1 00:01:15,720 --> 00:01:16,720 Nick? 2 00:01:19,000 --> 00:01:21,360 Why are you looking at me like that? 3 00:01:29,280 --> 00:01:33,000 I told you. Dog cuddles solve everything. 4 00:01:33,080 --> 00:01:36,400 Yeah, this is exactly what I needed. Hello. 5 00:01:36,480 --> 00:01:38,400 You have seemed a bit stressed lately. 6 00:01:39,080 --> 00:01:41,160 I've been a bit stressed all year. 7 00:01:41,680 --> 00:01:44,120 I just have way too much on my plate. 8 00:01:44,200 --> 00:01:45,760 I love my ballet classes, 9 00:01:45,840 --> 00:01:48,320 but I've got to get three buses to get there, and… 10 00:01:49,560 --> 00:01:51,120 I could drive you to ballet. 11 00:01:51,200 --> 00:01:53,840 I'm not doing anything most Saturdays anyway, so… 12 00:01:53,920 --> 00:01:56,280 - Nick, you don't have to. - No, I want to. 13 00:01:57,280 --> 00:01:58,880 All right. Well, maybe. 14 00:01:59,600 --> 00:02:02,040 Anyway, what's going on with you? 15 00:02:02,720 --> 00:02:05,160 I feel like we haven't had a catch-up in ages. 16 00:02:05,240 --> 00:02:06,440 How are you and Charlie? 17 00:02:07,160 --> 00:02:08,480 Good. Yeah. 18 00:02:09,440 --> 00:02:11,560 Charlie's been a lot better these days, so… 19 00:02:12,640 --> 00:02:15,240 - And how's Nick doing these days? - Fine. 20 00:02:15,840 --> 00:02:16,960 Yeah, I'm all good. 21 00:02:18,080 --> 00:02:20,240 Haven't really got much going on, to be honest. 22 00:02:21,000 --> 00:02:23,640 That's because you've been focused on helping Charlie. 23 00:02:24,640 --> 00:02:25,640 I get it. 24 00:02:26,600 --> 00:02:29,320 I've been focused on Darcy and all their stuff with their mum. 25 00:02:29,840 --> 00:02:33,120 You just need to remember to look after yourself too. 26 00:02:34,120 --> 00:02:36,480 I still think journaling is really beneficial. 27 00:02:38,200 --> 00:02:40,800 Yeah, journaling is beneficial. 28 00:02:43,680 --> 00:02:47,400 Okay, class, it is the moment you've all been waiting for. 29 00:02:47,480 --> 00:02:50,120 Cucumbers and condoms. 30 00:02:50,200 --> 00:02:53,360 We wanna take things further, but I don't wanna make things awkward, 31 00:02:53,440 --> 00:02:56,240 and, honestly, I don't even know what the hell I'm doing. 32 00:02:56,320 --> 00:02:58,520 I don't want our first time to be bad and embarrassing. 33 00:02:58,600 --> 00:03:01,680 Maybe if I'm this nervous, I'm not actually ready to do anything. 34 00:03:01,760 --> 00:03:04,200 - Calm down. - It's a good thing we're in sex ed. 35 00:03:04,280 --> 00:03:06,600 I mean, maybe you'll get some good advice. 36 00:03:08,400 --> 00:03:09,560 Or maybe not. 37 00:03:10,520 --> 00:03:13,840 You clearly are ready. You literally won't shut up about it. 38 00:03:13,920 --> 00:03:17,440 And it's not exactly rocket science. I mean, how bad can it really be? 39 00:03:17,520 --> 00:03:19,600 I don't know. I feel like I don't know anything. 40 00:03:19,680 --> 00:03:21,400 Just have sex with him, please, 41 00:03:21,480 --> 00:03:23,280 so we can stop hearing about it. 42 00:03:24,280 --> 00:03:27,800 Come on. It's only a cucumber. Don't do that. Focus. 43 00:03:29,760 --> 00:03:30,960 Ugh. So slimy. 44 00:03:32,720 --> 00:03:35,720 That is not an appropriate question for this class. 45 00:03:35,800 --> 00:03:38,040 We're here to talk about contraception. 