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In college, I was the hungover premed

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who fell asleep at her study carrel.

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If you're just joining our podcast,

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my guests are doctors Teddy Altman

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and Winston Ndugu from
Grey-Sloan Memorial,

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who pioneered the creation
of a ventral aorta surgery.

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At what point did you think,
"We just broke new ground"?

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- Immediately.
- Really?

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Yeah. Once that staple held, I knew.

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Sometimes you just have a feeling.

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In med school, I was
the famous surgeon's daughter.

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It wasn't like that for you?

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Honestly, there was
so much going on that night,

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I didn't have time to
process it all until later.

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Now I'm the famous surgeon.

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- So you had doubts?
- Oh, yeah.

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I was never certain it would work,

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but our patient didn't
have any other option.

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I knew that we had to try.

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In medicine, your
identity is constantly changing.

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It's your job to keep up.

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Safe to say it worked
out. What's next for you both?

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Well, we're still
monitoring our patients' progress.

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- And?
- So far so good.

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They sound really good, very competent.

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Yeah. I'd come to this hospital.

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Well, speaking of...

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I made an appointment for you.

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We talked about this, Catherine.
I don't need another opinion.

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I like Dr. Freeman.

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I know you do because he goes
along with whatever you want.

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You don't think doctors should
listen to their patients?

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I think you need objective advice

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from someone whose
paycheck you don't sign.

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It's just another opinion.

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- Who am I seeing?
- Kaplan.

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Laura Kaplan? In Boston?

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I thought you made an appointment here.

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I sent for my plane.

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She landed about an hour ago.

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Morning.

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- Hey.
- Hey.

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Hey, nice job on that podcast.

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I didn't realize you and Altman
came up with that at our wedding.

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Yeah, you never know
when an idea will strike.

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- Mmm.
- Go ahead, Dr. Adams.

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Uh, yes. Uh, Jo Wilson.

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Post-op day seven from emergency
C-section and Impella CP placement.

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Now post-op day three
from a 5.5 placement

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through the right axillary artery.

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Her heart function continues to recover

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with her EF up another five percent,

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and I heard she got to
meet her babies yesterday.

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- How are they doing?
- Hmm.

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Peyton's off of CPAP but still fragile.

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Hattie's bilirubin levels are bad

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every time they pause phototherapy.

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And you're all headed
in the right direction.

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- That's what matters.
- I just...

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really want the six of
us to finally be together.

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Jo, you will never guess

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- who Marcus walked out with last night.
- Who?

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- Dr. Ndugu.
- Hey.

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- I didn't know you were doing rounds.
- Yeah.

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I'll come back later.

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What was that?

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- What was what?
- Did you sleep with my favorite nurse?

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- Jo...
- Uh, should I leave?

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We've just gone out a
couple times. That's all.

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Well, are you gonna take her out again?

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- Uh, just... Maybe. It's new and...
- And none of our business.

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She is the entire
department's favorite nurse.

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Everybody loves her. Everyone.

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- Hormones.
- Okay.

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Uh, I-I need to check on my next
patient. Are you gonna be okay?

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- Yeah.
- Uh, page me if you need anything.

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- Good morning.
- Traitor.

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- Trouble in paradise?
- I broke our pact.

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- She's bitter.
- Then you should break it too.

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What, I can just snap my fingers?
Who am I supposed to sleep with?

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I ordered an X-ray for
Ms. Johnson's left arm.

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It was the right arm, wasn't it?

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I will fix it.

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An intern? Please. I have dignity.

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- Don't knock it until you've tried it.
- Tried what?

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Vegan sloppy joes.

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You sleeping with an intern too?

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Wait. Who's sleeping with an intern?

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- I am. Who are you texting?
- Nobody.

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- Doesn't look like nobody.
- Nah, she's just a patient.

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Why are you texting a patient?

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Yeah, well, Bailey made me drive
her an hour to get treatment,

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and now she's sending me dumb memes.

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- It's nothing.
- Wear a condom.

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She's a cancer patient.

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Hey. Did you see that
I admitted Mr. Howard?

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You don't have to put your phone down.

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- It's fine.
- Sorry.

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My phone has been blowing
up since the podcast dropped.

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I listened. You sounded great.

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Well, now I've got doctors
reaching out about their patients,

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and the department
chief from Mass General

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has asked me to do grand rounds.

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Hmm. Sounds rough.

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Well, it's not like I'm
getting a Nobel Prize.

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I mean, MGH asks
everyone to guest lecture.

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They never asked me,
and I went to Harvard.

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Anyway, so, Mr. Howard, his
EKG shows a conduction block.

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- Do you want an echo?
- Um, yes. Sorry, I have to take this.

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Hi, this is Altman.

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Hi, Janet, I'm, uh, Dr. Millin.
I hear you're having some leg pain.

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Yeah, and some heaviness.

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I'm concerned it might be a DVT.

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I think she should have an ultrasound.

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I assume you want a full work up.

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CBC, D-dimer, and a duplex ultrasound?

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I'm Jules Millin.

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I'm a second-year surgical resident.

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You're internal medicine, right?

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Oh, no. Oh. I'm not a doctor.
Sorry. Yeah.

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- Oh, we were role-playing.
- Yeah.

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The more medical terms,
the better it gets.

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- Yeah.
- So, Hal does his homework.

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- So do you have leg pain or is this...
- Oh, no, that's real.

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The pain started this
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to squeeze in a quickie before work.

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- May I do an exam?
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Um, how long did the pain last for?

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- Uh, a few hours?
- Yeah.

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We've been trying to
spice things up lately,

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so we just wanna make sure we
haven't, uh, caused a problem.

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Oh, um...

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DVTs usually occur
with less, um, activity,

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but it is better to be safe than
sorry, so I will order some tests.

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- All right.
- And get back to you.

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- Okay. Thank you.
- Thank you.

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Dr. Griffith.

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A 38-year-old female with
a large mediastinal teratoma

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that has been resistant to chemotherapy.

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Presents with progressive
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orthopnea, and angina.

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It has to be at least 35 pounds.

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And, uh, 27 centimeters
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The tumor is displacing
the heart and great vessels.

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The SVC is compressed,

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and it's also indenting
the right lobe of the liver.

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- Hmm. How are the lungs?
- Compressed with near total collapse

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of the mid-right and lower lobes.

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Has anyone tried to
operate on the thing?

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Her name is London

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and, yes, there have been
two attempts at Seattle Pres.

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They had to abort both times
because she arrested on the table.

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But you believe you would have
a different outcome if you tried?

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Well, I have removed extremely
difficult tumors before,

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and this one is benign.

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So, if we can successfully remove
it, then she resumes a normal life.

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Even if you convinced anesthesia,

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you could still encounter
catastrophic bleeding.

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And that is why I'm
here at the tumor board,

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where people help their
colleagues to come up with a plan.

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If anyone here thinks this remotely
is a possibility, please speak up.

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Yes.

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It's a tragic case, Dr. Bailey, but...

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It's a lawsuit waiting to happen.

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I'll do it with you.

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The alternative is hospice, right?

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Dr. Hunt, it just can't be done.

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Yeah, well, you don't
know what we're capable of.

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- Bye.
- I knew you'd have an idea.

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Yeah, I got nothing.

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What?

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- Synced and corrected by ChrisKe -
— for www.addic7ed.com —

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Well, look who's here.
How was your flight?

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Most quiet I've had in months.

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- Oh, great.

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- Dr. Webber, it's a pleasure.
- Hi.

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I've heard a lot about you.

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All good things.

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Catherine's thrilled you
joined the team in Boston.

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She's thrilled she poached
me from Sloan Kettering.

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You are at the forefront of urologic

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oncology, and that lecture that you gave

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to the American Urological
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brought the house down.

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And she is developing a program
that uses AI to study biomarkers.

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We just received another
grant for it yesterday.

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You bet you did.

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Now, tell us about
my husband's prostate.

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Catherine, please.

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- If now's not a good time...
- Don't be ridiculous.

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Come on, everybody. Sit down.

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Have a seat. Come on.

