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I think you're gonna need a bath, huh?

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Hey, come here. Very messy.

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I've still got a couple of hours
before I see him.

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It's a long drive, and Charlie wants
to get home and unpacked and stuff.

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I'm so excited to see him.

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- I can't believe it's been two months.
- Yeah, same.

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How are you feeling?

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I don't know.

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It's been a long two months.

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Have you done any journaling?

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Uh, still don't really think
I'm a journaling sort of person.

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Everyone can journal, Nicholas.
It helps you process your emotions.

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If I didn't journal every day,
I'd have a breakdown.

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You don't have to give me
the whole pitch again.

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Have you even tried it?

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Right, if I try it,
will you stop pressuring me?

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Yes. I promise.

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You know that saying,
"Things get worse before they get better"?

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I think I understand that now.

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Back in September,
Charlie had a GP appointment.

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Uh, yes. Thursday, 9:45.

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Yes, that's great. Thank you.

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He said
he hates going to the doctor's.

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I mean, who enjoys going to the doctor's?

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Especially for something like this.

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It must've gone okay because he got
referred to an eating-disorder service.

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But the first appointment
wasn't until January.

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Things started to get
really bad after that.

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His eating disorder got worse.

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Can you just stop trying?

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- You can talk to us.
- We're just worried about you.

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Well, can you stop?
I don't have to tell you everything.

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Then he started
getting really angry.

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Then he stopped talking to me about it.

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He started skipping school a lot.

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It was a spinning wheel
that was just getting faster,

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and it was becoming unbearable for him.

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I'm sorry.

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I… I didn't mean to.

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And you know he told me
he used to self-harm?

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It's okay.

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I just feel so shit all the time.

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I've been so horrible to you
and everyone else, and…

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I hate feeling like this.

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I'm sorry.

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It's okay. It's okay.

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I read up about it online as well,

48
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and it said you had to make them
feel cared for and not judge them.

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It didn't feel like enough…
but I guess I tried.

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I love you.

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- You're too good at this game.
- What?

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- No! Tori!
- This is amazing.

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Tori!

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See how the hair flicks. Those crazy… Oh!

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Charlie! You can't do that.

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Darcy! Darcy! Darcy! Darcy!

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Darcy! Darcy!

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Darcy! Darcy!

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Oh my God, is it…

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He knew
the compulsions made no sense.

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But he didn't know how to stop them.
Neither did I.

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- It was an accident.
- I know.

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I just feel so stupid.

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I know. It… it's not your fault.

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But I can't stop it.

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Do you think…

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maybe you should tell your parents?

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Dad said
it had to be my decision.

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Do you think it'd help?

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Not really.

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But I'd get to skip school for a bit, so…

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If you cry, I'll cry.

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Not sure I can help it.

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It was weird
being at school without Charlie.

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He wasn't allowed his phone in there,
so I couldn't even ask how he was.

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I guess I tried to keep myself busy
or distracted or both.

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I wasn't very good at it though.

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Do you think he's okay? Yeah. Me too.

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At least he doesn't
have to wait until January.

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He's probably made friends as well.

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Yeah, I think so.

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Sai,
how much do you play this game?

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Where's Charlie been?
He's missed the last four practices.

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He's, uh…
he's just off sick at the moment.

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Shit. Must be bad
if he's been off this long.

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Yeah, he's

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pretty bad.

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- Seriously?
- What's going on with him?

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I… I can't, um…

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- I just can't really talk about it.
- All good, mate.

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Yeah. We're here for you.

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- Charge lightning.
- You have a sword?

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He's here.

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Charlie said I could
tell our friends what was going on.

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He didn't want them all visiting, but
they found a way to show their support.

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Pretty box.

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Maybe we could put
self-care stuff, like face masks.

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- Love it.
- What about board games?

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No, wait, Top Trumps.

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- Do you think they make gay Top Trumps?
- I dunno.

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I'll make a book list for him.

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What about movies?
Does he have access to a Blu-ray player?

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- Yeah, probably.
- What's a Blu-ray player?

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You don't know what Blu-ray is?

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Did Sahar tell you
she's having a massive Halloween party?

106
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Yeah. Imogen keeps on sending me
couples' costume ideas.

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- So you're gonna come, then?
- I don't know.

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You could use a night out. I know I could.

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Yeah, it just… it just feels weird.

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Without him?

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Yeah.

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Nicholas! You were supposed to be my Ken!

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This was all I could find.

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But we agreed something.
What about the photos?