46 00:03:38,720 --> 00:03:40,360 I've got it the wrong way round. 47 00:03:47,080 --> 00:03:48,320 Aspirations. 48 00:03:58,800 --> 00:04:02,960 She was proper decent, to be fair. Like, she was just feeling it all night. 49 00:04:03,040 --> 00:04:04,560 You could tell she wanted it, 50 00:04:04,640 --> 00:04:07,400 and it got to a point I just thought, "Why not, really?" 51 00:04:09,800 --> 00:04:12,000 - I don't… - He was boasting about it yesterday. 52 00:04:12,080 --> 00:04:15,200 I just don't think losing your virginity is that big of a deal. 53 00:04:15,280 --> 00:04:17,320 Like, it's probably gonna be bad anyway. 54 00:04:17,400 --> 00:04:20,680 It's a big deal because it's the first time you're having sex. 55 00:04:20,760 --> 00:04:23,280 Like, that is a big deal. 56 00:04:23,360 --> 00:04:28,360 I mean, I know the concept of virginity is bullshit, but, like, I'm still nervous. 57 00:04:28,440 --> 00:04:30,840 - Yeah. - Just wait till marriage. 58 00:04:30,920 --> 00:04:33,200 - Nah. - It's only five years. 59 00:04:33,280 --> 00:04:34,280 Five? 60 00:04:45,120 --> 00:04:49,000 - Condoms prevent pregnancy… - The way you guys flirt is so weird. 61 00:04:49,080 --> 00:04:51,200 - Don't read my texts. - …protect against STIs. 62 00:04:51,280 --> 00:04:54,680 We are now going to look at some images of STIs. 63 00:04:57,840 --> 00:05:00,200 Students, look and learn. 64 00:05:01,120 --> 00:05:02,360 Calm down. 65 00:05:02,440 --> 00:05:04,800 I don't blame you for being nervous. That's normal. 66 00:05:04,880 --> 00:05:06,240 Easy for you to say. 67 00:05:06,320 --> 00:05:09,120 - You were so confident when you and Elle… - I wasn't. 68 00:05:09,200 --> 00:05:12,640 I just enjoyed making it sound like the most cinematic night of my life. 69 00:05:14,040 --> 00:05:16,640 We were in some random bedroom at a house party. 70 00:05:16,720 --> 00:05:18,360 We had no idea what we were doing, 71 00:05:18,440 --> 00:05:21,680 and even after that, we still had a lot to learn about each other 72 00:05:21,760 --> 00:05:23,040 and what feels good. 73 00:05:23,840 --> 00:05:26,880 Maybe we get things wrong, you know, but… 74 00:05:27,840 --> 00:05:30,360 You know, it's not some perfect, effortless thing. 75 00:05:31,120 --> 00:05:34,040 But it's me and Elle, and we love each other. 76 00:05:34,680 --> 00:05:37,480 And if it's awkward, we can just laugh about it. 77 00:05:38,600 --> 00:05:40,720 I mean, it's supposed to be fun, isn't it? 78 00:05:41,640 --> 00:05:42,800 Isn't it? 79 00:05:48,520 --> 00:05:51,240 And one last thing to remember, folks. 80 00:05:53,520 --> 00:05:55,320 I should be running this sex-ed lesson. 81 00:05:56,480 --> 00:05:59,560 How was Elle's interview? She didn't really mention it on the chat. 82 00:06:00,120 --> 00:06:02,320 Oh, yeah, it was, um… 83 00:06:03,160 --> 00:06:05,440 I think they decided not to air it, actually. 84 00:06:05,960 --> 00:06:07,680 - That sucks. - Yeah. 85 00:06:10,680 --> 00:06:12,440 - God, stop! - Steve. 86 00:06:12,520 --> 00:06:14,560 - Just get it out. - Go away. 87 00:06:14,640 --> 00:06:16,760 Literally bullying. 88 00:06:27,680 --> 00:06:29,400 Looks like you've almost finished. 