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Good news is you caught it early.

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Grade group two, a seven Gleason.

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Well, he knows all of that. So
tell us, what do you suggest?

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Well, given the cancer's localized,

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and you're generally in good health,

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I recommend a radical prostatectomy.

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I couldn't agree more.

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If you're worried about side effects,

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urinary incontinence, erectile
dysfunction, they are a risk.

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- But for many men...
- What about infection?

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It's unlikely but possible.

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Blood clots, stroke, injury
to the rectum, bladder, nerves?

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They're all possible too, right?

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Yeah.

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Thank you for your time,

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but I've already selected
an option with my own doctor.

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Watchful waiting.

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I've got patients to see.

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Not seeing abnormalities.

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What's that wand called?

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An ultrasound probe.

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- Write that down.
- Okay.

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Right, the ultrasound is negative.

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So, she doesn't have a clot?

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Not that I can see.

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Sounds like maybe there
still might be one...

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Well, your D-dimer
was slightly elevated,

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which is the marker
we look at for clots.

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It doesn't necessarily mean
anything, but it is reason

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to come back if you have any more pain.

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Maybe I just need to stretch
before I go to the doctor.

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- Mmm.
- Stretch?

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Uh, don't ask any questions.

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I'm gonna start your,
um, discharge paperwork.

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What was that all about?

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They like to role-play
doctor and patient in bed.

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Good for them.

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They're so cute.

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Rustic cute?

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Five reviews say those
rockers broke within a year.

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How's the lake house?

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We've moved from arguing over
tile to arguing over porch chairs.

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How was the tumor board?

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Uh, unfortunately, they are
concerned about the risks

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and recommend that we don't proceed.

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So naturally I called in reinforcements.
This is Dr. Owen Hunt.

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- He's one of our trauma surgeons.
- Hi.

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If it's okay with you, I'd
like to work with Dr. Bailey

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to make sure that we've
explored every possible option.

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I want to help.

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- I like him.
- Mmm.

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If everyone else has reservations,
why do you think you can do it?

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Charlie, we've actually found surgeons

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that are not giving us a hard no.

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And I've almost lost you twice.

248
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I'm definitely not ready to lose you

249
00:10:52,129 --> 00:10:53,825
today from some botched operation.

250
00:10:53,963 --> 00:10:57,311
- Neither are we.
- Hey, I'm still here.

251
00:10:58,036 --> 00:11:00,466
They're just asking if
they can go work on a plan.

252
00:11:01,072 --> 00:11:04,524
If their plan leads to
us growing old together,

253
00:11:04,560 --> 00:11:10,083
looking at the water from shoddy
but very cute rocking chairs...

254
00:11:11,760 --> 00:11:14,383
I'm in. Aren't you?

255
00:11:18,574 --> 00:11:20,689
You really think you can
figure out a way to keep

256
00:11:20,714 --> 00:11:22,485
her heart from stopping
when she's on that table?

257
00:11:22,509 --> 00:11:25,521
Look, if we can't figure this
out, we won't proceed, right?

258
00:11:25,546 --> 00:11:27,825
That was our deal when
you two came to me.

259
00:11:29,481 --> 00:11:31,311
Okay, work on your plan.

260
00:11:31,336 --> 00:11:33,357
- Okay.
- We'll be back.

261
00:11:33,382 --> 00:11:34,694
Okay.

262
00:11:41,352 --> 00:11:44,771
Hi, my cuties.

263
00:11:46,568 --> 00:11:48,968
They look bigger. Did they get bigger?

264
00:11:48,993 --> 00:11:51,858
Hattie's put on a full
ounce in the last 24 hours,

265
00:11:51,883 --> 00:11:54,023
- and Peyton isn't far behind.
- That's right.

266
00:11:54,274 --> 00:11:55,828
Lincolns know how to bulk.

267
00:11:58,818 --> 00:12:00,911
I gotta go to PT. Sure you're okay?

268
00:12:00,936 --> 00:12:02,351
- Yeah.
- Okay. You sure?

269
00:12:02,376 --> 00:12:03,515
Yeah.

270
00:12:04,566 --> 00:12:06,360
- All right.
- Okay.

271
00:12:07,842 --> 00:12:09,257
- See you soon.
- Yeah.

272
00:12:11,978 --> 00:12:13,998
You're Peyton and Hattie's mom?

273
00:12:14,423 --> 00:12:16,528
Mm-hmm.

274
00:12:18,561 --> 00:12:20,563
Sorry, it's just that, um...

275
00:12:21,087 --> 00:12:24,366
That's the first time that
somebody's called me their mom.

276
00:12:25,528 --> 00:12:26,564
Here.

277
00:12:28,503 --> 00:12:30,936
Oh, wait, that one's not clean.

278
00:12:32,281 --> 00:12:33,282
- Here.
- Thanks.

279
00:12:33,891 --> 00:12:37,421
I'm an OB-GYN, and
I talk to my patients

280
00:12:37,446 --> 00:12:40,035
all the time about
postpartum hormone drops,

281
00:12:40,068 --> 00:12:44,272
but I had no idea it was
this intense and just... random.

282
00:12:44,591 --> 00:12:48,743
Yesterday, my boyfriend and I were
buying diapers for me not the baby,

283
00:12:48,768 --> 00:12:51,622
and the guy ringing me up said,
"Will that be all?"

284
00:12:51,647 --> 00:12:53,402
And I burst into tears.

285
00:12:53,427 --> 00:12:55,429
It's nice to know that I'm not alone.

286
00:12:57,915 --> 00:12:59,502
What?

287
00:12:59,527 --> 00:13:01,553
You're my first mom friend.

288
00:13:02,005 --> 00:13:04,559
Oh. I'm honored.

289
00:13:04,822 --> 00:13:07,410
Did you tear or... Can I ask you that?

290
00:13:07,510 --> 00:13:10,824
Yeah, you can ask me anything,
but, um, no, I-I didn't tear.

291
00:13:10,849 --> 00:13:14,838
I, uh... ... I had
something called a crash C-section.

292
00:13:14,863 --> 00:13:16,934
Oh, tell me everything.

293
00:13:19,384 --> 00:13:20,454
I'll be back.

294
00:13:20,479 --> 00:13:22,756
Richard, what the hell are you doing?

295
00:13:23,401 --> 00:13:25,331
I'm about to check
Mr. Tolli's wound VAC.

296
00:13:25,356 --> 00:13:27,772
You said you would hear Kaplan out.

297
00:13:27,797 --> 00:13:29,523
I did.

298
00:13:29,766 --> 00:13:31,855
Is this because you're
worried about the bedroom?

299
00:13:31,880 --> 00:13:34,717
Because you know we'll figure that out.

300
00:13:36,802 --> 00:13:37,838
Come on.

301
00:13:43,857 --> 00:13:45,283
I'm not having this conversation here.

302
00:13:45,307 --> 00:13:47,698
Is this because you
prefer a male doctor?

303
00:13:47,723 --> 00:13:49,113
Now that's insulting!

304
00:13:49,138 --> 00:13:50,805
Well, I'm just trying to understand why

305
00:13:50,830 --> 00:13:54,187
you would dismiss a top
urologist like she's an intern.

306
00:13:54,212 --> 00:13:56,224
I moved mountains to
bring her here for you.

307
00:13:56,249 --> 00:13:57,745
I didn't ask you to.

308
00:13:58,665 --> 00:14:00,676
Now, my cancer hasn't metastasized.

309
00:14:00,701 --> 00:14:03,628
Watchful waiting is a
perfectly reasonable option.

310
00:14:03,843 --> 00:14:06,846
I respected your health care
decisions even when I didn't agree.

311
00:14:07,674 --> 00:14:09,365
I need you to do the same for me.

312
00:14:11,333 --> 00:14:13,887
1962.

313
00:14:14,025 --> 00:14:16,623
- Who was the surgeon at Seattle Pres?
- Collins.

314
00:14:16,648 --> 00:14:20,386
Yeah, he actually did his residency
here a couple of years behind me.

315
00:14:20,411 --> 00:14:23,863
When his chief wouldn't let him
try again, he sent London to me.