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Do you want more drink?

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I'm making a video for Charlie
so he knows how much we love him.

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You should say something.

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Nicholas Nelson, what do you have to say
to your boyfriend, Charlie Spring?

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Hi, Charlie.

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I love you.

121
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Well, you heard it here first, folks.

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Nick Nelson loves Charlie Spring.

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- Okay, that's great. Thank you.
- Oh, Tao! Cool rabbit costume.

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- I'm clearly Frank from Donnie Darko.
- What?

125
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We watched it last week.

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- No, we didn't.
- Were you asleep again?

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- Ooh!
- Were you asleep again?

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- I might have been asleep!
- I swear! I will…

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Oh.

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Everyone kisses everyone
when they're drunk.

131
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I'm allowed to experiment.

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This is literally like
when I got a boyfriend,

133
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and she got mad at me
for literally no reason.

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You came!

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Oh, no. No.

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Mind if I join?

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Yeah, go on.

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At the start of November,

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Charlie phoned from the clinic
for the first time.

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Well, next year,
I'm gonna make you go as Spider-Man.

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Your Marvel agenda
is never gonna work on me.

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Hmm. Even if I go as Mary Jane?

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You know, do the upside-down kiss?

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Okay, maybe I can be persuaded.

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So I have anorexia and OCD.

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Oh.

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Yeah, there's not really
an un-awkward way to say that.

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I… I guess that makes sense.

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I mean,
I was a bit surprised by the OCD, but…

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I have all these rules
in my head about food,

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and if I don't follow them, I feel like
I'm gonna die.

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Sorry, I… have to laugh about it,
or I'll just cry.

153
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Well, even if you do have anorexia
and OCD, the word "sorry" is still banned.

154
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Aww. Can't I play
the mental-illness card now?

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Mm-mm-mm.

156
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No. The S-word rule
still applies to the mentally ill.

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I'd visit him with his family
a couple times a week after that.

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Part of me wished
I could go every day, but

159
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he needed space.

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What?

161
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Nothing.

162
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I'm still not sure if Tori likes me.

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- Hello. Welcome back.
- Hi. Nice to see you.

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Um… okay.

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- It's just there.
- Thank you.

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Tori?

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I knew he wasn't magically better
or anything like that.

168
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I know it doesn't work like that.

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And I knew
staying away from home was a risk.

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It could've been horrible.
For some people, it doesn't help at all.

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Can you kiss me, please?

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Maybe it's just me
hoping for the best.

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But honestly?

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I think it helped. I really do.

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I guess a lot's happened
since I last wrote anything.

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The past few months have not been great.

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Have you been
exercising excessively?

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No.

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- Do you make yourself sick?
- No.

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Would you say you think
about food almost all of the time?

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Yes. I think that's accurate.

182
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I'd say that was accurate, wasn't it?

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My therapist said
I should write about it in my journal.

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I've asked you three times.

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Come downstairs. Get out of bed.

186
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Charlie, get out of bed.

187
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It's hard to talk about it.

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Staying in the clinic
for months was not my plan.

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But I should count myself lucky
that my parents could afford it.

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And that I went to one
that managed to help me.

191
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From what I've read online,

192
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some people come out
of these places even worse

193
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'cause they get treated like shit.

194
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I didn't get treated like shit.

195
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I had Susan.

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Anything with a camera in, I'm afraid.
It's for everyone's safety and wellbeing.

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00:15:58,680 --> 00:16:01,720
Okay, but how do I talk to my friends?

198
00:16:01,800 --> 00:16:04,480
Well, there is a landline
on the ward.

199
00:16:04,560 --> 00:16:07,040
Much nicer than DMing
your friends on Snapchat

200
00:16:07,120 --> 00:16:09,680
or whatever it is
you kids are using these days.

201
00:16:18,400 --> 00:16:21,720
Rise and shine, Mr. Spring.
It's a beautiful new day!

202
00:16:24,280 --> 00:16:25,360
Mine's bad.

203
00:16:27,280 --> 00:16:30,000
Well, we can't all be artists.

204
00:16:34,600 --> 00:16:36,080
It's also where I met Geoff.

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00:16:40,640 --> 00:16:42,800
Hi, Charlie. I'm Geoff.

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00:16:42,880 --> 00:16:45,560
- Hi.
- I'm gonna be your therapist here.

207
00:16:45,640 --> 00:16:49,160
Shall we sit down and get to know
each other? Have a little chat?

208
00:16:51,240 --> 00:16:52,240
Okay.