89 00:06:30,720 --> 00:06:33,440 - I don't think I like it anymore. - Why not? 90 00:06:36,160 --> 00:06:40,120 I'm sorry about the interview, Elle. Your mother and I had a chat. 91 00:06:40,200 --> 00:06:43,320 - I should have expected it. - No. No, you shouldn't. 92 00:06:43,400 --> 00:06:46,000 Doesn't matter. I don't wanna talk about it anymore. 93 00:07:01,520 --> 00:07:03,080 - Charlie, come on. - Slow down! 94 00:07:23,480 --> 00:07:24,840 - Have you… - Don't come in! 95 00:07:24,920 --> 00:07:27,720 - Christ! Sorry. - Fuck off! 96 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:32,760 Sorry. I… I, uh… I… I didn't know he was here. 97 00:07:33,360 --> 00:07:36,360 It's all right. I'm just glad it wasn't your mum. 98 00:07:41,320 --> 00:07:42,720 Ooh. 99 00:08:36,880 --> 00:08:39,480 I think this is the best drawing I've done so far. 100 00:08:40,600 --> 00:08:42,200 Look. 101 00:08:42,800 --> 00:08:44,600 I'm improving! 102 00:08:46,600 --> 00:08:48,000 Reckon I could be the next… 103 00:08:49,160 --> 00:08:50,960 The next someone. 104 00:08:52,000 --> 00:08:55,000 Tao Xu, artist of goldfish. 105 00:09:04,040 --> 00:09:05,720 Can I sleep over tonight? 106 00:09:06,320 --> 00:09:08,640 You know how my mum is about it. 107 00:09:09,680 --> 00:09:10,680 She loves you. 108 00:09:11,560 --> 00:09:13,680 But, yeah, she'd say no. 109 00:09:16,120 --> 00:09:17,600 We can watch a movie though. 110 00:09:20,520 --> 00:09:23,800 What about Moonrise Kingdom, hmm? 111 00:09:28,600 --> 00:09:30,120 Do you wanna talk about it? 112 00:09:32,200 --> 00:09:34,600 Is there anything I could do to make you feel better? 113 00:09:49,240 --> 00:09:53,360 - It's been so long since you stayed over. - I know. It's my fault. 114 00:09:53,440 --> 00:09:56,680 No, I get it. You've had extra schoolwork and stuff. 115 00:09:56,760 --> 00:09:58,680 I have. It's been too much. 116 00:09:58,760 --> 00:10:01,280 Yeah. I'm worried about you. 117 00:10:01,360 --> 00:10:02,360 Don't worry. 118 00:10:02,440 --> 00:10:04,760 I've just decided 119 00:10:04,840 --> 00:10:07,400 I'm gonna look after myself and do what I want. 120 00:10:08,920 --> 00:10:09,920 And that includes 121 00:10:10,640 --> 00:10:11,680 doing me? 122 00:10:12,960 --> 00:10:14,120 Obviously. 123 00:10:38,520 --> 00:10:40,720 Just move a little bit that way. Yeah. 124 00:10:40,800 --> 00:10:43,040 No, that's perfect. Now everyone knows how much I love you. 125 00:10:44,040 --> 00:10:46,320 - And how much you love me. - Mm-hmm. 126 00:10:46,400 --> 00:10:49,240 All right. All right! Pipe down! 127 00:10:49,320 --> 00:10:53,640 Yeah, I know, it's Year 11's last day before study hall, but guess what? 128 00:10:53,720 --> 00:10:57,560 That's still one more day. Do you get it? 129 00:10:58,440 --> 00:11:00,880 Uh, Charlie, can I have a quick word before you go? 130 00:11:02,840 --> 00:11:04,000 I'll see you at rugby. 131 00:11:07,560 --> 00:11:09,920 You're staying at Truham for sixth form, right? 132 00:11:10,000 --> 00:11:12,040 - Yeah. - Good. 133 00:11:12,120 --> 00:11:13,840 I wanted to give you this. 134 00:11:15,960 --> 00:11:18,920 Campaigning starts in the autumn. I think you should apply. 135 00:11:19,680 --> 00:11:20,720 Really? Why? 136 00:11:21,520 --> 00:11:24,920 Well, you're smart, you're a strong person, 137 00:11:25,000 --> 00:11:28,960 and I think you could do a lot of good for the kids at this school. 