316
00:14:23,888 --> 00:14:26,185
If she codes the minute
she lays on the table,

317
00:14:26,210 --> 00:14:28,049
why didn't they try a
reverse Trendelenburg?

318
00:14:28,074 --> 00:14:29,190
Keep her at an incline to take the

319
00:14:29,214 --> 00:14:30,505
pressure off some of
the cardiac vessels?

320
00:14:30,530 --> 00:14:33,675
Oh, no, they did. Uh, but
see how compressed they are?

321
00:14:33,700 --> 00:14:35,090
It wasn't enough.

322
00:14:35,115 --> 00:14:36,921
Okay, what about conscious sedation
instead of general anesthesia?

323
00:14:36,945 --> 00:14:39,430
She'd continue to breathe
on her own, which would help

324
00:14:39,455 --> 00:14:42,408
blood return back to the heart
and minimize airway collapse.

325
00:14:42,433 --> 00:14:44,745
I mean, it might help some...

326
00:14:44,884 --> 00:14:46,939
The tumor's matured
into its own ecosystem.

327
00:14:46,964 --> 00:14:48,414
You can see the calcifications,

328
00:14:48,439 --> 00:14:52,374
- fat, the cystic components.
- Yeah? What?

329
00:14:52,399 --> 00:14:54,938
What if we drain it? Shrink
the mass before we go in?

330
00:14:54,963 --> 00:14:57,147
It's a good idea, but the
location is just too risky.

331
00:14:57,172 --> 00:14:59,529
We can't risk the contents of
the tumor spilling into the chest.

332
00:14:59,553 --> 00:15:01,358
It would just regrow.

333
00:15:01,383 --> 00:15:02,774
I gotta run to a consult in the pit,

334
00:15:02,798 --> 00:15:04,051
but I will keep thinking on this.

335
00:15:04,075 --> 00:15:06,146
No promises though.

336
00:15:07,251 --> 00:15:09,362
Adams, Griffith, let's
look up every case

337
00:15:09,386 --> 00:15:11,609
report published on
mediastinal teratomas.

338
00:15:11,634 --> 00:15:14,700
Research patterns,
cross-reference solutions, okay?

339
00:15:15,430 --> 00:15:17,132
We all just listened to
a podcast this morning

340
00:15:17,157 --> 00:15:18,859
about how our hospital
pulled off a miracle.

341
00:15:18,883 --> 00:15:21,161
Who's to say we can't
do it again, right? Go.

342
00:15:24,081 --> 00:15:26,324
We're gonna come up with something.

343
00:15:28,247 --> 00:15:29,731
- Hey.
- Hi.

344
00:15:29,869 --> 00:15:32,285
- Are you done with that tablet?
- Nope, get your own.

345
00:15:32,310 --> 00:15:35,559
Bailey and Hunt have a
massive mediastinal teratoma.

346
00:15:35,584 --> 00:15:37,912
If you sweet-talk Bailey,
you can get in on it with us.

347
00:15:37,937 --> 00:15:38,977
They're looking for ideas.

348
00:15:39,162 --> 00:15:40,646
I'm too swamped down here.

349
00:15:41,436 --> 00:15:44,125
Hey, I'm sorry about this morning.

350
00:15:44,150 --> 00:15:45,408
Jo's crying about everything these days.

351
00:15:45,432 --> 00:15:48,672
- It's fine.
- But she loves Iris, so...

352
00:15:49,077 --> 00:15:50,917
she'll be happy if you two are a thing.

353
00:15:57,922 --> 00:16:00,003
- Why are you acting weird?
- I'm not acting weird.

354
00:16:00,028 --> 00:16:02,005
Yeah, you are.

355
00:16:02,030 --> 00:16:04,421
- Help. Help my wife! Help.
- Hal?

356
00:16:04,446 --> 00:16:06,217
- Sir, you might wanna button that.
- Oh, my God. Janet.

357
00:16:10,805 --> 00:16:12,083
I'm getting weak pulses.

358
00:16:12,826 --> 00:16:15,070
Janet, look at me. I'm
going to care of you, okay?

359
00:16:15,529 --> 00:16:17,014
We need a gurney in here!

360
00:16:24,226 --> 00:16:26,098
The plane won't be ready
for another couple of hours.

361
00:16:26,123 --> 00:16:29,367
- Catherine said I could work in here.
- Not a problem.

362
00:16:32,334 --> 00:16:33,749
I owe you an apology.

363
00:16:34,752 --> 00:16:37,860
I was led to believe that you were
the one seeking a second opinion.

364
00:16:37,885 --> 00:16:39,093
You couldn't have known.

365
00:16:39,481 --> 00:16:41,289
I should have at least suspected.

366
00:16:41,655 --> 00:16:43,243
I think your wife broke contract laws

367
00:16:43,268 --> 00:16:44,910
to ensure my employment at her hospital.

368
00:16:44,934 --> 00:16:46,143
Don't feel bad.

369
00:16:46,168 --> 00:16:49,386
You're not the first to
fall prey to her ways.

370
00:16:49,905 --> 00:16:52,080
I'm guessing I won't be the last.

371
00:16:52,577 --> 00:16:54,268
She does it 'cause she cares.

372
00:16:54,944 --> 00:16:58,120
That's what makes it infuriating.

373
00:17:01,227 --> 00:17:02,542
Feel free to say no.

374
00:17:03,187 --> 00:17:06,345
But I've got a patient with
a retroperitoneal tumor,

375
00:17:06,370 --> 00:17:08,937
and I would be remiss
if I didn't ask Fox

376
00:17:08,962 --> 00:17:11,280
Hospitals' Chief of
Chiefs for a consult.

377
00:17:12,431 --> 00:17:14,784
- No. Got a little time.
- Yeah.

378
00:17:15,136 --> 00:17:18,933
How about we get a couple of
pastries to go with this coffee?

379
00:17:19,259 --> 00:17:21,261
Thank you. That would be great.

380
00:17:22,726 --> 00:17:24,933
"Twenty-two-pound
teratoma in the abdomen.

381
00:17:25,302 --> 00:17:29,713
San Francisco, 2018." They
started with a CT-guided drainage.

382
00:17:29,738 --> 00:17:31,298
Yeah, but look at the picture of the CT.

383
00:17:31,473 --> 00:17:32,819
Nowhere near the heart.

384
00:17:32,844 --> 00:17:34,743
Another dead end.

385
00:17:36,409 --> 00:17:37,809
Another dumb meme from your patient?

386
00:17:37,834 --> 00:17:39,714
No, she's asking for movie recs.

387
00:17:40,275 --> 00:17:41,379
She's stuck at home.

388
00:17:41,991 --> 00:17:44,442
Not exactly a doctor-patient
conversation topic.

389
00:17:45,236 --> 00:17:47,756
She's Bailey's patient. She
has stage four gastric cancer.

390
00:17:47,781 --> 00:17:50,044
She can ask whatever she wants.

391
00:17:50,069 --> 00:17:51,529
I mean, shouldn't you
keep it professional?

392
00:17:51,553 --> 00:17:53,496
Look, you have no idea what
you're talking about. It's...

393
00:17:53,521 --> 00:17:55,561
I'm just saying, you're
young, you're single. You...

394
00:17:56,081 --> 00:17:58,558
You look like you
might be leading her on.

395
00:17:59,906 --> 00:18:02,736
- I'm her doctor.
- And she's a vulnerable patient.

396
00:18:03,410 --> 00:18:05,405
I don't... I don't need this right now.

397
00:18:05,429 --> 00:18:07,638
- I'm just trying to look out for you.
- Yeah, try less.

398
00:18:10,192 --> 00:18:11,849
Hunt's asking for an update.

399
00:18:14,448 --> 00:18:17,141
- Okay, anything?
- Not yet. Thanks.

400
00:18:20,825 --> 00:18:24,346
Why did you join this case
when everyone else dismissed it?

401
00:18:24,371 --> 00:18:25,872
It's like you said, it's benign.