209
00:16:59,160 --> 00:17:02,880
I still had to do schoolwork,
which actually made me feel better,

210
00:17:02,960 --> 00:17:05,800
knowing I wasn't gonna be behind
when I got out of there.

211
00:17:06,400 --> 00:17:09,000
- What are you studying?
- It's just chemistry.

212
00:17:09,760 --> 00:17:13,880
- I hate chemistry. Never understood it.
- Same. It doesn't make sense to me.

213
00:17:13,960 --> 00:17:15,600
And I met a few nice people.

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Probably not, like, lifelong friends,
but I wasn't alone.

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00:17:21,640 --> 00:17:23,560
I know you can do it, Charlie.

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00:17:24,320 --> 00:17:25,225
Come on.

217
00:17:25,240 --> 00:17:27,760
I think a part of me
didn't even want to get better

218
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because putting in the effort to change
seemed too hard.

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I can't.

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I know you can.

221
00:17:34,120 --> 00:17:36,480
I thought food
was something I could control,

222
00:17:37,160 --> 00:17:38,800
but it was the other way around.

223
00:17:46,480 --> 00:17:48,560
I could've called Nick
whenever I wanted,

224
00:17:49,080 --> 00:17:52,440
but I was still feeling so horrible,
and I didn't want him to worry.

225
00:17:55,000 --> 00:17:57,200
I don't even know
what I would have said.

226
00:17:58,000 --> 00:18:00,160
"I hate it here, and I can't stop crying"?

227
00:18:03,880 --> 00:18:05,280
I don't really get it.

228
00:18:06,400 --> 00:18:07,480
For some people,

229
00:18:07,560 --> 00:18:10,160
an eating disorder is about body image.

230
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Losing weight, calorie counting.

231
00:18:12,120 --> 00:18:13,360
But from my perspective,

232
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your eating disorder is connected
to obsessions and compulsions.

233
00:18:16,920 --> 00:18:21,120
Eating the right thing at the right time
and in the right circumstances.

234
00:18:22,520 --> 00:18:24,800
Charlie, does that sound accurate?

235
00:18:28,680 --> 00:18:29,585
Yeah.

236
00:18:29,600 --> 00:18:32,280
And when those obsessions
become particularly intense,

237
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that can trigger the urge to self-harm?

238
00:18:36,760 --> 00:18:37,760
Yeah.

239
00:18:38,280 --> 00:18:39,280
Okay.

240
00:18:41,680 --> 00:18:42,760
So let's unpack that.

241
00:18:42,840 --> 00:18:46,680
The actual eating-disorder
treatment stuff was not very fun.

242
00:19:26,720 --> 00:19:28,720
Nick really wants to talk to you.

243
00:19:30,600 --> 00:19:31,600
Yeah, I…

244
00:19:32,920 --> 00:19:34,560
I wanna talk to him too.

245
00:19:35,880 --> 00:19:37,040
He's my favorite.

246
00:19:38,360 --> 00:19:41,160
Your friends are quite annoying,
but I like him.

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00:19:43,400 --> 00:19:46,960
If I let you call your boyfriend,
do you solemnly swear

248
00:19:47,040 --> 00:19:49,960
that you'll stop telling me
how amazing and wonderful he is

249
00:19:50,040 --> 00:19:51,800
and making me feel forever alone?

250
00:19:51,880 --> 00:19:54,160
I don't know if I can promise that.

251
00:19:54,240 --> 00:19:56,520
Well, I tried to stand up for myself.

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Go on.

253
00:19:58,640 --> 00:19:59,720
Sorry. I…

254
00:20:00,240 --> 00:20:02,360
I have to laugh about it,
or I'll just cry.

255
00:20:02,880 --> 00:20:07,840
Well, even if you do have anorexia
and OCD, the word "sorry" is still banned.

256
00:20:08,800 --> 00:20:11,320
Aww. Can't I play
the mental-illness card now?

257
00:20:11,400 --> 00:20:12,400
Mm-mm-mm.

258
00:20:12,880 --> 00:20:17,360
No. The S-word rule still applies
to the mentally ill.

259
00:20:17,440 --> 00:20:20,680
- Could you do me a favor before I go?
- Yeah, of course.

260
00:20:22,120 --> 00:20:23,760
Could you look up Tao's number?

261
00:20:24,360 --> 00:20:26,880
- I've been making you a present.
- You don't have to.

262
00:20:26,960 --> 00:20:28,280
Shut up. Yes I do.