138 00:11:31,480 --> 00:11:34,440 Just something to think about over the summer. 139 00:11:37,040 --> 00:11:38,840 Okay. Thanks. 140 00:11:41,040 --> 00:11:42,800 Charlie. 141 00:11:44,280 --> 00:11:47,080 There are a lot of, um, younger students 142 00:11:47,160 --> 00:11:49,520 who would find it inspiring to see you as head boy. 143 00:11:50,600 --> 00:11:51,600 That's all. 144 00:11:52,600 --> 00:11:55,480 I'll think about it. I promise. 145 00:12:04,400 --> 00:12:06,400 Shall we, uh, go for lunch? 146 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:08,760 Yeah. 147 00:12:14,360 --> 00:12:16,120 I think it might be finished. 148 00:12:16,760 --> 00:12:19,560 Post it on Instagram. Your followers will love it. 149 00:12:22,960 --> 00:12:27,160 Elle, we know you've been really down since that interview. 150 00:12:30,760 --> 00:12:34,040 It's not like this radio woman was a raging bigot or anything. 151 00:12:34,120 --> 00:12:36,600 She probably thinks of herself as an ally. 152 00:12:38,280 --> 00:12:40,480 But I was there to talk about my art. 153 00:12:41,040 --> 00:12:43,040 Have you spoken to anyone about it? 154 00:12:43,120 --> 00:12:44,200 Tao maybe? 155 00:12:48,760 --> 00:12:50,400 I love Tao… 156 00:12:50,920 --> 00:12:54,360 …and he would fight the world for me, but… 157 00:12:57,960 --> 00:13:00,000 he just can't properly understand. 158 00:13:02,040 --> 00:13:03,040 We're here. 159 00:13:05,320 --> 00:13:06,520 We might understand. 160 00:13:41,680 --> 00:13:42,840 You trying to peek? 161 00:13:42,920 --> 00:13:43,920 No. 162 00:13:44,640 --> 00:13:46,800 It's allowed. We're in love. 163 00:13:48,600 --> 00:13:51,640 Stop. I'm not. I'm not trying to peek. 164 00:14:04,640 --> 00:14:06,200 Come on, use that ball! 165 00:14:06,920 --> 00:14:07,920 I had an idea. 166 00:14:08,000 --> 00:14:09,440 - Yeah? - Mm-hmm. 167 00:14:10,160 --> 00:14:14,320 Maybe, uh, one night, you could stay round mine? Just us. 168 00:14:16,240 --> 00:14:19,720 Think your parents would let you? I know my mum would be fine with it. 169 00:14:20,280 --> 00:14:22,080 - I'll ask. - Nick and Charlie! 170 00:14:22,760 --> 00:14:26,080 Pay attention, please. It's the last practice of the year. 171 00:14:29,520 --> 00:14:33,480 Yeah, good luck getting Mum to agree to a boyfriend sleepover. 172 00:14:33,560 --> 00:14:36,600 She will. I'll ask her when she's in a good mood. 173 00:14:36,680 --> 00:14:37,880 That doesn't happen very often. 174 00:14:37,960 --> 00:14:40,480 There's not really much point in her banning sleepovers. 175 00:14:40,560 --> 00:14:43,040 If you and Nick want to have sex, you'll have sex. 176 00:14:43,120 --> 00:14:44,600 You don't need a sleepover. 177 00:14:44,680 --> 00:14:47,120 If you don't have any good advice, I'm gonna go upstairs. 178 00:14:47,200 --> 00:14:48,640 My advice is to sneak out. 179 00:14:48,720 --> 00:14:50,880 My advice is that a sleepover is unnecessary 180 00:14:50,960 --> 00:14:52,440 for the activity in question. 181 00:14:54,520 --> 00:14:55,520 Good luck. 182 00:14:55,960 --> 00:14:58,200 I hope you do get to have your sex sleepover. 183 00:14:58,280 --> 00:15:00,600 Thank you. 184 00:15:01,720 --> 00:15:05,160 Michael, can you stop talking about my brother having sex? Please. 