402
00:18:25,897 --> 00:18:27,805
Once it's out, she
moves on with her life.

403
00:18:27,830 --> 00:18:30,454
There's no worry of mets or recurrence.

404
00:18:33,560 --> 00:18:37,046
Yeah... ... I might be
feeling a little uninspired lately.

405
00:18:37,071 --> 00:18:40,922
Uh-huh. Wouldn't have to
do with other people solving

406
00:18:40,947 --> 00:18:43,384
cases at weddings and
doing podcasts, would it?

407
00:18:43,718 --> 00:18:46,824
I see you at drop-off.

408
00:18:46,963 --> 00:18:49,103
I know everything's
falling on you right now.

409
00:18:49,241 --> 00:18:52,392
She's lecturing and
you're packing lunches.

410
00:18:52,417 --> 00:18:55,876
I'm happy to do it, and she
deserves all the attention.

411
00:18:56,238 --> 00:18:58,378
I just think this tumor was...

412
00:18:59,994 --> 00:19:01,119
I don't know.

413
00:19:01,144 --> 00:19:04,833
My patient cannot be the fix
to get you out of this slump.

414
00:19:05,690 --> 00:19:06,736
What have you got?

415
00:19:06,761 --> 00:19:09,951
Ten cases, at least half of
them considered inoperable.

416
00:19:09,976 --> 00:19:12,333
And none of the masses
are nearly the same size.

417
00:19:12,358 --> 00:19:14,543
There's one case that reported
a similar arrest in the OR,

418
00:19:14,567 --> 00:19:16,371
but the team never tried it again

419
00:19:16,396 --> 00:19:18,995
because they couldn't safely find
a way around the heart and lungs.

420
00:19:19,019 --> 00:19:21,505
Which is exactly what
happened with London.

421
00:19:21,737 --> 00:19:24,257
As difficult as this is for me to say...

422
00:19:25,388 --> 00:19:27,425
I think we're out of options.

423
00:19:27,978 --> 00:19:30,142
- What about ECMO?
- What about it?

424
00:19:30,167 --> 00:19:33,733
We need to bypass the pulmonary
system, so why don't we use ECMO?

425
00:19:33,758 --> 00:19:35,415
The machine oxygenates
and pumps the blood

426
00:19:35,440 --> 00:19:37,358
so her heart and lungs don't have to.

427
00:19:37,421 --> 00:19:41,908
There is no arrest if
the machine is acting as her heart.

428
00:19:43,287 --> 00:19:46,697
Don't say no yet.
I'm gonna go find Ndugu.

429
00:19:46,903 --> 00:19:47,938
Okay.

430
00:19:50,019 --> 00:19:51,544
Almost there, Janet.

431
00:19:51,569 --> 00:19:53,675
If this is a clot, you can fix it, right?

432
00:19:55,146 --> 00:19:57,550
Blood clots are treatable
if you catch them in time,

433
00:19:57,575 --> 00:19:58,855
so it's a good thing you're here.

434
00:20:00,547 --> 00:20:02,025
Weird but good.

435
00:20:02,050 --> 00:20:05,213
I should probably be
embarrassed, but I'm proud of us.

436
00:20:05,238 --> 00:20:07,378
All my friends got
bored of their spouses

437
00:20:07,759 --> 00:20:11,185
and filed for divorce,
but we got creative.

438
00:20:11,389 --> 00:20:13,563
By coming to the
hospital and having sex.

439
00:20:14,557 --> 00:20:17,244
Don't be jealous. I'm sure other
people aren't getting any either.

440
00:20:17,704 --> 00:20:19,499
All right, let me see.

441
00:20:22,003 --> 00:20:24,957
Looks like there's a left
iliac vein thrombosis.

442
00:20:24,982 --> 00:20:26,604
Hal was right. DVT.

443
00:20:26,629 --> 00:20:30,100
If you look closely, the iliac
artery is compressing the vein.

444
00:20:30,125 --> 00:20:31,989
- May-Thurner syndrome.
- Mm-hmm.

445
00:20:32,240 --> 00:20:33,862
All right, let's book an angio suite

446
00:20:33,887 --> 00:20:37,270
for a thrombectomy and iliac vein
stenting and start practicing.

447
00:20:37,295 --> 00:20:39,883
I'm gonna supervise
you doing the procedure.

448
00:20:41,194 --> 00:20:42,782
- Me?
- She means me.

449
00:20:43,650 --> 00:20:45,261
I don't care who it is... as long as

450
00:20:45,286 --> 00:20:47,073
you guys are prepped and ready to go.

451
00:20:51,024 --> 00:20:52,571
You really think this will work?

452
00:20:52,596 --> 00:20:55,599
The challenge, right, has
always been the pressure

453
00:20:55,624 --> 00:20:58,128
that your tumor is
putting on your heart,

454
00:20:58,153 --> 00:21:01,718
your lungs and major arteries
when you're positioned for surgery.

455
00:21:01,743 --> 00:21:03,445
And the ECMO machine
makes that irrelevant

456
00:21:03,469 --> 00:21:05,618
because it oxygenates and
pumps your blood for you.

457
00:21:05,643 --> 00:21:08,370
So no matter what happens,
your body will receive oxygen

458
00:21:08,395 --> 00:21:10,305
and blood flow while we work.

459
00:21:11,150 --> 00:21:13,256
I can't believe you
actually figured it out.

460
00:21:13,281 --> 00:21:16,422
Have you done this before?
I mean, how common is this ECMO?

461
00:21:16,447 --> 00:21:19,460
Charlie, you said you were
in if they figured it out.

462
00:21:19,485 --> 00:21:20,998
How common is it?

463
00:21:21,023 --> 00:21:24,361
It's not common for this, and
it can be hard to wean off ECMO

464
00:21:24,386 --> 00:21:27,113
after removing something that's
compressed your lung for so long,

465
00:21:27,138 --> 00:21:28,572
but her heart is healthy.

466
00:21:28,710 --> 00:21:30,402
I don't anticipate that being a problem.

467
00:21:30,427 --> 00:21:32,774
But it could be a problem.

468
00:21:35,714 --> 00:21:37,302
You almost lost me twice.

469
00:21:38,417 --> 00:21:41,731
If we do nothing, this thing
just keeps growing inside me

470
00:21:42,273 --> 00:21:47,623
until it squashes all my
organs... and I'm definitely gone.

471
00:21:48,548 --> 00:21:49,963
I don't wanna live like that.

472
00:21:51,689 --> 00:21:53,381
Slowly suffocating.

473
00:21:54,140 --> 00:21:57,454
I don't want you to have
to watch me live like that.

474
00:21:58,489 --> 00:22:01,457
We asked them to come
up with a solution.

475
00:22:04,219 --> 00:22:05,783
I'm taking it.

476
00:22:05,807 --> 00:22:07,854
Okay, Dr. Griffith and Dr.
Adams will get you prepped,

477
00:22:07,878 --> 00:22:10,190
and we will see you in the OR, okay?

478
00:22:15,161 --> 00:22:16,521
Is it weird that he's not blinking?

479
00:22:16,645 --> 00:22:18,889
Newborn tear ducts
aren't fully developed.

480
00:22:19,074 --> 00:22:20,938
It's so cool that you
know all this stuff.

481
00:22:22,030 --> 00:22:25,388
Is it bad if I'm not,
like, feeling anything?

482
00:22:25,507 --> 00:22:27,200
You mean you don't feel a bond?

483
00:22:28,775 --> 00:22:30,669
- I'm already a terrible mom.
- No.

484
00:22:30,694 --> 00:22:34,214
No, it's completely normal,
and you're exhausted,

485
00:22:34,239 --> 00:22:35,768
and your hormones are
all over the place.

486
00:22:35,793 --> 00:22:39,194
And to be honest, newborns
are kinda just blobs.

487
00:22:39,332 --> 00:22:42,646
In a few weeks, he'll be laughing
and smiling, and it just...

488
00:22:42,671 --> 00:22:43,983
it gets so much better.

489
00:22:44,606 --> 00:22:46,125
You're a really good doctor.