263
00:20:28,360 --> 00:20:29,920
Okay. What is it?

264
00:20:30,000 --> 00:20:31,320
Uh, it's a surprise.

265
00:20:31,400 --> 00:20:34,360
- Then why mention it?
- Fine, I won't say anything next time.

266
00:20:38,400 --> 00:20:41,240
I'm sorry I didn't tell you
about all of this.

267
00:20:42,120 --> 00:20:45,240
Well, I didn't exactly
make it easy for you.

268
00:20:45,320 --> 00:20:46,960
You were having your summer of love.

269
00:20:47,040 --> 00:20:50,040
- It's not a crime.
- Yeah. Well, I love you too.

270
00:20:50,840 --> 00:20:51,840
So…

271
00:20:54,600 --> 00:20:56,040
Can I ask you how you are?

272
00:20:56,120 --> 00:20:59,160
Or is that kind of a shit question
right now?

273
00:21:00,280 --> 00:21:02,280
Yeah, it's kind of a shit question
right now.

274
00:21:03,280 --> 00:21:04,640
Is it horrible there?

275
00:21:05,160 --> 00:21:07,600
No. It's not horrible.

276
00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:11,440
It's hard, and I wish I was at home,

277
00:21:12,040 --> 00:21:13,480
but I think it was a good decision.

278
00:21:14,280 --> 00:21:17,120
Well, that makes me feel better. Not that

279
00:21:17,200 --> 00:21:19,480
how I feel matters at all, but, you know.

280
00:21:19,560 --> 00:21:20,760
It does matter.

281
00:21:22,040 --> 00:21:23,720
I hate that you were so…

282
00:21:28,320 --> 00:21:29,440
And I had no idea.

283
00:21:30,120 --> 00:21:31,440
I was good at hiding it.

284
00:21:32,280 --> 00:21:33,400
But I missed it.

285
00:21:35,560 --> 00:21:36,760
I totally missed it.

286
00:21:41,160 --> 00:21:43,480
Can you explain what happened
with Imogen and Sahar?

287
00:21:43,560 --> 00:21:46,720
Nick was being way too empathetic,
and I don't really know what happened.

288
00:21:46,800 --> 00:21:51,000
Oh! Oh my God. Yes, okay, so,
Imogen was doing shots, like, all night.

289
00:21:51,080 --> 00:21:53,400
I mean, a whole bottle of tequila.

290
00:21:53,920 --> 00:21:55,840
A whole bottle, and, um…

291
00:21:55,920 --> 00:21:58,400
Um… okay.

292
00:22:12,640 --> 00:22:13,720
Yeah. No, I signed…

293
00:22:13,800 --> 00:22:15,920
He's got this vintage video camera,

294
00:22:16,000 --> 00:22:20,560
and he's made this film or documentary.

295
00:22:20,640 --> 00:22:23,480
- I'm not actually sure.
- Okay. I'm intrigued.

296
00:22:26,680 --> 00:22:27,585
Okay.

297
00:22:27,600 --> 00:22:28,720
This is take four.

298
00:22:30,560 --> 00:22:31,560
Marker.

299
00:22:34,040 --> 00:22:36,600
Hi, my name is Tao Xu,

300
00:22:36,680 --> 00:22:39,920
and this is my short film about
the everyday lives of my friends group.

301
00:22:40,440 --> 00:22:44,200
Well, my friends group minus one
who we all love very much.

302
00:22:45,720 --> 00:22:47,480
I hope that by watching this video,

303
00:22:47,560 --> 00:22:49,520
he'll feel like
he's been here the whole time

304
00:22:50,040 --> 00:22:53,080
because, in a metaphorical way, he has.

305
00:22:53,880 --> 00:22:57,200
- Tao, that doesn't make any sense.
- Yeah. It does.

306
00:22:57,800 --> 00:23:01,240
- Uh, okay.
- Here beginneth the film.

307
00:23:02,360 --> 00:23:06,600
Hey, Charlie, so, um, I read
The Song of Achilles like you suggested.

308
00:23:06,680 --> 00:23:08,840
And I know you said
it was gonna have a sad ending,

309
00:23:08,920 --> 00:23:11,680
but, um, I wasn't prepared,
and I cried for about four hours,

310
00:23:11,760 --> 00:23:14,280
so thank you for that,
Really appreciate that.

311
00:23:15,120 --> 00:23:20,240
Uh, I'm… I'm kind of mad at you,
actually, 'cause, um… uh, well…

312
00:23:20,320 --> 00:23:24,040
'cause I asked you if you were okay,
and I guess you just lied.