185 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:08,440 Sorry. 186 00:15:08,520 --> 00:15:09,840 Ugh. 187 00:15:40,560 --> 00:15:43,280 Me and Darcy wait till we have a free house. 188 00:15:43,360 --> 00:15:46,280 Or until everyone's asleep if they're staying over. 189 00:15:46,360 --> 00:15:49,320 There was one time that we, uh… 190 00:15:51,480 --> 00:15:52,480 What? 191 00:15:53,400 --> 00:15:54,400 I mean, 192 00:15:55,720 --> 00:15:57,080 school is an option. 193 00:15:58,000 --> 00:15:59,320 You had sex at school? 194 00:15:59,400 --> 00:16:01,160 Yeah, it was… it was only once… 195 00:16:01,240 --> 00:16:03,720 …and it was a really bad idea. 196 00:16:05,480 --> 00:16:08,600 Oh. Yeah, I don't… I don't think we're quite there yet. 197 00:16:09,240 --> 00:16:12,040 And also we have a… a history of getting walked in on. 198 00:16:12,120 --> 00:16:14,840 Yeah. You guys have been waiting a long time. 199 00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:16,600 Yeah. 200 00:16:18,560 --> 00:16:19,840 That's not a bad thing. 201 00:16:20,920 --> 00:16:22,960 There's so much pressure to have sex at our age, 202 00:16:23,040 --> 00:16:26,040 but people should just take as long as they need. 203 00:16:28,480 --> 00:16:30,880 Yeah, Charlie's been through a lot. 204 00:16:32,080 --> 00:16:34,880 You've been through a lot too, Nick. Don't forget that. 205 00:16:36,040 --> 00:16:37,440 Yeah, well… 206 00:16:37,520 --> 00:16:38,640 …not really though. 207 00:16:40,800 --> 00:16:44,280 It's okay to admit that Charlie being ill was tough for you. 208 00:16:45,640 --> 00:16:47,520 You don't have to be the strong one all the time. 209 00:16:48,040 --> 00:16:50,760 Trust me, I learned that the hard way. 210 00:16:52,800 --> 00:16:55,120 Why do you have to be so smart? 211 00:16:59,560 --> 00:17:03,720 So, uh, do you have any advice about that kind of stuff? 212 00:17:03,800 --> 00:17:05,480 Oh, Nick… 213 00:17:05,560 --> 00:17:08,880 …I'm not really the person to ask about sex between guys. 214 00:17:08,960 --> 00:17:10,600 Yeah… Yeah, yeah, fair enough. 215 00:17:10,680 --> 00:17:13,000 Yeah. 216 00:17:13,760 --> 00:17:16,160 Sorry. 217 00:17:16,240 --> 00:17:17,185 Here we go. 218 00:17:17,200 --> 00:17:19,560 One, two, three, four. 219 00:17:19,640 --> 00:17:22,040 One, two, three, a four. 220 00:17:22,120 --> 00:17:24,480 One, two, three, a four. 221 00:17:24,560 --> 00:17:27,000 One, two, three, a four. 222 00:17:27,080 --> 00:17:29,720 One, two, three, a four. 223 00:17:29,800 --> 00:17:32,120 One, two, three, a four. 224 00:17:32,200 --> 00:17:34,600 One, two, three, a four. 225 00:17:34,680 --> 00:17:37,840 - Did you get the bus all the way here? - Yep. All three of them. 226 00:17:37,920 --> 00:17:41,200 - Why? - I just wanted to see you dancing. 227 00:17:41,280 --> 00:17:43,040 You always look so happy when you're dancing. 228 00:17:43,120 --> 00:17:44,240 You're so ridiculous. 229 00:17:44,320 --> 00:17:46,760 It's nothing compared to what you've done for me this year. 230 00:17:47,360 --> 00:17:50,040 Letting me stay at your house. Helping me move to my gran's. 231 00:17:50,120 --> 00:17:51,760 Taking me clothes shopping. 