490
00:22:46,937 --> 00:22:48,766
Are you taking new patients?

491
00:22:49,305 --> 00:22:50,723
- Well, it's...
- Hey.

492
00:22:50,748 --> 00:22:53,682
- How're my girls?
- Hey. Well, we made a new friend...

493
00:22:53,820 --> 00:22:56,927
- Whoa. Oh, my God.
- Oh. Oh. Someone call a rapid response!

494
00:22:56,952 --> 00:22:58,360
Right away, Doctor.

495
00:23:06,833 --> 00:23:08,076
She's still seizing.

496
00:23:09,558 --> 00:23:11,173
Someone give me IM midazolam.

497
00:23:11,537 --> 00:23:13,953
She's seven days postpartum.
Check her blood pressure.

498
00:23:13,978 --> 00:23:16,093
It's probably eclampsia.
She needs mag now.

499
00:23:16,118 --> 00:23:18,096
Did she have any
symptoms before she started seizing?

500
00:23:18,120 --> 00:23:20,679
No, she seemed completely
fine. It came out of nowhere.

501
00:23:20,704 --> 00:23:22,098
We'll need to get her up to OB.

502
00:23:22,123 --> 00:23:24,530
- Will you go up with her?
- Whatever you want.

503
00:23:25,157 --> 00:23:26,345
Call me when you get up there.

504
00:23:31,702 --> 00:23:32,979
Scissors.

505
00:23:34,168 --> 00:23:37,206
- Put two units of blood on standby.
- Lap pad.

506
00:23:39,452 --> 00:23:41,143
All right, I secured the cannula.

507
00:23:41,168 --> 00:23:43,111
Adams, are we ready
to remove the clamps?

508
00:23:43,798 --> 00:23:46,180
Yeah, ECMO's ready.

509
00:23:49,911 --> 00:23:51,879
Okay, the dark flow.

510
00:23:52,776 --> 00:23:53,924
We have full flow.

511
00:23:53,949 --> 00:23:55,330
Let's try lowering her down.

512
00:24:02,448 --> 00:24:03,503
At least that worked.

513
00:24:03,527 --> 00:24:05,142
We're gonna make all of it work.

514
00:24:05,167 --> 00:24:07,422
Griffith, Adams, you may never
see another case like this again,

515
00:24:07,446 --> 00:24:08,964
so keep your eyes on the field.

516
00:24:08,989 --> 00:24:12,381
If you see any signs of
hemodynamic instability, speak up.

517
00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:15,799
This is not a race.
Our goal is not to finish fast.

518
00:24:15,937 --> 00:24:18,433
It is to keep her safe.

519
00:24:18,458 --> 00:24:19,778
Understood? -
Mm-hmm.

520
00:24:19,803 --> 00:24:20,804
Okay.

521
00:24:21,839 --> 00:24:23,116
Okay, London.

522
00:24:23,558 --> 00:24:24,935
Let's intubate.

523
00:24:29,606 --> 00:24:32,100
It's a hormonally active adrenal mass,

524
00:24:32,125 --> 00:24:34,341
so you need to watch out
for sudden hypertension.

525
00:24:34,549 --> 00:24:36,269
- I'm planning to use alpha-blockers.
- Good.

526
00:24:36,294 --> 00:24:39,694
Well, I assume you're gonna
do this open, given the size?

527
00:24:39,719 --> 00:24:42,801
That's the plan.
My colleague will actually do it.

528
00:24:42,826 --> 00:24:45,173
I usually stick to robotic procedures.

529
00:24:45,198 --> 00:24:48,063
Oh. You got something
against the old-fashioned way?

530
00:24:48,466 --> 00:24:52,224
No, um... I have MS,

531
00:24:52,661 --> 00:24:56,297
so standing for long periods
in the OR just isn't an option.

532
00:24:56,322 --> 00:25:00,138
- I didn't realize. I'm sorry.
- No need to be sorry.

533
00:25:00,377 --> 00:25:03,139
I mean, I was devastated
after I got the diagnosis.

534
00:25:04,116 --> 00:25:06,394
I had put in so much
work my whole career,

535
00:25:06,419 --> 00:25:09,708
and the thought of no longer being
in the OR... was soul-crushing...

536
00:25:10,668 --> 00:25:12,014
to say the least.

537
00:25:12,890 --> 00:25:15,514
But that's when I realized
it was just my fear talking.

538
00:25:16,555 --> 00:25:18,369
And I looked at my symptoms,

539
00:25:18,394 --> 00:25:21,017
muscle pain and leg
weakness, and I thought,

540
00:25:21,616 --> 00:25:23,756
"If only there was a way to operate

541
00:25:23,878 --> 00:25:27,564
while sitting down without
having to hold a scalpel."

542
00:25:29,532 --> 00:25:31,120
Was it a difficult adjustment?

543
00:25:31,905 --> 00:25:34,942
Adjusting to living with a
chronic illness is never easy.

544
00:25:35,260 --> 00:25:38,564
But over time, I just
turned MS into a pivot.

545
00:25:39,909 --> 00:25:41,013
Not an ending.

546
00:25:42,086 --> 00:25:44,863
Well, you seem to be managing well.

547
00:25:44,888 --> 00:25:48,111
Oh, well, I have my ups and
downs, believe me.

548
00:25:48,513 --> 00:25:52,137
But Catherine Fox is flying
me around on her private plane

549
00:25:52,162 --> 00:25:54,579
and paying me more money
than I know what to do with.

550
00:25:56,190 --> 00:25:57,847
And I still get to do what I love.

551
00:25:58,670 --> 00:26:00,706
Even if it is in a different way.

552
00:26:03,039 --> 00:26:06,665
Now they're gonna go ahead with
Bailey's giant teratoma in OR two.

553
00:26:07,013 --> 00:26:09,637
- Ndugu's gonna have to resect...
- Can we just focus, please?

554
00:26:10,292 --> 00:26:11,880
It's a fake patient. Calm down.

555
00:26:11,986 --> 00:26:13,823
Don't tell me to calm down.

556
00:26:13,848 --> 00:26:15,297
What is wrong with you?

557
00:26:16,091 --> 00:26:19,474
Is it about Simone
breaking that dumb pact?

558
00:26:19,725 --> 00:26:22,348
No, and stop asking. I'm fine.

559
00:26:22,373 --> 00:26:24,237
No, you don't seem fine.

560
00:26:24,262 --> 00:26:26,876
Well, it's because you are bothering me.

561
00:26:27,413 --> 00:26:29,928
Well, that can't be it.
I always bother you.

562
00:26:29,953 --> 00:26:31,092
I'm just...

563
00:26:32,525 --> 00:26:34,775
I'm just tired.

564
00:26:35,166 --> 00:26:36,823
Every day is the same.

565
00:26:36,848 --> 00:26:41,367
It's the same people and the same
rooms and the same conversations,

566
00:26:41,392 --> 00:26:43,912
and I'm just... sick of it.

567
00:26:43,937 --> 00:26:46,781
Well, I am sorry we are
not good enough for you.

568
00:26:46,806 --> 00:26:48,040
I didn't say that.

569
00:26:48,065 --> 00:26:51,195
Yeah, you don't have to defend yourself.
We all know you're aloof.

570
00:26:59,650 --> 00:27:00,969
You're leaving?

571
00:27:00,994 --> 00:27:02,913
Yeah, I've already done a thrombectomy.

572
00:27:03,052 --> 00:27:04,260
You can have it.

573
00:27:04,884 --> 00:27:09,474
Dr. Prescott, please...

574
00:27:10,801 --> 00:27:12,527
What's happening? Who's the doctor?

575
00:27:12,665 --> 00:27:16,333
- Uh... John Burnett.
- An intern?

576
00:27:16,358 --> 00:27:18,188
- Let's get a CT.
- They're getting a CT.

577
00:27:18,310 --> 00:27:19,923
No, she has eclampsia.

578
00:27:19,948 --> 00:27:21,847
Tell him she needs magnesium.

579
00:27:21,872 --> 00:27:23,651
- Really?
- Tell him.

580
00:27:23,676 --> 00:27:24,884
I...