313
00:23:25,400 --> 00:23:27,080
I mean, I sort of knew that. Uh…

314
00:23:27,960 --> 00:23:31,200
It's not your fault though, Charlie,
I know. I just, um…

315
00:23:33,160 --> 00:23:36,560
I hope when you get back,
you don't feel like you have to lie to us.

316
00:23:37,800 --> 00:23:40,480
'Cause you don't.
We're never gonna judge you.

317
00:23:41,400 --> 00:23:42,400
Um…

318
00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:45,760
We love you, so… yeah.

319
00:23:45,840 --> 00:23:48,000
Oh my God.

320
00:23:48,080 --> 00:23:51,160
Come on, Isaac, we need
to do the tour. Take the camera.

321
00:23:52,080 --> 00:23:54,160
Oh! Hot off the press, guys.

322
00:23:54,240 --> 00:23:57,240
Barbie and Dracula seen
making out at a house party.

323
00:23:57,320 --> 00:23:59,800
What is going on here?

324
00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:03,200
Whoo!

325
00:24:03,280 --> 00:24:07,120
- Lol.
- Get… Is this just a joke to you?

326
00:24:10,360 --> 00:24:14,440
Cut. Cut the camera. It's breaking
my documentary code of ethics! Cut!

327
00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:15,960
- Uh-oh.
- Isaac!

328
00:24:16,040 --> 00:24:19,560
I'm just documenting reality
like you wanted, Tao. This is your vision.

329
00:24:19,640 --> 00:24:21,880
Okay. Come on. Let's go.

330
00:24:21,960 --> 00:24:23,520
Ooh! Ooh.

331
00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:27,720
- Wait, I want to talk to Charlie.
- Hello!

332
00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:34,640
Hi, Charlie, I just wanted to let you know
that I'm trying out "they/them" pronouns.

333
00:24:34,720 --> 00:24:37,200
I'm just seeing how I feel. I don't know.

334
00:24:37,280 --> 00:24:38,840
But I feel like you'd get it.

335
00:24:39,480 --> 00:24:40,520
- He gets it.
- Yeah.

336
00:24:40,600 --> 00:24:42,040
- Really?
- Yeah.

337
00:24:42,120 --> 00:24:44,000
- Aww, Darcy.
- Come here.

338
00:24:44,640 --> 00:24:45,840
Come here, you.

339
00:24:45,920 --> 00:24:48,400
- Aww!
- There we are, all together.

340
00:24:48,480 --> 00:24:49,480
Psst.

341
00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:52,160
Tell him. Tell him.

342
00:24:52,760 --> 00:24:56,720
- So I posted a new painting on Instagram…
- Yeah?

343
00:24:56,800 --> 00:24:58,800
And now I have over 10,000 followers.

344
00:24:58,880 --> 00:25:01,600
Wow!
My girlfriend is a famous artist.

345
00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:05,200
10,000's not that many. Go talk
to Tara about her new prefect thing.

346
00:25:05,280 --> 00:25:08,920
Oh, yeah. Let me introduce you
to Higgs' newest school prefect.

347
00:25:09,000 --> 00:25:11,920
- Tao, it's not a big deal.
- It's the biggest deal!

348
00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:15,920
My girlfriend is the smartest person
in the entire world.

349
00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:17,040
She's a prefect.

350
00:25:17,120 --> 00:25:19,000
She goes to Oxbridge prep group.

351
00:25:19,080 --> 00:25:21,840
- She dances. She plays the clarinet.
- Darcy, stop!

352
00:25:22,880 --> 00:25:24,360
Tao, give me that.

353
00:25:25,120 --> 00:25:27,480
I don't know
if you have a phone in there, Charlie,

354
00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:30,800
but I think he'd like to hear your voice.

355
00:25:32,600 --> 00:25:35,080
- It's lovely.
- Look, it's identical.

356
00:25:35,160 --> 00:25:38,600
- They are from a packet.
- In what universe have you ever had…

357
00:25:38,680 --> 00:25:41,160
- I can't cook.
- You make noodles from scratch?

358
00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:44,760
- Say hi to Charlie, sir.
- Hi, Charlie.

359
00:25:47,120 --> 00:25:48,025
Hi, Charlie.

360
00:25:48,040 --> 00:25:51,200
Uh, there's a spare seat
waiting for you for when you get back.