232 00:17:51,840 --> 00:17:54,680 Convincing me to cut my hair when I kept backing out. 233 00:17:55,480 --> 00:17:58,400 Those are, like, very low-bar things, Darce. 234 00:17:59,920 --> 00:18:00,920 I… 235 00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:04,120 I just don't think I would've had the courage 236 00:18:04,200 --> 00:18:09,240 to… explore being nonbinary if it weren't for you. 237 00:18:09,960 --> 00:18:12,560 I mean, I probably would've got around to it eventually, 238 00:18:12,640 --> 00:18:16,320 but you made it feel so easy and… 239 00:18:17,200 --> 00:18:18,320 and joyful. 240 00:18:19,160 --> 00:18:20,160 Nonbinary? 241 00:18:21,920 --> 00:18:22,920 Yeah. 242 00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:26,600 I know we haven't talked about it properly or anything. 243 00:18:27,720 --> 00:18:31,000 It's just a huge deal, and… 244 00:18:33,000 --> 00:18:36,680 I didn't wanna overload you with that, like, bomb drop. 245 00:18:36,760 --> 00:18:40,120 But you've seemed calmer recently. 246 00:18:41,800 --> 00:18:43,280 It's not a huge deal. 247 00:18:43,880 --> 00:18:45,720 It's… Unless you want it to be? 248 00:18:46,520 --> 00:18:47,560 It's just you. 249 00:18:48,600 --> 00:18:50,640 It's just me and you. 250 00:18:59,640 --> 00:19:02,720 - I think… Here we are. - I don't even know anymore. 251 00:19:02,800 --> 00:19:05,000 Okay. You choose. It's up to you. 252 00:19:05,080 --> 00:19:06,120 Um… 253 00:19:06,200 --> 00:19:07,200 Let me check. 254 00:19:09,160 --> 00:19:10,640 Okay, are we… I found it. 255 00:19:11,360 --> 00:19:12,920 Okay. I just want to see… 256 00:19:13,760 --> 00:19:14,800 Is this rosemary? 257 00:19:15,760 --> 00:19:16,800 - Wow. - Just be careful. 258 00:19:18,560 --> 00:19:21,560 - Okay. I wanna tap that would… boiling… - That would do for everything. 259 00:19:21,640 --> 00:19:22,800 This is madness. 260 00:19:22,880 --> 00:19:24,720 Know my way around this kitchen as well. 261 00:19:28,320 --> 00:19:29,680 Thank you. 262 00:19:31,080 --> 00:19:32,280 I really liked that one. 263 00:19:33,320 --> 00:19:36,480 Yeah, me too. We should try it again sometime. 264 00:19:43,320 --> 00:19:44,640 - Mum… - Mm-hmm? 265 00:19:45,520 --> 00:19:49,200 Me and Nick were wondering if I could stay round his one night? 266 00:19:50,840 --> 00:19:54,320 Oh, uh… Well, yes, at some point. 267 00:19:56,640 --> 00:19:57,960 We were thinking soon. 268 00:19:59,840 --> 00:20:01,240 Um… 269 00:20:01,320 --> 00:20:03,840 I… I… I'm not sure, Charlie. I'm not saying no. 270 00:20:03,920 --> 00:20:05,360 It's… it's just… 271 00:20:05,440 --> 00:20:07,920 …you have your GCSE exams coming up, 272 00:20:08,800 --> 00:20:10,120 and this is quite a big step. 273 00:20:10,200 --> 00:20:11,760 And I'm mentally ill, so I can't. 274 00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:14,400 - That's not what I said. - That's what you were thinking. 275 00:20:14,480 --> 00:20:16,080 It's what you're always thinking. 276 00:20:16,160 --> 00:20:18,200 You think I'm a child who can't make my own decisions. 277 00:20:18,280 --> 00:20:19,480 That's not fair. 278 00:20:20,000 --> 00:20:22,520 Mr. Ajayi nominated me to be head boy on Friday. 279 00:20:23,400 --> 00:20:25,440 That… that's great, Charlie. 