581
00:27:25,609 --> 00:27:27,887
Excuse me, I've
got Jo Wilson on the phone,

582
00:27:27,912 --> 00:27:30,230
and she says it's eclampsia, and
you should start her on magnesium.

583
00:27:30,255 --> 00:27:33,686
Her BP is only 143 over 91.
It could be an intracranial hemorrhage.

584
00:27:33,711 --> 00:27:36,151
- Put me on speaker.
- Um...

585
00:27:37,290 --> 00:27:39,292
Okay. You're on speaker.

586
00:27:39,317 --> 00:27:40,886
I understand your concern,

587
00:27:40,911 --> 00:27:44,524
but postpartum eclampsia doesn't
always present with a really high BP.

588
00:27:44,549 --> 00:27:46,009
Neither does a brain bleed.

589
00:27:46,034 --> 00:27:48,158
- Barnett.
- It's... It's Burnett.

590
00:27:48,183 --> 00:27:50,116
Whatever. I may be on leave,

591
00:27:50,141 --> 00:27:52,576
but that doesn't mean that I can't
schedule you to work every holiday

592
00:27:52,601 --> 00:27:55,200
and make your life miserable.
So trust me when I tell you

593
00:27:55,225 --> 00:27:57,676
to start the mag now.

594
00:28:00,132 --> 00:28:01,512
Start IV magnesium.

595
00:28:07,748 --> 00:28:09,508
Your mom's gonna be okay.

596
00:28:11,253 --> 00:28:13,150
We're gonna have to
take part of the lower lobe.

597
00:28:13,174 --> 00:28:15,605
- Adams, you wanna staple the lung?
- Yep. Stapler.

598
00:28:15,630 --> 00:28:17,982
Bailey, you ready to start
resecting the adhered diaphragm?

599
00:28:18,007 --> 00:28:19,673
Hey, ready when you are.

600
00:28:19,698 --> 00:28:22,227
Griffith, what should
we be careful to avoid?

601
00:28:22,252 --> 00:28:24,204
Hepatic veins and
the retro-hepatic IVC.

602
00:28:24,229 --> 00:28:25,920
Good. Let's get the next stapler ready.

603
00:28:25,945 --> 00:28:30,279
London thought fixing
up a summer house was a lot of work.

604
00:28:30,304 --> 00:28:33,341
- It's got nothing on fixing up a torso.
- Reload, please.

605
00:28:35,152 --> 00:28:39,106
- Uh, BP is bottoming out.
- Damn it. I don't see any bleeding.

606
00:28:39,131 --> 00:28:40,764
Neither do I.
The staple line looks clean.

607
00:28:40,788 --> 00:28:42,593
Well, something's got to be
causing this. What the hell is it?

608
00:28:42,617 --> 00:28:46,103
- Does the ECMO say anything?
- There's a suction event alarm.

609
00:28:46,586 --> 00:28:48,249
Okay. Since we took pressure off the

610
00:28:48,273 --> 00:28:49,935
lung, could there be volume shifts?

611
00:28:50,127 --> 00:28:51,645
That's definitely possible. Yeah.

612
00:28:51,670 --> 00:28:54,427
Okay, we need to up her pressors
and flood her with fluids.

613
00:28:54,452 --> 00:28:57,421
If we don't get flow back
right away, she's done.

614
00:29:02,948 --> 00:29:04,269
Push fluids as hard as you can.

615
00:29:04,294 --> 00:29:05,502
- I am.
- BP's still dropping.

616
00:29:05,527 --> 00:29:07,203
She can't take this much longer.

617
00:29:07,228 --> 00:29:08,954
I should've listened to that board.

618
00:29:09,092 --> 00:29:10,863
- If I lose her...
- This is not on you.

619
00:29:10,887 --> 00:29:13,717
Come on, come on, come on. Come on.

620
00:29:13,855 --> 00:29:15,098
BP's coming back up.

621
00:29:16,789 --> 00:29:20,103
- Well, that was close.
- Okay, folks.

622
00:29:20,872 --> 00:29:22,750
There's still a lot of tumor left.

623
00:29:23,909 --> 00:29:25,600
Griffith, you're on the liver resection.

624
00:29:25,625 --> 00:29:27,455
Adams, you're on the
superior mediastinum.

625
00:29:28,319 --> 00:29:30,148
If that's okay with you?

626
00:29:31,377 --> 00:29:33,263
Do what we say when we say it.

627
00:29:33,288 --> 00:29:34,427
Stapler.

628
00:29:39,170 --> 00:29:40,412
Contrast.

629
00:29:42,785 --> 00:29:46,070
There's the occlusion in the iliac vein.
Advance more.

630
00:29:47,567 --> 00:29:49,141
Okay, pin the guide wire

631
00:29:49,166 --> 00:29:51,065
and turn on the thrombectomy
catheter, please.

632
00:29:53,549 --> 00:29:55,630
It's a shame Janet
isn't awake to see this.

633
00:29:55,655 --> 00:29:56,967
It would really turn her...

634
00:29:58,049 --> 00:30:02,881
into a passionate fan of
biological science and anatomy.

635
00:30:03,431 --> 00:30:04,916
Okay, I'm in. Turn it off.

636
00:30:04,941 --> 00:30:07,850
I don't get it. If you have
to pretend to be someone else

637
00:30:07,875 --> 00:30:09,266
for your partner to
wanna sleep with you,

638
00:30:09,290 --> 00:30:10,945
maybe you shouldn't be together.

639
00:30:10,970 --> 00:30:12,910
I've learned you never know what's going

640
00:30:12,934 --> 00:30:14,502
on in another person's relationship.

641
00:30:15,435 --> 00:30:16,505
Ready.

642
00:30:17,454 --> 00:30:18,524
Contrast.

643
00:30:22,130 --> 00:30:25,168
Thrombus is gone. The vein is patent.

644
00:30:25,828 --> 00:30:26,950
Great work.

645
00:30:27,434 --> 00:30:28,435
Now to stent.

646
00:30:31,548 --> 00:30:35,655
Thanks again for the consult.
I see why Catherine calls you legendary.

647
00:30:35,680 --> 00:30:38,121
Well, she is prone to exaggeration.

648
00:30:38,146 --> 00:30:40,631
I know, but in your case it's true.

649
00:30:40,656 --> 00:30:43,380
Well, you live up to
your reputation as well.

650
00:30:43,405 --> 00:30:46,262
Oh, but not enough to
consider my recommendation?

651
00:30:48,826 --> 00:30:51,328
I'm sorry, I-I shouldn't have said that.

652
00:30:51,352 --> 00:30:52,516
No, it's okay.

653
00:30:53,208 --> 00:30:54,611
Can I ask you about something?

654
00:30:55,781 --> 00:30:57,576
Urosymphyseal fistulas.

655
00:30:59,453 --> 00:31:01,153
They are an extremely rare post-op

656
00:31:01,178 --> 00:31:03,319
complication of radical prostatectomy.

657
00:31:03,457 --> 00:31:05,148
But the odds aren't zero.

658
00:31:05,477 --> 00:31:06,651
They're close.

659
00:31:07,145 --> 00:31:08,146
What if it happened?

660
00:31:09,281 --> 00:31:12,594
Chronic pain, which often
leads to difficulty walking,

661
00:31:13,285 --> 00:31:16,954
possibly warranting the use of opioids.

662
00:31:18,398 --> 00:31:20,779
I can treat complications.

663
00:31:21,534 --> 00:31:23,999
But if your cancer grows and metastasizes,

664
00:31:24,023 --> 00:31:25,884
that's when my hands are tied.

665
00:31:30,039 --> 00:31:31,350
If you change your mind

666
00:31:31,474 --> 00:31:34,954
or if you just wanna talk more,
Catherine has my number.

667
00:31:48,232 --> 00:31:50,683
- Done resecting the liver.
- Good.

668
00:31:50,849 --> 00:31:52,195
Excellent hemostasis.

669
00:31:55,983 --> 00:31:57,777
All right, no bleeding on this side.

