613 00:59:21,480 --> 00:59:23,399 And I hope she forgives me. 614 00:59:28,320 --> 00:59:31,698 I stayed clean through the rest of the school year. 615 00:59:31,782 --> 00:59:35,119 I wish I could say that was a decision I made. 616 00:59:35,202 --> 00:59:37,746 In some ways, it was just easier. 617 00:59:39,790 --> 00:59:42,501 I don't know if this feeling will last forever... 618 00:59:44,420 --> 00:59:46,130 but I am trying. 619 00:59:51,635 --> 00:59:53,595 I remember Ali said, 620 00:59:53,679 --> 00:59:56,598 "The thought of maybe being a good person, 621 00:59:56,682 --> 00:59:59,560 is what keeps me trying to be a good person." 622 01:00:01,979 --> 01:00:04,273 Maybe there's something to that.