280 00:20:25,520 --> 00:20:29,600 I… It's just… you're only 16, and you've been very ill. 281 00:20:29,680 --> 00:20:32,040 Mum, seriously, what are you so worried about? 282 00:20:32,120 --> 00:20:33,120 We all love Nick. 283 00:20:33,200 --> 00:20:35,120 Okay, Tori, I'm not… You know what? 284 00:20:35,200 --> 00:20:37,640 We'll talk about this once your exams are over. 285 00:20:37,720 --> 00:20:38,720 I'm not a child. 286 00:20:40,000 --> 00:20:42,760 If wanna see my boyfriend, I will. You can't stop me. 287 00:20:43,280 --> 00:20:44,800 Charlie, I… 288 00:20:46,120 --> 00:20:47,360 Charlie! 289 00:20:50,880 --> 00:20:51,880 - Just… - Just… 290 00:21:00,640 --> 00:21:02,520 You okay? 291 00:21:03,160 --> 00:21:04,480 Yeah. 292 00:21:06,280 --> 00:21:08,640 - Are your eyes shut as well? - Yes, they're shut. 293 00:21:08,720 --> 00:21:10,280 - Forward. - Tao, what… 294 00:21:10,360 --> 00:21:12,440 - What's going on? - Three, two, one. 295 00:21:12,520 --> 00:21:13,720 Movie night! 296 00:21:18,000 --> 00:21:20,120 Tao, you do not have to do all this. 297 00:21:20,200 --> 00:21:22,560 Oh, but I do. It's a special one tonight. 298 00:21:23,320 --> 00:21:24,800 Okay, let's sit down. 299 00:21:25,480 --> 00:21:27,320 Ah. Ooh. 300 00:21:30,160 --> 00:21:32,840 Okay, so before we begin, 301 00:21:32,920 --> 00:21:34,120 I wanna say something. 302 00:21:36,440 --> 00:21:40,600 I know you've been really down lately and uninspired about your art. 303 00:21:42,120 --> 00:21:44,040 It made me think about when Charlie was really ill 304 00:21:44,120 --> 00:21:45,560 and I made him that video. 305 00:21:47,040 --> 00:21:50,040 It was the first time I felt like I could create something 306 00:21:50,120 --> 00:21:51,760 that put joy into the world. 307 00:21:53,480 --> 00:21:57,080 I guess I never really thought of myself as a creative person before that, 308 00:21:57,160 --> 00:22:00,520 but I love making these little videos to cheer up the people I love. 309 00:22:01,600 --> 00:22:03,920 So… I made you one. 310 00:22:55,400 --> 00:22:58,720 - d The most beautiful thing d 311 00:23:24,760 --> 00:23:25,760 I guess… 312 00:23:27,720 --> 00:23:29,160 that's how I see you. 313 00:23:42,160 --> 00:23:44,480 It feels like the whole world is against me. 314 00:23:45,080 --> 00:23:46,880 You can always talk to me about it. 315 00:23:47,840 --> 00:23:49,040 Yeah? 316 00:23:50,120 --> 00:23:52,280 I'm just scared you won't get it. 317 00:23:52,360 --> 00:23:53,480 But I'll try. 318 00:23:54,320 --> 00:23:56,160 I'll always try. 319 00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:40,640 Nick. 320 00:24:42,280 --> 00:24:43,800 Need a distraction? 321 00:24:44,280 --> 00:24:45,360 Yeah. 322 00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:49,880 Please don't leave me behind. 323 00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:05,440 Hi. 324 00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:08,000 Hi. 325 00:25:11,800 --> 00:25:14,280 I should've texted. Sorry. 326 00:25:15,520 --> 00:25:16,520 It's fine. 327 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:19,600 Are you okay? What's wrong? 328 00:25:21,640 --> 00:25:23,920 She was like, "You're only 16, and you've been ill." 329 00:25:24,000 --> 00:25:27,040 Okay. What has that got to do with me spending time with my boyfriend? 