670
00:31:57,916 --> 00:31:59,710
Okay, we are in the home stretch.

671
00:31:59,848 --> 00:32:01,920
Let's get ready to get this tumor out.

672
00:32:02,990 --> 00:32:04,819
Hold on, hold on.

673
00:32:05,066 --> 00:32:07,241
- Do you hear that?
- What?

674
00:32:09,479 --> 00:32:11,906
Okay, we're gonna need more
lap pads, and hang blood.

675
00:32:11,930 --> 00:32:13,655
Adams, quickly pack her.

676
00:32:14,495 --> 00:32:16,655
Goddamn it!
All right, keep the suction coming.

677
00:32:17,663 --> 00:32:18,913
Oh... ... wait, wait.

678
00:32:18,938 --> 00:32:23,019
Okay, there's a tear
where the IVC passes

679
00:32:23,044 --> 00:32:24,770
through the diaphragm into the chest.

680
00:32:24,795 --> 00:32:27,694
I'm trying to secure...
Let-Let me have a clamp.

681
00:32:28,291 --> 00:32:29,785
Okay, I need visualization.

682
00:32:29,809 --> 00:32:31,089
Put the suction on the lap pads.

683
00:32:31,114 --> 00:32:33,834
Not too harsh, gentle
steady pressure, okay?

684
00:32:39,351 --> 00:32:40,732
I think I got it.

685
00:32:43,925 --> 00:32:47,009
Oh, she's stabilizing.

686
00:32:47,034 --> 00:32:49,036
Okay, everyone, on the count of three.

687
00:32:49,061 --> 00:32:50,840
Everyone needs to
help with the specimen.

688
00:32:50,865 --> 00:32:55,086
Okay, ready? One, two, three.

689
00:33:00,139 --> 00:33:01,140
Okay.

690
00:33:07,801 --> 00:33:08,940
Okay.

691
00:33:09,401 --> 00:33:11,413
How do you all feel about
getting the hell out of here?

692
00:33:11,437 --> 00:33:13,636
You don't have to ask me twice. Bovie.

693
00:33:14,517 --> 00:33:16,174
Two-O prolene.

694
00:33:23,001 --> 00:33:24,036
You can stop here.

695
00:33:24,722 --> 00:33:25,634
Iris.

696
00:33:26,487 --> 00:33:28,153
Hey, what are you doing up here?

697
00:33:28,178 --> 00:33:31,388
So a mom from the NICU is being
treated for postpartum eclampsia.

698
00:33:31,413 --> 00:33:34,220
Can you look up her chart?
Her name is Gina...

699
00:33:34,941 --> 00:33:36,021
I don't know her last name.

700
00:33:36,559 --> 00:33:38,768
I'm sorry, I can't.
You're not her doctor.

701
00:33:40,088 --> 00:33:41,365
I just wanna check on her.

702
00:33:42,282 --> 00:33:44,549
Do you want me to call Marcus for you?

703
00:33:44,574 --> 00:33:46,403
No, what I want is my friend's chart.

704
00:33:47,611 --> 00:33:49,279
- I'm sorry, Jo.
- Stop saying you're sorry.

705
00:33:49,303 --> 00:33:51,663
Sorry doesn't help me. I'm this
woman's only friend right now

706
00:33:51,688 --> 00:33:53,109
and the person in charge of her care

707
00:33:53,134 --> 00:33:54,697
has been a doctor for about 90 days.

708
00:33:54,722 --> 00:33:56,802
So, if you could just please
remove the stick from...

709
00:33:56,827 --> 00:33:58,804
- Jo.
- All I want right now...

710
00:33:58,829 --> 00:34:00,704
- I think we should go.
- No, we're not gonna go.

711
00:34:00,728 --> 00:34:01,729
- I... No.
- Yeah.

712
00:34:01,754 --> 00:34:04,205
You cannot move me against my will.

713
00:34:04,674 --> 00:34:06,814
Stop. I...

714
00:34:07,306 --> 00:34:10,416
- This is not okay.
- Can you give me a minute?

715
00:34:10,441 --> 00:34:12,025
- This is...
- Hey, hey, hey, hey.

716
00:34:12,050 --> 00:34:14,259
Look, I know you're scared, okay? But...

717
00:34:15,605 --> 00:34:17,365
Hey, she's just trying to do her job.

718
00:34:35,832 --> 00:34:37,791
It will take a few days to
wean her off ECMO.

719
00:34:37,816 --> 00:34:39,431
She does have a long recovery.

720
00:34:39,569 --> 00:34:41,709
- But she's gonna come home?
- Eventually.

721
00:34:41,866 --> 00:34:43,489
That is the plan.

722
00:34:44,012 --> 00:34:45,428
I don't know how to thank you.

723
00:34:46,084 --> 00:34:47,430
I think you just did.

724
00:34:50,191 --> 00:34:52,745
She's always been able
to see what I can't.

725
00:34:53,298 --> 00:34:56,552
Her mind is filled with these big ideas

726
00:34:56,577 --> 00:34:59,244
that always seem impossible.

727
00:34:59,269 --> 00:35:04,378
Our wedding, this lake house,
getting this tumor removed.

728
00:35:05,816 --> 00:35:07,335
But she knew you could do it.

729
00:35:09,261 --> 00:35:11,021
And she was right.

730
00:35:12,317 --> 00:35:15,540
I almost... tried to stop her.

731
00:35:17,598 --> 00:35:19,496
But I'm glad I stayed out of it.

732
00:35:20,946 --> 00:35:23,604
Hey, um, we'll let
you both get some rest.

733
00:35:24,307 --> 00:35:26,240
Thank you.

734
00:35:28,954 --> 00:35:30,827
Great work today, Griffith.

735
00:35:30,852 --> 00:35:33,545
You and Adams, you really stepped it up.

736
00:35:33,570 --> 00:35:37,594
Thank you. I really appreciate
the opportunity. I learned a lot.

737
00:35:41,217 --> 00:35:46,257
We did a good thing today.

738
00:35:46,282 --> 00:35:49,743
- Some might call it inspiring.
- Mmm.

739
00:35:49,768 --> 00:35:51,365
Might be even something

740
00:35:51,390 --> 00:35:53,703
you could lecture about.

741
00:35:53,728 --> 00:35:55,589
Hey, I hope I didn't overstep, you

742
00:35:55,614 --> 00:35:57,475
know, jumping in with the residents.

743
00:35:57,500 --> 00:36:00,606
Oh, no. I mean, if I'm the
only voice that's teaching them,

744
00:36:00,631 --> 00:36:02,219
they'll wind up tuning me out.

745
00:36:03,230 --> 00:36:04,828
What do you think about
having the residents

746
00:36:04,852 --> 00:36:07,347
do an ambulance
ride-along or EMS training?

747
00:36:07,372 --> 00:36:10,168
Something that could really get them
thinking on their feet, you know?

748
00:36:10,193 --> 00:36:14,896
It could help them in the ER or
in situations like today in the OR.

749
00:36:15,556 --> 00:36:19,698
I think you should write up
a proposal and send it to me.

750
00:36:23,375 --> 00:36:24,756
The surgery went well.

751
00:36:24,781 --> 00:36:27,021
We were able to clear the
clot and put in a stent.

752
00:36:27,046 --> 00:36:28,082
Thank you.

753
00:36:28,107 --> 00:36:29,886
You'll need to be on anticoagulation

754
00:36:29,911 --> 00:36:33,329
but after a while, you'll be
able to get back to life as usual.

755
00:36:34,083 --> 00:36:37,535
I'll get back to life
as usual right away or...

756
00:36:37,560 --> 00:36:39,206
"When can I have sex?"
is what I'm asking.

757
00:36:39,231 --> 00:36:40,715
Yeah, we know.

758
00:36:40,740 --> 00:36:42,470
You need to elevate
your leg when resting

759
00:36:42,495 --> 00:36:45,360
but other than that, it
is good to move it around.

760
00:36:47,193 --> 00:36:49,022
I guess Trudy can still see the doctor.

761
00:36:49,137 --> 00:36:51,726
Trudy's always a good time.