361
00:25:52,680 --> 00:25:54,080
Okay, thanks, Tao.

362
00:25:55,000 --> 00:25:56,000
Bye, Charlie.

363
00:25:57,360 --> 00:25:58,520
Thank you, Tao, for…

364
00:25:58,600 --> 00:25:59,920
- Bye, Tao.
- Okay.

365
00:26:00,000 --> 00:26:02,600
I know
this looks like a painting for you,

366
00:26:02,680 --> 00:26:05,920
but if this turns out really good,
then I'm keeping it.

367
00:26:09,560 --> 00:26:10,760
I miss you, Charlie.

368
00:26:12,040 --> 00:26:13,120
I love you.

369
00:26:16,280 --> 00:26:17,280
Okay, okay.

370
00:26:19,200 --> 00:26:20,720
- Hi, Charlie.
- Hi, Charlie.

371
00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:24,240
I think this is the end
of the video now. Maybe.

372
00:26:25,320 --> 00:26:28,200
We just wanna say, when you get home,
we've got a lot planned.

373
00:26:28,280 --> 00:26:30,160
- Do we? Oh God.
- Yeah.

374
00:26:31,160 --> 00:26:34,840
I mean, no. There's just a lot
to look forward to. That's what I mean.

375
00:26:34,920 --> 00:26:35,920
Yeah. Definitely.

376
00:26:36,520 --> 00:26:39,240
And we love you, and we miss you.

377
00:26:40,360 --> 00:26:42,800
Our friends group really isn't the same
without you.

378
00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:43,785
Mm.

379
00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:46,280
But we know you're doing
what you need to do right now.

380
00:26:46,360 --> 00:26:47,360
Yeah.

381
00:26:48,320 --> 00:26:52,120
And I hope that this video
makes you feel… loved.

382
00:26:52,880 --> 00:26:56,240
Yeah, although I am still mad at you
about The Song of Achilles.

383
00:26:56,760 --> 00:26:59,280
- What's that?
- It's a book thing. Don't worry about it.

384
00:26:59,360 --> 00:27:00,400
Okay.

385
00:27:00,480 --> 00:27:04,840
Nicholas Nelson, what do you have to say
to your boyfriend, Charlie Spring?

386
00:27:06,440 --> 00:27:07,440
Um…

387
00:27:10,600 --> 00:27:11,600
Hi, Charlie.

388
00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:15,600
I love you.

389
00:27:34,080 --> 00:27:37,680
Being at the clinic didn't
magically cure me of mental illness.

390
00:27:37,760 --> 00:27:41,560
I know it's scary,
but you're ready for this, Charlie,

391
00:27:42,360 --> 00:27:45,760
and we can carry on our sessions
once a week for as long as you need.

392
00:27:47,360 --> 00:27:49,520
So even if it's terrible out there,

393
00:27:50,480 --> 00:27:51,760
I'll be here to help.

394
00:27:53,280 --> 00:27:55,160
But it got me
out of the deep end.

395
00:27:59,600 --> 00:28:00,760
Aww.

396
00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:04,520
You are gonna be all right.

397
00:28:04,600 --> 00:28:07,520
- Thank you.
- Just trust yourself. Yeah?

398
00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:10,480
Aw, come here.

399
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:15,440
- Right. Kicking you out now.
- Okay.

400
00:28:20,560 --> 00:28:21,560
Ready?

401
00:28:22,560 --> 00:28:23,720
Yeah.

402
00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:37,080
Maybe I won't ever
get back to normal, whatever that is.

403
00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:38,720
I think that's okay though.

404
00:28:39,760 --> 00:28:41,520
It's not gonna be
a straightforward journey.

405
00:28:43,840 --> 00:28:45,680
It's probably just the beginning.

406
00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:53,000
Hey.

407
00:28:54,160 --> 00:28:55,200
Um, dinner at seven?

408
00:28:56,640 --> 00:28:57,640
Yeah.

409
00:28:57,680 --> 00:29:01,040
It says lasagna on your meal plan
for today. Is… is that all right?

410
00:29:02,040 --> 00:29:03,040
Yeah.

411
00:29:04,000 --> 00:29:06,280
Mum?

412
00:29:07,600 --> 00:29:08,880
Yeah?

413
00:29:09,720 --> 00:29:14,160
Do I have time to go and say hi to Nick?
I'll be back for dinner. I promise.

414
00:29:15,840 --> 00:29:16,840
Okay.

415
00:29:17,280 --> 00:29:18,720
Go on, then.