330 00:25:27,120 --> 00:25:28,520 She never listens to me. 331 00:25:28,600 --> 00:25:31,360 I'm just sick of everyone treading on eggshells around me. 332 00:25:31,880 --> 00:25:33,400 Like, yeah, I've been ill, 333 00:25:33,480 --> 00:25:37,000 but that doesn't mean that I can't do fun things and be a teenager. 334 00:25:37,080 --> 00:25:38,080 I'm not fragile. 335 00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:41,760 And I wanna have sex with you. What's wrong with that? 336 00:25:52,560 --> 00:25:55,600 - You don't think I'm fragile, do you? - No! No. I… 337 00:25:56,800 --> 00:26:00,400 Charlie, you're, like, the strongest person I've ever met. 338 00:26:02,280 --> 00:26:06,720 You know exactly who you are and… and what you want. 339 00:26:07,320 --> 00:26:08,320 I think, um… 340 00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:13,240 I think… I think I'm more fragile than you are. 341 00:26:14,640 --> 00:26:15,960 What? Why? 342 00:26:18,360 --> 00:26:20,120 You give me so much confidence. 343 00:26:20,640 --> 00:26:23,000 But when you're not around, I, um… 344 00:26:27,280 --> 00:26:29,640 I don't know. I guess I feel a bit lost. 345 00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:33,640 - Nick… - It's… it's nothing. 346 00:26:33,720 --> 00:26:36,280 No. What do you mean? 347 00:26:40,120 --> 00:26:41,240 I… 348 00:26:45,120 --> 00:26:47,840 I can't talk to anyone else like I talk to you. 349 00:26:58,720 --> 00:27:01,640 I think, when I realized I was bi… 350 00:27:05,120 --> 00:27:06,320 I feel like I woke up. 351 00:27:07,640 --> 00:27:10,760 Because I was repressing so much of myself before then. 352 00:27:10,840 --> 00:27:14,520 You know, not just my sexuality, but my thoughts and feelings. 353 00:27:14,600 --> 00:27:15,800 My personality. 354 00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:20,880 I still hide behind that mask sometimes. 355 00:27:22,920 --> 00:27:27,360 Just laughing and joking with my mates, but never really opening up to anyone, 356 00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:31,840 and now I'm thinking about uni and my future and… 357 00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:42,080 Basically, I'm just freaking out. 358 00:28:03,120 --> 00:28:05,520 - That didn't make any sense. - It did. 359 00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:08,520 You're allowed to be a mess sometimes. 360 00:28:09,160 --> 00:28:11,200 Oh, I'm a mess now, am I? 361 00:28:11,720 --> 00:28:13,840 - I think we're both a bit of a mess. - Hmm. 362 00:28:33,800 --> 00:28:37,640 You came here all upset, and I made it all about me. 363 00:28:37,720 --> 00:28:38,720 - Oh, shut up. - Yeah, but… 364 00:28:38,800 --> 00:28:40,480 Nick, shut up. 365 00:28:46,040 --> 00:28:48,760 - Is anyone else home? - Uh… no. 366 00:29:01,120 --> 00:29:03,920 - d I used to call you my best friend d 367 00:29:06,560 --> 00:29:10,240 Do you wanna carry on? We don't have to if you don't want to. 368 00:29:10,320 --> 00:29:14,320 Char, this is literally the only thing I've been able to think about. 369 00:29:16,560 --> 00:29:17,465 Me too. 370 00:29:28,720 --> 00:29:30,640 - Do you want mine off? - Yeah. 371 00:29:48,560 --> 00:29:50,400 - Is this okay? - Yeah.