762
00:36:51,879 --> 00:36:56,136
But, honey, I love you
most when you're just Janet.

763
00:36:58,017 --> 00:36:59,225
Oh.

764
00:36:59,250 --> 00:37:00,665
We'll give you some privacy.

765
00:37:12,553 --> 00:37:14,417
I checked London's labs before leaving.

766
00:37:15,371 --> 00:37:16,371
Thanks.

767
00:37:16,557 --> 00:37:18,352
Hey, I'm sorry about earlier.

768
00:37:18,748 --> 00:37:20,903
How you interact with your
patients, your business.

769
00:37:20,928 --> 00:37:22,032
I'll stay out of it.

770
00:37:22,310 --> 00:37:23,864
I appreciate that.

771
00:37:24,835 --> 00:37:27,562
I do value your opinion though.

772
00:37:28,204 --> 00:37:29,826
- You do?
- I do.

773
00:37:29,902 --> 00:37:35,598
Just, uh, not about relationships.
For obvious reasons.

774
00:37:35,623 --> 00:37:38,127
Ouch.

775
00:37:38,152 --> 00:37:40,879
Hey, look, I'm, uh, putting
together a watch list for my patient.

776
00:37:41,459 --> 00:37:42,632
What am I missing?

777
00:37:42,739 --> 00:37:44,845
Mmm.

778
00:37:46,402 --> 00:37:49,750
Wait, she hasn't seen any of these?

779
00:37:57,022 --> 00:37:58,334
Hey.

780
00:37:58,898 --> 00:38:00,037
Hi.

781
00:38:00,391 --> 00:38:02,047
Did you make it through your busy day?

782
00:38:02,150 --> 00:38:04,187
Uh, I did.

783
00:38:04,931 --> 00:38:07,915
Uh, I did a thrombectomy
and placed a stent.

784
00:38:07,940 --> 00:38:10,011
Nice, Millin.

785
00:38:10,036 --> 00:38:12,396
You still haven't told me about
that thoracotomy, by the way.

786
00:38:12,913 --> 00:38:15,029
It wasn't that big a deal.

787
00:38:15,101 --> 00:38:17,591
Uh, you saved a man's
life with your hands.

788
00:38:18,219 --> 00:38:19,704
Doesn't get any bigger than that.

789
00:38:22,393 --> 00:38:23,877
Do you think I'm aloof?

790
00:38:25,124 --> 00:38:29,024
Aloof? Thank you. Um...

791
00:38:29,370 --> 00:38:30,440
No.

792
00:38:31,145 --> 00:38:33,803
No, you're discerning,
you don't suffer any fools.

793
00:38:33,828 --> 00:38:36,590
But... ... that's not aloof.

794
00:38:36,782 --> 00:38:40,927
That's, um, just protecting
yourself because you care.

795
00:38:43,777 --> 00:38:47,056
It's funny you say that
because I-I have been...

796
00:38:47,525 --> 00:38:50,079
I had the worst day.

797
00:38:50,104 --> 00:38:52,706
I need the biggest vodka
tonic that they have.

798
00:38:53,307 --> 00:38:55,136
Hi, I'm Iris.

799
00:38:55,161 --> 00:38:57,284
Uh, this is Jules Millin,
a surgical resident.

800
00:38:57,688 --> 00:38:59,208
- Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.

801
00:38:59,233 --> 00:39:02,549
Um, I should go find my friends.

802
00:39:03,877 --> 00:39:05,327
- Here.
- Thank you.

803
00:39:05,441 --> 00:39:06,718
See you later.

804
00:39:07,009 --> 00:39:09,494
It's jarring when your identity shifts.

805
00:39:09,519 --> 00:39:12,902
When you're suddenly a
doctor, a partner, a parent.

806
00:39:13,834 --> 00:39:16,388
It helps if you focus on the
things that haven't changed.

807
00:39:16,557 --> 00:39:18,283
I'm gonna have to change hospitals.

808
00:39:19,144 --> 00:39:21,353
I've cried in front of too
many people at this one.

809
00:39:21,644 --> 00:39:22,887
They understand.

810
00:39:25,570 --> 00:39:29,815
I just feel like ever since
I was admitted, I just...

811
00:39:30,437 --> 00:39:32,370
I just lost myself.

812
00:39:34,233 --> 00:39:35,959
I can't take care of our kids.

813
00:39:36,097 --> 00:39:40,067
I can't take care of my patients.
I can't even shower.

814
00:39:40,205 --> 00:39:41,482
It's temporary.

815
00:39:42,207 --> 00:39:43,954
Your heart is recovering.

816
00:39:43,979 --> 00:39:45,222
I know.

817
00:39:46,107 --> 00:39:52,320
But... for a few hours today,
I got to be a doctor again

818
00:39:52,459 --> 00:39:54,890
and help this woman
navigate a difficult time

819
00:39:54,915 --> 00:40:01,162
but then when it really mattered...
someone else got to help her.

820
00:40:02,641 --> 00:40:04,125
At least Gina is okay.

821
00:40:04,988 --> 00:40:09,061
And I would bet that she'd
say what you did mattered too.

822
00:40:10,857 --> 00:40:12,203
Maybe even more.

823
00:40:14,215 --> 00:40:16,225
Oh, God. It's happening again.

824
00:40:17,048 --> 00:40:20,500
- No.
- I'll get the tissues.

825
00:40:22,868 --> 00:40:27,114
Just...

826
00:40:27,905 --> 00:40:29,458
The comfort of old friends.

827
00:40:29,496 --> 00:40:32,483
Thirty-five pounds? That's
like carrying four babies.

828
00:40:32,508 --> 00:40:34,303
Yeah, or four bowling balls.

829
00:40:34,328 --> 00:40:36,986
- Who carries four bowling balls?
- People do weird things.

830
00:40:37,010 --> 00:40:39,859
- Gotta go.

831
00:40:44,580 --> 00:40:46,029
Yeah, I'm out too.

832
00:40:47,099 --> 00:40:48,273
See you tomorrow.

833
00:40:56,248 --> 00:40:58,906
She's just a stop sign, not a roadblock.

834
00:40:58,931 --> 00:40:59,931
How did you...

835
00:41:02,114 --> 00:41:05,359
Doesn't matter. Wait,
are you leaving me too?

836
00:41:05,384 --> 00:41:09,335
Um, sorry. Um, hey, have a drink on me.

837
00:41:15,025 --> 00:41:16,026
Anyone sitting here?

838
00:41:21,505 --> 00:41:23,145
The thrill of
trying something new.

839
00:41:23,170 --> 00:41:24,723
Hi, I'm Sally.

840
00:41:24,900 --> 00:41:27,181
Because even though
you may not recognize yourself.

841
00:41:27,673 --> 00:41:32,490
- Catherine.
- I'm sorry. I am so sorry.

842
00:41:32,741 --> 00:41:35,709
I got scared and I just
called the best that I knew.

843
00:41:35,734 --> 00:41:37,712
I should've talked to you
before bringing Laura in.

844
00:41:37,736 --> 00:41:43,303
Look, I thought a lot about
letting fear cloud judgment today.

845
00:41:43,328 --> 00:41:45,953
Whatever you wanna do, I support...

846
00:41:46,994 --> 00:41:48,305
I'm a surgeon.

847
00:41:48,599 --> 00:41:50,601
I'm a senior member of this hospital.

848
00:41:51,652 --> 00:41:53,067
If something were to go wrong

849
00:41:53,096 --> 00:41:56,341
and I couldn't stand long
enough to do a simple appy,

850
00:41:56,479 --> 00:41:59,482
I'd feel... weak.

851
00:42:00,552 --> 00:42:02,174
And I don't know how to lead like that.

852
00:42:02,606 --> 00:42:04,125
I don't know who I'd be.

853
00:42:05,282 --> 00:42:06,663
But people adapt.

854
00:42:07,400 --> 00:42:09,057
I wanna go ahead with the surgery.

855
00:42:15,435 --> 00:42:17,265
It's been you all along.

856
00:42:18,155 --> 00:42:23,155
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